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thatbitchsimone · 7 months

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I love you I love you

Thank you thank you

It’s a long story of circle of abuse, I used to save her from my father hitting her and few years later I had to save myself from both of them hitting me

I truly believe she’s evil, not what she does to me but to others also, she beats and humiliates not only me but the maids too, the other siblings are not beaten, the brother sometimes rarely but he’s her worshipper so i don’t think he minds.

I will get a job soon but I don’t think I can move out, it’s not very common here you know, and my father is like a influential guy, but hopefully when I earn my own money and cut her off I’ll be happy, we have a big house so living separately is possible.

I found out something today and it made me sick to my stomach, I have my whole life faced disgusting men, but turns out my brother is also one of them, he is after all my fathers and mothers son. he is an Andrew tate fanboy btw so you can guess his entire personality by that lolllllll.

I am so sorry this is alot of stuff to hear on a site where you are supposed to have fun, I am sending you apology hugs, take care 🫂❤️

Btw have you read the bell jar by Sylvia plath? It’s so depressing it’s taking me months to finish HAHAHAH

that is fucking awful and yes, i dont even believe in the whole concept of evil (i was raised without religion in a completely secular country + im very into psychology so good vs evil is not part of my worldview lol) but some behaviors even i just have to describe as evil and ur mom fits that pretty well like abusing ur own children is fucking evil. i have empathy for her to some extent since her behavior is clearly the result of her being abused herself like u said but it gets clouded by the absolute disgust and hatred and rage i feel for her for letting herself become the abuser herself and keeping the circle of abuse going by passing it on to her children. its one thing to not have the strength or power to stop ur husband from abusing ur kids, but straight up joining in on the abuse is a whole other level of disgusting and im so sorry u have to experience this.

but i do have to say that u seem like a genuinely good person like i really feel like u have so much kindness and love in ur heart and u seem like a very strong, sensible and intelligent girl and i get a strong feeling that the cycle of abuse is gonna end with u (as in, u wont be carrying it on and u will break free from it and if u have kids in the future u will be a good and loving mom to them) and i just wanna acknowledge that bc thats amazing and inspiring and i admire u so much like i just have so much admiration for u right now like u are everything u are the moment u are the vibe

anyway, glad to hear that u at least live in a big house so that u can at the very least have some space from her even tho u live together. i get that its not as easy or simple as some ppl think to ”just move out” especially if u live in a very family oriented culture where its not the norm to do so on top of it all so i think the best thing to do currently is to just kind of try to stay out of her way and honestly just not even listen to the bullshit she says bc her insults are kinda meaningless tbh bc lets be real, if u were skinny she would just use something else to criticize u for. she just wants to put u down in any way she can no matter what u look like. u could probably look like a damn supermodel or movie star and she would still find something to pick on and put u down for, bc she has issues. shes disturbed. her words are empty and her opinions on u are just completely irrelevant. why should u care if a deranged abusive sadist doesnt ”approve” of ur body and size? this woman thinks its ok to mentally torment everyone around her, even HER OWN CHILDREN that she just so happens to not just verbally and emotionally abuse but straight up physically abuse. shes a child abuser. actual scum of the earth. like honestly next time she says something about ur body or calls u fat or whatever this psychopath likes to call u just remind urself that this woman is actually disturbed and sick in the head like shes literally a terrible human being lol who the fuck is she to criticize anyone like ok so u got a little extra meat on ur bones meanwhile she is a deranged sadistic child abuser. like girl whatever flaw u may have is nothing compared to the flaws she has like u are so far above her in every way that actually matters like ur literally so much better than her in every way like shes actually pathetic.

sorry about ur brother btw. seems like us women can never catch a break from these male parasites that are crawling around everywhere these days. they just keep getting worse and worse now with all the andrew tate shit brainwashing them. thank god we women have each others backs in this vile current climate. sisterhood is so important, especially now with all this crazy shit going around.

and yes ofc ive read the bell jar! read it for the first time when i was 16 and have reread it a few times since then. its one of those books that deeply resonates with nearly every woman who reads it even now generations later like its truly timeless in that way thats why its so good

#ur amazing i love u

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lokisprettygirl · 2 years

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hi i know i havent done this in a while but thought this was long over due so if you still dont mind these, here are my thoughts about tb...

