#fuck sorry these are so fucking cute i cant take it

[pinkandlilacroses]

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Angel - Paige bueckers

part 1

• summary {when an unsuspecting girl falls for the basketball star}

•warnings {none (for now)}

•comment if you would like to be added to the taglist

bellas pov

“Im just saying, a rom com romance would be fantastic tight now” I state to my best friend, Avery. “i mean everyday is the same thing over and over” i continue. I can tell she doesn’t care, Avery’s been in a relationship with her high school sweetheart, Jake since freshman year.

“you need to stop being desperate” she says scooting closer to me on our couch.

this may sound rude, but thats just how Avery is, ane i guess ive gotten used to it

“nobody understands me” i say dramatically as i get up and walk towards my room.

“remember, we are going out tonight” Avery yells

fuck. i forgot.

i hate going out, theres to many people

i feel like sometimes Avery relyes on me, i mean sometimes i wanna hang out with other people, not just her. Avery on the other hand, im her only friend and i understand why, i love her but she is so mean to any and everyone that she comes across.

a few hours pass and i begin getting ready. i put on a matching pink set with a tube top and a mini skirt, i feel cute, i cant wait for this to get ruined by a bunch of drunk, sweaty college students.

i know i take a while to get ready, i mean its taken me two hours to pick my outfit and do my hair and i haven’t even started my makeup yet. my excuse is that you can never rush perfection.

“bella cmon we gotta go” Avery yells, ‘how is she ready so early’ i think to myself, finishing my coat of mascara.

“ok, ok, im ready” i say 20 minutes later. i can tell shes pissed, but it doesn’t bother me.

“your so dramatic, its a 5 minute walk” Avery says, annoyed, as always.

“i am not made for walking”

its only been 5 minutes since our arrival and i want to leave

“hey baby” a clearly drunk guy says, while he slyly brings his hand to my bare waist.

“who are you” i say, bluntly

“hey loosen up princess” he says, getting closer

i do like that nickname. but i hate him.

“im gonna go now”

i dont know if im straight, to be honest. i was raised in a household where anything but straight was a sin, so i never really questioned my interests. but whenever i see a girl who is tall and strong, my straightness goes out the window, and i feel like im sinning. ive never done anything with a girl before and im scared, i dont know if i ever would.

i walk away from the drunk man and towards the bar

“oh my god im so sorry” ‘fuck. why am i so clumsy’, i say to the girl i bumped into

“nah your all good” she says, looking down at me

i hadn’t looked at her, but now that i am. i never wanna stop. shes tall and blonde.

“hi, im paige” she says, breaking my admiration.

“im bella” i say, shamelessly checking her out

she has on grey sweatpants and a black tshirt. hot.

“do you go here” she says, continuing the conversation.

“uh, yeah, im a junior” i say, stuttering. why am i stuttering

“are you nervous?” she says, bringing her face closer to my own. yes, i am so nervous, you make me so nervous, ohmygodohmygodohmygod

“no” i say, unconvincingly.

“you sure?” she questions again. im not ok

“your on the basketball team, right?” i say, attempting to shift the conversation

she chuckles

“yeah” she states, moving back to her original position, further away from me. come back

“have you heard of me” she says, cockily

“i think everyone has here” i say, to be honest, i dont know anything about basketball. but ive heard of her before and her eyes have me trapped, there so blue and inviting.

what am i saying

“i wanna know more about you though” she whispers, moving closer than before.

“what do you wanna know” i say wrapping my arms around her neck. i dont know where all this confidence has came from

“yo paige” some girl says, she turns around and breaks the position we were in.

“iceee” she says, dapping up her teammate

im offended.

i make my way from her and towards my friend group. i want to go home

“was that you flirting with paige bueckers”

“we were just talking, shes not interested”

“girl, paige would be interested in a tree if it had a pussy, she is definitely interested” chanel says

everyone laughs. but me

im confused, why am i attracted to her, i like men, not women.

