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dr3amofagame · 6 months

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my personal interpretation of c!wilbur is someone who read a lot of left over (functionally) historical propaganda over the revolutionary war and became radicalized, not fully grasping how his position in the world changes what his own desire for revolution really means. hes like a white knight lib to me (simplification but i hope it gets across)

ehhh i see where you're coming from but i don't really agree

to be clear i'm not super c!wilbur brained he's a fascinating character but i haven't watched enough c!wilbur content recently (especially early c!wilbur content) to really consider myself particularly uh able to give like, a nuanced read of the guy. but c!wilbur is honestly a lot more self-aware than a lot of people give him credit for. he crafts these narratives not because he inherently 100% believes them, you know?

there's a lot about mmm the lmanburg revolution and all that's quite openly ig like, underhanded even in the way that he plays it early on. the whole "words, not weapons" moment where he reveals that that's actually a ploy to stab people who believe them in the back comes to mind. the content creator himself has always asserted that a significant part of the creation of lmanburg is meant to assert and keep power, and this is something we see reflected again in the elections, which--uh, pretty obvious power thing, imo.

this isn't to say that like, being a good person and all isn't important to c!wilbur. it is. it's very important to him, and part of what shatters him so much in pogtopia is looking at what he's done and realizing that it doesn't really make him the best guy. but i don't think c!wilbur buys what he's selling like, at all in early lmanburg era. mans knows that he can speak things into reality and he uses that. a lot. part of why c!quackity unsettles him so much even as early back as the elections is because c!quackity was someone he couldn't get a clear read of and someone that therefore left him on the back foot. but in terms of the revolution, delivering them from oppression, etc etc--the fact that he owns this whole "we aren't like the brutish, tyrannical americans and their barbarity" while himself being american as established in boundless sands reeeeeally hammers in the whole irony of his lmanburg sales pitch.

as far as i can tell, i usually operate on the assumptions that like. 1) c!wilbur wants to make an impact, be remembered, legacy is a whole thing yadayada my unfinished symphony yadayada ozymandius yadayada literally all of the hamilton references. self explanatory. 2) c!wilbur is a character that often navigates the world + relationships to power in terms of "either you're the one with power or you're the one having power used against you"--a lot of his interactions reflect a need to have control over a situation, his interactions with people that he perceives as having power or threatening his power/control tend to involve challenging them and their authority, stick it to the man, the whole thing of putting a block under himself while talking to people. this could've been put better but yeagh. 3) c!wilbur wants to be respected + wants to be, like, a good leader? and he can get wrapped up in a lot of that while you know not having the most accurate perception of his Actual strengths 4) c!wilbur is self-aware and intelligent and charismatic, and he's quite confident of all of these qualities. he's a hell of a manipulator and uses manipulation quite often to get the upper hand in social situations 5) a lot of the power/control issues have roots in very real fear--he's a guy that's quite ill and obviously as we get into elections and pogtopia especially (schlatt scares the bejeezus out of him) we see a lot of that. realizing that his actions makes him a bad person affects him greatly and he ends up struggling with this idea for Quite a long time--he tries to get control over this by trying to Own the whole "i'm evil" thing <- also not put the best but ehhhhh ehh. again, not a c!wilburian and 6) c!wilbur, in the role of the "lmanburg narrative", takes the role as its writer. he's the one that comes up with the story in order to validate his creation and make it into a Thing, and this succeeds--but the mythos also quickly snowballs beyond him. he creates the story as it exists but it becomes something More, yknow? i don't think he ever truly believed in it i don't think that c!wilbur actually buys any of his stuff about revolutions and oppression and all of that, i dont really think lmanburg was any more legitimate of a cause when he began it as the drug van breaking bad rp that he made the day before. but it's a story that took hold and grew to have very real, tangible power that affected the whole server and affected him as well. which obviously goes into the whole exiting the narrative thing.

anyway that's all a bit of a rant and i'm not exactly the person to ask for c!wilbur thoughts but yeahhhh 🤷. i tend to no-nuance him a little bit bc he's a complicated character and im a hater 😂

#my asks !!#bubbles made a good point the other day abt how lmanburg is quite cynical of hamilton just in the way that it's presented #and the story it tells etc #and i think c!wilbur reflects that?#like there's a lot to say abt lmanburg especially regarding the political atmosphere of britain and the united states in 2020 #but im not the person to go to for that meta #anyway #hopefully this isn't too bad

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the-cat-and-the-birdie · 8 months

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Do you support proshippers, cause if so then 😬.

People generally do not take this as an answer but I do want to say it because some people do care.

