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Gabe posting again because I'm grieving

#gabriel spn #spn text post meme

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#gabriel #gabriel spn #spn #supernatural #spn text post meme

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I want to show you an actual training slide from my customer service job that I had to see yesterday.

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stole this from natalie but i can NOT stop staring at this screencap like......

sam: rip cassiel 🙏 sucks to be you i guess 😔

dean: i literally wish i was dead

jack: this is NOT mcdonalds

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See the thing is I think somebody should've made small talk with cas like "so who's your favorite singer?" and he would go "well I don't listen to much music but there was a man in ancient Mesopotamia who used to sing to the goats he herded. They didn't understand the words, of course, but they seemed to enjoy it all the same. I enjoyed sending pieces of my celestial consciousness to experience this from time to time" and they would go ".........okay then." Except for Dean, who would somehow be jealous

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actually there shouldve been an episode in early s15 where dean and cas catch the same case and they have to grudgingly work together because it’s a tough hunt and dean doesn’t wanna disturb saileen and him and cas are just trying to keep their space (insert personal space callback). like they get separate motel rooms but one night they have to collab on some research so they’re up late in cas’ room. dean is trying hard not to be curious about why his bed is unmade but he sucks at not being a nosy prick so he says “hey [nickname omitted for effect] what’s up with you lately. you sleepin or something?”

cas just keeps his head down and says “or something.” and dean is still brooding because cas is brooding and he doesn’t think that’s fair really, but he’s still dean so his brain immediately jumps to cas is fucking someone!!!! so he says “what, like you’re sleeping with someone?” and cas recognizes that dean is not going to drop this until he gets a real answer so he just gives in and says “no. i sleep sometimes. don’t worry about it.” but he says it in a vicious way to let us know that he doesn’t think dean is actually gonna worry about it because dean is an asshole.

and dean picks up on that and the insinuation that he’s like, mean or something makes him angrier so he snaps “are you an angel or what?” and cas says “or what.” and dean’s like “hey you have to tell me if your batteries are drained or not coz i need to know if you’re gonna have my back if we get into a tight spot” and cas says, in the tone of i-can’t-believe-this-shit-is-happening-i-wish-i-was-dead, “i always have your back.” to which dean scoffs “oh yeah? seems like it. you have my back all the way from fucking wyoming huh.”

and by now neither of them are actually concentrating on research. cas is doing meditative breaths in front of his laptop and dean is still talking, “you’re driving sam nuts you know you just left without a fuckin goodbye—” “i said goodbye.” “—and i know he’s been blowing up your phone and you can’t just fuckin ghost him, you dick” yadda yadda and finally cas gets fed up and he stands so quick his chair flies back and dean is like, great, we’ll fight, at least this is something i understand, maladaptive as shit you know, but he starts to sweat when cas’ eyes start glowing and the overheads burst. then cas goes for his fucked up wings as a show of power but. his grace does that flickering thing and he tires out immediately and even stumbles bc his batteries ARE shorting.

and dean is angry but he’s still dean so he’s at cas’ side in a second to hold him steady sayin “you okay? stay with me man” and cas is just. 1) pissed at dean 2) pissed at himself 3) enjoying the contact but also pissed about that. dean guides him over to the bed but cas is stubborn so he stays standing and rubbing at his temples because apparently doing normal angel shit gives him headaches now and isn’t that fantastic. he looks so tired and miserable that dean forgets to be mad for a second and he just murmurs “that bad, huh?” and cas mutters “yeah.”

dean says, “and you’re out there by yourself,” in the tone of voice that sounds like he’s angry, but underneath it he’s scared, but underneath that he’s actually angry. cas says “it’s not like i want this,” in the tone of voice that sounds like he’s lonely, but underneath it he really really doesn’t want to be alone.

“then what do you want?” dean asks. “what do you want from me, then?”

cas is just studying his face, miserable and all the lines in his face clearer than ever, looking like half of him can’t take the sight of dean’s face which is a winchester face which is a hunter’s face which is a killer’s face which dean never really liked looking at himself. and really the only move is to lean forward so close that cas can’t see his face. and then of course from there it’s obvious enough that he has to close the gap and crush their mouths together in the most desperate sloppy feverish frightened teethclashing please-don’t-leave-me kiss he’s ever had in his long long history of them. because if nothing is real he might as well give this a whirl. because even if chuck is the one who made dean fall in love with cas, it still feels fucking great to kiss him. because dean can’t help himself. he was written this way.

so they kiss. for a few seconds. until cas stops, still against dean’s frantic mouth. and then he pulls back. he still looks miserable, which is worse to see when he can actually meet dean’s eyes. “you’re still angry,” he says. “at me.”

dean almost chokes. “i don’t want to be,” he says. reaching.

cas says, “i wish that were enough, but i—.” and his mouth trembles a little. and dean thought he was dead inside but he can feel another piece of him dying right now. and it hurts to look at cas’ face knowing that he doesn’t want him, that he isn’t enough.

