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attended a wedding today. its Lalao and Nandang’s wedding. sandali lang kami sa wedding then we go to CRMC na coz my cas is there, she is confine there because of severe UTI and pwdeng mapasama ang pregnancy nya dahil sa UTI na yun so naforce syang iadmit. and i’m still here making bantay of cas and mot is at dpwh, kay hard. mag bonding2 daw sila friends. hmppp. that’s all for now. happy weekend!

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my date for today!!! as always, sino paba magdedate sa akin? lol. so bumili kami ng gift for nandang and lalao because tomorrow na ang wedding nila. hanap hanap, so we decided to buy the plate and ewan ano sa english ang ladiya. hahahaha. yun then pinagift wrap na and nag isip na kami saan kakain, after 1 billion yrs of thinking sa sugar pappi bagsak namin. shockingly! andun ang officemates ni mot, then may dumagdag pa na iba. dumating din sila jomo, kaka nadi and other friends nila. then nung malapit na kaming matapos mag-eat, dumating si bai ruth. so ayun todo chika hanggang sa tumayo na kami para lumabas then bigla kong naisip na di pala kami nakabayad. nakakahiyaaaaa!!!! lol. tawa lang kami ng tawa. so nagpay na si mot and we went home na. nag ask ask din pala si bruth sakin kung paano ba daw nya mahahanap si mr. right, oh diba love adviser na ako ngayon. hahahaha. and yun naaaa!

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August 15, 2019

So early this day I just watched videos and played MLBB, the mosquito net and the dishes aren’t done cleaning. Yeah, my daily routine because I’m still unemployed so here I am rotting at home. When it’s almost 5pm Fatma Soellah called asking where I am, expectedly the reason why she called is for a company and yes, I am right. We talked many things through the phone call but still I can’t go out coz I have no money but she insisted the she’ll lend me money for our electricity bill, yes I’m looking for someone so I could borrow a money for our electricity bill and there she is. Finally! So I made a way to go at Craft Lobby because there she is waiting for me. I cleaned the whole house before leaving. Drop by to Ante Mana’s center for my fare and ate Jollibee Spaghetti because she has it and she’s not going to eat it. After eating, I left going to Alnor. Sad thing is when I got in to our “kanto”, I can’t pass the street then I can’t ride a cab. Minutes passed and I got an opportunity to pass then yes, finally, I made it! Lol. After passing to the high way, I decided not to commute but walk instead because Mall of Alnor is already near. Yeah, i walked from fiesta kanto to MOA. Mot is already waiting for me at his cousin’s house so I just fetched him there. The wife of his cousin saying I got really fat and I should keep my weight gaining. I don’t know if it’s that a compliment or should I be insulted? But nah, that’s so negative thinking. So after there we directly go to craft lobby, that’s what I thought but I’m wrong. We stopped by at Penshoppe because there’s something He wanna show me and there’s a Bare Bear longsleeve, he asked me if I like it but I said no though I really love it. I need to help him save money because he has so many responsibilities at home I don’t want to add burdens on him so I just refused to like it. After Penshoppe, we finally got to Craft Lobby. There is Gerard, Fatma and Alliah of course because she’s the one assigned to the store. Hours passed we just laughed all the way BUT I noticed mot laughing while looking at my phone and there he is! Looking at my funny pictures last Eid’l Adha, actually that pictures is intended for him but we got into an argument so I decided not to show him but there he is laughing at it. So the other people at CL started to be curious about it, so before they see it I cried not a fake one but I really cried very hard! I know that I will be embarrassed if they’ll see it. So after I recover from crying minutes passed and there we are silent, speaking nothing and kuya Zam arrived so that’s when the silence broke. Minutes after kuya Zam arrived, Alliah and Fatma went to For Me to buy a wallet. I went outside I don’t know why but I saw Shai and Fauj (Mot’s close friends) I called mot and they talked outside of CL for awhile. This is already soooo long and I’m getting tired. So kuya Zam went to his parents and return after minutes and we chika again & again & again. We decided to play Exploding Kittens and we all enjoyed it. After that we decided to go home because it’s already late, but before that Mot decided to drop by at the Eye Glass section because he’s planning to buy reading glass for his parents, on our way there we bumped to Maliqa and Jasser after few chikas we separate ways and Finally we arrive on the Eye Glass section. Ask ask check check, after that we went to Robinson’s anti-rad galss section to check for ours. I really want to have an anti-rad glass since before but I can’t able to buy it because I have ni money. While checking, nana called I was so nervous and I don’t know what to say. When I’m already picking the call its already missed then suddenly he called mot and that is the shocking thing I wasn’t expecting that. As usual, we denied that we are together that night. After that we finally got our way to home, he dropped me at our kanto and he bid his farewell.

