#but the costs....eugh

[yuridovewing]

So I do get the anger in the Warriors fandom about how aggressively anti adoption the series is, don’t get me wrong. It’s incredibly insidious how a character will learn that their parents adopted them and not really even be mad or frustrated, but will just completely drop them and pretend that there’s no connection there whatsoever, good or bad. How Gray Wing, despite them preaching about how he’s a wonderful adopted dad, literally is manifested a new wife to have bio babies with him as a “reward”. its so aggressively anti found family it hurts

But that being said…. I don’t really like how people apply this to Twigbranch. At least from what I’ve seen. Twigbranch wasn’t lovingly adopted after her mother gave her up, she didn’t scoff and say “Lilyheart doesn’t count, she can’t love me like a REAL mom”, she didn’t preach about how blood is thicker than water or anything . Her mother died tragically through a series of circumstances that couldn’t be controlled. She was just given to Lilyheart because she was the only one available, and she was only accepted into the clan because they thought she’d fulfill a prophecy, and treated her like a burden when she wasn’t instantly special. She was excluded and teased by her foster siblings, her doctor verbally abused her which turned more people against her, including said foster siblings. Her sister was pried away from her into an abusive environment and she was denied access to her in any way. She wasn’t even told about the full circumstances of why ThunderClan is even doing all this. Lilyheart and Alderheart are good to her, sure, but that seems to be it. And later on, when her family seems to be out there, her own mentor sabotages the patrol for selfish reasons and no one steps up.

Um. Yeah I think I’d want to know my biological family too in that situation. She’s allowed to mourn the mother she never got to know and to want to know her father and be with her sister, especially after how ThunderClan treated her. “Oh she’s turning against her found family!” WHAT found family?

#also tbh i dont like the rhetoric that adoptive kids owe their adoptive parents anything #like ‘’oh they could have left you in the orphanage to rot dont you feel grateful’’ #and if you want to know anything about your family history then you suck and are ungrateful #like yeah if your adoptive parents were open abt the adoption and were good to you then yeah dont be a dick to them if its not earned #but i very much think you can do both that and want to know your bio family. like as long as they arent cast out #but like ‘’oh they fed you and clothed you so you can’t criticize them’’ is. eugh to me. kids are morally obligated to those things #you took in a child knowing what itd cost #twigbranch’s position was conditional. lets be real. #and adoptive communities and families should NOT make a child feel like their love is conditional #avos liveread

[enden-k]

everything hurts

#my haitham got knocked into oblivion the floor before so the rest of the girlies had to do without him in the last at the cost of one star #i was too lazy to redo the floor #when i feel like it i might go back in and get the last star but eugh #babbles #tbd

[thefirstknife]

Honestly, I'd personally love to see D2 take some breaks. Maybe have 2-3 years between expansions with, instead of seasonal content, smaller permanent content drops (alongside our few annual special events) between. It would mean longer without brand new content, but it would also mean the new content could be more expansive, more polished, and hopefully devs having even better working conditions. Obviously the "MORE ALL THE TIME MORE MORE MORE" crowd would never survive that, but it's sort of what's needed if they want better content. (But also I suspect the only way D2 could do that would be if they swapped to a sub model, and I don't see that happening. It also wouldn't work great if they kept their FOMO model alongside a sub model, vs what some other games do where you can sub and unsub as desired and won't miss out on important story, lore, etc. content)

Same, I would really love more time between content too. I don't personally mind seasons, but I think seasons should be longer or have more time between them. Definitely fewer seasons per year.

But yeah, it would need some massive changes to how the game works, how content is managed, what players can expect and so on. Historically Destiny gamers have been quite annoyed by any longer waits between content drops which is probably partially what inspired the seasonal model. And any normal player is often oversaturated with this model as it is now, but the same people who complained before are complaining now as well. So there's no winning here with the Gamers (TM).

They did announce some changes post-TFS that they'll tell us about during the showcase so we'll probably get some insight into how things will go after. I assume there will be some changes to this model. I hope they go for more breaks and longer dev cycles.