the last few chapters have been nothing short of incredible, i havent interacted much, fault of my own dismay but really the chapters have been an absolute marvel. the twists and the unanswered questions to many many question linger in the air. (pardon me but for some reason i turn very formal for no utter reason)

one question is what happened with the whole bruce and mummy dearest dilema.

i remember there being a loose end concerning steve and co.

but to now talk of the latest chapter if again you dont mind this annoying

i whole heartedly agree the she was being completely irrational but the fact that she knew she did something wrong shows something. and lokis thoughts are completely valid, with everything he's been through, what they've been through, the trauma of what happened last time still haunts him. he doesnt deserve that and im sorry for that darling.

and that sameera woman ughhhhh. for god bloody fucking sakes, she never deserved a space in his mind to occupy let alone his heart. the gull of that whiny idiotic girl boils my blood as she had the shit to say the shit she did after crying to her father that he took her, which caused him to get beaten to an inch of his life. FUCK OFFF you bitchy little girl (i was very tempted to call her a spoiled rich bitch then remembered y/n)

god darling, i really am just sorry. you dont deserve any of this. please wipe the tears that has had no right to cause you any distraught. your feelings are valid but it doesnt mean you deserve to feel the pain you feel. if you cant hold your tears anymore though darling, know that im here to hold you whilst you curse out the world and i will protect you no matter what (wow that got way too personal? not sure if thats the right word)

him being cold to her is albeit a bit rude, is totally understandable. the walls theyve broken down together were coming back up in the moments he thought and did lose her. only for a second though but he did lose her in those few hours and that was just enough time build back those walls up slowly. he still hasnt forgiven her fully hasnt he? but he still loves her enough to ensure that nothing will happen to her and that i believe is real true love. a bit cliché but it is. hes still very guarded now especially with what happened but god the mysteriousness of him is... i just find it rather hot is all

and also that he trusts her enough to know that she isnt like that woman, though he was desperately holding on to that thought, despite the facts, he really loves her does he. to hold on to the belief and hope that she wont leave him despite everything, god i just love him.

why does the mean side of me think that the one he called was bruce and hes taking revenge on her for leaving him in those few moments. its petty and unlikely but my mind is a labyrinth.

i deeply apologize for psycho analyzing your work but its all truly brilliant and if i may be honest hmbomt is still in my mind. im going through withdrawals and the urge to reread it again is very strong and drew to distracting myself to reading lisik.

anyway hope you have a lovely day darling and hope im not a bother

from your lovely 😊❤️ 💜💙💚💛😊

I never mind these dear, you have no idea how happy I feel to get a feedback (the current chapter literally have 0 comments..zero, I was writing the next chapter yesterday and stopped because it got no interaction for hours and it bummed me out) that's not what motivates me to keep going. This does so never be afraid to send me your thoughts, receiving a feedback on something I wrote will never not make me happy,

I like your formal tone 😂

Ohh bruce and her mum will make an appearance soon 👀

Thank you for trying to see the both sides, if I had Loki's traumas and issues and I read that message from her with her being gone, I'd think the worst too. He was just starting to learn to accept the fact that she loves him and not what he can do for her so this definitely wasn't something he needed.

She needs to learn alot about the life and she needs to learn to love herself and she's trying her best, but she got overwhelmed and instead of confining to him she chose to act out because that's what she had done all her life. That's how her life has been like :(

And yes I think he got swept up by her pain and didn't really get to know the person behind those walls, like bad people can get hurt too, they get depressed and they get Suicidal too but at the end it's all about what they can get, it's all about them.

She didn't care about loki, she cared what he was giving her and then once she realised how tough life was outside her mini palace she couldn't survive it.

He's not taking revenge I can assure you that, he's not vengeful type of guy, he did get a phonecall and had to leave but he can't tell her the truth 👀

Thank you for such high praises for HMBOMT, that fic would be the one fic id save if all my fics were dying and I could only save one 😂

Lisik was my first born so writing style isn't the best there but I put all of my ideas in there, so I hope you will enjoy it because I loved writing that baby.

You're never a bother, thank you my lovely 😍💚

#asks #stupidthoughtsinwrting #the bodyguard

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ollypopwrites · 4 years

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50 questions tag !

tagged by @leo-moon 😘 love you my taurus sister!

1.) What color is your hairbrush?

Purple. It’s a wetbrush too cuz for whatever reason my hair is tangled as fuck when its wet no matter what i do.

