#BUT MY HEAD WAS UNDER THE FUCKING WATER

[front-facing-pokemon]

#binacle #????????????????????????????? #both heads under the cut??? what the FUCK is this thing #i know i've seen it before and everything but i COMPLETELY forgot this thing existed??? #what type even is this?? rock?? #rock/WATER??? #ALRIGHT i'm done 4x weak to grass my beloathèd i don't need to know anything else about this thing

[vaguely-concerned]

travis matagot just -- the very concept of him unlocks something deep and feral in my brain, even aside from all the changeling stuff. an angel looked upon you once as a child and, after seeing every possible thread and pathway of the man you will grow into one day, said 'I see no sin here' even as its holy flames consumed your screaming parents and the town around you. that angel, having stumbled head over heels to earth after killing god, later deliberately loses their name to you in a card game so the eyes of heaven can't find them. you and the angel have proceeded to annoy the everloving FUCK out of each other for centuries because you just keep. bumping. into each other!!!! through the power of like Narrative and also simply being two of the only people who've even been around that long. you've kept their name for them this whole time and never breathed a word of it, even though they seemingly never even explained why they wanted to lose it in the first place. you've sworn to die together or not at all.

what if you met an eldritch horror as a child and then became their best (and most irritating) friend/life partner/frenemy/perpetual thorn in their side (affectionate). I'm obsessed with this idea of being divinely judged as unworthy of damnation so early in your life and having to have that in the back of your head forever even as your self-loathing and trauma start piling up over the centuries and you have done so many shitty things along the way. like. is he trying to prove them wrong. is that part of his whole thing about trying to escape the narrative. or is it to prove that 'no actually awful things happen to me because I'm awful, you got it wrong from the start (fuck you btw)' because at least that feels like a choice, like some kind of control to hold on to? what is going on here travis. what the fuck

#skyjacks #campaign skyjacks #travis matagot #gable skyjacks #trable #like mostly in a. narrative/thematic sense?? because both the bickering everyday dynamic and the uh Cosmic scale ones... #sets my head spinning honestly. what the hell #I'm catching up with this podcast and spoiler warning: it's still excellent #just how easily travis accepted that gable was the angel that destroyed his hometown (including his parents) is so funny and so sweet to me #he was just like 'eh. more than enough water under that bridge to wash that one clean tbh #I am also a huge albino turkey for this hugely emotional conversation btw' #and he's equally blasé about finding out gable like. caused the partial end of the world. #the only time he freaks the FUCk out is when he finds out they lied about having figured out how to die so he got to leave first #skyjacks spoilers #anyway listen to campaign skyjacks it is extremely good and travis actually is Like This all the time #he's a jaded depressed old man in the body of a trickster twink. one of the ideal character archetypes tbh

[melting-clouds]

#Save me meme #hot shower #man I’ve been wanting to take a hot shower to wash my hair since fucking wednesday #But there’s no hot water in my apartment for some reason or heating and it’s driving me nuts #Like it’s winter and fucking cold please let me take a hot shower #My head is so itchy and needs to be washed but i dont wanna freeze under the cold water #And they keep cutting our electricity #So much for a first world country huh

[spring-lxcked]

shaking william at you like a bag of cat treats. ooooooo you wanna get him to talk about his past so bad. you wanna convince him that it's okay to talk about secondary school. you wanna get him to mention his parents ever even once.

#—— ✧ wishlist » #william will literally act like his parents don't exist like he just popped into existence alongside his sister #and then you convince him to talk abt them and he drops the saddest shit but in this tone of 'it's not a big deal' #and he's so so serious. like no it's normal that i cut them off & don't talk abt them. my childhood was normal. HE MEANS IT. #will break something if you even imply he's like his parents. #still in complete denial that his childhood wasn't great #and despite all of that you're MORE LIKELY to get him to talk abt THAT #then his time in secondary school because that DOES reflect on him. to tell you abt that is to like #say 'all of this is a mask and that's closer to who i am.' #charming mr. aft.on VS teen will holding another teen's head under water and almost drowning him #like he's never gonna tell anyone the full extent #unless maybe it's after he's Cracked. and like nothing would shock you at that point i feel. #......which maybe i want to write too. oooooooooooo you wanna hear Totally Fucking Snapped Will describe his first kill #ooooo you wanna hear how he did it for no reason other than years of curiosity piling up— #(which is post-college but STILL)

[jlf23tumble]

I just saw that in a different post, not the one you are referring to. One of the gold stars was saying (in so many words) that the peace ring is an engagement ring, and she linked to posts that went more into detail. But left out the fact that Harry stopped wearing the peace ring last year. She's one that preaches 'never broke up/they're still together' so I'm sure there is an excuse somewhere, like Louis is looking after it. It's really ironic. By the way in the Harry wax work he is wearing the peace ring because he wore the ring on that day to the MP premiere, it wasn't randomly added. Interestingly I think that was the last time he wore it.

