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Note: This post is about Depression. If you feel vulnerable and emotionally unstable and you’re not sure whether you can deal with any post regarding this topic, please, don’t proceed. Come back when you’re ready. But, if you have the guts to take, reflect, and think about what’s written here, congratulations! Keep it up.

I AM NOT A THERAPIST. NOR A PSYCHIATRIST. I AM JUST A FRIEND.

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I won’t lecture you about the medical side of depression. I am not licensed to do that. I won’t give you statistics on how many people are suffering from it ‘cause i’m pretty sure those numbers won’t show the actual number of cases all over the world. I won’t tell you stories of famous people who once suffered and survived. I won’t tell you my story. I won’t do any of that. I honestly don’t know what I will give or offer you with this post. Let me just spill my thoughts and hope for the best. Again, I am your friend here. I won’t sugarcoat anything. I will be bluntly honest with what I will say (type) so last warning, if you can’t handle it, leave. — Depression is obviously one fucking devil who keeps on messing with a lot of lives. Teens, adults, males, females, celebrities, ordinary people. Everyone. Anyone. It doesn’t have one major cause. Most of the time it’s the accumulation of the bad things that has occured. There’s just one trigger. And once it starts, it’s hard to stop. Your mind won’t stop bugging you. The voices inside you won’t shut the eff up. Everything that can make you feel sad, pathetic, alone, worthless, useless, it’ll fill your head and drown you when you’re not even close to any water. The bullying; how they laughed at you, dragged you down, called you names. The heartbreaks; how they cheated on you, mistreated you, left you hanging, made you beg for a love you thought you deserve. The grief of losing someone you love. May it be your Mom, Dad, sibling, grandparent/s, lover, friend/s or a pet. The failures; the exam you failed when you’re on sixth grade, the interview you messed up for your first job, the game winning shot you missed during a championship game. The mistakes you’ve committed; the lies you told someone that blew up on you face, the pain you’ve caused to someone that matters to you, that tiny error on a document your boss asked you to encode. The insecurities; your imperfect your teeth, the fats that shows when you wear a certain dress, your body hairs that grows way too fast and too much than normal, your complexion, your height, hair, brows, basically your whole body. Your dreams that you’re unable to fulfill. The pressure you feel when you see your friends or batchmates, living an amazing life, getting married, travelling, giving birth while you’re stuck in a place you have no idea how you got in. The opinions, judgements, hurtful words you’ve received from a total stranger to a family member. The abuse you’ve endured from your alcoholic father, your drug addicted mother, your pervert uncle and neighbor, your inconsiderate teacher, your asshole employer. Everything. Every single thing that will make you feel miserable will be on repeat inside your head. The voices inside you knows you very well. It knows what to say to break your heart, to tear you apart. Until it affects you. Until you get to this certain point of darkness where you’ll feel like its impossible to escape or find the light. Your self esteem drops. You don’t know your worth anymore. You feel useless. And you want to be alone. You’ll stop fixing yourself and start hiding inside your room cause you’re too embarrassed to go out. You don’t feel like going out. You’re afraid to go out. You push people away. Get distant, be cold, shut down and don’t talk to people for days, weeks or even months. You talk less, and cry more. You forgot what makes you happy or at least what makes you smile. The foods taste the same. The chocolates you used to love is not as sweet as it was before. Your favorite dish is not as savory as it was before. The memes you used to laughed at is not as funny as it was before. The music doesn’t make you groove or sing. Pen and paper doesn’t make you want to write again. The movies bores you. The colors on your palette irritates you. The skates you used to ride doesn’t give you thrills. The guitar you used to play is in the corner covered with cobwebs. Your definition of fun becomes blurry. The person you used to be becomes a distant memory. You totally forgot who you are. Then, you’ll find temporary escapes. Alcohol, cigarette, drugs, sex, physical pain. Anything that eases the pain inside is addictive. And that’s where the nasty part of being depressed begins. You drink until you passed out and wake up with a nasty headache, lying on a strangers couch. Smoke packs of cigarette, burn your lungs until you can no longer breathe. Do drugs, get high, and forget the world for a moment. Engage in casual and unprotected sex. Work hard for the pleasure you seem not to feel. And the physical pain. The nastiest and the most common escape. Self harm. Blood. Cuts. Bruises. Broken knuckles. Suicidal attempts. The feeling of hopelessness creeps in. You want to end everything. You can no longer take it. You can no longer handle the pain. — Stop. Breathe. Calm yourself. Clear your mind before proceeding to the next paragraph. — I won’t give you a quote to live by. I won’t tell you to pray and talk to God. I won’t tell you to go and seek professional help. I won’t tell you to talk to somebody you trust. This is what I am telling you; TALK TO YOURSELF.

Ask yourself these questions. How many times you’ve wanted to give up? How many times you’ve cried your heart out and said you can’t do this anymore? How many times you’ve cut your wrist, bleed, and got your wound healed? How long have you been fighting through this nightmare? Are you that weak to quit???? Have you fought this hard all through these years just to give up?

So far, you’ve survived 100% of your life. Why give up now?

