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Height gap romance except the shorter one is frequently depicted in situations where they are contextually taller. The taller one sitting while the shorter one looms over them. Both of them lying in bed with the taller one’s head pressed to the shorter one’s chest. The shorter one straddling the taller one’s lap and leaning down for a kiss. The taller one on their knees as the shorter one tilts their head up. Please, it makes me go feral

#steinspirit #as kids #soul eater #franken stein #spirit albarn #stein #dr stein #professor stein #crossstitch #dr. stein

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ur art doesn’t need to be perfect!!! it does need to be horny & grotesque tho

#op's url makes this ten times better

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Happiness advice is hard to compose, since we're all born with different brains, producing different chemicals in different quantities at different levels of efficiency.

"Try regular exercise!" chirrups an influencer whose brain has never known a day of depression in its squiggly grey life.

But I do think I've noticed behaviours that poison joy, and I haven't ever heard it as advice. My theory: bullying is bad for your happiness.

Of the four types of bullying, three of them - intimidation, humiliation and harassment - are usually committed by insecure people, trying to make themselves feel more powerful by taking that power from another.

(The fourth type of bullying is exclusion, and I have no citations for any of this, since it's just a bunch of stuff I reckon. I do think I'm right though, for what it's worth.)

The least happy comedians I've met are the ones who smoke weed in their flats while watching and scoffing at clips of their rivals. Their enemies. Their friends.

I'm slightly transfixed by the story of a relatively well-known comedian who became obsessed with the Instagram stories of an amateur comic. The established comic would watch the videos, share them with friends, play them at parties - mocking the comic's lack of self-awareness.

This newer comedian wasn't internet famous or anything. Just a guy starting out, trying his hand.

To operate like this, you must believe that some people have value, and others do not. Once you've decided this, how can you expect your brain to permanently accept that you're one of the worthy? You can make yourself feel powerful in the short term by humiliating another. But in the long term, you curate a worldview where a person's eccentricities are a reason they deserve to suffer.

Good luck enjoying what you see in the mirror.

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uterus, i dont need you. go forth and find a beautiful trans woman who wants you.

#thanks madd #was literally talking about this a few hours ago

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I struggle so much with self care tasks, it's the first thing to go out the window when I'm in a poor headspace. (Often even when I’m in a good headspace) It's so bad that I will often just starve rather than get up and get myself food, because the process is so mentally taxing and energy draining, and it feels impossible to even get up and get started. I've seen a lot of people talk about treating yourself like a creature (the creature needs enrichment in its habitat ect.)

But recently I was having one such day, I needed food but couldn't bring myself to do anything about it, stuck in my executive dysfunction. And this idea of 'feed the creature' came back, except it was in the form of perceiving myself as a fictional character. 'Feed Stein, god knows that fucker doesn't eat enough.' And suddenly I had way more energy to get up and get food. It feels so silly and stupid cause, shouldn't i just be able to feed myself? But here's the thing.

It's not stupid if it works.

sometimes you just have to let yourself be a bit neurodivergent.

i hate going out, it gives me a lot of anxiety and sensory input that i dont like, and i am often forced to talk to people.

so i do this thing on more difficult days, or sometimes just for fun, where i "bring a fictional character with me". i walk and imagine Fictional Character walking next to me. they talk to me, reassure me, hype me up, whatever i need them to do.

today dean winchester came christmas shopping with me. he went over the list with me of stuff i needed to get, told me i was doing a good job every time i finished in a certain shop, reminded me to take a deep breath when i got a little overwhelmed.

and yea. its kinda silly. and i know its just me talking to myself in a different voice, but it Works! especially since all of my special interests/hyperfixations tend to be tv/movie related.

so do what you gotta do to Get Shit Done. stop holding yourself to neurotypical standards. if you need Fictional Character to tell you you're doing a good job, do it! if you need Favourite Singer to walk you to school, do it! yea it might feel silly but you're literally fighting against your own brain to get stuff done every single day. you can have a little self indulgent daydream, as a treat.

#mental health

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the fact that we need 8 hours of sleep is ridiculous we should only need 4 and the other 4 should be used to be cozy in your bed and rub your legs together like a cricket and listen to music and think about your little scenarios

#is that not how your supposed to do it? #huh. #ive been functioning on four hours of sleep since the better part of... well forever #oops

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Would the hazard monster be against head pats? How about the cone mimics and the cone wizard?

Extrude

#love these guys #love the blender joke #wait till you've been modeling for so long that you start seeing the world around you overlayed in wireframe in your head #no? just me? #I should work on my 3d art again #its been awhile

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Did a study of my favorite cut from Soul Eater cuz it FUCKS

#geezus christ #yeah you right this fucks #ive done both 3d and 2d animation in college #and i dont tend to have the patience for it #so my sincerest applause to you op good fucking work

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AO3 Tagging Inspiration.

Mainly a reference for me bc I always blank when it comes to tags. Sharing in case it helps anyone else, but not intended to be prescriptive. Further references:

Ao3’s Rating System Explanation

Difference Between "A/B" and "A&B"

Fanwork Ao3 Accepts Beyond Fanfic

How tagging a pairing in the “Relationship” field vs in “Additional Tags” changes search results

List of Writing Genres

Trope Examples

Most Popular Tags on Ao3

My humble plea for people to cross-post their meta & other fannish nonfiction to ao3, and tag it with “meta analysis” so I can find it and adore it

#ao3 tips #seeing the summary notes written out like this is neat #i dont have issues writing summaries but i basically do whats suggested here without thinking about it #i always treat it as 'give them enough info to pique their interest while providing some questions or mystery to it'

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idk i just know they were a nightmare as academy students

#omg stein just staring at spirit passed out doing homework!!! <33333 #so cutteee #soul eater #dr stein #franken stein #professor stein #dr franken stein #dr. stein #stein #spirit albarn #marie mjolnir

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#stein #spirit albarn #crossstitch #franken stein #steinspirit

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theres actually no rules to transitioning and youre allowed to want contradictory things for your transition. it's fine if you only want some of the changes that come with hrt and take preventative measures for the rest (like wanting bottom growth but not body hair or vice versa). you can want to have vagina AND a dick. you can be a woman and want top surgery, or wear a packer. you can be a man and want to have a pussy. you can change your transition goals one or a million times or not have any goals at all and just take things as they come or as they feel right.

there are no rules.

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god I fuckign love ocs. my characters. my friend's characters. the characters of mutuals ive never spoken to. the characters of artists ive followed and maybe spoken to a little more. the characters of complete strangers I see in passing and think "aw that's cool". if you have ten fans I am one if you have one fan it is me etc etc. I love you

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Do you ever forget that you have a gender to most people….. meaning that random people at the grocery store see me as a woman and not just a little internet guy

#this is an agender mood

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“omg you’re so creative. how do you get your ideas” i hallucinate a single scene in the taco bell drive thru and then spend 13 months trying to write it

#yeahhhh #this #or it comes from a previous idea I wrote #or tangentially from something entirely unrelated #the current oneshot I'm working on came from something said in a video essay

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Good god it's finally done, been wanting to do this for ages. No story behind it but I did realize partly through working on it that it looks like someone pushed him over and now he's pouting.

Version without the robe and close ups on the hand drawn lace (minus the mesh pattern) below the cut.

#my art #soul eater #spirit albarn #morning reblog

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Good god it's finally done, been wanting to do this for ages. No story behind it but I did realize partly through working on it that it looks like someone pushed him over and now he's pouting.

Version without the robe and close ups on the hand drawn lace (minus the mesh pattern) below the cut.

#my art #soul eater #spirit albarn