Yeah, idk who made the masterpost, there's probably more than one, tbh, but it's wilde to me, the whole fingers-in-ears lalalalalalalala moment about its rather obvious absence (and occasional reappearance, just to prove it's not lost or anything)

#i'm still here for my own ring theory/head canon #we all tell ourselves stories etc #but it's a real odd one to gymnasticize yourself over if you're gonna gold-star it #the 'louis looking after it' theory is fucking coucou BANANAS and i lose it every time i think about it #this reminds me i should go and look at the latest additions to the painful outro music playlist #it's funny tho how people cannot HANDLE the idea of bumpy waters under the ship #so they come up with the CRAZIEST anon receipts #the lastest one! #i need to do a chef reaction video #'uh....1/10 i would bounce right out of a fic if this appeared anywhere near it'

[morbid-bvnny]

#mentions of su^cide this is a vent post so maybe don’t read #I woke up at 4am from a nightmare and haven’t been able to fall back asleep due to chronic overthinking and stress #it’s always early morning or late at night that my disorder starts fucking with me most #when I have literally no one to turn to #my head is so far under water that I have no idea what to do and it’s fucking tearing me apart #I’ve been struggling financially for about about a year and a half now and it just seems to get worse #no matter what I try to do to make it better #I’ve changed jobs I’ve worked multiple jobs I’ve asked for raises I’ve tried to get as much overtime as possible #but im literally killing myself every day just to barely be scraping by and it fucking so bad #im such a fucking failure in life I can’t do a single thing right and every door I open is a dead end #im starting to think that there’s nothing for me and there’s no place that I fit in #on top of financial stress I am struggling with a chart full of mental illnesses all of which I am unmediated for #you guess it^also financial. I cannot even afford to pay for my meds and I’ve been off them for the year and a half I’ve been struggling #this whole year and a half I made friends and I’ve lost them just as quickly #I literally crave connections with people but I have no idea how to even remotely communicate that to anyone #I can’t make friends I’m as uninteresting as it gets and I’m distant and communicating is a struggle for me #I want friends but I lack the understanding of what helps friendships grow #I feel so alone on a day to day basis it’s depressing and I’m at a point where I feel like I could k^ll myself and nobody would even notice #or care for that matter #I’ve noticed the things that kept me from committing are no longer things that hold me back #rather they’ve turned into reason to go through with it instead and the only thing keeping me alive is not having the means to do it #I think the world will be exactly as it is without me and I’ve made no real difference in anyone’s life for it to even stir up emotion #the world keeps moving #people will say oh that’s so sad when they hear about it #and they will move on as if nothing happened #the burdens I’ve brought on my family will be gone and ultimately they would be much better off without me here #I guess it’s only a matter of time at this point

[shadowcat222]

Y'all making me wonder if my running away from the toilet with mental images of getting pulled in by giant tentacles was normal or not.

#meowow #that was actually routine for me for YEARS #booking it outta the stall . #I also hated to drain baths while i was in them because the thought of getting sucked down the drain with the water was horrific #my mom.used to use these bath bombs that made the water cloudy and I found them terrifying. would imagine all #the things hiding in there waiting to pull me under the surface never to be seen again #and like. I verbally confessed these things WEREN'T REAL! They were not possible #i still get unsettled looking at drain covers. and stuff like the scp drain worms can trigger that paranoia all over again #scp. a fucking scp made showering stressful for until I successfully managed to erase it from my mindscape #I hope I did not just fuck myself over mentioning it #that and also the midn reader paranoia #actual suppression of thoughts that burst into my head because I would have sudden moments of shame and anxiety #I actually still have those moments where nothing happens and I'm just in I have made a grave error mode

[the-underground-failroad]

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#literally being moved to TEARS about how truly horrible my prev relationship was #like being shown actually adoration and respect by someone new and it feels like taking a breath after having your head held under water #when women in their early 20s brag about their age gap relationship I really have to stop myself from acting crazy #like it’s not enough that I’m out of the relationship I feel like I’m learning how to live life again #I can’t believe how much life that man drained from me #a year of living with a man feeling tolerated and insane will really do something to you lemme say! #I don’t want to like sound conceited and I guess who cares if it does come off that way #but living on my own has been extremely hard but I am so fucking proud of myself for having the gall to leave and start new #I’m back in school I’m going out I’m devoting free time to fitness #there’s so much love around me I’m so grateful

[front-facing-pokemon]

