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oblivious to everything rn

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Leave imitating my lifes fall

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Winter be leaving, but me with the running nose and a hammering headache

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Jesse Hsu for Vogue Taiwan, photo by Zhong Lin

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I am in his mind he can't erase me

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The uneasiness is eternal and the anxiety is incurable. Enjoy

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The first puff I had from this..

5 yo .. coughed and out of breath. Lol

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It's November 1st, and I m already cryin

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Quietness sustains me.

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Self harm doesn’t always happen when a blade touches skin.

It’s skipping meals because you don’t feel like you deserve to eat today. It’s having sex because you want to be used or abused or defiled. It’s drinking recklessly because you might have the ‘courage’ do something stupid. It’s smoking - not because you need the nicotine - because you know it’s bad for you. It’s banging your head against a wall when you’re angry. It’s crossing the road without looking because you lowkey hope a car might hit you. It’s thinking about all the ways you could break a bone and make it look like an accident. It’s not taking painkillers because you want to suffer. It’s taking painkillers in excess because you know it’s dangerous. It’s walking home the more dangerous way because you’re kind of half hoping you’ll get attacked or raped or stabbed. It’s going for long walks at night and getting chilled to the bone and hoping that you get lost so that you can’t find your way back. It’s seeking out triggering material. It’s all the stupid little ways you punish yourself for existing.

Sometimes self harm happens when you put effort into depriving yourself of things you like or need, and sometimes it happens when you don’t put any effort into doing the things you like or need.

It’s a pattern of self-destructive behaviour, and it doesn’t only happen in one way.

This sort of behavior is classified as “para-suicidal” It’s putting yourself in a situation of danger or destruction with the intention of risking your safety rather than a direct attempt on your life. Kind of, leaving it all to chance? Also doing things to harm yourself or your self worth because you feel you deserve to feel the outcome of those actions.

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The peace I have now is worth everything & everyone I had to leave behind.

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Ada Limón, from “Too Close”, The Hurting Kind

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they say everyone is for themselves,

i was for everyone but for my self

#tw self destruction #self care #self worth #poetry #quotes

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To the fall waiting after October

May you be nice and not bone wrenching

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