#and 2023 (so far as I'm still working on editing December) has about 37 minutes

[eye-scream-girls]

I've been keeping a video diary for the past two years to help with my ruined 🌟 mental health 🌟 and I officially stopped on new years day this year, as it served its purpose perfectly and Oh My God I am loving not having to capture something everyday, it's been a big relief to just exist and let time flow without reminding myself to document anything. It was exactly what I needed in 2022 to help me reconnect with my physical body and recognise my face and see myself in my own life the way I needed it, and in 2023 it was perfect for capturing my joys and loved ones and everything I was grateful or proud of, and now I'm ready to just live organically and I am Loving not having to take a video everyday!! Ugh its so good.

#honestly it was one of the best practical things I started doing to help myself back in 2022 #in total 2022 had a total of 23 minutes of edited memories #and 2023 (so far as I'm still working on editing December) has about 37 minutes #it's brought me so much joy and happiness watching it back #i did journals for certain events like my birthday and concerts which used a lot of footage and longer clipa #and then cherrypicked from those to add to the yearlong journal #i also compared my summers to my winters #it was super interesting seeing how my priorities shifted and my self consciousness slipped away over time #it sounds odd but i became very fond of seeing myself in videos talking about things i was passionate about or making jokes #i got used to hearing my own laughter and accent #i grew affectionate of my own weird little facial expressions and the way I grin like a maniac when i got excited #it was like falling in love with the idea of myself alongside stitching back together my own image of mself as an interactive reallife self #with the physical body i could observe interacting in my life and see in the mirror #probably the healthiest thing i did for myself in 2022 was committing to that diary #and the healthiest thing for me now is taking the training wheels off and flying #so yeah #absolutely loving not remembering to have my phone 24/7 #personal #rambles