#bonus under the cut where they're just a tiny bit closer because i couldn't decide which one was better #lairon #lairon is also pretty good. they have this Really big nose thing happening here which i'm not sure if it's supposed to be a nose or not #but it definitely looks like one from this angle. it definitely Looks like they're snifsnifsnifsniffing that kind of vibe #even though it's kinda on the top of their head. either way lairon is a steel-type and that's inherently cool #i very much like steel-types that look less like Objects or Mechanisms and more like Creatures. Animals. but that's just my personal taste #notably it's also part rock-type because reasons i guess so 4x weakness to fighting my belovèd. just like weavile #and ground also. but at least the rock typing nullifies steel's weakness to fire! in exchange for. a weakness to water #ahh well i dunno anything about the stats of this bitch. i assume they're good and very tanky because steel-type but i'm not #gonna look it up. i usually do but i am tired this morning and i need to just get some coffee and take my meds so i can call someone to #come pick me up and take me to fedex because i don't have a fucking car anymore and also driving is very scary and hard #probably my grandma. which is ironic because she's the one i sold my car to. she'd be taking me to fedex in my own car‚ technically #i dunno y'all. i need to work‚ too‚ so i should probably stop writing. y'all have a good day. brits out there take care with the heat wave #if that's still going on by the time this posts

[elytrafemme]

ik it’s 2 AM but in my defense i spent the past hour thinking about cough syrup and now should probably progress to the laying down and thinking about cough syrup part of my routine instead of just sitting up here two cotton balls against each elbow crying like a dumbass. so with that, goodnight everyone!!!

#nightmare.personal #i don't uh. know what to do with these cotton balls #they uh didn't listen when i said that one of my veins is better than the other so they tried the other one and it backfired #and i had a breakdown which in hindsight must have freaked the fuck out of the nurse #because i was like hyperventilating like crazy and i kept shouting oh God it was probably one hell of a sight #anyway it went fine so water under the bridge moral of the story though is that one of my arms is way better than the other one so #anyway going to go to bed now maybe goodnight guys!!! #also i wasn't crying out of distress i was thinking about some hurt comfort CS scenes that aren't canotical but i have in my head #and i was like second hand crying you get it me and cs!ranboo one in the same

[volfoss]

Overwhelming yeses so um. Get ready Tuesday or smth bc dear god I have a lot 2 fix... And they r g3's which means HELL WORLD w the head removal

#twist rambles #pony posting #if u need a g3 head off run it under rly rly hot water for a few seconds and pull. the glue is WAY stronger. it's fucked up #but if u dunk the body it basically doesnt work rly wrll #i personally get my bathroom sink water rly rly hot and run it under and rotate it as i go

[orcelito]

Nothing like a work week with no days off & a boss that's terrible at communication to make you reaaaaally really really wanna punch something

:)

#speculation nation #negative/ #i guess. #im just so fed up with the whole situation. today was supposed to be my day off but i worked 3.5hr anyways #'voluntarily' but ugh #at least i have basically two days off at the start of next week. so i just gotta get through two more days of this bullshit #i dont have money to spend on food but i really want to buy something #really want chipotle. but i dont want to go out of my way to get chipotle. #wish i had some Fucking money. but nooo everything has to be so fucking expensive #technically i have money but with rent approaching i Cannot spend it lol #im so fucking sick of my life. i want to be graduated from college and done with this shit already. #but unfortunately i have Perpetually Fucked Up Brain disease! #and also chronic fatigue that mixes terribly with having to work during school #i just do not have the privilege of being able to go to college without working at the same time #if i did then maybe id have been done with it Years ago lmao #and i cannot. i Cannot. do school full time while also working just under full time. #i tried it. many times. and i blundered it so many times. #and it made me. Without Fail. entirely and completely miserable. #part time school while working is the only way i can make this work. chipping away at collehe while trying to keep my head above water #but oh i am absolutely full of envy for people who can just focus on school. who dont have to work too. #must be fucking nice to have loaded parents and/or a properly working brain that lets you get shit like scholarships #must be soooooooo fucking nice. #lmfao i need to just go home. take a nice shower. maybe make some ramen. and then fucking chill. #if anyone tries to fucking bother me about work im going to Snap.

[thanatoseyes]

My therapist keeps trying to get me to do meditation but every time I listen to one of those videos I just tense up more.

