#benvey tag

[corfisers]

one of the reasons i didn't accept being trans sooner is because i'd look at the cishet men i know and at how they treat women in their lives, at how fucking vile they can get and how casual they are about being blatantly misogynistic, how there are usually absolutely no repercussions for any of it, and i'd think to myself "if this is what being a man is about then i don't want to be one". eventually i'd figure out that no, this isn't what being a man is about, it's just something a lot of them perpetuate, it's not inherent, you don't have to be That. so seeing other trans men who, generally speaking, should've had somewhat similar experiences, come out of it on the opposite end where they gleefully grab onto transmisogyny and have fun with it and feel justified and righteous perpetuating it is fucking baffling

#this is very subjective of course but still #all this talk about “”female socialization“” and for what? it's just an excuse to be blatantly transmisogynistic and nothing else #what about experiencing misogyny yourself and seeing it happen over and over and over and not wanting to be a perpetrator of that #how do you see all this shit and then come out of it wanting to target not just women but the most vulnerable group of women too #did you see cis men getting away with it every time and wanted to have a taste of that #with your fancy little “i'm trans tho” shield and a bunch of transphobic excuses why being mean to transfems is fine actually #transmisogyny #<- for blacklisting purposes but if more people than i intend see it then whatever ig #benvey tag

[transyashiro]

#this must be someone's gender right? #anyways hi im alive. kinda reeling from some stuff but benvey women are back on the menu probably #art tag #nsft #artistic nudity #ocs

[benveydraws]

#final fantasy xiv #ffxiv #ffxiv art #ryne waters #shadowbringers spoilers #art tag #(minfilia's hand. should be obvious but jic) #i post one ffxiv thing and go back to drawing yashiro with clear conscience #also i was too lazy to look up a proper ref so ryne gets default benvey face no.4 in this. sorry

[forlornmelody]

Top Ten OTPs of all time

Was tagged by @illusivesoul. Yay! Thank you :)

1) Femshep x Kaidan (Mass Effect)

2) Femshep x Femshep Clone (Mass Effect)

3) Kaidan x Femshep x James Vega (Mass Effect)

4) Femshep x Thane Krios (Mass Effect)

5) Femshep x Aria T’Loak (Mass Effect)

6) Femshep x Ashley Williams (Mass Effect)

7) Rose Wilson x Eddie Bloomberg (DC Comics)

8) Rose Wilson x Conner Kent (DC Comics)

9) Julian Blackthorn x Emma Castairs (The Dark Artifices trilogy)

10) Joey Wilson x Rachel Roth (DC Comics)

I tag @commanderduckling @whatmyhobbiteyessee @a-man-adrift and @benvey. If you feel like sharing :)

#it was really hard to narrow down to JUST 10 #just assume that if it exists and is consenual and not incestuous I probably ship it #very few exceptions to that rule #multishipper for life

[corfisers]

two weird things that happen to me more often than i'd like and feel like they are on the opposite ends of the same spectrum: forgetting that i do actually speak two languages and forgetting that some people who post here in english speak only english

#the latter is usually when there's some post on linguistics or just like?? a thing with eng being passed as universal??? #don't have any examples off the top of my head unfortunately #but sometimes you read a post and get this “oh you never had to grapple with concepts that are not applicable to your first language” feel #this isn't me trying to shame anyone who speaks one language btw you're fine as long as you're not being an asshole #to people who's eng isn't perfect or have some weirdly strong opinions on translation or languages in general #while not having any actual knowledge you know? #whatever idk how much sense i'm making #forgetting that i speak rus has more to do with how used i am to using eng. to the point that i mostly think in it #kinda sucks if i'm being honest? i'm rereading idiot and went to look up eng translation for a chapter because i wanted to post something #and augh it's not the same! it's not the same. might be just not the best translation fuck if i know but still #but yeah i barely use rus outside of talking to someone irl (rarely happens) or reading a book. it's weird #benvey tag

[corfisers]

as an artist your goal is to come up with ideas that will inflict you as much psychic damage as possible and it doesn't have to make sense to anyone else

#if it causes damage to someone else that's just a bonus #benvey tag

[corfisers]

free my girl she did all that but you people are only focusing on the actions that affected your male blorbo because his hurt feelings are more important to you than trying to understand her

#yes this is about yakuza yaoi i'm sorry #most of yashiro's unarguably shitty actions are in early chapters but we sure love to talk about the conversation in the car don't we #but also angela oh my god angela. the misogyny magnet. i love you robot woman i'm so sorry about the fandom #honestly there's a woman in any media that would fit this i just rotate the same two in my mind forever and always #benvey tag

[corfisers]

cannot even begin to imagine the amount of horrendous takes there would've been if yashiro was canonically a bisexual* trans woman

