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16 and 18 for the ask game!

16. Do you have any whump media recommendations (whump blogs, books, movies, etc.)?

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm i always get carried away when asked to make lists but LETS GO

recently reread the devil's highway from @lonesome--hunter and i cannot recommend it enough. it gets pretty dark but also its just so good its unreal. i love it.

some other timeless classics include

kane & jim from @whumpsday

the rare bookseller from @oliversrarebooks

the ashtray from @honeycollectswhump

a new beginning from @a-crumb-of-whump

things end | people change from @whumpcloud

fruit of the wicked from @whumpyourdamnpears

watch your step from @not-a-space-alien

cat and mouse from @t0rture-me

in the woods somewhere by @knivestothroats

ace and hunter by @null-whump

blogs where i literally can't choose just one story because all the writing is exquisite include

@quietly-by-myself

@pigeonwhumps

@oddsconvert

@the-bloody-sadist

and @just-a-whumping-racoon-with-wifi

i always feel like i forgot things when i do lists like this but alas. also i can never recommend any media other than blogs because i dont consume anything😭 but i hope i managed to recommend something you end up loving!

(also honestly these people are awesome writers in general so if i recommended one story from them but they have more... or they have oneshots... do check those out. i bet theyre all sooo so so good even if i havent gotten around to reading them all yet)

18. What whump content are you currently craving?

CULT WHUMP!!!!!!! and lady whump of any flavour

#thank you so much :)

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The Rose's Thorns - Complete!

The story is complete and on AO3

#whump #lady whump #trans whump #trans whumpee

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The Rose's Thorns - Complete!

The story is complete and on AO3

#whump #lady whump #trans whump #trans whumpee

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The Rose's Thorns - Complete!

The story is complete and on AO3

#whump #lady whump #trans whump #trans whumpee

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The Rose's Thorns - Complete!

The story is complete and on AO3

#whump #lady whump #trans whump #trans whumpee

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I'm debating leaving my blog as an archive. I might move exclusively to AO3 and stop posting on here, except for links to my AO3. I've come to realize that my work is too adult for this website and that Tumblr is moving in a direction that is fundamentally unfriendly to my work. If you do not already know, I have previously been shadowbanned. I'm scared of it happening again or getting my account nuked. I don't want to be on a platform that would censor my dark-themed writing. I also, as much as I love my mutuals, find Tumblr to be stressful these days.

Anyway, I'm going to start working on building my AO3. Thank you for listening to this ramble.

#whump discourse #whump

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Hayden's Story

Hi!

First two chapters of Hayden's story are up. Chapter 3 is in editing, but Chapters 4 & 5 are ready to go! Once Chapter 3 is finished with editing, the rest of the story will go up! I appreciate your support.

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Hayden's Story

Hi!

First two chapters of Hayden's story are up. Chapter 3 is in editing, but Chapters 4 & 5 are ready to go! Once Chapter 3 is finished with editing, the rest of the story will go up! I appreciate your support.

#whump #whump writing #whump fic

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Hi! I wanted to thank you for creating Hayden. I don't think I've ever read about a character that experiences dysphoria, binds, takes T, but still uses she/her pronouns. It hit something in me because that might be somewhere I'm headed. I'm glad I got to read that first chapter, and I look forward to reading the rest on AO3 someday - though, if you end up never posting it, I'd respect that too. I understand you've had a fraught relationship with posting your work.

I hope you are well and that writing is bringing you joy and catharsis.

Hi Anon!

First, thank you for this ask. As a queer person, I can think of few higher honors than helping someone along their personal queer journey. Truly, this touched me. People like you are why I write characters like Hayden.

Hayden has had her own journey. She would call herself a trans lesbian if asked, which I know could be controversial to some. However, having interacted with a lot of transgender people with varying expressions and backgrounds, I've learned a lot about how people express themselves.

I want to tell you Anon, I know multiple trans she/hers that take T, experience dysphoria, and pursue gender affirming surgeries. I know some he/hims who have never taken T and never will take T. Gender cannot be broken down to pronouns. It's so much more expansive, so much more complex than any Tumblr post or one person can tell you. You are not alone Anon. I promise you up and down that just because you don't see yourself in the media you consume, that there aren't other people like you.

Hayden was written from a place of love for people who don't fit into the mold, partially because I'm one of them. In my closet is a dress with sandals and men's dress pants, dress shirt, suit, and shoes. I feel a deep need to represent people I don't see represented because I'll tell you, I've never seen anyone like me in media before.

I hope you find happiness, Anon. I hope you find peace. I hope you find yourself and you love yourself for who you are, whatever or whoever that might be. Remember that you're not alone. You're never alone. One more thing - you're worth it. Once you find yourself, whether that's you on T or not, binding or not, you will be so glad that you did. Even if it's hard right now, it gets better. It's a cliche thing to say, I know, but speaking as someone who's known they were queer for 8-9 years, it does get so, so much better than when you're first out there.

And, speaking strictly as a writer, I wrote Hayden for you. I wrote Hayden for everyone like you who needed to see themselves out there. You make writing and posting worth it.

Regarding Hayden's story: I'm editing the first draft. I want to put more work than I usually do into this one because there are some pacing issues later on. However, it's 100% written and will be posted eventually.

I'm as well as I can be right now, Anon. This journey of writing Hayden and her story has been so beyond cathartic. So thank you for that too, Anon.