“bella cmon, lets get you home” Avery says, i mentally thank her from saving me from this conversation.

i tuck myself into bed after taking my outfit and makeup off and get ready for my favourite activity. sleep, until.

xxx-xxx-xxx

- hey is this bella?

what the fuck. do i have a stalker

bella

- yes

xxx-xxx-xxx

- hahah thank god

- this is paige

what the fuck

A/N - first fic, how do we feeeelllllllll

#paige bueckers x reader #paige bueckers headcannons #paige bueckers smut #paige bueckers fic #paige bueckers #uconn huskies #uconn women’s basketball #uconn wbb

[shnarky-blogs]

Ok sick man got me acting up, so it started off as a casual day right, reader and sick man just hanging out until reader gets the genius idea to talk about his past lover(the one he had before he died) and he keeps on talking about how good they were in bed and sick man gets really jelly so he decides to punish reader :3

Apologies of the casual use of breeding kink, im just having a brain rot, pookies ヘ⁠（⁠。⁠□⁠°⁠）⁠ヘ..

ᵗᵒᵗˢᵒᵐᵒᵗᵒ ʸᵘᵘˢʰⁱ ˣ ᵍʰᵒˢᵗ ᶠᵗᵐ ʳᵉᵃᵈᵉʳ

𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘: 𝐣𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐘𝐮𝐮𝐬𝐡𝐢 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐲ó𝐮𝐫 𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫<33

Its has months since you two got together in a relationship, Yuushi is soso kind with you! So loving, always bringing you new clothes whenever he have extra money to buy you one, He's just the sweetest person you met and your grateful just having him.

You love him alot but sometimes.. you just love ticking him off till he's pissed.

Now currently you have your legs spread while Yuushi's cock thrust inside you, mercilessly fucking your whorish boy pussy, telling you how much of a slut you are.

"Can he even make you feel this so fucking good like what im doing to you? Fuck- you're tightening up again.. you like it, dont you?"

Yuushi spanks your ass causing you to cry and cum on his cock from just that spank.

It all started around a minute ago, You were sitting on Yuushi's lap while he played with your hair, you were getting bored and decided to play with him.

"Yuuuuusshhiii~"

"What?"

He spoke out softly, nuzzling into your neck.

"Y'know.. I've been- missing my old lover.."

You sighed trying to look sad, You just got a hum as a reply.

"His cock is so big!.. i just miss him.."

Now that snapped something inside Yuushi.

"What?"

Yuushi spoke more sternly, Grabbing your cheek forcefully.

"Are you pissing me off?.."

"W-what?.. n-no..(yes >:3)

You replied, your eyes peeking through your long bangs that cover half your face already, you could tell he was extremely pissed.

And now you found yourself on your shared futon getting pinned down by Yuushi as he thrust into your boy pussy.

"Tell me.. who's dick is bigger?"

Yuushi grunted as his tip nuzzled against your cervix causing you to whine.

"Y-yours! P-please Yuu~"

You squirm, letting out cute squeaks of pleasure.

"Please W-what?"

He growled against your ear causing your spine to shiver.

"I-im sorry Yuu.. P-please stop, c-cant take it a-anymoreee!"

You cried softly his tip kisses your cervix, while balls slap against your ass.

The sight of you was soo so cute, he just wanna knock you up! Claiming you as his while having you carry his child.

He smirked at that thought as his thrust gotten faster.

"Gonna.. b-breed this cute pussy of your, pretty boy.. you're so cute.

But i bet youd look cuter with a tummy plump with my kids, sweetheart."

Yuushi chuckled.

"Get ready because I'll be filling your holes with my cum till you get pregnant and forget about that useless shit."