But I don't. Because I do not support either side and assigning me to either side does not reflect my views.

I actively oppose the conversation and the way is formatted and I intentionally do not engage.

I am neither a ProShipper or an Antishipper. And describing me as either would be describing me wrong. Why?

Because it's not a cut and dry issue.

It's not like Pro-life and Pro-choice where the question is simply 'Should abortion be legal'?

The shipping argument is asking if a RANGE of topics ranging from abusive relationships or negative depictions of mental illness to literal CP are okay - all under one question.

Asking me this is like asking "Hey do you support people that age up Damien Wayne in fics *cough*(and also people who write horribly dangerous things like graphic sexual assault for their own dark amusement..those people too)*cough*"

Like...the question to begin with is flawed.

With a question formatted like that - there is absolutely no way to have a healthier clear conversation that makes sense or accurately displays anyone's views.

The conversation itself is to vague and too broad to offer any type of fruitful conversation whatsoever. And I stand on that.

Like, I'd say at least half of the takes I see from either side I think are wrong, ridiculous, or based on vague arguments that just don't make sense.

I'm Not a Pro-Shipper cause there is some weird shit out there I'm not attaching myself to. Because some people out there are deranged, and malicious, and this is the internet.

I'm NOT an Anti-Shipper because there are a LOT of fucked up things that do wind up in media that tell a specific story - and there's also shit in the conversation that just doesn't fucking matter.

If you're writing about a character who went through CSA and your goal is to show a story about someone who lives with that trauma? Great. I'm for that so long as you do your research and do it respectfully

If you're writing out the SCENES???? AT LENGTH?? Go somewhere. Preferably a jail cell but somewhere that's not here.

If you're aging up a character and headcanon-ing what they'd be like in the future for shipping purposes - or you're shipping characters with no in-universe confirmed age. I couldn't care less.

If I don't wanna read it, I won't support it. I won't give it kudos or views. It's got nothing to do with me.

If you're writing things that are openly racist or openly sexualizing a character you are clearly writing as a child - absolutely fucking not. Anime men I'm looking at you.

And if you write black characters involved in raceplay count your mfing days.

It's not a cut and dry issue, so to ask me to define myself in one word on a topic of dozens of different genres isn't going to give you a clear picture of my views.

You are more likely to get a more clearer answer if you ask me about that specific genre and topic.

I am vocally and clearly on neither side and opposed to a conversation that is narrow and often ends in miscommunication.

There's always going to be a Pro-Shipper or Anti-Shipper out there that I deeply disagree with.

I refuse to engage and support a conversation that lumps together very serious issues with very asinine things and then expects me to answer in one word at threat of harassment (not you in specific, but very realistically in general).

I am a person of complex opinions. You see my blog. You really expect me of all people to be able to describe myself in one word?

Maybe in the terms of "Pro-Life" vs Pro-Choice (I'm Pro-Choice obviously) But in this conversation I cannot do it. I am very firmly neither.

I hope that answer your question, and since I feel like this should be said - especially with the fandom we're in - I'm happy to answer your question.

Like I said, a lot of people just won't take this as an answer. And that's fine. But I said what I said.

If you engage in this conversation and you think I agree you, you're wrong. If you engage and you think I disagree with you, you're wrong. Cause I am simply sitting here in silence, writing my silly little analysis and looking pretty, and will continue to do so.

Now if you'll excuse me, there's a photo of Hobie that I need to stare at.

Bye.

#I do not engage and I mean that #proship #antiship #somebody was bound to ask #but yeah thats why i dont talk about it cause that conversation is structured dumb as fuck from the ground up are kidding me #the question in itself is rigged for an argument regardless of what you say #so I say - Fuck that shit Im here being a hot girl fuck you gonna do stop me??

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dwarvenbash · 2 months

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Something a little niche today, the Touro heavy Mech and Buckmaster light Mech from Brigador!

These neat little killing machines actually come packaged with a few weapon options, allowing you to mix and match a bit, which is very true to the original game's spirit.

Especially fell in love with the Touro even more as I was putting it together, it's a very cute little lump of pewter that is quite satisfying to hold.

If you've never heard of Brigador before and are curious, more info about that and these little guys under the cut!

For the accurate Brigador experience, it's best to keep reading while listening to this track on loop:

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Now, although those are miniatures up there, Brigador is a video game rather than one of the table top variety. While that may be a distasteful prospect to some, I can assure you it is still quite fun, as evidenced by this screenshot:

There are like fifty levels and I've beaten (nearly) all of them with every loadout, evidence of me doing as such with the really hard ones have been conveniently omitted in this screenshot however.

