#and yeah she hasn't fully healed from all the trauma she went through as a child

[bayofwolves]

thinking about writing a little something in the canon timeline about abeke's adult life where she continues to deal with her grief over shane, who really did die in the burning tide. jumping around to different time periods: she's the new face of greencloak leadership, she's married (but her husband notably doesn't make an appearance), she has a daughter. her life is a dream. but with each of these milestones, she is reminded of shane. the person she might have had this life with if things had been different.

i don't usually like to delve into canon past the return because thinking about shane's death makes me feel sick to my stomach. but this is too good and beautiful and tragic of an idea to pass up.

#abeke might marry worthy in this bc i think that would be very interesting - #- how she might project her unresolved feelings for shane onto someone very much like him. #but i think more likely her husband will not be named. could be someone we know or just a random guy she met later on #a lot of this story would be up to interpretation #and yeah she's still depressed #and yeah she hasn't fully healed from all the trauma she went through as a child #so that manifests itself #it would then end with an elderly abeke on the brink of death being greeted at last by shane's spirit #blue-eyed and unmarred by crocodile scales #just the way she always remembered him #it would be something very bittersweet #the ideas i'm having are telling me i'd have a hard time writing this bc i'd just be bawling my eyes out the whole time #text #spirit animals #spirit animals books #spirit animals series #abeke #shane #worthy #shaneke #wortheke

[buttonbreaker-collectivesigh]

Alright. I wanna talk about this scene, cuz dammit their relationship is so fascinating to explore.

Silco is 100% leaning in on the sympathy/loyalty card knowing full well that Sevika has possibly sided with them and is betraying him/will kill him. But LOOK AT HER FACE when he says "I still believe in loyalty". She flinches. There's a clear moment where you can see how his words affect her, and I'm almost 100% convinced that up until that point, she was going to kill him.

Now I want to talk about Sevika. This bad ass woman who definitely more heavily relies on brawn, but is fully capable of manipulating emotions when she needs to. Think of how she was with Vi and Jinx. She knew exactly what would bother them, and said it out of spite. We also know that she's not above switching who she backs, aka betraying the last person she followed like how she went against Vander. She's smart, brutal, and knows who to back when the time comes. She knew when Vander's time was up, he grew too soft for the Lanes. Silco had vision and the means to carry it out, so it made sense for her to follow him.

But the thing is, watch their relationship from the start. When Vi is fighting his goons in episode 3, he lets all of them go after her, except for Sevika. When the place blows up, Sevika blocks him and sacrifices an arm to save him. I'm sure she had no idea that was all she'd lose. Ultimately her actions showed she was willing to die for him.

Cut to now, we've seen how he's trusted her with his daughter's life, and is even willing to and listens to her advice (unless it's about Jinx being a menace then he's like "f**k you my child is fine!"). And even if he hasn't been the best boss, putting her through the ringer with his affairs, she has a soft spot for him. It's something that goes beyond a boss/henchman relationship, however I won't go as far as to say they had a thing or a history together in any way. It's definitely platonic, but it's deep.

He doesn't get mad and lash out, thinking she's betrayed him when they enter, and she absolutely could have betrayed him. Like, she's told him, and others confronted her about Silco losing it. She betrayed Vander cuz he was losing his touch, and not standing up for the Lanes when he needed to. She could have repeated her past actions, and I honestly thought she was going to, until she made that face.

This is why I love their relationship. I really think they've gone through some serious trauma dumping/bonding, and I really think she knows the story of everything that led up to Vander betraying Silco. I think that is the face of a person who fully knows the trauma he went through, and she just... Can't do it to him too. Yes she says that Finn was a worm and she couldn't work for him, but I think it's so much more than that. There's this underlying understanding between them, so much so that when he's hurting about Jinx not coming back, she tries to comfort him and give him advice.

Finally I want to end on how Sevika's loyalty to him, had to have helped heal some of his trauma with Vander. I kind of view their relationship to that of war buddies. People who bond over extreme traumatic circumstances and fighting for a cause/survival, knowing full well that most people don't give a shit about them, but continue fighting anyway because they have each other's backs. So yeah, thank you for coming to my TED Talk.

TLDR: Sevika and Silco have a really unique and amazing bond and this scene is *chef's kiss* the end.

#silco #sevika #arcane hc #arcane league of legends #arcane silco #arcane netflix #arcane #arcane sevika #hi i love them #one of my favorite arcane friendships #theyre a badass duo #are they evil? #yes #do i care? #no #i have longwinded thoughts #but i swear they make sense eventually

[castielcommunism]

i LOVE that the confession happened, and people can pry out of my cold dead hands, but it WAS so poorly executed on so many levels.

the first time i watched it, i remember my mind being absolutely blank until cas said, "you're the most loving man on earth," and i was like... bestie, he's not even the most loving man in this ROOM. but 90% of the stuff Cas said in the confession felt like it was said about a rose-tinted-glasses version of Dean from like... pre-season 9. someone who never really existed, and who certainly hasn't existed since the mark of cain arc. it's weird because like... i think that some of the writers think that dean is actually like that???

even so, though, i keep thinking about myself when season 8 was airing and how absolutely toxic and miserable it was to watch season 8 seem like it might be going somewhere with dean and cas and then have all the creator homophobia fallout with jensen just letting the crowd boo that teenager at a con when she said she was bi, and then whichever executive went on a little meltdown on twitter calling people delusional and all that. and then watch the show meticulously separate dean and cas for seasons after that, even while continuing to layer subtext at times. it feels like a win against a lot of odds, and it's definitely validating.

i'm glad it happened, but it not just could but SHOULD have been so much better!

The recurring thing with spn is that Dean is both the main driver of a lot of the conflict but he’s also supposed to be their sympathetic male lead. Like at the end of the day we are supposed to side with Dean, even if he does something bad. But they keep making him do bad things and go damn that was crazy anyway tune in next week and nothing is ever addressed or resolved. If they want to make Dean a Walter White style protagonist who ultimately becomes the villain of the show then hell yeah do that. If they want to make Dean go through a recovery process where he heals from his childhood trauma and learns how to be a healthier and happier guy then hell yeah do that. But you can’t tell me this dude is cool and then make him point a gun at his kid. Like cool parallel cool visual but what is HAPPENING on this show.

But yes like, rep is often viewed as zero sum. Don’t criticise what we have just be happy that we got it. Which is an impulse I sympathise with but also like, I don’t like being treated like an idiot or like a tragic accessory to some other guy’s mainpain. It’s fully possible to be happy the confession happened and also be deeply unsatisfied with how it played out - which I think is a fairly popular take anyway, but still.

#dean.txt #spn.txt #asks #meta #sorry I’m getting kinda snippy. not with you I’m just tilting at windmills mostly #seen a lot of stupid posts that I’ve been so brave about not responding to so it’s coming out here instead #anyway yeah big agree