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Part Two of Count My Little Scars has officially been started! Time for Alternate Reality vs. Hospital times...
Evan Buckley has a schedule whether he likes it or not. Typically, it’s firmly in the not column, the man all but ready to climb out of his skin when his alarm goes off in the morning. It’s like he’s ready to vibrate out of his skin at all times, an unrest buzzing that he can’t quite put a name to. Pulling the collar of his shirt away from his neck, he tries not to fidget, but finds it difficult. It’s worse than most days, like the ones where Evan nearly goes to his secret storage unit on Bullfinch Ave. where he keeps his bike out of the watchful eyes of those around him.
“Evan, stop fidgeting.” Margaret whispers as she passes him, carrying a bottle of wine that she had just procured from the fridge. “Your collar’s fine.”
Evan disagrees, but he knows there’s really no use arguing. It feels like it’s choking him, holding his throat until he can’t breathe, but he wonders if that is just how he’s felt his entire life. The figure next to him nudges his side and gives him a look that clearly states ‘can you believe we have to do this?’ which makes him feel a little better, but he places his hands under the table and sits on them all the same.
The entire situation is weird. They barely traveled growing up, and now the entire Buckley clan is around a table in an AirBnb in Los Angeles, pretending that this is something that happens regularly. Sitting on his hands is helping settle the nerves, Evan doing his best to breathe through his nose.
He has a schedule. And rules. These were often explained rather forcefully when he was younger, but somehow the railings became natural as life went on. He spent his life unable to breathe, ready to crawl out of his skin, and that was okay because it was what was expected of him. Because there was no room for anything else.
“I want to make a toast.” Phillip says, scooting the chair out from the table, the wood scraping against the tiles, scratching at Evan’s ears. “For this momentous occasion.”
At five in the morning, Evan’s alarm goes off. He presses the snooze button exactly one time, eventually rolling his exhausted body out of bed and down the stairs to Maddie’s old room, that his parents converted to a gym when she moved out.
“We all know why we’re here and in L.A., but—” Phillip chokes for a moment, coughing into his hand. Evan can see the water in his eyes and for a moment remembers why he does everything he does. “But this has been a long time coming. I think we can all agree.” Those around the table laugh.
After running for forty-five minutes, Evan switches to weights. He tries to keep as quiet as he can while his family sleeps, setting the heavier and heavier weights down gently after each rep. He goes until his muscles scream, until the buzzing under his skin quiets. Until the voices that he’s fought in his head his entire like stop scream.
“We are here, not for our first time in a hospital,” Phillip continues and the laughter continues. “Certainly not our first. But for a special one. Because our Daniel is finally getting his transplant!”
Whoops around the table grow and Evan has to do his best not to flinch at the noise, his hands starting to lose feeling. Daniel turns to him, a half-hearted smile on his face, like he knows. His older brother always has, no matter the situation. It’s enough to quell that voice in his head that is a little too vicious, a little too loud for his own well-being. Parts.
“All the tests, all the waiting—”
Waiting. Evan tilts his head down. It isn’t an explicit dig at him, but enough to sting. It would’ve been sooner, if he hadn’t broken the schedule and been a little bit reckless. Always reckless. Selfish. Not thinking of what he was made for.
After working out, Evan takes a shower and quickly grabs a protein bar from the cupboard. He’s never been great at cooking, the majority of his meals coming from leftovers from his parents or something that comes in bar form. He gets ready for the day, messing with his hair long enough to get his curls to tame because his mother has never really liked the fact that it made him always look young.
“—and finally we’re here! Daniel getting his transplant, and from none other than his younger brother, Evan.”
People continue to cheer and Evan isn’t entirely sure why. It’s not a surprise that the kidney would come from him, it was always the plan, it was what he was meant to do. Bowing his head under the scrutiny, Evan gives the tablecloth a smile for something to do, feeling Daniel knock his knuckles against his thigh under the table. When Evan looks at his brother, he’s giving him an encouraging look, as if to say it is a big deal. How can it be, if it was what he was born to do?