#*as far as i'm concerned bisexuality is already canon but i'm painfully aware that it's a somewhat controversial take #which is like. okay. do you want him to have sex with a woman on screen (again) or to say he's not gay (again) or what #idk at a certain point internalized homophobia starts feeling more like an excuse not to look at other interpretations #but also i'm bi so i'm biased (haha bi-ased get it) so what the fuck do i know right? right. anyways #the nice cis gay m/m narrative must be upheld at all costs #benvey tag

[corfisers]

"people become more attractive the more you love them" is really funny when it happens with fictional characters because you end up getting overwhelmed with all kinds of emotions simply by looking at the crunchiest pngs known to mankind and it's completely incomprehensible to anyone who's not in the same boat as you

#this post is brought to you by me lovingly looking at angela's lc sprites and nanahara's neck #“same boat” as in obsessing over fictional characters enough for that to happen. not same character boat. you get it #benvey tag

[corfisers]

reading a mutual's blog like a morning newspaper

#and then getting interrupted by a phone call and ofc the app doesn't remember where i was #semi related but i actually love reading people's thoughts on media i don't know #which ig explains why i follow a lot of people i have no common interests with #(and avoid people from my actual fandoms because. fandoms.) #benvey tag

[corfisers]

either every person who sends anon bait has to take some writing class that makes them all sound exactly the same or i have one very dedicated person who periodically remembers that i exist and shoots their shot despite me never replying

#it's so funny because the latest ask was once again specifically about usa. like c'mon. we've gone over it i'm russian #at least aim in the right direction or something #benvey tag

[corfisers]

any art idea can be improved tenfold if you just sprinkle some transgenderism on it

#not elaborating for now was just looking at a wip #and improved it by. well. you guessed it. transing it a little #benvey tag

[corfisers]

miss my roommate sometimes because i crave opening cans, getting stuff from high places and carrying bags from a grocery store for her

#born to serve women forced to be a mentally ill recluse #benvey tag

[corfisers]

sometimes i'd get so caught up in the meta and different interpretations of the yakuza yaoi and then randomly remember that the premise is "here's an impotent guy and the other guy is really into giving him blowjobs" and just sit here. yeah.

#it's like. if you've read and sat with it for long enough you get it but i really do sound insane to anyone who Doesn't Know #i have a friend who usually bears the brunt of my unfiltered thoughts and feelings with zero context outside of what i provide them #they are the one who came up with doumeki flip theory (i also haven't talked to them for months because i've been isolating. oops) #and it's always fascinating getting a glimpse of what it all looks like to someone who doesn't read it and only sees me losing my mind #at least you all get somewhat filtered stuff (very filtered if i'm making A Proper Post) they just suffer it all raw #benvey tag

[corfisers]

the thing about the dudebro discussion, the aita post, the willingness to just take at face value any accusations directed at a person you don't know, is that it's all so painfully transparent, it's so obvious that those conversations are happening at this scale specifically because it's about trans women. maybe it's just me, but you generally shouldn't be using certain terms for people unless you know that they are comfortable with them, and if you fucked up then apologize and move on (if we pretend for a second that the majority of dudebros weren't feign ignorance or just actively malicious to begin with). you should be aware that some things don't affect you the same way they affect other people, and you definitely shouldn't be giving those people potentially dangerous advice on topics that you personally aren't familiar with, this is the baseline, at least don't fucking put other people who were misled into trusting you in danger. and if an anon barges into your inbox with some wild accusations then you should stop and think "hey, why are you coming to me anonymously with no evidence to back any of this up, and in such a way that i have to reply to you publicly so more people get to see this" regardless of who it's directed at. like, those are all pretty simple things, or they should be at least, but because the targets are trans women and transmisogyny is so fucking rampant everyone has to bend over backwards to come up with excuses as to why treating trans women this way is perfectly normal and justified.

#transmisogyny #i'm not going too much into the aita thing because i've seen trans women express different opinions and i don't feel like it's my place #to talk over any of them. ik how i feel but i'm focusing on the part that i feel more confident about. which is don't give people advice #when you have no idea what you're talking about. like. those people trust you and turn to you for help and the least you could do is to say #“hey i'm sorry but i'm not the right person to ask” #i've been in a situation where a friend assumed i was tma and i didn't realize (i never said i was but we met in a game so like #minimum info outside of pronouns which were they/them at the time + some assumptions based on little things she knew about me like height) #and when she asked me about something that is not my lived experience i cleared things up. so the idea of just rolling with it instead #is so baffling to me. it's so irresponsible and disrespectful. it's hard enough already for transfems to trust people and you pull this? #the dudebro thing too. i hate being called a bitch (has nothing to do with gender) and ik that if i said so people would be like “yea ok” #could throw some completely genderless term in here as an example as well. people are usually fairly reasonable. but nooo not with dude #can't have the right to casually misgender a trans woman taken away from you. gotta make it look like that's not what you're doing either #infuriating and exhausting #benvey tag

[corfisers]

what was i gonna say here. why did i leave myself on a cliffhanger with this draft. what happened. what is The Problem with me.

#fuck if i remember! the world may never know i guess! #benvey tag