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So cute. I love it!!

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When they start their relationship it’s like a bull out of the gates. It’s hard and fast. There’s sparks so many emotions and it’s like being high up on cloud nine.

They both easily fit into a routine together. Smiling and bouncing around each other like clockwork. It was like a beautiful little dance they did together each day that ended with cuddling in bed as they fell asleep together.

Ever so slowly the dance would change.

No more shares coffees in the morning. Tony would of made Peter a coffee but it would be cold and stale because it was made at two am.

The laundey was rarely done as Peter always did it when Tony went to fetch the mail and take out the trash but now Peter was taking out the trash.

The sticky notes that they left around the complex for each other started to twinkle and become one sided. Only peter putting up messages and he’d often find them untouched even if tony said he had seen them.

Their two pm calls started being delayed and missed until peter stopped asking. Finding himself feeling guilty and stupid for even asking for such a silly thing in the first place.

Their little cuddles on the terrace when peter had a bad day became peter cuddling a pillow as it stormed over head. Passing out on the deck chairs from crying and panicking.

The little brunches they would have in the lab when tony needed an extra hand or some company came to a stop as tony stopped asking for him. Sometimes peter would bring him sandwiches and would later find them discarded with a grumpy tony mad at him for not having brunch with him even though he had tried and been ignored.

Peter would snap after and tough battle and would scream at the top of his lungs from the bath tub. Tony would barge in with his repulsors and peter would have to explain what happened and the man would just be mad at him for screaming. Peter would be left to cry in the bathtub as Tony returned to his lab.

Peter would just be sitting in beg at three am in the morning with his hand where Tony’s body is meant to be. Silent tears running down his face as he wondered where his future husband was. He knew nothing about him. He was closed off now and unwilling to spend time with him. It was like the train was coming to a hault. Tony had won him over so why would he have to keep crying.

Peter would then become closed off himself. Having to turn to others for support. Like a random person on a discord server that they would talk about Supernatural for hours. Or on tumblr where they’d joke about starting a big ass family in a mansion together. Or on a lgbtq minecraft server where he vented to the only other person on the server about how alone he was even though he was surrounded by people.

“I’m not alone but seeing them not wanting me there makes me feel alone. Like I shouldn’t exist. That it would be better if I stopped showing up.”

And that what peter would do. He’d make himself scarce to protect his fragile heart. He’d slowly move his things back to his old room and tony wouldn’t notice.

He would stop turning up to meeting, stop carrying his phone with him, stop responding to Jarvis, Friday and Karen.

He’d dck behind walls, hide around corners, sneak into empty rooms and climb onto the roof or into the rafters to avoid everyone.

He’d become a ghost to the point that people would forget he was there. The only remind was the little sign on his door that said his name.

He’d end up on the roof somewhere sobbing his eyes out. Just laying on his back with his arms spread out screaming and crying about how his perfect life became a nightmare of his own making.

But he would never leave tony. He was there for whenever the man realised he was gone. For when tony decided to love him so passionately again.

Peter dreamt at night of tony running to him and hugging him for a thousand hours.

He just wanted his man back in his arms. He didn’t need the perfect life back. Just his man and he would be happy.

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Love - Are you an emotional person? Pearls - What is a song that resonates with you?

Yes. Incredibly emotional. But I do have very rare moments where I don’t have any emotions.

Currently that song would be either parents by YUNGBLUD, Killing Butterflies by Lewis Blissett or Ghost by Confetti.

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Honeysuckle - What is your biggest addiction?

People laughing. I love making people laugh. Hi the point I will ruin myself to hear it.

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Clouds - What is your favourite book?

A forest of dreams. It rescued me when no one else could and it gave me my name. Llew.

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Daisies - Do you have a bucket list? What are three things on it?

1. Grow old with my new family.

2. meet the two cosplay groups I said earlier

3. have one of my movies do well.

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What makes you happy?

Cosplaying - I like watching it too. My favourite channels are Square One Cosplay and Cryptid Corner Cosplay. They are all lovely supportive beans.

Writing stories - More recently I’ve been getting back into enjoying writing for myself. Instea did doing it purely to please others.

Drawing and Art - it allows me to zone out and just get away from what I’m doing.

Music - it takes me away.

Taking to friends - I’m currently alone and haven’t really bad any friends so I have a very small amount of human interaction. It’s nice to have someone to talk to.

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18 :)

Are you scared of spiders?

Tiny ones not really unless they are redbacks or white tailed.

But big ones yes. Terrified. I’m Australian. I know the dangerous and I’m afraid.

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Do you want to have kids? How many?

Yeah I do. I don’t really mind and I don’t care if they are real kids or just friends That I’ve stepped in to be their parental figure.

I like caring for someone. It gives me a purpose.

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It’s been a long time.

I’m still alive.

I will be doing stories eventually but I found comfort in an anime called MHA. It brought me closer to my best friend and now I write stories for him to help me feel more confident in my writing.