“Our miracle baby.” Margaret assents, and Evan thinks it’s supposed to sound loving, but that nasty voice starts to grow.
Parts parts parts.
He then drives fifteen minutes to the accounting firm, because his job can’t be dangerous. It can’t be unpredictable. He has to be careful. He has a purpose. A purpose he was born for, that he can’t step out of line because of.
“Because on Friday, our Evan is giving his kidney to Daniel!”
The cheers grow louder and Evan gives everyone as big of a smile as he can.
Evan Buckley has a schedule.
Whether he likes it or not.
#I've officially started part two#it's gonna be a bumpy ride gents#get in the car buck#we're gonna get you some therapy#911#911 fanfiction#lightning fic#count my little scars#lindsey writes#coma!buck#And yes I made Buck an accountant because it's fucking hilarious to picture#at least to me#Mr. 'I got fancy with the math'
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The last time you washed your hair, did you use conditioner?
Yeah, I’m pretty paranoid and always feel the need to use conditioner because of a bad rebonding job from like a decade ago that stiffened up my hair as soon as it would get wet. It lasted for around a year, so I formed the habit of always using conditioner every time I shower. I don’t think I’ve ever used just shampoo since then.
Do you prefer light or dark jeans?
Dark, but I suppose it would be nice to start experimenting with lighter shades as well.
When you listen to music, do you generally sing along, or just listen?
It depends if I know the lyrics or I’m feeling the song at the moment. Obviously with my new obsession with BTS I can’t really sing along to entire songs, but I do sing the few English lyrics they have per song, hahaha.
Do you have any of your exes as friends on Facebook?
Yeah but she’s been muted for like half a year already, as is the rest of her family. I do have plans to unfriend her entirely; I’m just not sure when I would push through with it, and I already gave Angela permission to log onto my account one of these days to be the one to do the unfriending.
Who was your first love? Do you ever miss that person?
Gabie. I miss the friendship sometimes; I don’t think I’ll have a friendship as deep and connected as the one we had, so I will always feel sorry about how that went to waste. But I don’t really think about our relationship anymore as I’m pretty good at blocking off certain memories, so I don’t miss her in that sense.
How many cars are parked at your house right now?
Two.
Do you have any Italian ancestry?
I highly doubt so. If anything there’s probably a tiny drop Spanish blood in there but that’s the most European I’ll ever get.
Do you prefer water to be ice cold or at room temperature?
Like, drinking water? Ice cold, always. I hate warm water.
Has anyone ever told you you’re a control freak?
Not to my face, but I know I’m one so I’m sure other people have said that about me at least behind my back.
Do you know anyone who has gone missing? If so, were they ever found?
Yes, my friend Mik and one of my aunts. They were both found eventually.
What was the spiciest thing you’ve ever eaten?
Eating ghost pepper instant noodles was a pain I would never want to go through again...I threw that shit out after my first forkful, lmao.
Do you need to talk to someone?
No, not in particular. In a more general sense I do wanna start gaining more friends though, so I’ve been meaning to expand my circle by creating a new Twitter account just for my BTS dump. In other words, I am a 23 year old with a stan Twitter HAHAHAHA
Is something confusing you at the moment?
No, I’m good.
When was the last time you had a real deep chat?
Maybe my conversation with Andi a couple of nights back. We were talking about a tricky situation with their ex-friend who turned out to be a real dick when they came out to him a year ago, and they just wanted to get my perspective on how I would handle it.
Who did you last see on webcam?
The PR manager for one of our clients, who we all despise because he doesn’t know how to do his job. Thankfully he’s resigning soon so we’re all just waiting for him to leave and finally meet a much more competent replacement.
What’s your best friend’s pet’s name(s)?
Angela has two dogs, Hailey and Kennedy. Andi had Apollo, who I wanted to meet so badly but sadly he passed away a week ago at 15.
Have you ever taken a picture while laying in the grass?