#destiny 2 #ask #i'm personally not a fan of subsciptions of any kind they stress me out so much #when i know that something will have to be paid for each month. eugh. #this can sometimes also be a trap where you think 'i'll just cancel when i'm not playing' but then end up keeping it just in case #which ends up costing you more. pretty much every subscription service works that way to make you reluctant to switch it on and off #but depending on this is done and how content is going to drop this could potentially be a good choice for the majority of the players #i'd still love an annual pack where i can just buy everything i need and be done with it for the year #but a different option would be nice too #one thing i'm hoping they change is the seasonal stuff going away #but that will require such a huge restructuring of literally everything in the game so #we'll see in a week!

[gin-juice-tonic]

the microwave food aisle is so weird because all the options are either diet food or BIG HUNGRY MAN PUNCH A BRICK food and theres no in between

#two genders #but now that i think about it #eugh #i guess there is a 3rd option of #'things that cost $8'

[sybilius]

Pro: the rush project that I was stressing about getting a proof of concept for Thursday has turned up okay in the morning, I will have something to show for it all

Con: the stress from all of this has left me so so sleepy today I feel like I have zero capacity to actually tidy up this shit and say coherent words to a human person about it

#thrashing cost is so real. eugh #workposting

[saltedsolenoid]

just had to look up 'asian inspired' recipes to find a specific something i was thinking of... genuinely so angry at the world...

#like. AUGH #i'm sorry i don't want the CANNED AMERICAN VERSION of this dish #aguuhghhh #but it makes me feel so AGH #because i would cite a specific country but that would just make google search results hate me more #and just. eugh #i did find what i needed though... but at what cost?

[springcatalyst]

man what the fuck is banking. who did this

#every time i go to the bank i feel like i know less about banking #why is there paperwork. why are there boxes that u tell me to just not worry about if i dont need it why is it THERE #how does paying things off even work. eugh #everything costs so much FUCKING money im not an adult im s telletubby with a debit card

[hydrachea]

Fuck me, moon bunnies' a repost. Poor artist even has "do not repost" in their twitter description but not only did the reposter ignore that, the repost is straight-up being circulated without the source.

#it costs $0 to respect artists. eugh

[misery-goddess-with-cake]

My stomach feels so queasy

I'm so glad I got Leona in less than 50 pulls but fuck, my gems 🥲

I didn't want to resort using my 10 pull key i got from his bday so I kept pulling single pulls and each r card I got (which was a lot of uncaps 😭) made me feel even worse.

From those 37 pulls I'm pretty sure I only got like SR Ruggie. I didn't even want Leo's bday card! 😭

I just felt guilty from this one angst fic I was reading and I was like "no no no Leona, ILL BE YOUR # 1 DONT U WORRY BBY ILL PULL FOR U"

I know I'm exaggerating, I'm quite a ways off from being broke but damnnn, it's gonna take me a while to get back where I was AND be prepared for Wish Upon A Star an event I've been looking forward to for a while now

At least Leo's home now 🤠

#twisted wonderland #twst #disney twst #twst vent #sorta #twst leona #leona's bday #queasy stomach #dw darling leona u gonna be soon he spoiled with lots of honey and secret snacks and groovy candy and spell books #at the cost of my pocket #IM THE SUGAR DADDY NOW #AHAHAHAHHAHAHA #oooh and theres also riddle's bday coming soon #eugh 😖 #these boys really have me in a chokehold #sobbing #crying #vomiting #if my luck during wish upon a star sucks ass #in which im pulling to the 100s #and none of the event cards come home #I'm gonna be so pissed 😃 #praying to the twst gods that the rest kf the year i keep having great-ok luck

[jimmyenjoyer]

I miss my big ass thick dell laptop my uncle gave me. I miss her so much. She was such a trooper. Unfortunately she died like 5 years ago when my little sister jumped on her because I left her on the couch </3

#i miss her... #i keep wanting to buy a new one #but things cost moneyyyy #everything costs moneyyyyyy #eugh #ill try to get a new laptop for my birthday i think

[ectogeranium]

tonight I learned that a "hand mask" is just a bag of lotion you stick your hands in, and after 20 minutes, it makes you want to maim someone because of how gross it feels.

