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[miiyumei]

“Your new friends are so fragile, Dazai-san. It’s okay, though. I still look forward to breaking you.”

#dazai’s face in this scene makes me giggle every time #bungo stray dogs #dazai osamu #q

[miiyumei]

bleeding from the heart

uhh red camellia (love), zinnia (thoughts of absent friends), heliotrope (devotion)

for chuuya week day 2: flower language ^^

#ohhhhh!!!!! #bungo stray dogs #nakahara chuuya

[miiyumei]

#THEY ARE EVERYTHINGGGGGFG #bungo stray dogs #soukoku

[miiyumei]

best boys

#check please #preparing myself for the check please renaissance!!!!!

[miiyumei]

Enemies to "I accidentally came across you while you were vulnerable and scared and I'm not a total asshole so I tried to help you" to "accidental mutual uncovering of softer sides and vulnerabilities" to "I can't be mean to you anymore, not out of pity but because it would feel weird betraying that brief truce we had" to "Fine I'll make an effort to be nice to you now I guess" to "actually now that we're not actively hating each other you're not so bad I guess" to "i think we're friends but I'm not going to say that because I'm afraid you're not gonna feel the same way" to "oh you also think we're friends? Great" to lovers

#and if i said this was sskk….

[miiyumei]

i finished reading and then there were none and now i desperately need christie re-introduced into the bsd narrative because my brain is absolutely buzzing thinking about how asagiri is going to depict this as her ability !!!!!!

#i feel like it’s going to be something conditional like what we’re guessing fyodor’s is #like… what if it’s an ability space that traps you in a courtroom and judges you #and if you’re found guilty then you die #i fear there’s a jjk character who’s domain is like this but frankly i don’t care

[miiyumei]

the good news is: i hit 8k on chapter 6 of break point; the bad news is: i feel like im only halfway through writing the chapter.

#it’s been almost 2 months since the last update…… sorry #bp tag

[miiyumei]

#bungo stray dogs #soukoku

[miiyumei]

…?!

#haikyuu #i love them they’re so silly

[miiyumei]

stormbringer concept thing

#oooooooh!!!!!!! #bungo stray dogs #nakahara chuuya

[miiyumei]

i'm so obsessed with your ex

#fifteen skk my dramatic beloveds #bungo stray dogs #soukoku

[miiyumei]

i just finished the death i gave him by em x. liu, which is pitched as a “lyrical, queer sci-fi retelling of shakespeare’s hamlet” but make it a locked room mystery/thriller and god!!!!! GOD!!!!!!

#i am going to be thinking about this one for a very long time #also i mean this as the highest compliment but #i could easily see this as something that would made an appearance in bsd #like when they threw in actual characters from the great gatsby alongside francis #yeahhhhhhh #anyways i loved this book a lot but if you decide to read pls read a list of trigger warnings first

[miiyumei]

rewatching dead apple and there is honestly nothing funnier than ango insisting that dazai is probably definitely dead (with concrete reasoning) and chuuya just going no. that stupid bitch is still breathing i can feel it in my bones.

#lmao yeah #bungo stray dogs #soukoku

[miiyumei]

Atp im just drawing some ''Chuuya and the people that care about him" series or smth

#they are so dear to me #bungo stray dogs

[miiyumei]

i hate when i finally get to sit down and write something i've been daydreaming and it fights me.

like what do you mean? we're best friends. we're lovers. we've fallen asleep together every night for the past three weeks, what the fuck are you talking about you don't wanna be written

#yeah #sorry it takes me months to update this is why

[miiyumei]

i need someone to childproof lock my multi-chapter or something to force me to actually finish the next chapter instead of obsessively editing what’s been published for months !!!!

#someone fix my brain im begging i can’t keep living like this #like… in my head i know it’s Fine #good even #but then the irrational takes over and i convince myself i need to make little changes #and my stupid OCD brain gets so fixated on nitpicking it takes me days weeks months to actually advance the story #welcome to my writing process it’s a nightmare #this is also why i have banned myself from rereading any of my completed fics / one shots #because i would find fault with them and start editing when in reality i need to just leave them Alone

[miiyumei]

I hope Fyodor is in Nikolai's body now and that he's forced to experience Nikolai's love for him in such a way that he can't escape because he's joined them irrevocably. I hope it does something deranged to his psyche to parasitically gorge himself on someone who had, with utter, grief-stricken sincerity, mourned him.

I hope Fyodor drowns in the horrifying waves of intimacy as he subsumes the only person who didn't need a lobotomy to adore him.

#save me doomed toxic yaoi #doomed toxic yaoi save me #bungo stray dogs #fyolai #bsd manga spoilers