There are photos of me sitting on grass, but not lying in it. I would imagine that would feel very prickly and uncomfortable.
Who’s your favorite Disney character?
Baymax or Flynn Rider.
Have you ever deliberately tried to get someone drunk?
I’ve made my friends chug drinks or down shots and it’s happened vice versa, but it was always in good fun and we never made each other harassed from it. It’s just your typical college rambunctiousness, and if anyone felt uncomfortable or iffy then we didn’t hesitate to move on.
When was the last time you used a pay phone and who were you calling?
I’ve only ever seen those in my first school, when I was in kindergarten. I never got to use it and they also took them out not long after.
Do you like being kissed on the neck?
Yessssssssss
Have you ever had sex with someone you weren’t dating (but had feelings for) in the hopes that they would ask you out later?
Nope. I don’t think I would have sex with anyone I wasn’t dating.
What’s the most you would be willing to spend on a good bra?
Probably a couple thousand bucks if I thought I looked good in it.
Do you have any of your teachers’ personal cell phone numbers saved in your contacts list?
I don’t think so. I never tried getting close with any of them, and I always tried to stay hidden as much as possible. I was just in class to get good grades and pass.
Do you ever stalk peoples’ personal blogs, even if you don’t know them very well?
I never really scroll through people’s Tumblrs anymore. That was more of a thing I did in like 2013, but these days going through my dashboard is enough.
What’s one thing about today’s generation that you just can’t stand?
Some social media trends done for clout make me revolted, especially when it has anything to do with wasting food. I also hate when they do extreme pranks that I know I wouldn’t find funny if I were ever the victim, like tossing someone’s phone into the ocean.
Be honest: how do you feel about abortion?
Pro-choice.
Is there anyone you currently want to reach out to?
I would love to catch up with Katreen at some point, but I know we’re at different points in our lives now and it would probably never happen.
What is your favorite piece of art you own?
I commissioned my sister to make an artwork of the 2D1N cast, and she did a great job making it! I haven’t gotten to use it or promote it yet, but I will soon. It’s really well-done.
What’s the one thing you apologized for this month?
Replying late.
My favorite color is ______?
Pastel pink.
I wish I had _____?
Longer weekends.
What did you buy today?
Nothing – I’d call that a success lmao, I’ve been spending money as if I had a million fucking bucks over the last week. I did have some packages arrive today though: my own copy of 2 Cool 4 Skool (my first physical BTS album!!!!!!); the official poster from their album BE; the Ivy Park sneakers I ordered earlier this month, and an Ivy Park bucket hat Bea had apparently gotten for me as a birthday present.
What has challenged your morals?
Vices.
What made you pick up the last book you started reading?
I had to read it in preparation for a one-on-one session with my employer’s CEO.
What about your life concerns you the most?
Whether a stable future is in the cards for me.
What do you find particularly offensive? Would you say you’re easy or difficult to offend?
Probably Filipino-American comedians or influencers who use stereotyping of Filipino accents and habits as a punchline; they do more harm to the culture than good. I can tell you not one Filipino who lives in the Philippines actually finds those funny, and Bretman Rock is probably the only personality who’s able to flaunt the culture in an entertaining and hilarious yet classy way.
When it comes to being offended, I guess it depends on the context. My humor can get pretty dark and low-blowy, but I would have a problem with someone who I know has genuinely problematic views.
What was the last series you finished watching? Do you have any plans to begin another?
I think it may had still been Start-Up from last December. I’m not too big on Korean dramas since I find one episode waaaaaaayyyyyyy too long. I don’t think I’ll be starting on anything soon, Korean or otherwise.
What is one way in which you are different from a year ago? What is one way in which you are still the same?
I’m single now, for the first time in technically six years. I also think I’m doing better and happier, breakup notwithstanding. OH and I love wasabi now, hahah. As for what’s unchanged, I still like taking surveys and I’m still stuck at home, though the latter’s not really in my control anymore.
If you could learn about anything without the stress of grades or cost, what kind of classes would you take?
