#and i'm a bit restless

[sidetongue]

in love with my little crew

#henry got very very mad at sprig the other day #after a lot of trigger stacking #i had been bed bound for 4 days post tonsillectomy #so none of the dogs had had any interaction or exercise #so they were all stressed and restless #i was in bed and heard hollering and screaming #i ran downstairs and by the time i got there the fight was over and no one was injured #i looked back on the camera and hen had been lying down chewing something #moby was being irritating and trying to get it out of his mouth #hen ignored him #then budge came over and tried to retrieve it as well #hen continued munching and didn't even bother correcting them #but then sprig walked over to see what was going on #and stuck his head in hens mouth #hen gave a slight correction #and then sprig in awkward panic made a move to like mount hen?? #and anyway hen just turned around and NAILED him #which was scary because hes never done anything like that before #I'm thinking it's because sprig is entire and also quite a bit larger #and apparently at like 10-12mo their hormones go insane even if they're not acting like jerks?? and it makes neutered males upset? #anyway i'm sure sprig has learnt not to hump hen #but my immediate instinct is to DESEX SPRIG NOW #because all of my dogs have been desexed under a year old #i dont know how to own entire dogs! #but i really really wanna keep spriggy entire until at least 2yrs #anyway Sprig literally just screamed and peed himself which was most of the noise #if needed i'll start separating the old man and the baby regularly so they can have time out from each other #still very good boys #henry #sprig

[in-restless-walks]

In Restless Dreams trailer gifs

#actually the scenes are a bit too short to make good gifs #but once this docu hits it's going to be a lot of fun #the last gif though #it does things to me #simon and garfunkel #s&g #simon & garfunkel #paul simon #art garfunkel #in restless dreams #my gifs #OMG I'm seeing that @bridgeoverstrawberryfields was planning on doing gifs too #I read that only after I had made them *facepalm* #sorry sorry didn't mean to cut you off #please also make your own!!

[fictionadventurer]

"It looked like a good day for setting fence posts, and my mother said so while taking the biscuits from the oven. 'Some morning early, when I can get away, I want you to come with me along the edge of the hill in the wood-lot," she continued. "When the shadows of the trees begin to come down the slope, as the sun rises you feel the turning of the earth. You feel the whole globe under your feet rolling into the sunlight. . . . That's something I found one morning when I was driving the calves to pasture. I've been saving it up for you. I wonder if you've seen a more beautiful dawn in any of the places you've been.'

On my fingers I count the dawns I have seen--memorable, just in being dawns. Sleepy-eyed dawn from the Paris markets after a night of dancing; mist dawn against which I was just to late to see the minarets of Constantinople--all the fault of the stupid stewardess who didn't wake me in time; one startling moment of color on the hills around the Dead Sea before they went colorless in merciless heat; sudden dawn like a clap of light over the freezing-cold Syrian desert. Four dawns in twenty years. No, I do not know dawns as my mother does."

-- Rose Wilder Lane, "A Place in the Country" (1925)

#little house #rose wilder lane #laura ingalls wilder #a little house sampler #i dove into the book seriously this morning #intended to read just the first couple of pieces and kept reading 'just one more' until i've got about 2/3 read #most of laura's pieces are familiar from her farm columns #though there's a couple of early versions of little house stories that show a lot of her voice did get through there #rose's are fascinating #i can't quite wrap my head around her #sometimes she'll seem neurotic and restless and judgey and sophisticated and a bit pretentious #and then she writes some of the most beautiful nostalgic pieces #showing so much love of home and family and the simple joys of life #this piece might be my favorite so far because it grapples with those two sides #after four years as a foreign correspondent she's back at home in mansfield #and she has a new appreciation for her parents and the work they do and the life they've built #now that she's had her adventures and is no longer a restless teen looking to get away from rural poverty #even in the other pieces it's fascinating how much love of her family comes through when you know about the difficult relationships #i should share some quotes from the piece about mary when i get the chance #(also i'm very upset that she didn't write down the story of why she and her parents never read the last book in the school library) #(you don't end with a sequel hook and just leave me hanging ms. lane!) #anyway i love the whole essay that this is from and there are other worthwhile quotes #but i like how this one captures the 'noticing beauty while doing farm work' side of laura that i've come to think of as her trademark