The game uses these awesome old-school 3D prerendered sprites for everything, which really scratches my nostalgic itch for that old Diablo/Starcraft look (or any 90s RTS for that matter). Here's how the Touro and Buckmaster look in game!

They're somehow even cuter...

The excellent art direction coupled with some really solid writing made Brigador a staple game for me. Whenever I have a couple minutes to kill and I'm at my computer, I'll usually just boot up Brigador and try to clear some challenge I've been working on. It's a very relaxing habit, despite the tone of the game which is actually quite grim! (Hopefully this doesn't reflect on me badly...)

Anyway, enough about videogames, we're here to to discuss miniatures!

Now while I am still very pleased that the developers of Brigador decided to release their own pewter miniatures based on designs from the game, I must warn you, my dear reader, that these sculpts may have some pretty gnarly flash and mold line issues. I can't say anything for sure, because all the pieces on my Buckmaster were free of residue and too much flash, but both of the Touros I picked up still had enough mold release where they needed a wash, and their chassis pieces had pretty big chunks of flash. I had picked up two to convert one into a Corvid mech (I can't decide between a Sweetheart or a Fatshoe) anyway though so it isn't that big a deal. The Touros were the first models they released, so I'm sure they've worked out the kinks at this point.

All that being said, I still had a good time putting these guys together and I'm very excited to paint them up in their proper NEP livery. I think I'll put them on Battletech hex bases since theyre about the right size and could work as stand-ins for some underdog Inner Sphere mecha, perhaps.

Funnily enough, these miniatures are also technically 1:144 scale, which is exactly the same scale as a Gundam High Grade model kit! Here they are next to a 1:144 scale Pilot to give you a sense of how big they would be in real life:

Something very satisfying about being able to do this with miniatures. I wish Battletech played this nice with regards to scale...

....aaand now compared to a Mobile Suit:

Makes you realize how ridiculously huge Mobile Suits are, huh?

One shot from the Touro's Abbot could probably still blow that poor Leo up, though...

Thanks for reading this far! This one has been especially indulgent, but it's always fun to talk about something underrated in the hopes more people will check it out.

Going forward on here, I'm considering making more "short-form" posts (yes, it is possible) with more quick updates on what I'm working on. Most miniatures probably won't necessitate an entire screed to accompany them either, believe it or not. I'll still be writing up long ones like these though; I have a long, long list of opinions and diatribes and I am desperately trying to spare my loved ones from being subjected to them. Most importantly, though, it's fun to write about this stuff. :P

#this one is gonna be wierd but #Brigador #stuff will be back so I'll tag that #scifi #mecha #and technically #gundam

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slowpokesami · 2 years

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Volo headcanons 2

TW: depression, mentions of suicide, mental health issues Sooo here I am again; I just wanted to post the whole thing about Volo and my headcanons about him About his past and background

Have you ever wondered about Volo’s past? On the games he tells us the world is an unfair place and seems very hurt by this idea, and this, together with his behavior, gives us a proof that his past was not easy or at least that he's gone through some traumatic experience; he doesn't act like, say, Ghetsis; he doesn't act like someone who's bad by nature. Honestly, to get to the point of decadence he shows us on the games I really think he was hardly abused, maybe by other guys from his generation, but more likely by his parents and/or close family; that would explain him developing some kind of personality disorder or mental illness that later caused his psychopathy. After all, this would have been the way his brain developed to protect him from his bullies. (I have to make clear, though, that even if I know about psychology I am not a psychologist so don’t ever take my interpretations as something totally accurate and don't get me wrong, I know most people who has a mental disorders or illnesses are not psychopaths, I, myself have ADHD and all my closest friends have some kind of neurodivergency). Later he isolates himself, angry with the rest of the world, and discovers Pokemon myths, and the more he reads about them, the more interested he is; he starts believing in Arceus as it gives him hope and decides to dedicate his whole life to the creature, and that makes him isolate even more. He thinks the other people are trash and are bad because all he’s gone through, and that’s why he starts dreaming of a better world and slowly developing his god complex "I am the only good person in the world". He starts planning meeting Arceus, as he thinks the pokemon can provide him his perfect world and at the same time (and maybe even more impotantly) he hopes for "god's recognition" as that would make him a divine creature too (or so he thinks), and gets obsessed with this idea. Probably he just thought Arceus was his only hope for a better life for him; at this point he probably starts working as a Ginko Guild merchant because it’s an easy way to leave home and scape from his old life, starting a new one based on his Arceus’ search. His obsession is clearly reflected on his clothes during the last battle towards him; I mean, at this point, he has definitely lost his mind. I also want you to think about that time he says something like "you, at least, have your pokemon, I don't even have that" - meaning he feels really alone, and, eventhough I think he really loves his pokemon (I'll later develop this point), this would also prove that he doesn't have (human) close friends.

