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Misty valley

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The Queen of Sheba by Konrad Kyeser, c. 1405

#art

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@pbcrosby

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Pochi wears Meta’s jacquard op in gold.

Edit: identified lolita + added more photos!

The group photo can be found here

#egl

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Jane Marple

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Misty day

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sometime after my mom found out my dad cheated on her, i wanted to go to a festival. my mom decided the best thing to do was attend this festival with me while also getting back at my dad by not telling him she was going somewhere with me and framed it as her going on a date with someone else. she told me this, for some reason, and as my dad called her over and over again, i got more anxious. i kept crying, and my chest hurt really badly. i don't really like being in situations like that. by the time we got to the festival, it was storming. we walked to the gates, but it was cancelled due to lightning. we ended up going to hooters afterwards. i got a burger. i remember feeling okay by then. i don't know if it's a positive or negative memory... i can remember the anxiety from the situation i was in. i can remember being disappointed about the festival, but i remember being happy i got to eat good food. but i don't know what to do with this memory. how can you accept that your mom is with the man who cheated on her? how can you accept that your dad would do that to your family? how do you forgive someone who didn't care about triggering your own anxiety? why couldn't my family just be slightly more normal?

#diary #just having a lot of thoughts because i'm going home next week and really don't want to #my house feels like such a mess #things aren't even that bad anymore #but when i'm there i just feel repulsed and dirty #at least i'm going to study abroad #anyway #i am not in therapy but i don't really feel like putting this on my blog (my actual blog) #so here we are

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Mary Oliver, from “Tecumseh”, Devotions

#home

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Never understood the collective vehement resentment of small talk lol i hate the painful grind of small talk as much as the next person but i think id rather shrivel up and die than be denied nuggets of joy found in standing in an elevator and having a middle aged woman compliment my nails or bonding fleetingly with a cafegoer over the city's temperamental weather it's so integral to nurturing & cultivating the soul i think

#this is one thing i hated about my short time of north (usa) #and my short time down south (England) #maybe u hate southern hospitality but I don't BITCH!!!

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Erwin Olaf (Dutch, b. 1959)

Shanghai, Huangpu - The Journey, 2017

#china

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"baby, the stars shine bright" spring 2023 fashion show 「 上海お茶会 」

#wedding #egl

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paying a little visit to a beloved mutual's blog after not seeing them on the dash for a while as if i'm dropping by their cottage with some biscuits and jams in a wicker basket

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♡ by 牙芽

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Japanese bride, Japan, by Yorozuya Kamakara