[wordybee]

Ghost Files: "The Nightmare Nuns of St Ignatius"

#watcher #watcher entertainment #ghost files #shane madej #I'm sure someone captured this whole bit but I couldn't find it and I thought it was hilarious #yes I'm apparently doing a rewatch of the whole watcher catalogue #anyway shane eats the souls of the restless dead

[fluffyapathybunny]

All moved into a new place with my housemates. There's a forest of boxes in every room, including the basement, but we're in a place that is owned by housemates (I'm mot blood related but I'm still a sibling by rights, I've known my housemate since kindergarten and her wife is amazing and they're so good for each other)

We have half an acre... a side yard for trees and flowers and a fire pit and stuff. No downstairs neighbors having loud drug parties, no fear of seeing accidents at the four corners (because we're between two T-sections and also off the main road by two blocks).

Finally living the millennial dream of home ownership.

#It's a cozy place. Smaller that the upper flat we moved from but it's ours #The basement has a couple problems (flooding and a bit of mold) and there's a spot in front of the stairs that's super soft floor but #It's ours. There's a half bath for tandem pooping or if one's showering while someone has to use the loo #I'm feeling restless rn #My hip is angry and has been for a while. And this is the first night mich and I are sleeping here so it's a new experience #On a new bed. My blanket is in the wash so I'm using a couple very soft 50x60 throws. And I decided I wanted a new pillow but hadn't gotten #So I'm using my 22'' blacklight foxy plush tonight because he's a good pillow #Okay Amma try to sleep now. Night

[yallemagne]

The frustrating thing about trying to distance oneself from a previous hyperfixation is that... all my fuckin art is just that. And my own art doesn't stir any negative feelings (other than the typical negative feelings an artist is saddled with when viewing their own creations) but I don't really want to work on those things... buuuut starting new shit when I have so many WIPs is annoying to me. Especially when these new projects aren't finished immediately. If I'm going to be slogging it might as well be with something already established.

Then again, I kinda have two things I've already finished over my break, but since I didn't post them immediately upon finishing I just have no will to post, so finishing any projects seems pointless with that particular roadblock in the way.

grrr bark bark wahyyyy.

I know the reason why: I don't want to build myself up, but why draw if I'm not even letting myself be proud of my work?

#vent #I'm healthier I guess but restless #I'm still depressed tho part of it is probably hormonal #I'm a bit scared that continuing to post things featuring that hyperfixation is like... backsliding? #but I'm in full control of that aren't I? it's not really going back on a promise to myself is it? #the problem is (there's so many problems why do I start sentences this way) that I still engage actively with all these projects #in my HEAD usually when I'm taking walks listening to the music I used to brainstorm with #THAT is fine but I feel like I'm doing something WRONG when I try to apply myself #ugh hopefully I can get this sorted before my next therapy

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

It's dead af at work. We got through our four reservations and have had no walk ins, and my manager won't cut me because he hates doing my job (and we're friends and he knows I need the money) and tbh I don't want to be cut (can't really afford to be) but I'm actually going insane from sitting on my stool, going through Tumblr, Insta, Kindle, then standing up and going through those apps again, then sitting down and going through those apps again, etc. it's nice to get paid to do nothing, because tbh if I was cut then I'd just be doing this but in my bed, but I'm getting so fucking restless.

#truly im unneeded rn #my other manager gave me the option to be cut before my shift even started but again. I'm broke af #so i came in. and im getting paid $15 an hour to scroll through all of my apps #and im trying to be mildly productive #trying to do some resding because i didnt resd as much as i wanted this month #to make up for it i finished three books in the last two days and im going for a fourth #one of them i had already started. one was pretty short. and one was so good that i tore through it fast #this is a more difficult story. about a school shooting. not super fun but a good story nonetheless #you ever read a book and then want to forget it so you can read it for the first time again? #i just read jumper by Melanie Crowder and it was so good. although apparently the diabetes information isnt accurate #but the story was very very good and kept me interested the whole way #the problem with this school shooting story is that its good. it draws my attention. but its understandably very hard to read #fourteen ish minutes until my paycheck goes through and then i find out if i can pay rent this month #that's part of why im restless too. nervous about paying rent. my job hours are unpredictable and so are the paychecks #i think ill be okay but as always im terrified that it wont #anyway im in a bit of a reading rut. if you hsve any book recs (not a big fan of fantasy. generally like realistic fiction. ya. lgbt) #that type of stuff. like jumper. the Miseducation of Cameron Post. message not found. stuff like that #open to recommendations #love yall. i hope you all have more thsn enough money to pay rent