#bottom male reader #ftm reader #male x ftm reader #sub male reader #x bottom male reader #x ftm reader #totsumoto yuushi x male reader #yuushi x male reader

[absurdumsid]

guess who remembered he has his crush's spotify and checked her playlists

#FUCK MAN #SHE HAS TWO (2) ROMANTIC PLAYLISTS #FRANKLY I THINK ITS THREE BUT LIKE. #FUCK #WHY DID I CHECK. #DANG IM EXPERIENCING GUTWRENCHING HEARTACHE KNOWING SHE LIKES SOMEONE ELSE GRAAAAH #SHE COULD. DANCE WITH THEM INSTEAD. FUCK. WHAT DID I DO #DANG IM SO SUTORIFJNFJFNFD #sorry for pining on main #<- at this point people HAVE to block this i swear #i am NOT the most convincing romance favourable aroace im so sorry #<- guy who has only fallen twice but fell way too hard #GRAAAAAAAH #I CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE #THE SONGS ARE SO CUTE TOO #SHIT IM ADDING THEM TO MY OWN PLAYLISTS SHE HAS RLLY NICE TASTE DAMMIT #sid rambles #<- ok im normal now (added sorting tags)

[todayisafridaynight]

MOM WAKE UP NEW RGG PLUSH ANNOUNCEMENT

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #snap chats #HHHFLEKAHLKCHEHEHA #DAIGO AND MINE PLUSHIE REAL ALSO BABY HARUKA IS SO CUTE !!!!!!!!! FUCK #theyre so.... THEYRE SO..... #im going to eat themim literally going to eat them #rgg heard about those fanmade plushies being made and said 'fuck we have to act NOW' #anyways stealing all the daigo and mine plushies and hoarding them like a dragon in his lair #dunking daigo in milk and throwing him against the wall #i love how mine is only ever mentioned in the series through merch now like fuck it ill take it. give him to me #//screaming crying yelling// #sorry i cant finish this post without addressing haruka and her big ol eyes..... Perfection....she's so cute 😭😭 #recently i was talking to myself about budgeting better and putting my financial priorities towards My Priorities #so it looks like. so it looks like im poor now !!!!!!! #reminding myself i should start my holiday comm sale this weekend tho....

[boxwinebaddie]

Best driver in the CFPOM? :)

...so when you say 'good'...are we talking skill? or safety? Because...

if we're talking Skill:

kenny, 100%. hands down.

if it has wheels -- kenny can drive it. i feel like he's been driving since elementary school tbh. which leads me to my next point which is that kenny can drive super well...but its definitely not legal. there is No WAY he has a license like that man has no birth certificate. he def has a fake license tho and it is literally a knock off McLovin from super bad level of fake and just says McWhoremick with no first name smh. but its fine bc he can seduce his way out of any ticket ever. Slayed. ;)

but yeah no, he is ripping around the neighborhood like its GTA5, they are FLYING, kyle is having a panic attack the whole time because kenny is smoking a fat joint and yellin Look Guys No Hands! bras and panties flying all over the place from whoever was back there last, old moldy pizza slices, the hula girl on the dash is shaking ass, theres fuzzy purple dice hanging from the mirror, fake balls on the tail pipe...so much Insanity...all while ayesha erotica or the Cuntry ;) <3 playlist is blaring. tldr when kenny is driving, kyle and marjorine are not having fun but stan & cartman are having So much fun help

i feel like kenny drives a tiny little beat up red pick up truck that he fixed up himself ( hes a part time mechanic in peppermint...or thats his current job until they fire him...Soon probably ) so there is a driver seat, a front seat and a TINY cab in back which really should only have one...One!!! COUNT IT!!! ONE!! person in it but they manage to squeeze THREE people in wHICH SOMETIMES IS TWO PEOPLE AND CARTMAN AND SOMETIMES ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE IS ALSO TALL ASS KYLE WITH THE MASSIVE DOUBLE WIDE TRAILER BEST ASS IN CLASS so needless 2 say its a Tight Squeeze.