Talk to yourself. Cause you’ll only listen to one person, and that is yourself. A psychiatrist or therapist can only do so much. They can give you drugs to lift up your mood or diversions but is that real healing? No. You need to convince yourself that you can do this, that you’ll pick your ass off the ground, dust it off and you’ll do everything to find the way out. Remember, its the voices inside your head that caused you this darkness. Its your inner demons that brought you to this hell. And only you can help yourself. Only you can control them. Only you can shut them up. Its hard. I know. But living everyday like everything will fall apart any moment is hard as well. Choose your hard. Control your mind and everything in it. You own that fucking shit, and you should control it and not the other way around. This is a war between you and you. And you can’t win this if you don’t trust your strengths. You’ve survived a lot. You’re stronger than you think. Trust your instinct. Trust yourself. You got this. You’ll win this. Be your biggest supporter when you feel down. Be your brightest light in times of darkness. Cause no matter what happens, day or night, yourself won’t ever leave you. It will always be there waiting for you to call. Unleash the beast you have. You are bigger than any demons you’ve got. — I want you to know, whoever you are, whatever you’re going through. Its okay. Its okay not to be okay (Credits to Jessica Cornish). You’re not alone in this. Everyone deals with shits everyday. Different demons, same hell, just different levels. Some are just good at pretending they’re fine. But I am telling you, to feel down is normal. To be sad is human. Even superheroes with superpowers feel depress sometimes. Its okay! You’re not alone in this. There are people who understands. And if you can’t find one, face a mirror and you’ll see one. Understand yourself.

The only thing that I can tell you is you’re on your own in this fight. Not because people don’t want or can’t help you, but because I don’t want you to depend on someone else. Don’t give the responsibility to make you feel good or happy to someone else. That’s your responsibility and yours only. 'Cause if you give that responsibility to someone else, you’re also giving them the license to make you feel bad or sad. We all got a life to live. And with that life includes problems to deal with. Deal with your own problem. Make yourself a priority. 'Cause not all the time people that cares about you will prioritize you. They’ve got a life too. Be there for yourself. Spend time with yourself. Get to know yourself more. Rediscover yourself again. Love yourself always! And help yourself. Healing starts from within and not from somebody else. If you’re in the dark, don’t wait for someone else to show you light. Be your own light. Shine bright and get the fuck out of there.

Let me believe that you can do it. The world is waiting for you. Believe it or not, the world needs you. I have this belief; that those who went through darkness have the softest, selfless and kindest hearts. And that’s the world needs now. Kindness. Inspiration. Stories of survival. Light. Love.

Our world now is so dark that even the younger ones go through this stuff when they’re supposedly having fun and living life to the fullest. The light you have in your heart, the glow that your soul has is what our world needs. Save yourself please, then, let’s save the world. Or at least someone else in the dark. — If you’re feeling down as you’re reading this, I will make you do these things. Cry. Scream. Punch the wall for the last time. Break the mirror. Throw things. LET IT ALL OUT. Cry. Scream. And cry. As long as you want. Think about EVERYTHING that brought you to this hell. The pains. The heartaches. The disappointments. The failures. The judgements. EVERYTHING. Cry. But promise yourself this– this will be the last time you’ll cry and be miserable because of those things. Enough. One last time, let it all out. Then, go to sleep or take some rest. Relax. Don’t think about anything. Wake up, get up, put some music you like, and fix the mess you did. Let’s start with that. Pick up the broken glasses. Wipe off the blood. Clean your wounds. Put some ice in your knuckles. Take a bath and put something in your eyes to ease the puffiness. Then let everything go. I know its hard. But, what’s not? Everything is hard. You just have to choose your hard. The first step of anything is hard. But, it’ll be all worth it. Take your time. Don’t rush things. Nothing happens in a snap of a finger. Healing is not magic, its a process. Fill your life with positivity and try not to contradict them. Listen to beautiful songs. Inspirational songs to lift up your morale. Try to stay away from social media, that shit is sometimes depressing. Eat. Eat on time! Whether you’re hungry or not, when its time to eat, you eat. Take care of your body. Do what you think will help you besides the temporary escapes you already did. Write. Sing. Dance. Draw. Edit photos or videos. Go out. Walk. Run. Work out. Play ball. Listen to music. Go to parks or museums. Cook. Sleep. Take a bath. Swim. Eat. Anything! Then, do it everyday. Make it your routine. Before you know it, it’ll be on your system.

Do things for yourself. Prioritize yourself. Help yourself. Love yourself. That’s the best I’ve got for you. And YOURSELF is the greatest thing and the only thing you need to get through this. YOU GOT THIS. —

Let me share some songs that inspired me a lot: (hope these will help you too) 1. Who You Are - Jessie J (My fav! And probably my most recommended) 2. Fight Song - Rachel Platten 3. You Don’t Really Know Me - Jessie J 4. I Need This - Jessie J/Chris Brown 5. Masterpiece - Jessie J 6. Nobody’s Perfect - Jessie J 7. Stand By You - Rachel Platten 8. Hero (Kick Ass OST) - Jessie J 9. Harder We Fall - Jessie J 10. Love Myself - Hailee Steinfeld 11. Burn Bright - Natalie Grant 12. Who’s Laughing Now - Jessie J 13. Heartbeat Song - Kelly Clarkson 14. Superheroes - The Script 15. It’s My Party/Sexy Lady -Jessie J (These are my confidence booster)

continue living and being alive ; I BELIEVE IN YOU

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