I’d just go back to UP for the free tuition. We also have the widest range of programs out of any university in the country, so it’s a damn good deal.
Name a song you’ve listened to today?
Fly To My Room - BTS
When you were younger, did you have a swing set or a playhouse in your backyard?
We didn’t; but one of our relatives that we’d regularly visit did have a playground that I’d use all the time. It’s still there, just very unmaintained since no one uses it anymore.
Is your mall nice?
Which one? We have five different malls nearby lol. Mall culture here is on another level.
Do you have a Sonic near you? If so, what’s your favorite drink from there?
No. I’m not so sure what they serve there, either. I’m guessing milkshakes?
Will you be voting in the presidential elections next time around?
I’ll always exercise my right to vote.
How do you feel about chocolate-covered strawberries?
I hate strawberries and I hate fruits, so even if you coat that shit in Nutella and cookie butter and chocolate syrup I still wouldn’t touch it.
Did you ever stop having feelings for someone and then started having those feelings again for them?
No.
Do you hate the last guy you had a thing with?
I’ve never had a thing with guys.
To whom did you last give the finger?
I haven’t had to do that in a while.
What was the last musical instrument played in your presence?
My sister’s keyboard.
Do you like sprinkles on your ice cream?
Not particularly. They make things look cute, but they never taste like anything tbh so I never saw the point in paying extra just to have them on my desserts.
Honestly, have you ever crashed a party before?
Nah. I cringe thinking about that.
Do you know how to do the moon walk?
I don’t.
Has anybody ever told you that you have a good singing voice?
Never gotten that specific compliment before because I know I don’t have one.
Onion rings or french fries?
Onion rings.
Has anybody ever described you as a heart breaker?
No.
Has anybody ever told you that you talk too fast?
I don’t think so, but I know I have the tendency to do so occasionally, especially while I’m presenting a deck. Once I notice it I make an effort to pace myself.
Who is the best cook that you know?
My dad and both my grandmas all deserve that title.
Which meal throughout the day do you skip the most?
I literally never have lunch ever.
What’s the largest amount that you can juggle at one time?
I can’t juggle.
What was your favorite thing to go on at the playground as a kid?
Sandboxes, since I liked the texture; the sandboxes in school were also often empty, which worked well for my introvert self. I find that it’s carried over to today, since I still enjoy touching things like slime and kinetic sand.
Do you know how much you weighed at birth? How much?
I think 5 or 6 lbs, I’m not exactly sure but it’s definitely somewhere in that small range.
Which aspect of your daily routine takes the most time? What do you do?
Work, for sure. I work a normal 9–6 so that’s already 8 hours out of my day, but I also OT a lot after hours, and I work throughout my lunch break as well so that technically makes it 9 hours. I also like getting up earlier and starting some work before my shift so that I would have less tasks on my plate for the day.
Do you enjoy buying gifts for others, or could you do without this?
I LOVE getting people gifts. Food is especially my love language, and I always get food delivery for my friends, family, and my team at work.
What is one thing you are expected to do, if anything?
I mean, I have work deadlines tomorrow so there’s that.
How do you tend to view driving? Monotonous or entertaining?
I love driving. I don’t think I ever complained about having to do it. It’s calming and relaxing when I’m doing it alone or with a partner; and it can be entertaining with the right set of people.
Do you enjoy talking about music with others?
Not always. If I don’t listen to the artist then I can find the conversation quite boring, like if my friends would get into a full-blown discussion about Taylor Swift.
Is acting something you enjoy?
No. It wouldn’t even be something I’d be interested in doing.
When do you feel most accomplished?
Finishing a work day with no tasks left behind.
Do you think Manwich is amazing or completely gross?
Idk what that is.
How many best friends do you have?
Two.
Are you a smoker, drinker, pothead or none of the above?
I drink sometimes. I also kinda smoke, I guess.
If you have your ears pierced, when did you get them pierced?
My mom had them pierced when I was a month old.
Do you own any exercise machines?
