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#One thing I did re-confirm was that I don't like drawing myself with dark eyes it never ends up looking right and I get frustrated
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Doing well, doing better
#Doodles#Bit of silliness but definitely in a better mood#Sometimes I'll take a moment to breathe and just look at my own art since very often I just kinda draw and draw and draw#And don't really pause to examine it beyond technique or emotional intention - I'll just kinda mentally gloss over the fact that#''Oh yeah I made something that previously didn't exist that's kinda neat'' lol#And that can be fun and/or exciting :D It's part of why I like comments and tags so much it pulls my attention to what people are looking at#It's a perspective I might've never considered! And I like that very much#Next two are in a similar vein - first one being my excitement of testing things (the science went well btw! Very interesting data)#And the second one was a redraw of the one that I think set off the Angery last time#It's better to be sure but I still haven't deciphered everything about it - I will tho! I'm gonna use it too!#One thing I did re-confirm was that I don't like drawing myself with dark eyes it never ends up looking right and I get frustrated#I do have blue eyes so I guess that kinda tracks it's just surprising how extreme a reaction I'll have lol#Especially since I have sonas with dark eyes! Charm Myr being the most obvious one#But I'm gonna use what I didn't like with her anyway so maybe it all works out lol#The last set okay lol it's silly even in context but like#I can't stop listening to Montero like - it's so catchy to start but the first time I watched it I cried#And then a couple times after that too lol#I wouldn't've watched it if it wasn't for the controversy around it ironically enough lol which would've been terrible because it's great!#But yeah I got a little emotionally overwhelmed by a) how beautiful it is a piece of art in a vacuum but b)#What it represents and communicates and shows insofar as how much music and being open and just everything#I'm still pretty young but I really can't remember too many openly LGBT+ mainstream musicians that Did That#It's very moving ♥#Not to mention naming it after himself and seeing the letter he wrote like ahhhhhh it's very beautiful
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2. Mona Lisa
I stay in a two room double on campus which means that I share a bathroom, but the room is my own to do with as I please, within reason.
Typically, I'm milking this privacy for the money to fund my education while simultaneously releasing my sexual tension in the most taboo of ways.
Sighing, brush my teeth and reapply my lip gloss in the mirror. I can feel tremors in my poor peach, she's reminiscing on the good times when she was exhaulted like the queen she is. Men would spend literal hours worshiping her every crevice and pay me handsomely for it.
Four days down, ten to go, I tell myself.
Sex is my ideal outlet for stress relief. It's my interest, my hobby, my reprieve. As you can imagine, I have to change my sheets on a daily basis, but I don't mind that.
Yes, I have brought a number of guys over to participate in certain acts that I'm sure my bathroom mate has heard through the wall. She doesn't look me in the eye anymore though I always speak to her.. and she hasn't done so for the past month or so. I think she's traumatized.
Tickled, I re-apply my sunscreen and change into my grey PINK leggings with matching sports bra, pulling my 360 install into a curly high bun and stretching to prepare for my mid-day jog.
Everyday, I jog through the Main Quad and work up a sparkle, since princesses don't sweat.
I carry a pink hydro flask and I jog as far as I can push myself to go, often ending up at the Oval, a place where students play volleyball and walk dogs. I like to sit out from time to time and watch.
Then I head back to my room and assemble my hygiene kit to take into the bathroom. I shower, cleanse, exfoliate if necessary, moisturize, and redress for the evening.
Today's evening wear is a black graphic half shirt with a gold crown printed on and black high waisted shorts with black platform sneakers from Dolls Kill. I add my gold anklet for mood before turning on my music.
Pretty little bird, pretty little bird
You've hit the window a few times (the window a few times)
You're pretty little bird, pretty little bird
You still ain't scared of no heights
When the spiral down feels as good as the flight
When hating you feels good for the night
When the morning comes, I hope you're still mine
My cellphone rings and it's Natalie, one of the black girls in this dorm. The first day we met, we made a silent pack to stick together, us and a couple others, and months down the road we've stuck to it.
"Back from your jog, Gem?"
"Yes, and I'm looking at my notes so no you cannot borrow them."
"Jokes on you, I took them yesterday when you were jogging and made copies, I'm set."
"You bitch," I tease. "What's the move tonight?"
