shinahinami

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i did it. i finally ruined the progress i made in the last 11 months

[shinahinami]

i think im gonna relapse soon. i made it to 11 months.. thats enough right :( i cant do it anymore

[shinahinami]

i rlly need a hug

[shinahinami]

i feel sick

[shinahinami]

i want someone else to hurt me so i dont need to do it myself and make everyone dissapointed in me

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[shinahinami]

i was doing better what happened

[shinahinami]

i wanna rip put all my hair fuck im so dumb

[shinahinami]

he hates you he hates you

hes only going out with you cuz you practically begged him

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[shinahinami]

im overweight so i rlly do need to focus more on my diet.. and exercise..

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[shinahinami]

i didnt oversexualize myself but he likes me?! so happy rn. maybe i can actually be liked for something other than sexual desire.

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[shinahinami]

im fucking done i cant keep this up i need to cvt i need to or else im gonna keep having these terrible thoughts

#personal vent #vent blog #trauma vent #s3lfh4rm #tw self destructive behavior #tw s3lf harm #tw cvtting #s3lfharmm

[shinahinami]

i just cant keep fighting this its getting too hard.

im not even upset or anything.

nothing particularly triggering has happened?

i just cant keep fighting the urge

#personal vent #vent blog #s3lfh4rm #tw self destructive behavior #tw s3lf harm #trauma vent #s3lfharmm #tw cvtting

[shinahinami]

maybe i will get better if i just sh this once its been 8 months ive been consumed by the urge to do it and the fighting agaisnt that urge has left me too tired to even get out of bed

please i need it to be ok to mess up

#personal vent #vent blog #bpd vent #s3lfh4rm #tw s3lf harm #tw cvtting #s3lfharmm #tw self destructive behavior

[shinahinami]

I’m like a yandere but I don’t do all that stuff I’m normal

[shinahinami]

no no no please no

i was getting better i was i was so close

its starting to get hard to get out of bed

please no ill stop trying too hard so i won't be as tired just please don't ruin my progress

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[shinahinami]

shut up shut up shut up shut up

leave leave leave leave leave

go away go away go away go away

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