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If I detach from those who make me unhappy, I fear there will be nothing and no one left.

#musings

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Is there even a heart left to break??

‘how many times can the same thing break your heart?’

as long as you love it.

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But they aren't willing to do much for you. So you get hurt a whole freaking lot.

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Why are sorcerers supposed to be evil? What counts as magic?

What makes something evil?

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“She may have looked normal on the outside, but once you’d seen her handwriting you knew she was deliciously complicated inside.”

— Jeffrey Eugenides, The Marriage Plot

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Curse be upon the brother who lets others carry him without trying.

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I have nothing more I want for myself in this world.

All that I want, I want for them. But they wouldn't work for it...wouldn't be stronger so they can get it without my help...They let me do the heavy lifting...

I had a life before. I had one. It was full of hope and dreams and aspirations.

They killed it.

They killed me.

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God,

Can I just stop?

Please.

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Hey dad,

I'm not you.

I'm not you.

So then why ...

do they let me carry the things you did?

Dad,

You saw me as a child.

So you took the load without complains.

You didn't even let me see how heavy it is or what you were carrying.

Thank you.

Thank you.

How hard it must have been for you.

Sorry you had to do it alone.

Thank you.

Thank you.

The last day you were alive was the last day I felt like a child.

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Mothers why do you let your children pay for your own incompetence?

Why?

Why??

Why???

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Maybe if I die, he'll regret it.

Not being a good enough brother.

But that isn't my burden anymore if I am dead.

It isn't my job to help him anymore if I am dead.

No, that would be him suffering the consequences of his actions when I was alive.

Past tense.

Past tense.

#spilled thoughts #spilled ink

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If someone is there with you, and you cried out...but they ignored it, they still let you do the hard parts alone, they still pushed you to do what you wouldn't choose to do if you have the luxury of a choice, if they still didn't do what you ask them to (which is help themselves, support themselves, play their part)...

do you keep crying?

Cause I just stopped.

I just stopped.

#musings #feelings #self #dear eldest daughter #eldest daughter

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It really is exactly the same color as Your Highness’s eyes. Just wearing this ring makes me feel like I can accomplish anything. What do you think? Yes. It puts me in an even better mood than I’d imagine. - 7th Time Loop - Episode 12

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