[that-was-anticlimactic]

lol my student teaching supervisor sent me my feedback video because he observed me friday and it was twenty minutes long and he essentially said that he was disappointed in me and that i did a disservice to american poetry so i'm feeling pretty good about myself

#lol this week sucked #he also said that it looks like i put a Little bit of effort into learning about whitman before teaching him but i honestly think i did #more than that and now i just feel like crap lol like ik his masters was in american lit and content knowledge isn't my strong suit but i #have PAGES of notes about whitman and tried to learn SO MUCH about him and did SO MUCH studying of the poems we read #idk ik i need to work on my content knowledge but like some of my eng ed student teaching friends and i were talking friday and he's being #like really harsh with everyone like has made almost all of us cry? one of my friends is considering not even going into teaching anymore #because his feedback was so negative like dude you weren't like this last semester? idk it's just hard to feel good about yourself and your #progress when your supervisor says he was disappointed in what he saw idk maybe i'm being overdramatic... i like to think i'm really #receptive to feedback both positive and negative but this one hurt ngl ik the class discussions weren't the best but they all hated poetry #and i was dragging as much as i could out of them and they're all restless because we haven't had a day off since january and idk. well #hopefully dickinson goes better ig - God i'm so scared for my mentor teacher to watch the video because she always does and she's great and #i don't want her to be disappointed in me lol #sorry just had a mini breakdown👍🏻

[vole-mon-amour]

Trying to write your wip from one fandom when your heart and thoughts are in another fandom is... something. When I can't write for one otp that I had for longer than 5 years and that I'm sure will stay with me for another five, that is... yeah.

Honestly, I just need 3x11 and 3x12 to come out now. I have so many ideas for RoyJamie, I just need to know which direction to take and what to fix. Somehow I'm sure there's gonna be a lot to fix, unfortunately.

#ted lasso #natiswriting #drakecest #I've been sitting with those 3 wips for so long ugh #roy x jamie #as much as I'm willing to accept ot3 #i think my fics are still gonna be purely royjamie #and one of them is definitely gonna be gay roy #and gobs is my goodnight post hopefully #i was a bit restless today #back to listening to scary stories!

[gouinisme]

i think i'm going a little bit insane perhaps. probably nothing

#moments where i think about my sister saying i seemed bipolar #she's full of shit so i dont take most of what she says seriously but i'm a little bit like. i HAVE been feeling slightly manic and #been writing way too much and been very restless and slightly insane and like feeling a weird overlap of confidence and loneliness for the #past couple of weeks and idk that's probably not mania but now that my sister planted that idea in my head i can't get it out #one more reason i will never go to a psychiatrist :)

[redrobin-detective]

In the "all the Batkids are gender-swapped" version of "Wayne Girls", is Duke included in the swapping? If not, what's his dynamic like with each of the girls (and Carter and Stephen) and if he is, what are the dynamics with "Duchess" and the other Batkids?

Duke wasn't really apart of the batfam when I first made the AU (He was still doing We Are Robin stuff which honestly I kinda miss). I will admit I have been negligent in adding him partially because I still haven't read much of his more recent work and still struggle to conceptualize him as he is much less a complete swap.

Also super embarrassing is I've struggled with finding a name for girl Duke. I want that same short, sharp, commanding energy that Duke provides and a lack of name kind of stops the process. I'm very familiar with baby name websites, not just for Duke but other characters. It took me a long time to settle on Damira for Damian as well. I have Thea (greek for goddess) as my placeholder right now and I like the energy of it but I'm still not entirely settled with it. Other options I've played with are Dela, Cleo, Rhea.