"Whaaat? You're not busy with one of your John's?"
"Bitch, my legs are closed, my books are bussed wide open," I smile highlighting a sentence in the textbook. I have four exams to take.
Checking a text from one of my subs, Keon, I send a short reply with a 💋. He was just checking on me, asking about my studies.
"Well we're thinking of hitting a party with a few of the black exchange students."
Party?
My book slams shut. I have been extremely well-behaved this week, I deserve a little magic in my life. It won't hurt.
"Who's we?"
"Me, Kayla, Letitia, Kevin, and Chris."
Damn, Chris' fine ass can get it. I want him.
Okay, it's decided. I can finish up here, meet Mr. Stevens at 7 in his office, meet up with Natalie and the crew around 8 and then we'll head out. I can handle a few drinks.
Jumping up, I feel alive again for the first time in four days. I snatch up my makeup trunk and set it on my desk pulling out my handheld mirror.
Light beat. Lashes. Dark liner, heavy gloss.
I release my loosened strawberry curls from the bun letting them wave and fall on my shoulders.
xoxo
Approaching the office suite, I walk through to find that the other offices are already empty. I can tell because of the quiet and closed doors. Mr. Stevens' door is open and yellow artificial light streams into the small hallway.
When I come upon the door, Mr. Stevens is at his desk staring intently at a spread of papers, his gold-rimmed glasses fallen at the end of his nose.
My peach is telling me this scenario could be a problem. Dr. Stevens is a steak and lobster meal and my peach? She's salivating. Crossing my legs on the spot where I stand I knock on the door drawing his eye.
"Ms. Miller. Come in, have a seat."
Quickly, I plop down into one of the two chairs in front of his desk and sling my bag down to the floor beside my chair.
He awakens his computer, typing before reading through whatever's displayed. Then he turns the screen to face me and I'm looking at a layout of of my grades for the class. It's looking pretty good.
"Could be better," I stare waiting for what I came for.
"You're right, it could be. You see, as it stands everything for you is riding on this exam. You could walk away from this class with a high C or a high A. It's really up to you."
I lean forward with my elbows on the desk to look him in his narrow-set eyes.
"Look at my face, Mr. Stevens," I glare for emphasis. "Does it look like I'm down to settle for a high C? What did we discuss in the classroom?"
Again, it's a chess match of stares.
After about ten seconds this time, he pulls his glasses off, folding them gently and sitting them off the the side near the computer. He turns the computer screen back to it's original position and pulls a paper packet from his desk, raising it vertical with the print side facing towards himself and away from me.
It's the exam, I know it. I maintain eye contact.
"This," he pauses holding it up near his head. "If anyone... and I mean anyone.. discovers that you have this... you're on your own. I'll turn ya ass in so fast your head will spin. You will be expelled."
I've never heard him curse before.
"No one will find out, I'll guard it with my life."
"There's one more thing." He lowers the packet setting it away from me on the desk near his glasses. "Correct me if I'm mistaken, but I seem to recall you saying something along the lines of you not playing bout your grades or money.."
"Yeah?"
Licking his lips, he leans forward and I sit bolt straight.
"How far you willing to go for both?"
"Excuse me?"
"You heard me."
I blink in shock. Not good ol' Mr. Stevens! This has gotta be a joke. Mr. Hottie would never sleep with a student, he's far too strict. 
"Gemini," he whispers, the name lingering on his tongue in a way that gives me full body chills. How did he know my stage name?
"Mr. Stevens, I think you're mistaken. My name is Phoebe, remember?" I tilt my head to jog his memory. "Phoebe Miller?"
He scoffs, loosening his tie and I'm aware of myself breathing harder.. loudly.
He tosses his tie on the desk between us.
Unbuttoning the top few buttons on his shirt, I can see his sharp clavicle and a tease of the muscle beneath. My mouth is watering and he leans forward again.
"Let's skip the part where you play dumb and get straight to negotiations. You're a smart girl...Sexy," he whispers.
My eyes widen hearing that word come from his lips. My thighs press together. This isn't a body that can hold back once started up. He's treading dangerous ground.
I lean forward slightly and the corner of his lips lifts in a dark smirk.
I've never seen this man like this.