My mom has this rowing equipment thingy. I don’t have any of my own, though.
On Facebook, do you have people listed as your siblings who aren’t really your siblings?
No.
Have you ever drawn or painted a self-portrait?
I remember having to draw one as a school assignment, but I’m pretty sure I half-assed that because I couldn’t care less for art class back then.
Who was your last voicemail from?
We don’t have voicemails.
Have you ever been falsely accused of something serious?
I don’t think so. That’s the sort of situation that would stick out in my memory if ever.
Did you ever set up a lemonade stand when you were a kid?
No, not a thing here.
When was the last time you spoke to someone in a different language?
Around an hour ago when I went downstairs and chatted with my sister briefly.
Have you ever received an anonymous gift?
Nope.
Have you ever camped out somewhere for an event the next day?
Nope but I definitely still wouldn’t be opposed to doing that haha.
When were you the saddest in your life?
2016 was fucking miserable. < I’d have to agree. 2017 was also awful.
Do you know anyone, personally, who is in an abusive relationship? Are you?
I used to know one but she got out of it. In a sense, I suppose I also was in one.
If you have siblings, have they moved out or do they still live with you?
Well they’re younger, so they definitely still live here, with our parents. I’m the first one expected to move out, but I’m taking my time.
Have you ever gotten searched by the cops?
No.
Do you like fried rice?
Of course. I like any kind of rice.
What was the last thing you drank?
Water.
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Unusual Asks
Yep, I’m in that mode again. Time to answer questions about myself that literally no one asked for :D
If someone finds this in the deep ocean blue and wants to answer the same questions, I found them here
Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora?
Pandora, I guess? But I don’t really use any of them. I only tried Pandora for a time because it told you what genre the music is, and that was how I learned I listened to completely random and unrelated songs
is your room messy or clean?
Yes.
It’s messy, but it’s only dirty clothes really? So the second we do a major Laundry Sweep it suddenly becomes clean.
what color are your eyes?
Brown baby come an get dat chocolatttte
do you like your name? why?
Yes, because it’s tomboyish. When I was younger for some reason I really liked my friend’s name Emily, and wished that was my name instead. As I got older I liked my name more and more. I also love the 30 bajillion nicknames my name comes with. And I love my nickname Moon simply because from that nickname are 30 bajillion more nicknames.
what is your relationship status?
Single and deathly afraid of romance probs
describe your personality in 3 words or less
0-100 spaz
what color hair do you have?
Black hair :3
what kind of car do you drive? color?
It’s a sentra because they get good gas mileage and I’m cheap and it’s a darkish red, cause it’s the only color they had
where do you shop?
Food Banks
how would you describe your style?
Don’t Notice Me Anyone I’m Just a Background Character
favorite social media account
I hate social media when I know people, so tumblr, because screaming into a void where I’m not known is fun. It’s like having an imaginary argument in your shower
what size bed do you have?
Twin
any siblings?
Three of them! Two half-sisters, and a half-brother, all older :3
if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why?
With my friends
favorite snapchat filter?
Pfffft I’m an antisocial dweeb and never bothered with snapchat because my phone is old and I rarely take pictures of myself or share pictures of anything else I capture
favorite makeup brand(s)
I don’t wear makeup, so none VwV
how many times a week do you shower?
Once a week if I haven’t done anything that makes me gross. Maybe 3 times a week if I went jogging and got all sweaty
favorite tv show?
Steven Universe, Last Airbender, Amazing World of Gumball, Star vs.
shoe size?
6 ½
how tall are you?
5”2
… and ½
sandals or sneakers?
w a t e r s h o e s
do you go to the gym?
No, I hate the gym. The air in there gives me a headache, everyone’s staring at you doing everything wrong, there’s people in general, and I just no. I like to work out either in the privacy of my room or out in nature (aka I started jogging at my library park and I’m very proud of myself hopefully I keep this up).
describe your dream date
A date that treats me nice and we have a good time
how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?
13 bucks
what color socks are you wearing?
