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🌈 Happy #TransDayOfRemembrance Reading Rainbows! This is a day to remember all of the trans people who have lost their lives to transphobia/transmisia and violence. This is also what marks the end of Trans Awareness Week so we are back one final time with a list of 20 trans books for you to read and love!

What’s your favorite trans book? Drop us the title and author in the comments! Authors please feel free to self-promote your trans books in the comments!

Books listed above their respective graphic.

ID: a post of six slides. All slides have the background of a horizontal transgender Pride flag. It’s has five stripes: blue, pink, white, pink, blue. An opaque white square with a thin outline is overlaid. The first slide says “20 trans books for trans day of remembrance”. The 20 is in the colors of the trans flag and each line below it is a different color of the trans flag. Slides 2-6 have four book covers in two rows of two each. End ID.

Lark & Kasim Start a Revolution by Kacen Callender

Fake it by Lily Seabrooke

Man O’War by Cory McCarthy

Junker Seven by Olive J. Kelley

A Milky Way Home by Hsinju Chen

Cheer Up!: Love & Pom Poms by Crystal Frazier

The Spirit Bares Its Teeth by Andrew Joseph White

The Rebel Foxes by Noah Hawthorne

Cute Mutants Volume 3: The Demon Queer Saga by SJ Whitby

Redefining Realness by Janet Mock

Obie is Man Enough by Schuyler Bailar

And They Lived by Steven Salvatore

Bad Girls by Camila Sosa Villada

The Passing Playbook by Isaac Fitzsimmons

Horse Barbie by Geena Rocero

Venom & Vow by Anna-Marie McLemore & Elliott McLemore

Dear Mothman by Robin Gow

The Witch King by H.E. Edgmon

Fierce Femmes and Notorious Liars by Kai Cheng Thom

Heart Haunt Havoc by Freydís Moon

#a few of these already on my tbr but got a bunch more now!! #👀👀👀👀👀 #at the mothman one #books

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I did an illustration for Trans Day of Remembrance today at work.

Our little community contains so much anger and grief, but it's because we love each other so fiercely. We remember our dead because their memory keeps us stubborn.

I love all of us today, and I hope you do too.

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a short update

hello!

as a few of you might've noticed, there's been close to zero activity from me here on tumblr for the past month (and not a whole lot before that either) and i wanted to give a bit of an update just to assure you all that none of my projects (@moonless-if - @thankyoufortoday-if - @nectarlake-if) are abandoned.

long story short: the past couple of months have been very chaotic for me work-wise with the past three or so weeks being the worst.

october is always a busy month with student evals happening before the autumn break and it's a lot of work wrapping assignments up and writing those evals and having parent-teacher meetings and it's a lot, even during a normal year. this year though... oh man, it's been so far from normal.

between my school getting a new principal and a new school unit opening up i've had A Lot of extra work as a union representative to deal with too, and then of course having stuff happening in my personal life (pottery class, studying for driver's license, etc.).

then we had a threat made against the school staff about two weeks ago and the school has been in literal crisis mode, trying to make sure parents feel calm about the situation, and students feel safe, which has been a fun experience when i've felt neither calm or safe.

but! things are calming down and slowly going back to normal (with new security measures in place). it's still probably going to be busy for a while, with only six weeks left until winter break, but i'm doing ok considering and am slowly getting back into the swing of things.

i'll probably still be a bit quiet on here (no regular updates) so i can focus on other things (like writing!).

hope things have been better for all of you and i miss you!

-- andy

#update

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The Spirited: Origins v2.1.5 preview (prologue only)

live now on itch.io

Feeding you bite-sized chunks of the next update, one chapter at a time. Save the game at the end of the demo to continue where you left off.

PLEASE NOTE: v2.1.5 includes major UI, coding and writing changes. The current live demo contains the preview of the prologue only. v2.1.0 content, including chapters 1 & 2, has been rolled back and will be re-released in the following weeks.

Previous saves will not work.

#WOOOOOOOOOOO-OOOOO #*will smith pose at this* #GO. READ. #wondering a bit if i can get away with reading this at work 😳 #the spirited: origins #other games

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[image description: the bugs bunny in a tuxedo "I wish all (blank) a very pleasant (blank)" meme edited to say "I wish all of my Jewish followers a very pleasant rosh hashanah". In front of Bugs there is a jar of honey, a stack of apples and pomegranates. In front of bug's mouth there is a shofar.]

