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Would be sick to disappear completely and start a new life but the whole AI tracking your face and biometric data, social media tracking us all and those pesky little numbers that identify us are getting in the way.

I wish I was born sooner so reinventing myself was easier.

#KindaHatingMyLifeRN #trauma

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i am completely fine in an “i have been mentally unwell for years” kinda way

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I saw it coming but at the same time I didn't because I didn't believe the world could possibly be that fucking cruel.

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What do you mean that everyone's not passively suicidal? I thought that was just the ✨human experience✨

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On todays soul crushing realizations…

Above Ground, Clint Smith

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slut era (only wants to belong to someone and feel loved)

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Well that’s not very in love with me of you

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turns out that being compassionate towards myself during moments of uncertainty and stress is the best thing i can do for myself

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It’s because you’re always on that damn journey of self-discovery.

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So today an all ages drag event at the pride center in my city (Melbourne Aus) was cancelled due to threats from nazi groups like the proud boys. The community had been gearing up to counterprotest and drown them out, but at the end of the day the risk was deemed not worth it to all those queer kids and the event was cancelled.

This is fucking horrifying to me on a very personal level. This is the third such incident that I've been aware of in my city in recent months - the first was an event that I was a vendor at, a youth pride at a library, where fash protested at the doors. The second was across the road from my house, at a festival that just happened to include a drag performance, where nazis showed up and screamed from the sidelines. This third time, the event was cancelled before the threat could become tangible, and it was directed at our actual community pride center.

That community center is my home. I am there every single month as a vendor at the long-established queer markets. I am going to be there even more, soon, to join the queer community radio and broadcast station as a volunteer and podcaster. People I love are there every day. My community is there every day. The people who work there are all community members. They're people who survived the aids crisis. They're 40 year old trans women. They're 20 year old queers getting involved in activism for the first time. They are people I know, and people I don't know but consider my family anyway. I feel so much at home when I'm in this space, surrounded by my people.

All of these people, all the years of community resources that have been built for us, all of this is under incredible threat right now. Not just in my city. The rise of facism is trying to strangle us out. We can not let this happen.

What can I do?

- Get connected to your local queer community. This will be more relevant for big city areas, but don't discount the power of rural queer groups! Go on Facebook (yes, Facebook) and search for "[city] [trans/queer/bi/etc]" and see what pops up. For example I am in Melbourne trans fam, Melbourne bi network, melbourne aces+, Australian nonbinary community etc groups. Many of these groups will have discord servers as well. Connect. Converse. Make friends and find out what is happening around you. This is the one thing Facebook is great for. Go to events, follow local artists, stay connected. You will hear about it if something like this is going down. You will be given ways to help.

- Learn self defence. I cannot stress enough that you should try to learn at least a few self defence techniques in times like this, especially if you are visibly trans/queer.

- Do not go looking for a fight. If you're going to an event where there is risk, don't try to antagonise nazis. Stay away, travel in groups, and stay aware. Don't let them ruin your fun, but don't lose track of your surroundings. Stay safe.

These are just the things that I can think of right now. The most important thing is staying connected and knowing what's happening in the community around you. We need to protect ourselves by protecting each other, and we need to stand firm. Our family is hurting. We need to protect it.

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Who needs friends when you can cry alone in the dark?

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Between Al making literally porn of you without your consent, your information being hoarded and sold to the highest bigger, companies having control over this country, liars cheats and thieves telling us how we have to live our lives, love not being real and people just using you for how much they can gain from you socially,emotionally, physically and monetarily, the housing market being a scam and having a home being unreachable now, and jobs not paying a living wage and continuing to exploit us all…

Yeah idk if I wanna be here anymore. Life fkn blows.

#suit and tie #actually autistic #audhd #actually mentally ill #social climbing #trauma #i want to kms #suitstyle #tw sui vent #tw depressing stuff #tw trama #anarec1a

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the commodification of friendship is the most annoying thing to come out of the internet in ages. like actually i love to break this to you but you're supposed to help your friends move even if it's hard work. or stay up with them when they're sad even if you're gonna lose sleep. you're supposed to listen to their fears and sorrows even if it means your own mind takes on a little bit of that weight. that's how you know that you care. they will drive you to the airport and then you will make them soup when they're sick. you're supposed to make small sacrifices for them and they are supposed to do that for you. and there's actually gonna be rough patches for both of you where the balance will be uneven and you will still be friends and it will not be unhealthy and they will not be abusive. life is not meant to be an endless prioritization of our own comfort if it was we would literally never get anywhere ever. jesus.