they also All used to fight for shot gun ( stan wants to aux, kyle has control issues/is claustrophobic and cartman is just an asshole he also cant drive bc driving is for Poor Ugly People ) EXCEPT marj who Never EVER fought for shotgun and always used to sit in the back with whoever just bc shes nice and kind so when they started dating kenny permanently made marjorines seat the passenger seat *Kenny Being A Bastard VC* I Got A Seat For You Right Here, Sweetheart ;) *fakes out pointing to face then pats the seat smh* and everyone is like ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS bc that perma put stan kyle and cartman in the back which is CHAOTIC and kenny is like hell yeah im serious!!! unless one of you is gonna start Blowing Me enjoy the back bitches!!! mwaaaah <3 Pain....oh my god. *kyle n cartman audacity*

which...stan is actually the most Chill back there, he is my relaxed king -- he also Never calls the front seat shot gun bc he HATES guns cute pacifist boy behavior -- and fights for the front way less tbh. which conflicted kyle because he just wants to sit next to stan and not cartman ( stan used to sit between them to prevent Homiecide )

but bc kenny is ripping around going a million miles per hour all the time kyle ends up in stans lap A LOT which...okay the first time he was like dude oh my god im So sorry and stan was like dont worry kp you can sit in my lap Any Time :) what are super best friends for? :*

uNAWARE OF HOW FKN INSANE THAT SOUNDED TO LITERALLY EVERYONE KYLE MADE SUCH A CRAZY SOUND HE WAS SO RED OH MY GOD KENNY MARJ AND CARTMAN ALL LOOKING AT EACH OTHER LIKE IS THIS REAL THIS IS NOT RESALSDKLHDS

like the way that stan did not know he was in love with kyle until Now but was constantly like u can sit in my lap and wear all my clothes and have anything you want from me kyle??? LIKE?? I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE STAN!!!! YOU FRUIT FUCKING SALAD!!! PUTTIN UR BEST GUY FRIEND IN UR LAP IN YOUR HOODIE PLAYIN W HIS HAIR WHISPERING SHIT INTO HIS EAR MAKING HIM BLUSH WITH THE FKN LITTLE HEART CHARM ON UR NOSE RING SHUT UPPPPP!!!!!

( also i forgot how much i luv pep!stans little emo boy Charm Bracelet Nose Ring for dramatic fruity bisexual disasters...he is so cute ily bb peppermint stan is the most babygirl ever....my son oh my gooood )

so needless to say stan just climbs in the back and does the hot boy Come Here ;) thing where he pats his lap for kyle to sit ( HELLO EXCUSE ME?? ) and it was Mostly a joke until they started dating and now everyone is like stan and kyle no funny business back there and cartman is like yeah watch it homos and but its okay they are Making Out they cant hear anyone smh <3 NASTY BOY BEHAVIOR WHEN THEYRE DATING ITS SO OBNOXIOUS I REALLY HATE THEM like they are attached at the lips/hips...but also...Good For Them omg.

iiiiii got more to say about everyone else Driving ( me crazy mostly ) but this got too long i had too much to say abt the truck and kenny so yes tldr as far as Good Driving goes...Kenny. but as far as legal? Abbbbbsooolutely Not, Babey! it is fun tho!!! yeehaw! Buckle Up <3