#reblog for those who need it

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Hi! I wanted to thank you for creating Hayden. I don't think I've ever read about a character that experiences dysphoria, binds, takes T, but still uses she/her pronouns. It hit something in me because that might be somewhere I'm headed. I'm glad I got to read that first chapter, and I look forward to reading the rest on AO3 someday - though, if you end up never posting it, I'd respect that too. I understand you've had a fraught relationship with posting your work.

I hope you are well and that writing is bringing you joy and catharsis.

Hi Anon!

First, thank you for this ask. As a queer person, I can think of few higher honors than helping someone along their personal queer journey. Truly, this touched me. People like you are why I write characters like Hayden.

Hayden has had her own journey. She would call herself a trans lesbian if asked, which I know could be controversial to some. However, having interacted with a lot of transgender people with varying expressions and backgrounds, I've learned a lot about how people express themselves.

I want to tell you Anon, I know multiple trans she/hers that take T, experience dysphoria, and pursue gender affirming surgeries. I know some he/hims who have never taken T and never will take T. Gender cannot be broken down to pronouns. It's so much more expansive, so much more complex than any Tumblr post or one person can tell you. You are not alone Anon. I promise you up and down that just because you don't see yourself in the media you consume, that there aren't other people like you.

Hayden was written from a place of love for people who don't fit into the mold, partially because I'm one of them. In my closet is a dress with sandals and men's dress pants, dress shirt, suit, and shoes. I feel a deep need to represent people I don't see represented because I'll tell you, I've never seen anyone like me in media before.

I hope you find happiness, Anon. I hope you find peace. I hope you find yourself and you love yourself for who you are, whatever or whoever that might be. Remember that you're not alone. You're never alone. One more thing - you're worth it. Once you find yourself, whether that's you on T or not, binding or not, you will be so glad that you did. Even if it's hard right now, it gets better. It's a cliche thing to say, I know, but speaking as someone who's known they were queer for 8-9 years, it does get so, so much better than when you're first out there.

And, speaking strictly as a writer, I wrote Hayden for you. I wrote Hayden for everyone like you who needed to see themselves out there. You make writing and posting worth it.

Regarding Hayden's story: I'm editing the first draft. I want to put more work than I usually do into this one because there are some pacing issues later on. However, it's 100% written and will be posted eventually.

I'm as well as I can be right now, Anon. This journey of writing Hayden and her story has been so beyond cathartic. So thank you for that too, Anon.

#anon #asks #long post

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Took down the story. I'm going to post it to AO3 when I'm done with it instead. Sorry

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New story is out! I community tagged it for drug addiction and sexual themes, so please turn those on if you'd like to see it.

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I have a lady/trans whump story that I've been writing for the hell of it. It is very 18+ and has a lot of mature themes. Are y'all interested?

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Hey y'all. It's been almost a month.

I've been using this break to begin relearning to write for myself. I've used it to heal from some shit that happened. I've used it to also stop doom scrolling and realize that I can't fix the world's problems. That I can't fight a war or change people's minds on my own. That to constantly kick against the stream is exhausting and that I'm not cut out for that.

I'm going to continue writing for myself. I'll see if I return and keep everyone here updated.

Thanks for 400 followers by the way! I'm also sorry for keeping everyone waiting. I'm okay. I hope y'all are too.

#blog update

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Re: this

I've decided that I'm going to be logging out of Tumblr for a while. I'm on Discord, to mutuals who want to keep contact, I'll be on there.

I think seeing the ableism and cliquey way this community runs itself is negatively impacting my mental health to the point where I'm too anxious.

I can no longer function due to my anxiety in part due to the constant exposure to blatant and uncritically loved ableism.

See you on the flip side, everyone.

Ableism in the whump community is borderline making me leave it. I haven't talked a lot about it, but I'm kind of tired of seeing my life put out there as "uwu hurt prompts."

I have so many things I won't list them here. But many of them end up on prompt lists in a very disrespectful way. And honestly? Every time a disabled person brings it up, we're ignored. So, whump community, fix your ableism problem.

I am also not a trigger warning. So stop that too please. My body is not body horror and I'm tired of the whump community treating it like it is. I've had someone from the community tell me that my body is body horror inspo. There's so many things I can talk about but do not want to say.

I don't fight wars. I'm just tired.

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Ableism in the whump community is borderline making me leave it. I haven't talked a lot about it, but I'm kind of tired of seeing my life put out there as "uwu hurt prompts."

I have so many things I won't list them here. But many of them end up on prompt lists in a very disrespectful way. And honestly? Every time a disabled person brings it up, we're ignored. So, whump community, fix your ableism problem.

I am also not a trigger warning. So stop that too please. My body is not body horror and I'm tired of the whump community treating it like it is. I've had someone from the community tell me that my body is body horror inspo. There's so many things I can talk about but do not want to say.

I don't fight wars. I'm just tired.

#disability in whump #whump discourse #disabled whump #whump

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i appreciate you

people with Deaf accent

people with speech impediments

people who are semi speaking

people who are non speaking

people who are unable to be understood

people who use AAC

people who need help to speak

people who are selectively mute

people who need surgeries for speech

people who use signed language

people who communicate through sounds

people with electrolarynx

disabled people with speech problems or accents as a result of their disability

<3

#migraine-induced aphasia