#💕

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HOLY SHIT WHAT???

#holy shit #king move honestly #and fuck dc

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✨ feel like an actual adult for handling the power going out in my house and getting it back on ✨

feeling slightly less like an adult for calling my dad for help to fix it but

#what can u do? #had french fries cooking in the oven when it happened and i thought it was a regular power outage #waited for the heat from the preheated oven to cook the fries #took an hour and a half

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wish i could just beam the whole story from my brain to my laptop without needing to write it or think of words

#it's 2023 #why can't i plug my brain to a computer yet?

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kill your darlings deleted "scene"

Lone Pine North Compulsory School consists of three unremarkably dull buildings on equally uninspiring grounds. They’re all pale yellow brick buildings in similarly square shapes, none of which are old enough to have that particular turn-of-the-century charm that older buildings had in your old hometown, nor is it quite new enough to have the modern appearance that you either love or hate. 

Most of the school grounds are paved surfaces, with the exception of an almost barren football field and a patch of land which houses a decades-old playground. 

During your interview with the Principal in May, they assured you that there were comprehensive plans to renovate the grounds, making them fun and attractive for the kids to play in, but right now… it doesn’t look like a lot has happened since your last visit.

#sr

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today i will not spend three hours trying to name a goddamn weapon

#i was gonna get a lot of writing done yesterday #and then i went 'i hate this name for the relic so i'm gonna change it' #suddenly it was 2am

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imagining something that's not death, but not resurrection, but something between. the narrative doomed you to die but somehow you lived and now the world doesn't know what to do with you. you were not supposed to live; yet here you are, in a world that never expected you

#c: the unknown one #spoilers? 🫣 mayhaps

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me: for my last week of summer vacation, i'm gonna make a dent in my tbr and read seven books in seven days

also me: (orders ten new books)

also me: (is a big dumb dumb and orders a book i already own)

#i'm ahead of schedule though! five books read in four days! #andy talks

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✮ CH. 2 PART I ✮ 92k (+86k) -> 178k ✮

PLAY CHAPTER 2: PART I

It's here! First, sorry for the long wait. Chapter 2 has proven to be a behemoth, and I'd gotten sick this past week, my computer broke, my documents went kaput and I had to do some Frankensteining for the last few pages of this part. I'm not too worried, as Part II update can help smooth out all the kinks. I will definitely be looking for beta testers once chapter 2 is complete ha

Anywho! Enough about my problems. This demo update adds 86k words (86, 818 to be exact) and is the first part of a two part chapter. Which means the narrative in this chapter is not complete, but I kind of closed it off at a pretty satisfying place. As with every Infamous chapter, this is very character driven. So have fun!

What to expect in Chapter Two PART I:

get on the bus & deal with the consequences of your actions lol

arrive to your first tour stop and do your first gig...which might get messy (both literally and figuratively)

hang with a familiar father and daughter duo

have some heart to hearts/ some cheeky little POV passages

meet more BOTB crew and learn exactly what's in store for you this season

get roped in some ValenReign mess !

Maintenance:

this chapter has a lot of flavor text, or at least, more than the demo did, so if there are any errors or if there are lines that don't correspond with your choices, please let me know so i can fix that!

you will no longer be forced to write your own lyrics and the update will offer you pre-written lyrics by yours truly. im not t swift so i would advise you not to expect professional level songwriting, but they work well enough lolol

lyrics page is up as well as stats, but i don't really like the system i used to balance it, mostly because new...stat things will be added as the story goes on, so that's still getting reworked. still, good enough for now, as there are some personality stat checks!

Prologue and Chapter 1 errors/typos/grammatical bits fixed. (Wouldn't be surprised if I missed some though...) + variables updated.

Scenes not showing up fixed. hopefully, that huge error in which it throws you back to the fight after returning to the house is fixed (It was a bit wonky for me, hopefully it works for everyone else)

Stat and relationship pages updated ( + lyric page to look back at all your lyrics).

Can choose to be asexual and any sexual scenes will be skipped or replaced with romantic scenes. Flavor text in which MC displays any sort of sexual desire will be skipped. (This option comes up during Dakota's party scene. If not, it will show up when it presents itself again.) (Nothing sexual has come up yet, but if there are any scenes or even lines/ internal thoughts that should be skipped or changed for Asexual MCs, please let me know!)