#its worse because the gloves were super thick and plastic-y #EUGH get the lotion OFF OF ME NOWWWWW #I much prefer gold bond bc it sinks into ur skin waaaaaay faster #i can still feel traces of lotion on the first hand i did and i want to die tbh #it was a gift and my hands are chapped soooooooo.... it worked but at what cost

[bettelion]

I’ve had my PSocks in my regular rotation and the phucking purple is starting to rub off??

#livs words #there is some merch quality stuff that makes me go eugh #the hat is great tho #more so all the acrylics ive ordered have had exposed designs #which is like asking for a scratch i hate it #why is the fan merch nicer in that regard bro #generally tho the price to quality is fair just the shipping #except the doppel standees??? why tf are they so small and cost more than the model ones

[deplcythebattery]

i have an appointment with a new dr tomorrow and i'm praying she actually looks into my heart issues i just did the dishes and felt like i was about to drop dead just for my watch to tell me my hr had jumped up to 154

that's not normal

#i need a refill for my meds too #and i still don't have insurance bc they fucked us over and didn't communicate #so it's gonna cost :) and the meds are gonna cost :) and the blood panel she'll probably order #is gonna cost :) money :) #eugh #jesus christ #i kinda hope it's pots that would be a more tangible clear diagnosis than my other things are #if it's not pots and no one does anything about it. well. i'm a little bit fucked #hey anyone with pots wanna talk to me about my experiences?

[protovulcans]

the thought of making a dr appt and then having to go and tell a dr i want top surgery. im going 2 throw up and die instead

#arthur speaks #and idk how much kaiser will cover the cost eugh

[gommyworm]

:^}

#nothing like talking to my mom to make me completely unravel and reconsider every one of my life choices 🫠 #casual cry at work bc i dont know what to do with my life and i have no goals and i will never be well enough off to satisfy my mom looool #like i know shes scared bc we grew up super poor n she struggled to get where we are now massively but like #why do i need to make 200k to make her happy lol #like im making a decent salary at my full time job and i want to pursue more school so i can expand my horizons and look into diff careers #bc i find my job boring ! altho im very thankful for it ! #but i dont wanna do this for the rest of my life !!!! id literally rather be dead than sit at a desk writing emails for 40 years !!!!! #i was talking to her about going back to my uni and making my minor into a major so i can get a secdon degree #since i already took the majority of the courses i can finish the second degree in 1 year ! i already planned out all the courses n stuff! #but shes like what do u want to do with that why are u wasting ur time doing things that wont put more money in ur pocket #im gonna be applying for my masters this year anyway so i was like might as well do something entertaining with the next year #get a degree out of it n all and then hopefully attend my masters program the next year ? like isnt that cool and impressive or whatever ? #its for my ego ! it makes me feel like im progressing rather than staying stagnant at my job i dont like ! #but she just wants me to make more money lmao like i know moneys tight and its hard n everything #eugh #and shes like increasing the mortgage payments bc she qants to pay the house off asap but making our monthly bills cost more #so it always feels like were one step away from being in a hole we cant get ourselves out of #like why is my entire life focused on making money and supporting a famkly rn lmao im 25 and ive barely been able to live #i judt want to do soem things for myself ! make myself feel good about myself !!! #im sureounded by stem people with nice jobs and good degrees !! all these 22 year olds with masters under their belts and im stuck !!!! #boring and useless and havent lived up to any potential lol im so tired of my stupid inferiority complex i just want to feel like #an interesting and accomplished person like everyone expected me to be !!! especially myself !!!! #this fucking sucks #looking at law school applications again #might try to do an lsat in september or something ig #gommywords

[adlibitur]

Trying to decide if I should work on the big painting more or if I should do some concert pics I have in gouache i want to use for practicing perspective and such or if I should start work on G in Blue which will be the largest yet

#people are starting to line up for commissions and it’s causing some awe #but that also triggers a weird reflex to hide and I suddenly only see my art in comparison and struggle to feel okay with it at all #I keep asking people if it’s really good or if they’re just saying that because somehow many people wanting commissions makes my confidence #totally fall into nothing and insecurity takes over #I kept myself humble always being friends with artists better than me but at the cost of my confidence in most of my own art sans a few piec #trying hard real hard every day not to FUCKING FREAK OUT #I see all my flaws in my art and it kills me others say it’s cry over good #eugh #personalshit