#and i don’t want to be like “abandon your religion. for me 😁”

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#lior says words #i’m so #idek #my boyfriend broke up-ish with me yesterday #well he just brought up the possibility but he implied that it would probably happen #and i get why #and he still loves me and i still love him but #there’s a conflict with his beliefs and my queerness 😀 #and i want him to be happy and i don’t want him to feel guilty for being with me #but DAMN IT WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS #it was going so well #i love him so much #but then he’s like “is this technically gay. i can’t do that” #and i don’t want to be like “abandon your religion. for me 😁” #just like how he doesn’t want to be like “detransition. for me 😁” #i feel like i can’t even say anything like “is god rly that sick if he doesn’t want us together bc i’m kinda a boy” bc like #1. it’d be like him saying “you’re half girl why not go all the way” #2. i’m not fucking religious and not in the way he is what would i know 😭 #i want him to be happy #idk what that would mean though #would he rly be happy if we break up #would he rly be happy if we were together but he always felt guilty for it #i just. idk #i wish it wasn’t like this #if we break up i’d be fine eventually. he’d still be my bestie westie for the restie #but i need to let myself be upset about it. i’m going to be upset at the complexity #and my helplessness #and what could’ve been #because the time we were together was the happiest fucking time of my life #whatever i’ll go back to yearning or whatever tf i was doing

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I just saw your 2 year old post encouraging women to write and it was like a sign from god for me. I recently remembered this week how when I hit puberty and started getting harassed at age 12, I wanted to write a story about all women on earth turning into giant clawed and fanged monsters and turning against men and building a new world on an abandoned planet with politics and new religions while the men degrade into a world of military dictatorship and start a war they don’t win with women.

I’ve started outlining the characters yesterday. Thank you sister for making that post. ❤️

Thank you for sharing this with me. I really wish you luck in your story and if you ever feel comfortable PLEASE do share it with me. I love fantasy and sci-fi written by women! But this also reminded me to write more. I have been journaling the past few years of my life and hope to also get it typed out proper to share someday. This is the push I needed to get back to work on that 😁

#radfem safe #gender critical #radfems interact #radfems do touch