Why would he want to hurt Arceus if he is obsessed with it? I think what he doesn’t see but it’s quite obvious is that what he really desires is not Arceus per se, but his power. The fact he invokes Giratina to defy him totally proves this point. Volo doesn’t care about Arceus even if he thinks he does, as I said before, Volo has a God complex: through his last years he has really believed (or tried to convince himself that) he is better than the others, and that gives him the right to create a new world getting rid of the actual one, together with its people, pokemon and everything. And he doesn’t care hurting Arceus because of this reason. He looks for his perfect ally: Giratina, who also wants Arceus’ power, using it to defy Arceus and dominate it – I mean, some people say Volo wants to kill Arceus, but as long as I understand what he really wants is to dominate it – and use it for his dream.

But after all, his god-complex and slightly narcissistic personality is just a wall to hide behind his insecurity and loneliness; he hopes to find in the new world he wants to create all the love and comprehension he never had. Volo makes me feel kind of sad and I feel empathic towards him, but I am conscious that he, after all, is just nuts. Go to therapy, Volo, please: we want to love you

About his song

You know what? I head-cannoned his story in part because of his song. Most of you have probably noticed how special this is; totally a master-piece from my point of view. Apart from the obvious reference to Cynthia, the song has a lot of different parts, and I linked them all to make a story; his story. Let’s analyze it step by step:

The Cynthia reference is played in a way it sounds more dramatic than Cynthia’s actual theme – I think it wants to represent his traumatic infancy; the first part, that is only played with piano, represents his loneliness and the second part, which sounds harder, represents the abuse towards him.

Then in the third part we can appreciate more instruments, I think this represents the moments he spent alone reading and learning about history and mythology

The fourth part sounds more epic; I think it is the moment he started reading about Arceus, and how it changed his life

We have a most cheerful moment as the fifth part, which I interpret as the happy days after discovering his God, and how he started having faith for a better life; this is probably the happiest era of his life.

Then later in the sixth part we have a more dangerous tone, which for me implies the moment he starts planning on defying Arceus to create a new better world; and how his good intentions and thirst for knowledge turn into something really evil.

From there on, I think it all represents Volo’s decadence and how he turns crazier every time consumed by his depression and emotions.

Finally when we beat him, we can appreciate a last piano intervention, which closes the combat. Even if we all know he shows us Giratina later, for me this part is predicting the moment the main character beats him and all his craziness gets to an end, which supposes a sharp blow for him, probably making him meditate about all that happened and disappearing.

What happened to him after that…? Cogita’s and Lavender’s comments, together with the contradictory speech he gives us after beating Giratina, make me think he really meditates of all that has happened, but who knows what he did after that… in the beginning I thought someone like him would commit suicide, but honestly… something tells me he didn’t; maybe because of his reaction after losing wasn’t as crazy as I expected. This makes me think maybe he wasn’t completely nuts and he still had something inside telling him he wasn’t acting for good. I am not really sure about this, as the character is full of contradictions, and I think this is genius because it makes him act in a very natural way according to his personality, so congrats game freak for this. My headcanon is he just took a break somewhere far away or in some hidden place, maybe Cogita’s house, and after it he went on working as a Ginko Guild merchant while telling people about Hisui’s myths and history - or maybe he even becomes a hisory teacher! Even if he says he would come back and blah blah blah I can’t imagine him committing any other stupidity; it looks to me as he only said he would come back because of his pride and the jealousy he was feeling at the moment; He acts as a very emotional person after all, so this makes a lot of sense to me Maybe Game Freak just wanted an open end to make a sequel, that’s another possibility; in this case I would like to see what happens, but it seems like they already forget legends exists to anounce pokémon Españita Scarlet and Violet

About his relationship with his pokemon team and his true nature

But you know what? I don’t think he really is evil after all. Why I say that?

