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h2llish · 2 months

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#i can feel my depression getting to meagain #i'm gonna have a episode i cna tell #i was doing good thoswhy #❝ ও rants დ „

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h2llish · 3 months

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man i like need serious therapy. and even though i do go i can't tell them shit :/

#❝ ও rants დ „#why would you send me to get help if you're just gonna make me lie???#i hate my mother sometimes istg #and i'll listen and lie because i care about my fucking siblings #even though i could care less about what happens to my mother and her husband if i did say shit #“but you're fine!”#thoughts and actions say fucking otherwise

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h2llish · 3 months

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mushroom passionate (jade) meet toxic flower passionate

he learns exactly what it's like to have someone genuinely into his interests and he's trying not to show that he's feeling rather giddy inside about it. and then he learns about their own passion in toxic flowers and now he's the one asking questions and they're excitedly explaining just as he had been about mushrooms.

#❝ ও rambles დ „#floyd is just happy jade doesn't talk his ear off as much anymore #everyone is scared cause jade seems excited about something and they think they're all in trouble #when it's just jade coming back from visiting his new friend #let the man rant about his fixation on mushrooms #jade leech

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h2llish · 3 months

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only three people outside my friend group actually reach out to talk to me. they don't just come to me when they need to rant like everyone else. if i don't reach out myself everyone else would only talk to me through the gc we have. they just see me as someone they can rant to or come to if they need advice for a personal matter. i hate it :/

#i need new friends #i want new friends #but when i tried making a new friend i was confessed to and had my boundaries ignored #wonderful #❝ ও rants დ „

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h2llish · 2 months

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i woke up with another headache. it's not as bad as it could be. maybe i just need to eat something.

#i'm honestly so tired #feel like i'm making this shit up #i feel like i make a lot of shit up about mmyself #depression anxiety adhd and ocd all of that shit #i feel like it's all made up #like a part of meknows it's not and i do need the medication i take for it #i think #ugh fuck this im so tired #❝ ও rants დ „

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h2llish · 3 months

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i'm so fucking exhausted and i hate it

#mentally drained and completely fucked atp #❝ ও rants დ „

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h2llish · 3 months

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i won't get sad again i refuse. i hate it.

#❝ ও rants დ „

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h2llish · 3 months

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one of my friends thought it'd be funny to worry me and otherwise make me panic. idk why he thought that i don't see how something like that would be funny. he made me panic about a fake interaction with him and my bsf, making me think my best friend was in a really bad mental space?? he said they said all these terrible things about themself and naturally i got worried and went to check on them.

my bsf told me about what he was doing. and :/

he apologized; said he didn't think i'd react like that?? idk i accepted his apology but i'm still a little upset. i just don't see what's funny about something like that.

#i feel hard about people who are important to me #i worry a lot and i'll believe anything if it hints at any type of harm #i don't see how it's funny #why would it be funny?? i know more people would find that funny but i don't get it #❝ ও rants დ „

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h2llish · 3 months

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i don't like people touching me but man i kinda want a hug rn

#❝ ও speaks დ „#❝ ও rants დ „#<- ??

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h2llish · 3 months

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I RHINK I MIFHT BE GETTING OVER THEM IM NOT SO SAD WHEN I THINK OG THEM

#thsi might be a lie actually #i wouldn't know shit about feelings #i'll know how over them i am on v-day because that's when we stared dating lmao #❝ ও rants დ „

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h2llish · 3 months

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being aroaceflux and explaining that to someone is so shitty.

telling this guy i've been in one relationship with the first person i felt strong romantic attraction for, and how i still hold that romantic attraction is tough. because he assumed that means i can like him even though i explained several times that that won't happen.

because i . . . 1) am still in love with my ex. 2) have only ever been attracted to one person in my life, my ex. 3) will not seek romantic anything because i don't want that right now, and that may not change. 4) i just don't see me liking him in that sense, ever.

yet he still flirted and treated it as if this was something that would lead to romance.

at some point in our convos, he made sexual comments, and i had to tell him that i don't like discussing sexual topics that aren't jokes with close friends. i set boundaries but he ignored them even when i nicely placed them and reminded him of them.

he then proceeded to make more sexual comments despite my boundaries. i had to remind him i don't feel sexual attraction towards other people.

anyways i blocked him. i only wanted a friend, and i'm upset i let him keep talking and pushing boundaries but i really just wanted someone to talk to. this sucks.

#❝ ও rants დ „#yes i'm aromantic yes i've been romantically in love with someone #that does not make my identity any less valid??#nor does that mean i will be attracted to someone again #it took 2-3?? years before i fell in love with my ex and i'm still attracted to them #i actually am so upset about this #i just want friends :(#i feel bad cuz i didn't warn him #but i was so uncomfortable

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h2llish · 4 months

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remind me to never gain romantic feelings for someone again

#❝ ও rants დ „#ik that's not something you can like control... right?#but i sure can try #spoken by an aroace(flux) dumbass whose only ever been in love with their ex and it still in love with them #i'm moving on tho! the feelings aren't as strong... i think #i'm trying

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h2llish · 4 months

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sometimes my friends make me sad

#like my depression is so ugh :/#i love them #but they make me sad sometimes #❝ ও rants დ „#i want friends who won't make me sad all the time

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