My skin
how many pillows do you sleep with?
Uhhhh. 2 for my head, 2 to hug, a beanie-filled duck thing, and also my cats old blanket. So like. 4 pillows if you wanna get technical, 6 if let’s be honest the duck and blanket act as pillows
do you have a job? what do you do?
I do. I clean trays and do numerous odd jobs for an oral surgeon’s office. It’s literally a part time job the employees often have their teens do. But it’s something for now
how many friends do you have?
7. The seventh one I just made recently, and it’s still sort of iffy if we’ll actively be friends. We’ve known each other for years, and she’s called me her friend before, but we’ve never like. Hung out, or talked literally ever. But I’ve always thought she seemed like a cool person and someone I wanted to be friends with, and sometime last month or so (she was staying on our couch due to family complications) I outright told her “Hey, you seem like a cool person, and I’d love to be better friends with you J” and by some miracle that WORKED. She called me a nerd for that and we’ve saw Wonder Woman with our moms. I lent her a book from the library (The Goose Girl by Shannon Hale, wonderful book, literally the first in my favorite book series!), and she’s really loving it so far! We’re gonna hang out Sunday, so hopefully we click well and I truly will have successfully made my first friend where I was the one who approached!
whats the worst thing you have ever done?
One time when I was younger I had a fight with my mom. Recalling correctly, I was upset that she ‘loved God more than me’ and during that fight she ‘let go’ and said that I was more important to her. Immediately afterwards I made her take it back, and apologized profusely, and never said anything about her feeling God was more important ever again. And she forgave me, because that’s the kind of person she is, but I still feel like shit for it, and I’m so sorry I ever made her say that, whether she meant it or not. I feel so guilty about it even today. She told me that night that she let go so she could grab onto me and save me from drowning, and that even if she had let go, God would have never let her go, and he would save the both of us. I still wish I could make it so I’d never said that.
whats your favorite candle scent?
MMmmm, I dunno. Do they have cherry blossom? Cause that one
3 favorite boy names
Devon (Deh-von), Aiden (Ay-den), and uhhhh? Naruto. (Nar-oo-toe)
3 favorite girl names
Astrid (totally from Phantom Hourglass), Anaise (yes that’s from the Amazing World of Gumball I fell in love the second I heard it), aaaaaand ermmmmmm. Buzz Lightyear
favorite actor?
Will Smith? Morgan Freeman? Yeah, let’s go with them
favorite actress?
Will Smith? Morgan Freeman? Yeah, let’s go with them
who is your celebrity crush?
Me™
favorite movie?
Bambi, Jumanji, Jurassic Park, Pirates of the Carribean
do you read a lot? whats your favorite book?
I do, I do!! I love Forest Born from Shannon Hale’s Books of Bayern! It’s the 4th and last book in her series, and I love it so much! I recommend it for everyone! Adventure, fantasy, a little bit of romance, fun, and honest-to-god you feel like you’re in an old folk tale the whole time. It’s all a beautiful series.
money or brains?
Brains
do you have a nickname? what is it?
Moon, Moo, Moonmoon, Moonie
how many times have you been to the hospital?
A lot for reasons
top 10 favorite songs
Fireflies by Owl City
Last Unicorn by America (yes, from the movie the Last Unicorn)
Tabi no Tochuu by Kiyoura, Natsumi (aka the Spice and Wolf Season 1 Theme)
Something Entire New from Steven Universe
Wolf in Sheep’s Clothing by Set It Off
I Ship It by Not Literally (An ‘I Don’t Care’ parody, it’s hilarious and I love it, please go listen to it)
Blue Lips by Regina Spektor
Miss Jackson by Panic! At the Disco
E.T. by Katy Perry (I’m not even sure why I like this one so much, but I dooooo)
Girl with One Eye by Florence and the Machine
do you take any medications daily?
