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I wish I could time travel so that I can be at the Niall concert again.

#One concert was not enough... #Bring me back to better times... #Can't believe it was one month ago... Feels like last week or something... #niall horan #the show live on tour #givemeaswordpersonal

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That smile 🥰🥰🥰

#niall horan #the show live on tour #givemeaswordpersonal #Tslot berlin

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It's not just me who is going to the concert it is also my 14 year old self. Who got made fun of, for liking one direction. Who got the first sign of depression & listened to that band, just to feel okay.

I am going to heal that 14 year old.

#This concert is going to heal something in me... #If my past self would knew that she would see Niall one day she would pass out... #niall horan #the show #givemeaswordpersonal

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So here we are. Stranded on an island (Tumblr) . Waiting for a boat (Ao3) to safe us.

#I will just go to sleep & hope when I wake up in the morning that it is working again... #ao3 #givemeaswordpersonal #I don't know what that metaphor is... #It probably doesn't even make sense #Another reason why I should sleep

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5 weeks passed now & I am still not over If we were villains

#I think about it on a daily basis... #It's not leaving my mind... #Will I ever recover from it? #if we were villains #iwwv #givemeaswordpersonal

[givemeasword-callmequeen]

Over a week passed now & I am still not over If we were villains.

#What am I doing with my life... #I haven't touched another book since that... #My mind is still moving around that book... #if we were villains #givemeaswordpersonal

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Avoiding the set list for "the show' like it is some marvel movie I haven't seen yet

#I want to be surprised... #But avoiding this is easier than some movie spoilers... #niall horan #the show #givemeaswordpersonal

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Namora my beloved

#She is so fucking pretty... #Not to sound gay or anything but she could feed me to an orca & I would be fine with it #What does it say about me 0.o #givemeaswordpersonal #black panther wakanda forever #black panther #Namora

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Just to be honest. I would hold Hayden Christensen hand after the last episode.

#I would hold it & thank him for his service #This whole episode is still in my mind & driving me crazy... #givemeaswordpersonal #ahsoka series #ahsoka show #Givemeastarwars #star wars #anakin skywalker #hayden christensen

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I am just so tired of fighting a war that I can't understand. Every morning I wake up so fucking exhausted just to put on a smile & telling myself "I can do it. It will be alright"

So I go to work or meet family. I laugh & joke & be happy. Just to break down the moment I am alone again. I am just so so done... It gets harder & harder every day & I can't tell anyone. Because I don't understand in myself. I don't understand what's going on.

#I can't even tell my best friend because she has problems on her own right now... & I don't want to bother her... #It's just... To much in the moment... #Maybe a tattoo would fix me? #I just want to sleep forever... #givemeaswordpersonal #tw depressing thoughts #tw depression

[givemeasword-callmequeen]

I will see Niall at his concert in two months.... 😍

#I am so excited for that... #Can't wait for it :) #niall horan #the show #givemeaswordpersonal

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The concert was the Best Thing ever.

I am so happy.

Something healed in me..

#I cant stop smiling... #Seeing niall live was... Wow... Wow just Wow.. #givemeaswordpersonal #niall horan #the show live on tour

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On my way to the concert :)

#This was a fucking stressfull Day AT work... I am so done... #But i cant wait to be their... #I hope the train does what it is suppse to do... & does Not stop in the middle of the way... #Concert #niall horan #the show live on tour #givemeaswordpersonal

[givemeasword-callmequeen]

Work might be shitty in the moment... My family annoys me...my mental health is crying on the floor...

But at least I see Niall in a few weeks

#This is the light in the dark... #This is what I look forward to :) #niall horan #the show #givemeaswordpersonal

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Totally forgot how good "the mentalist" was.

#I was obsessed with that show... #Started to watch it again.... #& the first episode alone is just soooo fucking good... #Totally love the dynamic between Patrick & Teresa... #Never understood why they had to fall in love in the last season... But I will just ignore that... #the mentalist #givemeaswordpersonal

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I am seeing Niall in one month

#I am so excited.... #Can't wait for march... #the show #niall horan #givemeaswordpersonal #Songs I hope are performed: seeing blind...everywhere... Black & white... Too much to ask... #He could literally just play all albums...