So, that’s all for today. Annyeong!

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After yearssss of being missing in action here, I’m finally backkkk! And, we’re still together fighting for each other. ❤️ this photo was taken last Eid’l Adha, we just secretly met coz the sister of my Ama is prohibiting us to meet. We’ve been struggling to meet since I graduated, yes you heard it right. I finally graduated! I’m now a degree holder. Being in this set-up is kinda hard but we can still manage. There are so many people trying to ruin our relationship but we are still fighting for it. Posting this photo here coz I can’t post it in fb, twitter and IG, i still don’t know who’s those people trying to make us apart. Now, I just trust no one for assurance. Flaunting this consistent man since 2014 for making me feel loved each day I wake up. I can’t ask for more coz I’m beyond grateful.

That’s all for now.

#grateful #fighting

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Hi! I’m back :)

Hellooooooooooo!! Ilang moths na rin akong di nakkakapag-tumblr. Hehe. Infairness. Namiss ko :) Np: Love your self by Justin Beiber. Mejj sentimental ako now. Well, first day of no texting. Nag-usap kami kaninang umaga pero nagkainisan lang ata. Haysss. In Shaa Allah kaya na to. :) Ilang beses na namin tinry na maglayo pero di talaga kaya eh, pero sana by this time kaya na. Pleasssee! Bismillah. By the help of Allah :’) Kaninang umaga pala, late ako sa english and pagdating na pagdating namin niLeah dun pa lang mag-aattendance si ma’am. Buti na lang!! And yes, kasama ko ang aking ka-tropa sa pagiging late na si Leah. Hahahaha. Always!! Kailan paba ako naging maaga sa first period? Like duuuh. Umaga hapon man yan late pa rin talaga ako. Sorry teachers! :* Mwa. Halaaa! Di ako nakabili ng ruler. Omg! Needed ko yun sa p6 namin kasi NO RULER, NO ENRTY!! Wahhht? Hahahaha. In Shaa Allah, mag-aga lang ako bukas para makabili nun at makabili na rin ng hot shapers pa ra dun sa mga buyer ko bukas. May dalawa pala akong buyer bukas. Alhamdulillah! Ang saya lang talaga :)))))))))))))))))))))))))) simula nung sunday tuloy-tuloy talaga ang orders sa akin. <3 And kahit di ako pinapadalhan ni nana ng pera nakakaya kong papasukin ang sarili ko sa school dahil sa pag reresell ko. Alhamdulillah talga. Allah is great! Lahat talaga may paraan dahil sa help nya. Kasaya lang sa feeling oy :))Yun nga kaninang tanghali na kila madam ako, bumili ng rejuv na dalawa for ate fhar and her friend and nag picture ako ng matte lippies dun na ipinost ko kaninang uwian ng hapon na para another benta naman. Hihihihi. Gusto ko lang talaga umasenso at magsariling sikap. Ayoko naman kasi yung sige ako asa sa parents ko. Duuuuh. Matwa ko ren ged. Hahahaha dapat matuto na akong tumayo sa sarili kong paa :) In Shaa Allah maging successful ako sa golas ko sa life. IN SHAA ALLAH. :) Tapos mag utang na naman ako kay kuya S ng 200 kay wala akong pang capital sa hot shapers na dalawa bukas. Hayyys pero okay lang, mabayaran ko rin bitaw sya In Shaa Allah bukas din :)) Anyway nasa Cyber pala ako. Tumatawag si Farisa na kasama kong coordinator sa BS SEMA and di ko sinagot. Hahahahaha am I that bad? Di rin naman ;) at 17745w46836347times na nag ulit ulit tong love yourself. Hahahaha okayy dito na lang muna. bukas naman ulit. :) Ingat ako! Hahahahha

#day1 #loner #carry #fighting! #fisabilillah #bismillah

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Facebook

Not so good morning. LQ na naman kami, as always. Di ko alam kung bakit di niya ako mapagbigyan sa pag reactivate ng facebook. As in! Hindi talaga. Nakakainis naman eh. Laging naman nasa kanya ang oras ko pero, bakit? Nakakainis! Totoo lang. Binibigay at ginagawa ko na ang lahat para sa kanya. Pag sya ang may request mabilis ko naman pinagbibigyan pero ako kahit simpleng bagay lang lumalaki pa kasi ginagawa nyang big deal. Bakit ba? Yan lng ang nasa utak ko BAKIT. Hynako naman oh. Sana naman intindihin mo rin ako, yung buong ako. Pagbigyan mo ako. Hindi yung ako na lang lagi ang nag aadjust. Napapagod na ako. Lagi na lang ako ang mali. Pag may problema ka sakin ka tumatakbo, di kita iniiwan. Ginagawa ko lahat para pakalmahin ka ng mawala yung galit mo. Ba't pag ako di mo magawang pagbigyan man lang? Alam ko sobrang babaw pero grabe talaga. Ikaw pa ang galit. Napapagod na ako.