I do, antidepressants, which I started maybe 1 or 2 months ago after people suggesting I take medication for years
what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc)
Perfect™
No but I guess it’s fine? I live in a dry area, but my skin isn’t dried out at all, even before I put lotion on constantly. The crown of my forehead/my nose get a bit oily, but splashing my face every morning basically takes care of that. I feel kind of bad for saying I don’t really have any skin problems
what is your biggest fear?
My loved ones hating me, dying, or being hurt from my own inept, or me being unable to help them
how many kids do you want?
Two. One boy, one girl (or if one wants to change/be whatever gender later in life I really don’t care). One that’s mine genetically, one I’ve adopted. Before I would have preferred giving birth to a boy since Devon was always my favorite boy name (and my only favorite name period), but with my sister being pregnant recently I’ve randomly thought about girl names as well so now I’m chill with having a boy or girl first so I can name them either Devon or Anaise/Astrid. God forbid I have twins that are both boys/girls since A) twins run in my family, and B) I’m having only two kids period so if I got twin boys/girls then that’s it I’m done that’s the end for me
whats your go to hair style?
Two French braids that stay in my head for the whole week
what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc)
It’s an apartment, so small
who is your role model?
My old cat Princess
what was the last compliment you received?
I legit don’t remember, but probably my mom telling me I’m gorgeous. Thanks mom, love you!
what was the last text you sent?
Me sending my group chat this
how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real?
You think I put a date on that ish?? I dunno, I think I was still in my old house, so anywhere from 6-8 maybe?
what is your dream car?
A car that has no pollution/carbon footprint, runs on sunlight and electricity, and is reliable, also it doubles as a stray cat home that doesn’t kill them if I turn it on
opinion on smoking?
My entire older family (aunts, uncles, cousins, older brother/sister), smoked. My aunt is a cancer survivor and STILL smokes. My brother and sisters father died from lung cancer. My mother’s parents died from lung cancer. My father smokes (yet expects to live to 100???). My mother is probably the only person in her immediate family that was completely disgusted by smoking. My brother and sister vape now, in their attempt to quit, but my sister would take a hit of our aunts cigarettes every now and then. I hate smoking. It kills. It’s addictive. It’s a waste of your money and brain power. What’s worse is the people (like my sister and aunt), who don’t give a fuck if it will kill you down the road because, according to my sister, “once you reach like, 70, the fun parts over, now you start dying anyways”. Fuck you. What about everyone you’re leaving behind? FUCK you. If you get cancer it’s not just you that’s affected, it’s everyone you love and care about. Your parents, your siblings, your friends, your children. They don’t want to see you die like this, decrepit, and weak. They want to see you healthy, and having fun, and HAPPY. Do they really mean so little to you that you would LITERALLY KILL YOURSELF just because of a 2-minute dopamine rush? I hate people like that. I will never date someone who smokes. That is 100% a deal breaker. I will never, EVER go through what my mother went through with her husband, and what so many others must have gone through.
My opinion on smoking is that it needs to be buried, like all the people it’s already killed.
do you go to college?
I do! I just finished my first semester (just English 101 for my first semester), with flying colors! 940/1000 points!
what is your dream job?
Anything with animals and where I can make a difference in the animal community
would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs?
Rural areas. I hate the city and people
do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels?
100% I paid a shit ton of money for this room and you don’t even provide free snacks. I brought my own shampoo/condition but you can bet your ass I’m taking all of theirs
do you have freckles?
Yes? No? Does it count if it’s like, one freckle? It’s not a cluster of freckles, but I have a lot of freckle-spots on the right side of my face, random other parts of my face, and various other parts of my body (and one where like, my dude the sun don’t shine there how’s you get there???)
do you smile for pictures?
Absolutely!
how many pictures do you have on your phone?
Currently? I dunno, 100 or so?
have you ever peed in the woods?
100%
do you still watch cartoons?
Absolutely, they’re way more entertaining than anything else anyways
do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds?
Wendy’s
Favorite dipping sauce?
Good ol’ ketchup
what do you wear to bed?
