#but it's like. after Hell he's Terrified. hes Traumatised SPECIFICALLY in an intimate partner type way. he can't trust his sense of reality

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Honestly, I think that without Sam's hell trauma there would have been a way for him & Dean to repair how toxic their relationship was.

#lucifer rising is like. Sam's point of complete loss of trust in himself. and in sam interrupted i do feel like that victim blaming #fucked with Sam's head in a way that engrained it in #but Dean HAS brought up how Sam is not at fault for the apocalypse AND swan song WAS a moment of respect from him #in s7 Sam DOES still fight back against Dean in moments and He Does Leave. #does Sam trust himself after lucifer rising to ever advocate in the way hed need to to try to fight against Dean's most toxic behaviours? #question of all time to me tbh. but there ARE things that make me believe it possible #especially in that Dean is in Such A Bad Way in s5 and I think he Could Reassure Sam about what happened #because like. their dynamic did NOT rest on Dean Being Healthy or Capable Of Healthy Relationships. #nor is their earlier relationship nonabusive 😭😭 #but like. Sam's loss of trust within himself hinges the change in their dynamic #but it's like. after Hell he's Terrified. hes Traumatised SPECIFICALLY in an intimate partner type way. he can't trust his sense of reality #itself. anyways. anyone else obsessed with the mentalists. #spn #incoherents #sammy #supernatural #dean #sam winchester #dean winchester #sam and dean