2.) Name a food you never eat

This is hard...I’ll eat everything? I guess maybe stuff with lavender in it because I am allergic.

3.) Are you usually too warm or too cold?

too warm 🔥

4.) What were you doing 45 minutes ago?

watching tiktok and being lazy as hell

5.) What’s your favorite candy bar?

Reese’s Peanut Butter cupssssss

6.) Have you ever been to a professional sports game?

I’ve been to a lot of baseball games, I love going to hockey games and some nascar races. I’m not a huge sports fan overall but it is a lot of fun to go to games.

7.) What’s the last thing you said out loud?

“oh NOW YOU WANNA BE ALL CUTE AND SWEET” to my bf cuz he was irritating me earlier lol

8.) What’s your favorite ice cream?

ben and jerry’s half-baked 😍

9.) What was the last thing you had to drink?

Green Tea with pomegranate and blueberry juices.

10.) Do you like your wallet?

I do love it, it’s a Kate Spade baby blue long wallet but it’s also super old so it might be time for a new one.

11.) What’s the last thing you ate?

chicken sandwich on some pita bread

12.) Did you buy any new clothes last weekend?

No :/ i am going through a weird fluctuation in my weight and I don’t wanna buy any new clothes until I am at a steady size for a decent amount time lmao

13.) What’s the last sporting event you watched?

I cannot even remember.

14.) What is your favorite flavor of popcorn?

kettle corn!

15.) Who’s the last person you sent a text to?

my landlord 🙄

16.) Ever go camping?

I used to go a lot more and i really miss it, I looooooove going camping.

17.) Do you take vitamins?

I probably should but I don’t lol

18.) Do you go to church every Sunday?

Not since i was like 6 lol

19.) Do you have a tan?

Ummmm im pale as hell and i dont lay out to tan cuz it usually only ever ends in a sunburn no matter what i do. But I have gotten a little bit of a tan this summer which is nice. You probably wouldn’t notice in a picture tho im PASTY dude

20.) Do you prefer Chinese or pizza?

how are you gonna make me choose....um....both i won’t choose its both

21.) Do you drink soda through a straw?

no not really.

22.) What color socks do you usually wear?

black with a color stripe around the ankle usually

23.) Do you ever drive above the speed limit?

Everyone where I live does so...not like an excessive amount but just enough to be going with the flow of traffic

24.) What terrifies you?

literally almost everything lmao. scaredy cat thats me. Im really scared to put myself out there in a lot of ways right now, for personal reasons that i gotta work through.

25.) Look to your left, what to you see?

Poe Dameron popfunko, hand lotion, perfume, resin moon shelf (with crystals), a candle, hydroflask

26.) What chore do you hate the most?

washing dishes lmao

27.) What do you think when you hear an Australian accent?

i think: that is an Australian accent. lmaooo idk what am i supposed to think?

28.) What’s your favorite soda?

Dr. Pepper and Coca-Cola 😍

29.) Do you go in fast food or in the drive through?

Drive-Thru.

30.) What’s your favorite number?

4 I have no idea why.

31.) Who’s the last person you talked to?

My boyfriendddddd

32.) Favorite cut of beef?

I have no clue...I do not know the differences im gonna be fucking honest with you.

33.) Last song you listened to?

Fantasy (feat. O.D.B.) by Mariah Carey

34.) Last book you read?

A Great and Terrible Beauty by Libba Bray (im still reading it lol i was recommended it because im writing an original novel that is apparently in the same vein...idk man i haven’t seen the correlation yet)

35.) Can you say the alphabet backwards?

If i sit here and think about it then yes lol

36.) Favorite day of the week?

I like Saturdays ❤️

37.) How do you like your coffee?

I like Espresso, either with some sweetened condensed milk or as a latte.

38.) Favorite pair of shoes?

I have maroon platform converse. Also I have white doc martins that I reallllly love and for comfort i love my adidas slides

39.) Time you normally wake up?

10 right now... I gotta start getting up earlier cuz i have a class at 10 next semester lol

40.) Sunrise or sunsets?

Sunsets.

41.) How many blankets on your bed?

Toooo many. Like 3 lmaooo. I don’t need that many its summer in Southern California lmaooo

42.) Describe your kitchen plates?

I got some plastic ones that I bought cuz our shit was in storage and i needed something to eat off of lol and then i have black and white plates.

43.) Describe your kitchen at the moment?