-uncle nina, gay and can't drive

#im actually so scared of driving its actually my one tru fear #BUT YEAH KENNYS YEEHAW OH SHIT HANDLE GETAWAY DRIVER GTA5 DRIVING IS SO ICONIC TO ME #ALL WHILE SOMETHING CRAZY IS PLAYING ON THE AUX #i do think they are Mostly in stan or kyles car tho for practicality they cant breathe in kens car...& its hotboxed to hell #its kyles usually bc stans car is a trash waste disaster zone & kyle DDs ( ok stan is more fun tho he is a Shit driver but kyle YELLS sm ) #also no one can sit in the front in styles cars but them disrespectfully its not fair but they are in love im sorry #esp ky if any1 even tries 2 take the front seat in kyles car hes like get the hell out of the stan seat u stupid bitch??? fuck off and DIE #anyways <3 Hi Stan <3333 are u comfy do u need anything :3 #and stans like hiiiii kp im good tysm sbf <333 *winks at kyle sticks tongue out and flips off everyone* everyones like bro come ONNNNNNN #its so much worse when theyre dating kyle is like hiiii cute boyyyy and stans like hiiii Cuter boy like mom & dad will you stop being GROSS #LIKE EW OH MY GOD CHILL OUT #but yeah kenny can drive anything and that man b driivng everyone wild what can i say #that man always has a ticket for being Too Fine

[ribbonpinky-art]

want to cry!!!!!! fatphobia makes me want to cry so hard

a cute pic of Seiran and chubby Ringo, then boom next panel Seiran is making Ringo do situps whilst poking her belly. stabbed straight into my heart

#its so fkcing hard being triggered by smth so inescapable #also good on yall for making seiran a fatphobic piece of shit. is that cute and funny to you? what is the appeal here? #its cause u hate us right? ik that. we dont have the right to exist in a not-thin form ik that youd do anything to make us dissapear #if i had a friend that made me try to lose weight.. if they told me my body looked bad.. they would simply not be my friend #im so sorry. im very sad and angry and hurt hurt hurt #here come the waterworks wheeeeee #unfollowed the person i saw it from... i cant stay around ppl like that even if theyre friends w my friends #i cant do this. and mirrin warned me itll get so much worse due to new years resolutions. im so sad. i cant take it #pls make it stop pls let us just exist we are not bad or wrong for existing #fuck should i put trigger warnings.... #tw fatphobia #tw body shaming #idk what else to put #god its so much more that body shaming. its abuse. its oppression. discrimination. cruelty on a global scale

[valentinesparda]

ok spoilers in the tags don't look at me

#listen maybe I'm just insane and it's not because I'm a Selfshipper but you already knew he was quirky and immature when you became friends #like. the writing is so silly. i cant take it seriously. you like him but you cant stand his lack of maturity?? its not funny to you?? #you like eachother thats obvious but like. do you actually or is it society's expectation to be tied down. make it make sense #sorry i think im just insane i do think shes cute but listen. grabs her. you love all of him or you communicate. holy fuck. #val.txt

[mitchmotch]

I'm so interested in your Anastasia au! will you tell us more?

yes of course i will! @revalito and i are genuinely so elated that so many people like the au HEHJKSDHJKS i will always want to talk about it trust

i don't know if there was something specific you wanted me to talk about, so i'll just talk about their time in the cloud recesses when they were younger =]

as i said before in my tags, wwx found lwj sitting outside the gentian cottage waiting for his mom and that's how they first met--he brought him a blanket and something warm to drink and offered to sit next to him. after that wwx would find lwj every now and then and hang around a bit but not for long. that does.. imply that his parents died sooner but well. HEJDSJKSD we figured one of the servants was his dad's close friend that agreed to babysit wwx for a while before they died, so now at least wwx has someone that was considered family (and that can tell him about his parents)

wwx didn't actually start working as a servant until he got older and that's when he was really allowed to interact with lwj. silly little comments turned into prompts to speak more and eventually, they'd have "conversations" (lwj would listen, wwx would talk) as wwx did what he had to. one day lwj asked wwx if he would be allowed to be a personal assistant on a quick task he had to do outside of the cloud recesses, and of course that's allowed. and that's the loophole they found to spend more time together =]

lxc knows about lwj's crush. he could read it on him easily HEJKSDJK i'd like to think one time wwx was called in to serve something to them, and as he did he made some comment to lwj. lwj acknowledged him with a small uptick of his lips and lxc was just ⁉️⁉️⁉️ HEHKJDHJKDHDJK he starts making excuses for wwx to go see lwj. the first time he asks a servant to call for wwx bc he needed something delivered to his brother it started a rumor within the servants immediately. this is where the teasing among them began HEHJKSDJKSDK lxc is the main reason why eventually wwx is the main servant/one of the only servants for lwj

