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my God, why have you forsaken me?

#Alien Stage #alnst #fanart #MiziSua #don't worry ya'll they're gunna get a happy ever after #let's keep inhaling that copium delulu

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MLC Amnesia Fic (What's Sealed Away)

It was one thing to know what his qi felt like in his meridians–although he didn’t know what his neili was called, only that it had a name–and to know that, if he started running his sword forms, his arms and legs would guide him where his mind couldn’t. Muscle memory felt familiar. Reliable. But this? This free-floating knowledge, not connected with any event, any memory, any movement or motion? Just facts appearing in his mind? Assertions he was supposed to accept unquestioningly as truth? With no memory of how he learned them? Nothing to prove their validity? He clenched his hand around his dao’s scabbard. There had to be a better way than this.

NOTES:

I had a ton of feels about the differences between DFS and a-Fei, different types of memory and what is and isn’t lost in the sheer mindfuckery that is amnesia (very loosely inspired by my own experiences with amnesia), and a desire to explain some of the weird behaviors in the amnesia arc (why a-Fei spends so much time away from everyone else in the Mountains Red arc–-which LLH justifies with a lie about a-Fei sleeping instead, why LLH never tells FDB that it’s dangerous and painful for a-Fei to get his memories back, etc.), and thus this fic was born.

TW/CW: amnesia, body horror (finding the mind control bug), panic attack (to skip the panic attack, stop at “he pressed his shaking hands against the sheets” and start again at “His pulse finally started to slow.”)

Thanks to @momosandlemonsoda for being an amazing beta reader!!

Relationship: Di Feisheng/Li Lianhua (with hints of future difanghua)

#Mysterious Lotus Casebook #!!!! #congrats!!!! #queued to bring attention to this for the latecomers!!

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once again, i am thinking about how they're literally the funniest people alive:

in the face of serious situations, what do they have? JOKES

bbc merlin - 03x06 The Changeling

only just about a singular braincell between them and it's mostly used for comedy (not that i'm complaining)

#merlin (bbc) #honestly one of my fav things is that the Merlin fandom never dies

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Reblog with your score

#30! only #would be more if it counted 'watch people play in front of me' #lol i make friends and family play video games when I just want to backseat game

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yet another reason to get firefox

#omg wait #would this encourage or discourage me to shop lololol #either way that's amazing

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Throwback thursday to when I was like 12 and I was putting out new writing DAILY...... Like entire Chapters of my then-current wips just, over an afternoon. What the fuck was I on

#adulting i guess #yeah i used to churn out fanfic chapters like crazy #and i was so busy back then #literally woke up at 5am to write #that was My Time (tm) #now I can spend all my free time and it takes forever to finish a single chapter #AMVs? Takes me weeks

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time for doomed yuri with an iconic pose

sua by @pantherfam-blog

#Alien Stage #alnst #MiziSua #fanart #oooh that's beautiful and classic!

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a little comic for funsies ^^

[1] - [2] - [3]

check it out for free or if you wish to throw a coin at your screen, you can do it here

#The S-Classes That I Raised #SCTIR #fanart #YOOHYUNIE! YOOHYUNAH! #i want to give him a hug but he doesn't like to be touched #this comic is PERFECT #absolutely PERFECT #I feel like every time I see criticism for pre-regression Yoohyun I can just gesture aggressively here #I support all of his rights and wrongs he tried his best

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a little comic for funsies ^^

[1] - [2] - [3]

check it out for free or if you wish to throw a coin at your screen, you can do it here

#The S-Classes That I Raised #SCTIR #fanart #WEEPING CRYING THIS IS PERFECT #it's so so good #Yoohyun's mental state and the reactions of people around him #just how trapped he is #😭😭😭

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a little comic for funsies ^^

[1] - [2] - [3]

check it out for free or if you wish to throw a coin at your screen, you can do it here

#The S-Classes That I Raised #SCTIR #fanart #SCREAMING??? #op spare my life hfjdsa #this is so so amazing #YOOHYUN 😭😭😭 #not to be a Yoojin kinnie but pls he is just a bby

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worst part about getting angry is how much it makes you want to be mean

#omg yah and i'm sorry to everyone in my life #ESPECIALLY with sensory overload #it's like being hangry or something #the more overwhelmed i get the more i want to punch people #i am glad to say i haven't yet

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...I was on guarantee, this wasn't a surprise. What was a surprise, though, was getting her at 23 pity! First 10 pull, bay-beee~

So I decided to try my luck on her weapon. You know. Like a chump. Because now I had some pulls in reserve.

68 pity later, and I am a FOOL.

I should have known-- I should have known. I always get bows!! orz

Okay, okay. I can redeem this, I thought. I don't have Lyney. Heck, my only pyro archer is Amber! I can try for Lyney!

...I don't know what I expected, but I'm all out of primos now.

#Genshin Impact #adventures in gacha #aka don't do it kids #I did over 100 pulls #when I could have stopped at 10 #that's c4 Jean now #gunna rival my c5 Keqing and Diluc soon #STOP and give me Dehya insteadddd just one!! #guess whose weapons banner streak is screwing her over? THIS gal! #I counted-- my last 5 weapons were pushing hard pity #...this is karma for me laughing about my 5 weapons BEFORE that being in the green and yellows #but also!! Genshin!! Stop!! Giving!! Me!! Bows!!!!!

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“it sounds like you’re justifying their actions-“ i am. they’re a fictional character. i’m okay with anything they do all the time. hope this helps.

#this is it #that difference between fiction and reality #there are people who can see it #and there are people who can't

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My Clematis

#Alien Stage #alnst #MiziSua #fanart #i'm just gunna... i'm just gunna sit in a corner #they are so bright so sweet

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!!! Thank you for the clarification! I never really understood what happened, although to be fair back then I wasn't ready to hear anything other than whether it would be okay or not.

Gosh that really does explain a lot of things back then!

#!!!

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My round 7 prediction

#Alien Stage #alnst #fanart #all my roomie and i want is for Till to shove Luka off the stage #with those really raised platforms #i mean obviously they'll be separated (esp after the last two rounds) #but that's what we're gunning for lol

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MYSTERIOUS LOTUS CASEBOOK 莲花楼 — 2023, dir. Guo Hu, Ren Hai Tao @userdramas​ event 16: fools @asiandramanet creator bingo - quote & transition   

#Mysterious Lotus Casebook #this is the truth #Lotus Tower Trio