If there are errors or anything, im always open. I've play tested but you girl is always prone to errors. As always, thank you for your love and enthusiasm! It makes me really happy and motivates me to keep writing ! <3

(Also, if you're thinking "omg amy how did you go from 65k to 86k?!" i don't want to talk about it /j)

See you on tour!

#congrats!!! #the update was *chef's kiss* #totally worth staying up all night and sobbing like a baby for #infamous if #other games

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Levi snippet for giveaway winner @phantasmagoriatime 🖤

The couch sinks under your weight with a soft thud, muted by your heavier-than-usual breathing, which you now become hyper-aware of. It feels like your lungs are belatedly catching up on hours of running on adrenaline, even though your heart’s had enough time to return to a semi-normal bpm by now. You bring your hand away from the pulse and up your neck, stretching the tired skin on your face, fingers running up through your hair - greasy, a reminder of your desperate need for a shower.

There is a sort of tranquillity to the silence in the room. The noise of a TV playing somewhere upstairs brushes over the edge of your hearing, but distant enough to ignore it. It’s harder to ignore the metallic taste in your mouth though, the dull ache in your feet as you shuffle them around. On the ground, in the air or up on the couch; they keep hurting all the same. Most of your skin feels sore, fragile and delicate, as you move to scratch your arm where it itches. Your fingers linger and start to trace the inked lines on your forearm, stained by dirt, or something like it, as you try to remember if you fell in it or got splashed.

Outside, the car clicks as it locks shut and a quick flash of orange blinkers reflects on the double-glazed front windows. The door opens, and you wait for Levi as you watch him take off his shoes. Your eyes travel down to your own feet, noting that you forgot to do the same. Autopilot, you were told to sit and you did because you wanted nothing more. Noticing is one thing, caring is another. Caring is a feeling that’s hard to muster in your current state.

Levi walks over, smiling sheepishly. With his silhouette outlined by the blinding ceiling light, he looks almost divine, as he towers over your slumped and tired being. Your mind still has the capacity to note what a pretty sight he is; backlit hair, golden and messy, a sweet smile that fades quickly. “You don’t look very good.”

You resist the urge to roll your eyes, shuffling down the couch as he moves to sit next to you. “Still handsome, I mean,” Levi’s head tilts and your eyes fall to his lips to focus on the small lisp that catches and tugs at whatever’s left of your worn-out heart. “Just-”

Feeling the rising ache of the hard wooden floors, you tug your legs up in an attempt to ease the pain. Levi’s eyes follow your every move as his arm slides up the back of the couch to rest behind your head. 

“You could just talk to me,” he pleads. Your brows form a knot that’s an involuntary reflection of his. You can usually appreciate the honesty in his expression; how he never hides what he’s feeling. No need for mistrust when someone is so open, it’s so much easier to let your guard down. But right now it feels almost overbearing. Right now, you’d prefer not to see that he’s hurting.

“I’m fine,” you say, bringing yourself up to Levi’s eye level, steady as your hand finds support grabbing onto his firm forearm. You relax it and let your palm soothe up his shoulder, the tense muscles on the back of his neck, until it lands against his prickly jaw. Is that what he needs right now, a touch, some comfort — or is that you? 

Levi responds with a slight shift of his head that your mind hopes is the first step to his unravelling, to letting it go. You both deserve to let go for the night, to melt into this couch and to exist without pressure, just long enough to recoup. Levi shifts his head; touch and reassurance, yes, something to turn the attention away from you.

It’d be too simple for him to just believe you. His lips form a thin line, only adding to the emotion already written on his face. For a moment, you pause to observe the way your hand fits against his face. Your thumb traces down his cheek, from the curve of his nose down to the corner of his mouth, hoping it’ll lift in return. When did you become someone to whom intimate touch comes so naturally?

Levi tries, really hard, to maintain eye contact, but his eyes soften as you recognise his own trusting nature betray him. Or maybe he chooses to give in; doesn’t try to fight it, restrain himself as much as you do. Maybe this is all part of a game, a predictable dynamic that you are falling for as you follow his eyes down to your lips, back up, a flutter of eyelashes, down again.

Kissing him would be too easy. Too natural. Your thumb slides over his lip, soft, raw skin soothing against yours. Shit, that was too deliberate. He moves towards you in response and you feel left with only one choice.