#ill just dunk my head under running water and try not to dissociate idk #are there like any other meditation techniques that are out there besides the ones that are like do this and then this and then this #i dont really vibe with the ones where they are like youre here youre doing this! #like no i am clearly not there pls dont do that #i think its a control thing #ive been out of control i didnt like it #lmao its not even being out of control that bothers me #i dont mind not being in control #i just like to be present in the reality that i am currently in you know incase of the threats #and like meditation just feels like it slowly trying to eek out my soul goo idk #you know the more i talk the more i wonder if anyone can understand a single word i fucking say #i promise im not like this irl #well okay this is an over exaggeration of me i suppose #idk idk idk ugj

[cluescorner]

Every conversation they have feels like walking through a minefield, though even that may be an understatement. You don't tend to feel love for the explosives that threaten to detonate and destroy your body and soul. Yet Bruce does love his son. Even with his always-armed fuses that could be tripped by the slightest movement it deems 'wrong' and nitroglycerine tongue spitting words that all but scream a desire to ignite then eviscerate everything Batman holds dear, Bruce loves Tim enough that braving the minefield is a foregone conclusion. He will do it because the alternative is never talking to his son again. Bruce would rather endure tonnes of tnt than experience the crushing nothingness of before.

^^^Is the most insane thing I've ever written and it's for my silly little writing challenge that has quickly evolved into something I can no longer contain my genuine enjoyment of writing. Like, oh my god I might be posting fic of this thing. I don't even like publishing my writing but I might just fucking do it at this point because jfc why do I have over 1,000 words of describing ONE RELATIONSHIP.

#randomizedrobinsau #it lives in my head rent free now wtf is going on #I am used to making amvs in my brain for the base characters. WHY AM I DOING IT FOR MY GOOFY FUCKING AU?? #I was listening to goddamn Compass by motherfucking Mili and I thought of my fucking randomized Damian setting off on his own path #both finding his own way after his life was dictated for him by forces outside of his control and moving past his rocky introduction #into the family because as he's matured he's slowly realized that (while everybody involved could have handled it better) it was #absolutely because the circumstances at the time (coupled with the existence of the family's vigilante lives) were utterly horrible #does he forgive them? not entirely. is he going to leave behind the hurt because fixating on it is helping nobody and as much as #Damian's family has hurt him...he loves them and understand why it happened. and they love him and have displayed #that through both words and actions so many times. everything is genuinely better now. so Damian will let this be water under the bridge #as long as his family can accept his decision to focus less on vigilantism and more on his own aspirations. #if they can let him be an occasional participant and emergency reserve member rather than the daily patrols and constant efforts #oh my god #THAT IS THE SHIT I AM TALKING ABOUT #I WAS LITERALLY ONLY GONNA TAG THIS AS THE AU #AND NOW I'VE GONE ON A RANT ABOUT A RANDOM FUCKING AMV I MADE IN MY BRAIN TO DESCRIBE DAMIAN'S FORGIVENESS #WHAT THE HELL #this can't be healthy...but I already knew I'm not exactly normal so this isn't THAT surprising

[givemeasword-callmequeen]

I love my best friend... But sometimes she annoys me so much...

Instead of talking about her problems. Instead of trying to fix her problems. Instead of trying to solve her problems.

She now using alcohol as the solution. & she is fucking proud about that. & when I say something about that, she gets mad. Like sorry that I don't want you to get lost with it. Sorry that I care about you & your fucking liver. Sorry that I am trying to help you with your problem that doesn't involve alcohol... She knows my mother is/was (not I am not sure because I don't have contact with her) an alcoholic. But yeah alcohol is soooo cool... It makes me sleep & forgetting my problems :)

#How can she be so proud about that??? #It's so annoying... #But if I say anything she gets angry... #Well destroy your liver & everything else I guess... #She just send me a picture of a Glass with alcohol & the caption: it glimmers :) #& she told me that it helps her sleeping... #I just can't with it anymore... #She knows I worry about her... I told her... I asked her to find another solution... #But nope she tells me with so much pride that she drinks again & again & how awesome she feels... #& tomorrow she will tell me that her fucking head hurts & she expects from me to say shit like: aww poor K drink enough water & will go away #We are moving in circles everytime... #I am so tired of it... #I would rather her not sending & telling me about than her to put it under my nose... #givemeaswordpersonal

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

my biology heart (gillion would have red blood because fish irl have red blood it just looks dark blue/black because of the way water bends light) is conflicting with my cool character design heart (gillion can have whatever the hell blood color looks the coolest because tritons dont exist in reql life) and its such a struggle

#im tempted to go for a happy medium (looks blue when hes underwater and red on land) #but thats such an obscure thing i dont think anyone would care/notice AND ALSO THEY NEVER GO UNDER THE FUCKING WATERRR #well. sometimes. but not enough for my liking #and also that doesnt make a whole lot of sense because if that were the case then like. #Everyones blood would look blue underwater because. again. the way water bends light means the color red doesnt really exist in the ocean #head in hands. i want him to be cool but also i need to inject biology facts into all of my creative endeavors #im oberthinking it because i cant draw rn i need to finish christmas presents. but i want to draw the fucking stigmata #maybe ill make it like a gross purple. that would be fun #cocks the homestuck gun. seadweller.