I’ve started drawing again.

This is Craig. I drew him to be the main character from my first project of my uni course. A Bachelor in Film.

I got away from my toxic home. I live by myself on campus. I struggle to feed myself because I can only walk places and interacting with so many strangers but I’m safe here. People care here.

Like tonight I went to make dinner in the shared kitchen. There was only five people in there but I started to panic. I went outside to hide whilst my food cooked and older guy came out and talked me through it. It’s strange but I understand what people meant by it gets better.

I’m working through a lot of healing right now that I have time to breathe but I will come back and write more stories for starker. But for now feel welcome to send in random questions and I’ll answer them.

-Llew.

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Have you or would you ever be in an asexual relationship?

Sure why not.

But I’m currently in a relationship right now.

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Are you single?

Nope.

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Booo. *hugs*

Who are you

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Please stop ruining my life.

Let me be happy. Please.

If you were the one who sent the message. Please message me. I need to talk to you.

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Hey all who read this.

I’m going to be taking a break from writing stories so all my wips are going to be stopped for now. I have exams next week as well as I’m going through some things. Both my boyfriend and my adoptive father (my internet daddo that decided I was their child) has covid so I am currently logging off from emotions. I’ve been through this once with one of my best friends and I lost them so please don’t be angry with me for taking a break.

I just need a little time.

Love you all - Llew ❤️

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Eh. Go for it.

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?

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Starker Headcanon Blurb Thing #I can’t remember

When they start their relationship it’s like a bull out of the gates. It’s hard and fast. There’s sparks so many emotions and it’s like being high up on cloud nine.

They both easily fit into a routine together. Smiling and bouncing around each other like clockwork. It was like a beautiful little dance they did together each day that ended with cuddling in bed as they fell asleep together.

Ever so slowly the dance would change.

No more shares coffees in the morning. Tony would of made Peter a coffee but it would be cold and stale because it was made at two am.

The laundey was rarely done as Peter always did it when Tony went to fetch the mail and take out the trash but now Peter was taking out the trash.

The sticky notes that they left around the complex for each other started to twinkle and become one sided. Only peter putting up messages and he’d often find them untouched even if tony said he had seen them.

Their two pm calls started being delayed and missed until peter stopped asking. Finding himself feeling guilty and stupid for even asking for such a silly thing in the first place.

Their little cuddles on the terrace when peter had a bad day became peter cuddling a pillow as it stormed over head. Passing out on the deck chairs from crying and panicking.

The little brunches they would have in the lab when tony needed an extra hand or some company came to a stop as tony stopped asking for him. Sometimes peter would bring him sandwiches and would later find them discarded with a grumpy tony mad at him for not having brunch with him even though he had tried and been ignored.

Peter would snap after and tough battle and would scream at the top of his lungs from the bath tub. Tony would barge in with his repulsors and peter would have to explain what happened and the man would just be mad at him for screaming. Peter would be left to cry in the bathtub as Tony returned to his lab.

Peter would just be sitting in beg at three am in the morning with his hand where Tony’s body is meant to be. Silent tears running down his face as he wondered where his future husband was. He knew nothing about him. He was closed off now and unwilling to spend time with him. It was like the train was coming to a hault. Tony had won him over so why would he have to keep crying.

Peter would then become closed off himself. Having to turn to others for support. Like a random person on a discord server that they would talk about Supernatural for hours. Or on tumblr where they’d joke about starting a big ass family in a mansion together. Or on a lgbtq minecraft server where he vented to the only other person on the server about how alone he was even though he was surrounded by people.

“I’m not alone but seeing them not wanting me there makes me feel alone. Like I shouldn’t exist. That it would be better if I stopped showing up.”

And that what peter would do. He’d make himself scarce to protect his fragile heart. He’d slowly move his things back to his old room and tony wouldn’t notice.

He would stop turning up to meeting, stop carrying his phone with him, stop responding to Jarvis, Friday and Karen.

He’d dck behind walls, hide around corners, sneak into empty rooms and climb onto the roof or into the rafters to avoid everyone.

He’d become a ghost to the point that people would forget he was there. The only remind was the little sign on his door that said his name.

He’d end up on the roof somewhere sobbing his eyes out. Just laying on his back with his arms spread out screaming and crying about how his perfect life became a nightmare of his own making.

But he would never leave tony. He was there for whenever the man realised he was gone. For when tony decided to love him so passionately again.

Peter dreamt at night of tony running to him and hugging him for a thousand hours.

He just wanted his man back in his arms. He didn’t need the perfect life back. Just his man and he would be happy.

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Hey everyone! A dear friend of mine has a cat who is sick and in the hospital. She’s started a go fund me in hopes of some financial support for her lil’ baby.

If you have the means please please help. If you’re unable to, please share :) it would mean a great deal to me, no pet deserves to be sick!

The gofundme link for Moses the cat is here