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Legit terrified I may very well have HIV

Also I have another non profit to work for so it's not like I'm not looking to move out in my 20's

#personal vent #mentally fucked #retail bullshit #ftm disphoria #tw medical

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He stopped paying my phone bill. He no longer plans on contacting me.

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The sexual assailant from my childhood I'd comming over to 'mow grass'.

HATEFUL

HATEFUL

HATEFUL

I WAS YOU CHILD THIS IS DISGUSTING WHAT THE FUCK

#personal vent #i need to move out #mental health #ex jw

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Signed up for americorps.

So I'm trying to get my shit together...

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Fun anti pagan moment

I was literally forced to strip off my veil (thank the awen itself the face mask was fine) in front of a supervisor and was no longer allowed to work in a previously trained position because she was angry that a modest scarf 'was not dress code'

Just say you hate black people and polytheism in general and move on.

Racist ass hangars job ugh

#personal vent #anti paganism #abuse of power #abuse of authority #mentally fucked

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this is what my first month on sertraline feels like:

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Vent account

Zoloft 100mg was prescribed February 14th, 2024

Should probably get a life at some point not going to lie

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#personal vent #addiction awareness #addiction recovery #domestic violent relationships #abusive behavior

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Went through mental health counseling at 16 via parental intervention.(I literally left the house one day in the middle of the night looking for this person)

MEPS interview where I explained my exs first last middle name and crime was not helpful

School Security Officer told me it was 'dyke drama'

Mutual teacher(teachers we both had from required and elective classes emails). We're informed of who what where why and how after the summer break.

My full intention was to hurt this ex boyfriend of mine and as many people around him because I was still am miserable.

This is still my vent account

#personal vent #mental health #mentally fucked #tw disordered content #tw self destructive behavior #tw stalking #d slur tw

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Expand to read.

I in no way blame my actions on my financial status or my mental health.

If I go to prison i go to prison

#reactive abuse #personal vent #addiction awareness #mental health #tw disordered content #stalker #tw stalking #tw self destructive behavior

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My father used to feed me and my twin brother on 150$ per month. I should be able to spread 70 ish.

Ugh

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Lost my retail job.

That sucked for all of 10 minutes.

Got on a buss, preped some paperwork to enroll for community college, got some stuff on linked in applied for, downloaded survey junkie.

Don't send me cash I'm not going to like hand outs given me previously mentioned internet shenanigans.

#personal vent #addiction awareness #addiction recovery #retail #getting fired #unemployment #not asking for handouts just typing

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Changing at the gym is Hella stressful ngl.

Gotta have a barrier between me and my fellow planet members...

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"Look at this. Look at what you've done. You caused all of this by being your fucking hurtable self. I was normal before I met you, but you fucking infected me with these thoughts and impulses.

You did this to me. This is your fault. You're not the victim here, I am. You've ruined me, not the other way around.

You messed up my mind to the point of doing this, and honestly? I think you deserve this for manipulating me like that."

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We need more vain/egotistical whumpees, please

Whumpees who won't allow anyone to see them cry, no matter how much they need the support, they can't take any more blows to their ego

Whumpees who refuse pain medication because they think it makes them look weak

Whumpees who act mean or cold to those who try to help them because it's the only thing that keeps others away from them

Whumpees that are encouraged to ask for help, but think that others would be impressed if they didn't ever need it

Whumpees that cannot, under any circumstance, allow others to know what has happened to them, even if it allows Whumper to get away with it, because what would the others think of me if they knew how weak and helpless I was? Or that it actually left a lasting impact on me?

Whumpees who obsessively cover up their scars with makeup

Whumpees who isolate themselves whenever the people around them get too 'invasive' by asking basic questions about Whumpee's mental state

Whumpees who are offended at the mere mention that they may have actually been traumatized, because they're too strong/tough/resilient for anything to actually affect them, and claiming anything else amounts to a personal insult

Whumpees who will not tell anyone if they're sick or injured because they don't want anyone to see them hurting, until they collapse and have to be dragged to a doctor

Whumpees who think that they're better than others because they were strong enough to survive nevermind the debilitating trauma

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Verbally abusing my ex online is not a good replacement for self harm

#personal vent #self harm recovery #addiction awareness #reactive abuse