Small, impossible to completely clean, and poorly designed lmao.

44.) Do you have a favorite alcoholic drink?

oooof. I lvoe moscow mules, I love malibu in fruitjuice, chardonnay, chapagne and amber ales.

45.) Do you play cards?

Not really no.

46.) What color is your car?

Silver. 😍

47.) Can you change a tire?

lol nooooo

48.) Your favorite state, province, country, etc.?

I’ve only been in the country, I loved New York when I visited, New Hampshire is a beautiful looking place, and I love love love love California

49.) Favorite job you’ve had?

I liked working in a coffee shop for the first few years I did. The wages never went up enough for it to be sustainable and customer service got very draining after a while especially when management didnt have my back about some behaviors of customers directed at us that was way inappropriate

50.) How did you get your biggest scar?

I dont have many but what little ones I have are just from like regular bumping around and falling but i used to pick at any scabs I had as a kid so a few of them scarred.

tags if you wanna take a whirl!

@tintinwrites @thirsty-flygirl @bisexual-space-slut

#tag games

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bakubabes-tatakae · 3 years

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Letter type: lovers humor

Alias: Coffy (she/her) goofy artsy

Subject matter: How I found out I was pregnant. ( My first pregnancy)

Finding out how I was pregnant. Funny story, went to the doctor because my hand was bothering me(swelling up and painful). Nurse insisted I take a pregnancy test even I though I kept telling her I'm not pregnant. I honestly believed pregnancy wasn't possible. I was supposed to get my hand xrayed but was escorted back to my room to wait for my Dr.

I'm sitting there wondering why is it taking the Dr so long to see me. Mind you I had absolutely no clue what was going on. Dr came to see me and was so matter of fact after greeting me he then asks me about my hand...and I quote! 🤣

Dr: Have you been taking any pain medication for your hand?

Me: yes

Dr: Okay im need you to stop taking those...

Me: uhm...why?

Dr: because you are pregnant...congratulations

Me: my jaw drops to the floor...I was like excuse me?Pregnant!

I called my partner (at the time) he knew before I even said anything!

My partner admitted he confirmed his hunch when I kept asking him stop by McDonald's and get me a bag of fries. I only wanted fries and pineapples... nothing else🤣. He thought that was my weirdest food craving.

Fries and pineapples cravings for an entire week before I went to the Dr to check my hand.

Than I thought about it...this is very much how I would've found out I was pregnant. I found the entire experience hilarious. It still brings me comfort even after my miscarriage. Yes this pregnancy unfortunately ended as a miscarriage. Thats a different story entirely(went through that by myself)

Humor love letter with Atsumu

I’ve never written for Atsumu before so here he is. 🥺❤️

Sweet Coffy,

It’s been so long since we’ve seen each other and I can’t wait until the next time. I know between work and my practices we never have the time. I wish we lived closer together so we didn’t have to worry about the travel time as much. The travel time is what kills our ability to see each other.

I hope you know that even though I’m constantly teasing you that I love you very much. I only tease you because it’s easy to do and because I like to watch the way your face turns when I do. I never know whether you’re going to smack me or laugh at me. Either way is fine by me because I think it’s adorable when you’re angry at me.

I know that you’re probably smiling right now and I really hope that you are. That smile deserves to always be planted on your face, you’re always so strong and you always have that smile there to make others feel better and I absolutely love that about you.

You always know just what to say to make the people around you happy and I know that you don’t get thanked enough for that. You go out of your way to make sure that the people around you are happy and it’s a trait that every person should have. I wish that I had that trait a little more, but my main priority is you.

My main goal in life is to make sure that you’re happy no matter what. To make sure that the smile never dulls from your face, to make sure that those butterflies when we’re together never fade. I never want to see a day where your laugh doesn’t ring through my ears. I never want to live in a world where I can’t hear your beautiful voice.

I can’t wait until we’re both home and we can spend our days together lounging around. I just want to wake up next to you, as lame as that might sound. I want to see your beautiful face when you wake up. No make-up, fresh bed head, and nothing but us being tangled up together under the blankets.

But I’ll let you go now my darling, I know you’ve probably got things to do and I have to get back to practice, I can hear Hinata and Bokuto screaming for me. So I’ll leave you with this my darling… I love you to the moon and back, even on the days that we might want to hit each other, and I won’t ever let anything happen to you.

Forever And Ever,

Atsumu

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