Mismatching pajamas, and gorgeous dark blue blue shirt and blue leopard spot Victoria’s Secret pajamas that came with a matching eyemask that my aunt got me for Christmas and they have a cute shirt cut, the pants make me look curvy, I look damn good in them, they’re my favorite color, and most importantly they have POCKETS and it’s literally my favorite pair of pajamas I love them
have you ever won a spelling bee?
No, but I was in a spelling bee! Literally no idea how I got in, I think the best speller of each class was just. Automatically put in? I was naturally good at spelling and randomly got in the spelling bee, was terrified of being on stage, and got my first word wrong because the fuck? How did I get in this?? I’m 9, I’m not studying for this get me off this Awful Stage stop looking at me
what are your hobbies?
Writing, drawing, video games, teasing my cats, roleplaying, and hiking if I was anywhere away from the city
can you draw?
Yes!
do you play an instrument?
Does my voice count?
what was the last concert you saw?
Hilary Duff, when I was like 12. First and only concert I’ve ever seen in my life. Almost the best night of my tiny 12 year old life, but my friend’s mom was a dick and told me to calm down when I was screaming, singing, and cheering, and I spent the rest of the concert sitting in my seat and feeling embarrassed and awkward. Who the fuck tells a 12 year old to calm down when she’s at her first concert with her best friend with their favorite artist in the world??? You’re a fucking dick biscuit, Friend’s Mom.
tea or coffee?
W a t e r
I hate both of those. Though peppermint tea is okay, not that I’d drink it outside of being sick
Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts?
Starbucks, but only for a cinnamon twist pastry thingy
do you want to get married?
I do!
what is your crush’s first and last initial?
I have never had a crush for realsies, only an ‘lol I thought I had a crush but nevermind’
are you going to change your last name when you get married?
If my name sounds good with their last name, yes. If not, sorry honeycakes, I’m keeping my name. They’re more than welcome to change their last name if they so choose.
what color looks best on you?
White, black, red
do you miss anyone right now?
Princess, my old cat
And Fern and Thatcher, my best friends
do you sleep with your door open or closed?
Closed, because I don’t want my kittens to get in. I used to sleep with it open exclusively so my old cat Princess could get in and out
do you believe in ghosts?
Sure
what is your biggest pet peeve?
Self-righteous people
last person you called
My mom’s case manager
favorite ice cream flavor?
Cookie dough without chocolate chips
regular oreos or golden oreos?
ReGuLaR
chocolate or rainbow sprinkles?
NO!!!!!!!!!
what shirt are you wearing?
Black superman shirt I wear for pjs
what is your phone background?
My old cat Princess
are you outgoing or shy?
Shy, unless I’m around people I’m comfortable with. Then I’m shy but a bit more sociable
do you like it when people play with your hair?
Oh god yes. I want to fall asleep if I ever have someone doing my hair and it’s at the Not Ripping Out Your Hair part. God it feels great. Tbh I wouldn’t be surprised if that was a turn on for me
do you like your neighbors?
Hell no they’re all awful
do you wash your face? at night? in the morning?
In the morning. And “wash” is a bit formal, my face-washing is more of a splash-your-face-wake-up-you-lazy-bastard kind of washing. Sometimes I splash it a few times to wake myself up more or take some oil off the oilier parts of my face, but I rarely/never use facewash or anything. It’s just water.
have you ever been high?
Nope
have you ever been drunk?
Nu-uh
last thing you ate?
Some cheap microwave chimichanga
favorite lyrics right now
Why not let me win? – You can’t dodge forever. Even if the pain is more fun together! You know I will just reset and come back newer :) and with every try I’m getting even faster than you are.
summer or winter?
Summer, if I can actually go outside and enjoy it and am not trapped in my black scrubs all day. Winter if I can look out the window and enjoy it
day or night?
Night
dark, milk, or white chocolate?
White chocolate when paired with other things, milk chocolate when by itself
favorite month?
April
what is your zodiac sign
Scorpio!
who was the last person you cried in front of?
My mom
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