"I've been to Mickey's. You know, there's this move you do... on that pole... I've seen you do a few times now and I've been wondering every time I see your lil conceited ass in my class... how it would work if you tried it on a dick."
Shit.
He said the magic word! I'm wet. I'm wet! I cross my leg over my thigh and he sits back, standing tall as I look up at him, ready to do anything.
He walks over to the door, closing it gently and locking it. Panting, I watch him do it and then he walks back to his seat, reclining with his hands clasped loosely in front of him.
"I have the power to give you an A," he announces. "Right here, right now."
"Oh really."
Oh my fucking god, I'm so wet right now. I can feel it.
"Mhm... I can also ensure that you pass your other classes, no problem," he brushes his shoulder. "BUT."
"But," I breathe.
"I need something from you."
Blinking at his boldness, I can't help the lust that comes to my eyes. This is a fantasy. Shit like this does not happen.
"Yes?" I'm licking my lips, biting them in anticipation. Say it, I beg with my eyes. Say it!
"I want you.."
Yesss?
"..to be.."
I lean in closer.
"So eager," he laughs. "You know, the way you look at me, you remind me of the Mona Lisa. There's a secret behind your eyes and every time I see you... that's what the fuck I see. It's like you wanna fuck me..."
Sitting up again to lean forward, his face is now inches from mine.
"You're going to be my slave, Ms. Miller. My personal.. little slut. Just until the exams are over," he nods.
I have to think about that, but not for long.
"And you can ensure all A's," I confirm.
Smiling, he nods. It's the perfect scenario, I want to cry.
"Deal."
"You can't tell a soul," he whispers coming in closer. His breath smells like spearmint. His lips are centimeters away now and I can't hold myself back any longer, I close the distance meeting his soft lips with mine.
Getting as far as a peck, he pulls back looking away like a man who's just made a deal on something as trivial as a lawn gnome or a piece of patio furniture. There's an unrushed boredom that only serves to intrigue me as he goes through the buttons on his shirt, letting the white fabric fall open to reveal the built muscles I kind of knew were there... but never to this extent.
His skin looks like smooth rum and I want a taste, but he has a deliberate pattern of raised bumps all over his chest and abs. It's not a turn off. In fact, I can think of a few things to do with that.
He smirks as if reading my mind.
Leaning further forward, I'm out of my seat and leaning over the desk.
With my right hand I reach up to touch his right pectoral but snatch my hand back when he smacks it away. I feel the sting. He's heavy handed.
"Did I say you could touch me?" His eyes hold venom.
He sounds like me when I'm disciplining a sub.
"No sir."
"Don't smile."
"But my smile is so cute," I grin watching his wheels spin.
"That's true," he admits with a nod. "But you know what's even cuter?"
"There's cuter?" I tilt my head innocently and he smiles.
"Hm," he chuckles. "...Don't move."
Holding my position over his desk, I remain still as he stands up again, slowly circling out of my view. Behind me, he stands and I can feel his presence. I feel a spanking coming on. I can feel him-
"MM," I squeak feeling the first hit. It's firm, but not too rough.
"Shut up, you've taken worse," he comments and I wonder how he knows because it's true. This is nothing.
Hit number two comes and it's a little bit harder than the first.
"Be gentle," I whisper looking back.
The third hit is double the strength of the last, I feel it and breath out.
The fourth is much harder and I make a sound to let him know I feel it. He hears me because the next swat feels like he really reeled back and it stings. It has me anxious for the next hit.
"I once saw you take a flogger," he breathes and I hear it in his voice, he's getting excited. I wonder if his dick is hard. How big is it? "Who you think requested it," he huffs and the swat he takes makes me hit the desk.. for real this time.
"You're a sub-SSSS," I hiss throwing my head back. "Damnit, okay now," I warn."
"Move your hands."
I don't know.
"Get back down... and move your hands," he repeats firmly.
Hesitantly, I drop them and brace myself on the desk.
"Uh!" I close my mouth and gather myself. It really stings. He keeps hitting the same damn spot, but in the way that tying a rubber band around your finger feels good, it also feels good.
"Take those shorts off..," he mutters. I can hear him breathing and when I look back, he's taking the button up completely off and unbuckling his black leather belt. "Hurry up.. take it off."
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