It’s stupid, the relief when you kiss. As though it wasn’t just skin against skin, like his lips could strip it all away — the nightmare, the fear, all you’ve been through today and before that — what does it matter when his fingers run through your hair and dull your mind just so?

You lean in as your hand on Levi’s cheek pulls him closer, his hand on your hip secures you. A kiss that’s your saving grace, a way to keep you you, not to spoil this night by saying too much or too little. A kiss that takes his eyes off you for a moment, a moment where you wish you could breathe but a single breath feels like it could ruin you. There are a million reasons for you to need this kiss to save you tonight.

When Levi pulls back, you still feel his own breath against your upper lip. 

“I don’t believe you,” he whispers and the words stick and sting, even when you know he’s right. Maybe he can tell, because he gives you that soft smile you start to miss every time it’s gone. “But it’s okay.”

But it’s okay, he nods. Levi isn’t stubborn. He doesn’t pursue things you don’t want him to; he trusts you. To tell him things a lover, a partner would. You know that, yet can’t help but wonder if you were turned inside out and he really did know you whole — would he look at you the same way? Or would this softness in his gaze turn to something unrecognisable. Would he start looking away?

“Thank you,” you say and tuck a lock of curly hair behind his ear. 

His face is clear and open, warm eyes looking at you still as if you were the only person not just in this room but on earth. You want it to stay that way, at least for tonight, with a kiss or with a look, you want to let him save you.

#🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 #i lov them ur honour #other games #the spirited: origins

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what were the ROs seeing this weekend: barbie or oppenheimer? (or both?) 💖

all of them could potentially be talked into seeing both, but if they pick for themselves...

Khalida will see Oppenheimer......and then Barbie after failing to talk herself out of it

Mal/Malik/Malika is SO EXCITED to see Barbie (will go all out dressing up for it too)

Silas will see both (first Oppenheimer and then Barbie)

Rainn will see Oppenheimer (and maybe secretly Barbie, just because they're a teeny bit curious)

TUO will see Barbie and then maybe Oppenheimer (he isn't fully decided on if he's interested or not)

#i miss going to the cinema to watch movies 😭 #it's the one con to living in a small town #like we HAVE a cinema #but they do one showing a week (MAYBE two) and RARELY do they show the same movie twice #c: khalida #c: mal/malik/malika #c: silas #c: rainn #c: the unknown one #character asks #thank you for the ask anon 💖

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Chapter 5 - Part Two

Hello everyone... it's here. It's finally here! Chapter 5, pt. 2 is now out, and is 250k words of new content, meaning The Exile is now over 1 million words!

This release was... rough, to say the least, but it's all in the rear-view mirror now, thankfully. As some of you may know, this is the final chapter of the public demo. I'll make a post later on detailing what the future development of The Exile will be, but for now I just want to take in a deep breath and relax (as I fix what inevitable bugs pop up with release, that is).

Avg. Play length: 114k -> 135k Total Wordcount: 818k -> 1 mil

Some Notes:

You have to replay the entire game. Your old saves won't work. Please, for the love of the gods, do not use them. I know it's tedious to replay the entire demo sometimes, but the new release will not work properly otherwise.

I HIGHLY recommend saving at the beginning of when Esmerelda goes to visit Marcelle, or where the old demo ended. This is because when I do bug fixes (and I will have to do bug fixes), all saves that were on the file I updated cease to work properly. Saving at the scene with Esmerelda is the closest to the new content that you can save w/o having to worry about losing your save progress frequently near release. (Though I will update Chapter 5, pt. 1 at some point)

DO NOT spread info you got by code diving. Please and thank you! :)

Preferably send bugs + typos to the Discord. Otherwise, feel free to send them here! Also, keep an eye out for broken symbols next to choices! (It would help if you tell me what chapter it's in as well :))

There are two versions of The Exile on Dashingdon. The right one has [Current] next to it. The reason there are two is b/c for some reason or another, I couldn't get into my old account, and I couldn't reset the password, and it was just... a whole mess. So I couldn't delete the old demo when I uploaded the new one on my new account. Just keep this in mind if you're trying to look The Exile up right into a search engine as opposed to going through links on the Tumblr or Forum!

Play Chapter 5, Pt. 2!

#the exile game #the exile #other games #congrats on chapter release!! 🎉