gghgHHGHG ty for sharing in this enthusiasm with me!!!! i really appreciate it! i dont wanna make this post longer than it is, so i'll tuck it under a readmore, but here is the little ficlet
"Cat," Tsunade says into the alley, "Show yourself."
Obediently, he emerges from the shadows, offering a slight bow.”Yes, Lady Tsunade?"
"Walk me home; I’m a little imbalanced and it's Shizune's day off."
"Of course," he takes her arm. She leans into it only lightly, perfumed heavily with the scents of a bars.
They walk together in a silence that is neither uncomfortable, nor companionable, but almost still professional. At some point, because of the way her breathing changes beside him, Yamato becomes aware that she’s been preparing to speak and holding herself back. Curious, he turns his head, and the wide, blank gaze of his mask toward her. “Is something the matter?”
“No,” She says, but pauses and recants. “It’s just, you know that I…I didn’t….if I had known that you were my grandfathers progeny I would have intervened."
"Thank you for your consideration, Lady Tsunade,” Yamato says evenly, thinking that progeny is an odd choice of word for the thing that he is.
"You're twice-over my responsibility. Firstly you were made by my teammate, and secondly you were made with Senju flesh-if I'd known you existed I would've taken you in as my own. Old man Sarutobi probably knew I would too. Meddling geezer. That was always his way, you know, hiding things. He couldn’t stand to share his plans.”
"I am no more your responsibility than anyone else in the leaf village," Yamato replies quietly, “you don't owe me anything."
"Oh I owe everyone something at this point." She laughs after declaring this, but if she meant it to sound bitter, she failed. "But, this is all I can give you now...it wouldn't have been a good life. We would've constantly on the road, evading debt, there would be a lot of bars and drinking and I’m a coward, Cat. I’m a coward and a real bitch sometimes. You would've hated me by the end, probably, but I would've liked to have given that to you if I knew. If you would have wanted it.”
He tries to imagine the way that would’ve shaken out, traveling around with her and Shizune as a young and frightened creature, just ejected from Root. It would’ve been chaotic, and unstable, and probably a horrible idea given everything Tsunade has had to work through to handle being Hokage, and everything Yamato has had to work through to become the person he is now, but something about the idea charms him. It would be a different life entirely, him being mentored by the greatest mednin that Konoha (possibly the world) had ever seen. He has no doubt that the person he would become through that process would undoubtedly be unrecognizable to him now, but perhaps he would’ve learned some mednin skills, and fuck knows that would’ve helped him out of a tight spot or two.
“Thank you for your kindness in saying so,” Yamato says. “But I’ll correct you on one thing; I don’t think I would’ve hated you, and I don’t think you're a coward."
Much like Kakashi, Tsunade refuses to take the barest hint of a compliment, or even just the denial of unfair criticism,directing it away with another laugh. "But I am a bitch?"
"In a good way, Lady Tsunade. A commander should be a bit of a bitch, on occasion.”
She shakes her head, and turns at the door.
"Do you want me to walk you inside?" He asks.
"No, thank you, I'll be alright from here. You can end your shift."
She pauses, and focuses on him with her intense, hawklike eyes.
"You look like him, you know? Just a little. Your hair is a shade lighter, and your eyes are still so big, but something about the way they sit in your face, and your nose..." she touches his cheek.
Yamatos eyebrows knit together, but he makes himself smile. "Goodnight, lady Tsunade,"
"Of course. Good night."
Dropping by to say that I just love it when u draw tsunade 🥺
Like i love the regular dose of yamato too but the way u do their dynamic is so chef kiss
thank u!!!!! i love her a lot and i find the potentiality of her trying to bond with yamato to be. utterly fascinating...
we have the displaced familial affection (the senju like kinda dies with her and technically shizune right? and good lord she lost her whole family. if hes got even the barest connection, hes somebody she could have around the table)
we have the GUILT (orochimaru who is the reason for yamato being the way he is being her teammate, and then being made from her grandfather, twice over she may feel responsibility towards him)
AND then we have yamatos side of things-we KNOW he wants family ties, we KNOW he wants a place to belong-but is it any better to be loved for hashiramas presence in his blood than to be used for hashiramas presence in his blood? would he not still feel somewhat uncomfortable being the vessel for affection meant for hashirama? does she have any other reason to explore their potential for a familial bond than that he has that blood in him?
does she need another reason? perhaps yamato doesn't know this-he is not a very open person, but the reasons for which we create bonds can be incredibly arbitrary and meaningless too, but sometimes even the most inane reason to make a friend is a good reason, because eventually the friendship may come to sustain itself without aid...
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Got any yamato-adjacent song suggestions? I'm making a playlist!
ah! i've not gotten a question like this before. i should warn u that, firstly, i don't have good music taste, i never have and i probably never will 😔. I also don't honestly have a lot of songs which ring strongly as Yamato? i have maybe one song that DEFINTIELY makes me think of a naruto character, but that character is like. obito. i don't even like obito that much its just the song is like extremely him. anyway
There are some songs that make me experience emotions which sometimes (due to my brainrot) are converted into Yamato Emotions though, but they're generally abt the relationship between an individual + god. I think because of the extremely important relationship between yamato and hashirama/hashirama's mokuton (as he's often called the God of Shinobi and also has a similar kind of. extreme reverence placed upon his name)
the first one is the sweetest: Spring (Wake) by the Arcadian Wild, I like the first verses the most, n i think abt this mostly as a like. very lonely little kinoe considering his mokuton as a presence in its own right, almost like an imaginary friend
Wake up, sleepyhead
I pulled you out from the flowerbed
My breath fills your lungs
I’ll give this garden to my favorite son
this ones...hm. Big Blue by Vampire Weekend, it repeats the same verses over and over. four times, i think. i tend to think of it as tenzos stages of life as he's freed from one nightmare and moves on to the next. being free'd from orochimaru, to being free'd by danzo, to being free'd by kakashi, to being released from anbu duty to live in the sunlight, each time kind of like "ah, is this where i'll belong?"
I was so overcome with emotion.
When I was hurt and in need of affection,
When I was tired and I couldn’t go home
Then you offered protection
So am I learning my lesson?
Or am I back on my own?
this one is one of my favorites! Garden Song (pete seeger version). he's one of my favorites, and there's such a kind of gentle, accepting dedication to slow progress that makes me think of yamato..ah. ack. there are other versions of this song, and if you can find a live version thats especially good cause pete seeger does the wackiest call and response youve ever heard, he sings the song twice over, once to share the lyrics, once to partake in them himself, all at the same time, lyric by lyric. nutzo. love that guy
Pullin' weeds and pickin' stones,
We are made of dreams and bones
last one on my list is Ya Hey also by Vampire Weekend, which has absolutely nothing to do with yamato but the vibes of it are impeccable and while it's a song about god, a couple of the lyrics pierce my heart + make me think of him, not in a way which is true to the song, nor in a way which is direct, but which speaks very quietly to my heart
In the dark of this place
There's the glow of Your face
There's the dust on the screen
Of this broken machine
And I can't help but feel
That I've made some mistake
But I let it go
Ya Hey, Ya Hey, Ya Hey
Through the fire and through the flames
You won't even say Your name
Through the fire and through the flames
You won't even say Your name
You say, "I am that I am"
But who could ever live that way?
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