If we take a look, most his team is formed by pokemon who evolve with friendship- to me it only can mean two things; the first one is that he manipulated pokemon to use them as he pleases, and the second one is he really loves his pokemon. And what makes me think the second one is the correct version? Two small details: the first one is his Lucario; if we read his entry on the pokedex it says Lucario can see people’s aura, that means he knows if someone is manipulating him or not and who is trust worthy. Also if he has him since he was a Riolu, the pokedex entry literally says Riolu can read people’s emotions and also he loves good people but hates bad people, so he would have never accepted Volo, making it impossible for him to evolve. The other small detail is a photography hanging on the front of Dagero’s photo studio; if we take a look, there’s Volo and his Togepi happily posing on there; why would Volo take a photo with his pokemon if he didn’t love it?

I have read people saying it was just made to emulate Cynthia’s team, but I don’t think it’s the only reason. Why? Because Game Freak never does something randomly; not in pokemon. We see similar things happening with other villains appart from what I am saying: Cyrus has a crobat; I think the pokemon team tried to tell us: hey, this guy is not evil, he loves his pokemon! He just has a huge depression that makes him want to erase his feelings. And now look at Ghetsis; now he is really evil, he is probably the baddest character in all pokemon games… he has a Hydreigon who uses the move “frustration” (for those who don’t remember, frustration is a move which gets stronger the more the pokemon hates it's trainer). So it just makes no sense it wasn’t intentional with Volo. Some people also says the last team is not the same as the one he has during all the videogame, meaning the Togekiss he has is not the Togepi he’s always had and same with Garchomp and Gabite; for the same reason of game freak always doing things on purpose I also think this theory makes no sense. I mean, if they wanted us to think he uses another pokemon team, they wouldn’t have used the pre-evolutions of two pokemon Volo has on his final team. What would be the point of doing this after all?

He also tells us he wants to create a new world, but we don’t know how he imagines this new world. From the things he says I can imagine he just looked for a more fair and lovely world. What do you think?

Other details that make the character just excellent

There are some details I really appreciate of Volo as a character. For example, as I have been saying, his small contradictions on the things he says and does. It can be clearly seen at the end of the game: First he tells us his story ends when he loses to us in battle, giving us the spooky plate and looking kind of reasonable, but then when he sees our Celestical Flute turns into the Azure Flute, he acts with jealousy and says to us he totally refuses giving up. Then later professor Lavender tells us Volo encouraged him to finish his work with the pokedex though also telling him this would probably be the last time they ever met. I think this is all excellently made and thought and shows clearly the kind of contradictions I was talking about. His behavior doesn’t follow a logic; instead, he is highly emotional. He can’t accept losing at first, that’s why he yells at giratina how pathetic he thinks they is. Then later he turns to us and acts in a more responsible way when he gives us the spooky plate, like admitting that, if he lost, it may be for some reason; he accepts it is just his destiny. Then he feels really hurt when he sees the Azure flute meaning we were chosen by Arceus, and that’s when he gets mad at us yelling what I said before. How he is feeling when he meets professor Lavender again can be discussed, but I think he was feeling very sad and depressed; we can see his good face telling the professor he makes a good work - and being interested as he always is with everything related to knowledge – and on the other hand we have what he said about “the last time we meet”; I think he really was contemplating suicide at the moment (that’s why I said before I had the head canon of him killing himself), I don’t know what to think about the reason, though: if he was lost because life lost sense to him, if he reconsidered all that happened and was deeply regretful for being about to destroy the world, maybe both? It can also be he just wanted to mean he was thinking about travelling to another region, but it makes no sense because Cynthia was born in Sinnoh and she is clearly his descendent. Maybe he wanted to travel through the space-time rift? It makes even less sense because without the spooky plate and Giratina, how does he open it again? And yet we still have the same problem: Cynthia was born somehow. But well, don’t forget she can also be descendent of some Volo’s sibling or cousin, or maybe Volo had sex with someone leaving them pregnant before leaving, we don’t know.

Another detail I love is how he gets crazier and more evident as the game advances, cause it also shows his highly emotional behavior. I think I am not the only one who remembers how he gets impatient while talking to Cogita about the plates or how he crazily laughs when he tells us about Giratina, right? Or how, the nearest we are to battle him, the more he appears everywhere. Some may not notice he is the bad guy, but anyways he is every-time more evident, caring every-time less about his ways, which could have made us highly suspect him and leave the plates mission (at least, if we were able to do it!)

So yeah that's all. Thanks if you read all of this looooooong text of mine. To be honest I wrote it some months ago and now that I am reading it again it is kinda interesting, I guess... Anyways I don't know how you have had the patience to get to the end of the post, my ADHD ass wouldn't let me even start. Thanks again and see you in the next poooost!!! if you have any suggestion about characters or stories you want me to headcanon about send me a PM and I maybe write about it if I have the time and motivation Love, Sami Luu

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