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thinking about my favorite tragedy sisters for the first time in a while

#beautiful aaa #crystar #queue

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Sofia and Karina

#rune factory #queue

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you never hear anyone say "awawawa" anymore

#kumasawa umineko

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#</3 #queue

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This one made part of the otome fandom a bit angry, but no one can stop my Even if Tempest OTP brainrot so of course I'm sharing

#it's so good!!! they're a great ship #even if tempest #queue #i don't know why otome fans are so mad about this kind of thing sigh

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*twirls hair* so there’s this inquisitor 🤭

#even if tempest #queue

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Anything for a happy ending

#even if tempest #queue

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You forget everything.

#art #rabbits #queue

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im certainly not a wonderful saintly christian by any means but idk at the end of the day i read the bible and pray and go to church and talk to people about God because i think knowing God is a worthwhile, meaningful, and rewarding thing.

but some people seem to just not view it that way and i find it very hard to wrap my head around all the underlying assumptions that lead them to beat themselves up for not reading the bible enough or, going cold turkey on movies because they're more entertaining than praying etc. but i guess i think that like, wanting to know God shouldn't be a struggle or constantly beating yourself up or guilting yourself into doing more Religious Things.

ok sure, a certain amount of discipline is kinda necessary for anything you want to do that's worthwhile. a writer needs to push themself to write sometimes. an artist needs to push themself to paint sometimes. even relationships-wise sometimes a parent needs to push themself to wake up early and drive their kid to saturday sport or whatever.

but i feel like your ultimate goal should still be something you genuinely want in a positive, joyful way. if you sometimes need to nudge yourself to read the bible everyday, but it's because you do overall want to deepen your faith, that totally makes sense; it's no different from making yourself run on a day you kinda don't want to because your ultimate goal is a marathon.

but when people view the whole thing as this weird internal struggle where God stuff is threatened by the allures of the world and whatnot it just... seems like an attitude towards faith that has problems at it root.

admittedly i kinda have it easy atm bc i have an autistic special interest in the bible and theology but. idk. it doesnt have to be 'ohno all these other things are dragging my attention away from the bible and prayer and etc' it can be 'ok, what are some ways i can learn more about the bible in an interesting way? what are some different types of prayer i could try?' or even 'am i actually driven by wanting to love God, or do I just feel pressured to be doing this?'

#religion

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PRACTICE URGE SURFING

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#low key i have a masters (sigh) #going to go back to school next year for something more useful dfjhkfdfd #queue

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I hate when people try to be some kinda funnyman in response to powerful art. Maybe you should just earnestly feel things once in a while, babe.

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You know what people don’t talk about often enough? Playing catch up in life after spending your teens or early 20s suicidally depressed. There’s so many more layers than just being able to say “I don’t want to die anymore.”

The difficulty in academia or a career after spending years thinking you wouldn’t be alive long enough for any of it to matter.

The exhaustion that comes from self awareness and self soothing, with the constant voice in your head saying “don’t go backwards.”

How lonely it is to watch the people your age starting families when you’re just barely learning what stable relationships are, and the sudden societal pressure of being “up against a clock” for these kinds of things.

The judgement from others if you change your image or interests this late in the game just because you finally figured out who you really are under the demons.

Be kind to those who are developing and blooming after years of not planning on being here long. We are living a life we absolutely didn’t think we’d have, and it’s hard enough without society reminding us there’s expectations of our age.

We didn’t get to be young; we were too busy fighting battles few know.

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Haunted and excited by this being a field of study

#this is so cool aaa #queue

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hey man can i come over and be sickly in the corner of your living room

#me #queue

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Just a reminder that God doesn't love your potential or who you could be someday. He doesn't love some future hypothetical you™ but you as you are right this second, with any and all of your shortcomings and weaknesses. He isn't just holding out until you get to where you "ought" to be. He isn't waiting to bless you and delight in you. He loves you right now.

#religion #to look back on