“got it,” dean says. but he doesn’t get it yet. and the kicker is he has to leave cas’ room and go sit alone on the other side of the wall. this is symbolic because even though the divorce ended with cas leaving dean it was very clear that dean is the one who emotionally left cas. it’s a great callback but dean doesn’t even recognize it because he’s neck-deep in derealization. it’ll all click for him in 15x18 though <3

#i am so here for this

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the thing about supernatural is that, if it were real, hunting as a subculture would have a lot in common with biker and cowboy culture. it already does, aesthetically and as a lifestyle. and that means that it would be full of gay men, or at least gay sex. if supernatural were accurate men would’ve been cruising day and night at Ellen’s roadhouse and Bobby/Rufus would’ve been real. unfortunately no one involved in this goddamn show except maybe late-stage Misha Collins understood that they were making a show about queer masculinity’s place within the American gothic. tragic. many such cases.

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funniest possible thing that could happen is for Misha Collins to realize he is actually bisexual about a year from now

#are ya winning son

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Original air date: Oct 28th, 2015

#spn 11x04

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castiel. the end

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@ltleflrt you wanted a nose boop here u go

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i think endverse cas doesn’t even like. participate in the orgies very much. like he makes out with the women and maybe he jacks off while they’re fucking, maybe he doesn’t, maybe he eats a couple of them out every once in a while, but mostly he’s there to hang out and make dean horrifically jealous. also he leaves halfway through most of the time i think. smokes a joint on the back porch while the ladies are going at it

i do think he’d give truly excellent back massages as part of foreplay— although i doubt he’d let anyone return the favor, considering the state of his wings 😌

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i can just picture dean finally getting his beach vacay and just. having a real bad run of luck. i mean everything is going against him. he gets sand everywhere and it's uncomfy af. baby gets a parking ticket. he loses his wallet (he doesn't care about the money or cards he cares about the crumpled picture of cas or him and cas he had in there). the sunscreen leaked in his bag so then he gets sunburned. he steps on a shell and cuts his foot so now he's limping and stuck on the stupid sand under the umbrella. literally it feels like he's cursed but he's just having a bad day. to top it all off he bluescreens when cas emerges in slowmo from the ocean - like that one scene of daniel craig in that bond movie - just tiny swim trunks and thicc thighs and wet muscle— and he gets hit in the head with a frisbee for his trouble. it's important to note that dean and cas are not together at this point, this is a family vacay with jack and sam and eileen and maybe the girls. dean comes to with a wet and worried cas leaning over him and he's a little loopy bc he got hit pretty hard and says something super chick-flicky like my hero or your eyes are like the ocean or makes some romcom movie reference bc his brain to mouth filter is offline. cas gets him to the medical tent or back to their accomodation nearby and tends to him in human ways and is so gentle and caring and such good company. cas laments dean's bad day bc he knows how much he was looking forward to this but then dean is like: eh it's not so bad. things are looking up actually. and cas looks at him confused and dean just smiles all soft and adoring and i mean there is love in that boy's eyes.

#deancas #destiel

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call my tits sam and dean the way they’re super naturals

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the way supernatural treats food is soooooooo crazy because they establish that sam and dean grew up in poverty and they had such little access to food that dean would have to shoplift bread and go without meals for himself so he could feed sam. but then as the show goes on they make more and more jokes about how much dean relies on food for comfort and can never feel full enough, and how sam stringently follows diets and exercise regiments as a form of control. but it's funny you see because dean likes pie and sam likes rabbit food. it's funny

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Watched "Exit to Eden" and...

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body swap episode let’s go!!! it’s a cursed object or some nasty, powerful spellwork. it zaps rowena, dean, and cas who are all in the same room together. rowena becomes dean, cas becomes rowena, dean becomes cas. jack walks into the room and with the ability to see people’s souls, recognizes everyone immediately. poor sam now has to see the woman he has feelings for in the body of his brother and he’s NOT having a good time!! rowena in dean is all loose, confident, flirty, she charms cas in her own body which drives sam and dean INSANE (for totally different reasons obviously.) it would be so fun to see rowena-cas stiff, serious, and genuine. cas realizes the deep attachment he’s grown to his body. dean’s freaking out about the possibility of needing to pee or take a shower. “I’m not gonna look at some other dude’s junk, that’s not cool!” meanwhile cas informs him that he won’t need to, “there’s enough grace left over in my vessel that will eliminate the need for bodily functions” forcing dean to act disappointed “oh, good” (he says lying) while he tries to actively avoid feeling up cas’ pecs.