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Whatever you do I will not leave

Him

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How can we go back to the things we used to if you’re acting different?

#how #changes #hearaches #unimportant

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Wide awake

It's already 12:39 AM. I'm a lil bit sleepy but my head still don't want to sleep. I've been thinking many stuffs since I and my boyfriend stop talking. Awee I really wanna say something long but am really sleepy. Good night from me and my fluffy cousin, Nadua. 😊 Bye 😘

#sleepy #thinking #midnight thoughts #good mornight

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Napapa-ingles talaga ang tao pag galit.

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I always do

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You'll be okay. Yes, you will. 😊

Nadua

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H U R T

The continuation of my previous blog... So now listening TADHANA para drama 🎧😂 lemme continue it, okay? Okay. 😊 Soooooo.. earlier like 2pm, I decided to go to my boyfriend's home. I took bath so fast bc we're just taking the vacant time that there's no person at their house. When I got there, we were sitting at their sofa when someone nocked on their gate. We are both shocked and we panicked. "Can you do me a favor?" He said. I nod fast because the person outside the gate was already yelling my boyfriend's name. "Can you hide on the comfort room in front of the house?". I just panicked followed what did he said. When I'm in the cr, I heard that the person who's outside the gate was his elder brother. I stayed inside the comfort room like more or less 20 mins, I think. I'm shaking, afraid that his brother will see me. I don't know why did he do it to me. I called, his not answering. I also texted him, but still not answering. I pray inside the cr, wishing that I can run outside their gate without seeing by his brother. My phone vibrated *opens text message* "Go outside without a noise." I did again what he've said. Finally! I survive. While walking I don't feel his presence on my back, I wanna look back to see if he followed me but I said in my mind "I will not turn back" and that's it. I walk walk walk and walk. Suddenly tears fell, and that doesn't stop. Can't help my self crying. I feel so unloved. I do really feel that, I swear! 😢 Many thoughts came in and it made me cry more. I heard foot steps on my back too-to my front. Now he's in front of me. It's my boyfriend. His eyes are teary, I hate to see him like that. He endlessly repeat his sorry for what happened, I'm not saying anything. As in ANYTHING. I'm waiting for a cab to come so I can go to my tita's home. I get inside and he did too. We travelled and I don't talk to him since that up until now. I'm hurt, hurt a lot. I feel so unloved. Unwanted. I don't know how to approach him again, I think I can't but I wish I can.

#unloved #unwanted #sorry for the grammar #HURT #pained #changes

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His text, just now 📲

Yung mga iyak mo kanina, diko matanggap na ganun ang dahilan nun. :'( Nasaktan kita sa way na mararamdaman mong di kita gusto ipakilala sa pamilya ko. Nasaktan kita na kung ipakita mo sakin ang pisikal mo na ginagawa eh parang ayos lang pero sa loob sobrang sakit na sakit ka. :'( yun ang diko matanggap tangap. :'( natatakot ako ng mag iba ka na ng lubusan babe. :'( sobrang sama ko. Natatakot ako na hindi na ako ang iuna mo dahil dun sa nangyare kanina. :'( bangeni ako sa leka sa ampun. Ampun ka saki sa nanggula kagina. :'( Babe, subla ko seka inikalimu. Diko pedtikan saguna i man gagedam nengka. Mana ko pembetu. Diko gatawan panun ko seka mapadtatawa, kasi sa nyaba nanggula a nyako gapagitung na diko den seka mapadtatawa meto sa knu noget a mabagel a kadtatawa. Basi dyako nengka den pagtiwalaan sa benal benal. :'( bagulyang ako kasi ipegkagilek ko a ipanininta ako nengka. Seka i galinyan ko gadtagaped taman tamana. Na sa taman taman antuba a nyako bangeni ngenin na makagkalimwaya ta sa kagkalimwaya na benal a egkaluma. :'( madakel ged gapagitung ko taman sa kagina pan anto. Diko gapatawad ginawa ko. Gagedam ko pan sa leka i subla subla kapegkasakit na ginawa nengka sa laki. Ampun ka saki babe. :'( dyako pedtika sa gaskitan ko seka sa manya. Ikalimu ko ged seka. :'( ampun ged a benal. :'(

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Hello, good afternoon! :) I’m not that happy this day. Actually, earlier I am, but now? Not so. My not so happy feels started a while ago. It’s because of my boyfriend. To be continued...

#hurt #pained #still fighting #for you

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Bc my husband to be is tapos ng kumain, magfo-focus na muna ako sa kanya dahil magtatampo yun for sure 😁 Okay! Byers 😘