I guess I'll use Thea for now, is often seen as the calm normal one in the setting of the rest of the batfam's shenanigans. She's the only one who had a relatively normal upbringing so she's often seen as the "normal" one but she has her own quirks. She's open, friendly and game for some good back and forth but will not hesitate to put anyone in their place when it gets too far. She engages in feminine things like but not to the extent of Beth but not with the disdain of Janis. She's pretty independent, loves to help others but hesistant to ask for it in return. Honestly tries to avoid a lot of the bigger drama and not get too involved with the Bats. Still sees her placement (both on the team and with the fam) as temporary so treats them all like really weird roommates. The morning bird of the family, she, Alfred and Damira will sip their morning beverages while the rest of the Bats grumble about the sun.

#wayne girls au #please do not ask me how many searches Ive done over the years for strong girls names that start with D #Names are very important to me okay? #Duke has mainly been appearing in comics I havent read so I'm still searching for my footing for his canon characterization #I still really liked him and his role in we are Robin #a batfam member who fought with them but also served as an intermediary with Gothams restless youth looking for power and change? #I loved it #I want to carry that energy over #make them indpendent but connected in the know but seeing the batfam as a bit of a stepping stone to their ultimate goal of connection #idk I think Duke's character and position was So interesting and just making him another team member only power this time is... #idk I miss the We Are Robin era despite the actual stories being eh #bring back Maps and the other kids as lil Baker Street Irregulars for the Bats with Duke in charge #i've gone off topic sorry

[scoutpologist]

i'm honestly considering remaking because i seriously think something about having the same account for so many years is scary. like i don't want to delete this account but i sort of really do?

#op #BEWARE these tags are A LOT #i don't like having a very strong presence in places anymore. i like making an impact but #the second i feel too insecure in the situation i'm OUT #i prefer being able to move on at will yk? i like being able to vanish it feels so freeing #before this i've had like 3-4 blogs on completely different accounts and once i left the fandom i just deleted my blog #like no warning no anything just deleting it #and those people literally never heard from me again and that's really comforting idk how to describe it #i get super restless after using the same account for a long time #and someone linking two accounts i've previously had not only annoys me it really really scares me #i've gotten pretty paranoid over the years that if anyone knew who i really was they'd hate me lmao #which is why i really like moving on from groups #i guess it means something that i'm sticking around for this one. sootpologist is my oldest blog ever and i wanna keep it that way #but i don't know if i should just leave the account for a while and go to a new one for a bit? make this more of a home base and make a #secondary blog? fuck man who knows #idk lots of nonsense today. also hi again

[vvanessaives]

pacing around the house like an insane man from a period drama

#rena.txt #i have so many thoughts and i'm a bit pissed and restless and i want to jump from the window and make a double pike #i'm waiting for any of my best friends to answer my incomprehensible ranting before i tear the world apart 🫡

[goth-automaton]

Babe's at work and I can't bother them with mpreg at the moment. :<

If anyone wanted to send me some mpreg related asks, I'd be very grateful, I need to take my mind off things... And kinda need attention rn. Why? That's a good question.

#actually these asks don't even have to be about mpreg #I'm just a bit restless and need human interaction but at the same time am in a weird mental state where I'm afraid of initiating anything #something something I'm afraid of disturbing I think #anyway. thank you. #Hakanate once said #might delete later

[zhivchik]

you know what we need more? logos. explanations. captions in the middle.  i mean someone forgot to write ‘jamfilm’ in bottom right corner. i could have forgotten just as well who they were in that 4-minite video. haven’t you thought about that?! haven’t you thought about symmetry? and people who are triggered by lack of it.

#x #i'm sorry i'm restless and a bit angry and i hate that - and this sort of positioning

[apologeticaugur]

this is NOT karkalicious, and actually quite sadstuck if you think about it for a moment :,(

#we took a shower and got dressed and we weren't in bed all day and ate real food hoping it make is feel better but. we don't #head hurts and we're so DEPRESSED and restless and i want to do something but i don't know i don't know!!!! #i managed to play games for a bit but now i can't continue because i'm paralyzed with guilt #i tried watching a video of old video game ads from the early 2000's. got through a good hour and a half of it! #but i paused it and i'm stuck and cannot continue #im being eaten alive with guilt just by being on my computer or my phone or listening to music and i just want it to stop! #i want to stop thinking everyone is so goddamn mad at me all the time!! it isn't true!! i want to stop feeling this way!! #vent #reggie speaks #i feel useless so useless #lonely... so lonely.. #guilty...soguilty #i might draw but it will look emo. sorry