wwx starts learning about cultivation in his free time--and we'd like to think the gusulan sect would set aside a teacher for willing servants on their breaks--but he never attends any actual classes. it isn't until they accept guest disciples when they're around 15/16 that he even entertains the idea. he probably makes a side comment to lwj, like "ah, guest disciples… it would have been nice to attend a class or two.." and lwj is immediately like i'm on it. he talks to lqr to attend the classes and ofc here lan qiren doesn't Need lwj to be a good example to wwx like he does in the novel, but we think lqr would still want to show him off HEHJKSJKSD also, lxc is probably like "it would be nice if wangji had more friends =] perhaps if we have wwx in there (someone he is already comfortable with) he would be more willing?" and that seals the deal HEJKSDHJKSD wwx is invited to his classes to be a "personal servant" to keep up appearances, but he is there to learn.

of course some other people there aren't to keen on the idea of having a servant in the class with them, so this time when lqr calls on wwx, it's not to test him, it's to prove his worth. he knows wwx and lwj are friends so in his head, his justification is that disciples are offending wwx -> they're offending lwj -> lwj is his nephew -> they are offending lqr too. ofc. HEHJKDSJKSDK lwj defends wwx in his own ways.

nie huaisang is the first to go up to wwx to chat and they become good friends, and since wwx is friends with lwj, nhs becomes friends with him too. it's a funny dynamic but lwj inwardly thinks it's nice.

thank you sm for asking! <3

#ask #ender-manly #mdzs #anastasia au #wangxian #sorry about the delay! i am in the midst of finals HEHJKDSJKSD one more to go tho! WOOO #also hades (revalito) has their asks open if anyone would like to ask about the fic or just see his comments on the au too =] #aight now onto some extras for those w the patience to read my tags HEHKJSHJKS they Absolutely have really cute moments in this time #like one time wwx got sick so he couldn't serve lwj and around lunchtime lwj was finally like 'hey wheres wei ying?' and the servant was #like 'he's sick. but yknow.. even tho the servant quarters are on the other side of the cloud recesses its still in the same place' so that #night lwj goes to visit wwx. everyone is like omg second young master? and he's like um.. can i see wei ying please? #they take him to wwx's room and wwx is So embarrassed bc he just knows he looks as sick as he feels but lwj is just worried about him #also another time when they're outside of the cloud recesses wwx is walking and talking not looking where he's going. he trips off a small #cliff. lwj catches him ofc thats how he is and wwx is like 'hehehe :)c lwj guess what?' 'mn?' 'i Fell for you ;D' #now theyre both blushing. theyre so cute. cant fucking have shit in detroit HEHJKDHSDKJHJSDK #god i could go on forever but i wont. unless someone asks. insert eye emoji HEHKJKSDHJKSDHJK

[bowtiestash]

god. i watched one ep of helluva boss and i wanna post my thoughts here.

i fucking hated it, man. i unironically find it cringe i really dont wanna be that guy thats like, "ITS CRINGE!!!" but the humor just doesnt click with me (i dont even know if its supposed to be funny).

and the thing about this show that irks me is that the show is Very Adult but it looks to be its targetted for edgy teens. which makes me kinda uncomfortable...?? i honestly dont know how this show is so fuckin popular, man. at least from what i can tell from the first ep, it just made me die inside from how... Overly Edgy and Corny it was.

#its not even that is 'offensive' that makes me uncomfortable #like im sure they want it to be offensive. which is yeah. whatever. #if you like this show im sorry. im sure it gets better ??? maybe #but it just doesnt click with me. i just find it to be Annoying #im not sure how to explain it other than like. cringe teenagers saying shit like 'UWU MY CUTE GENOCIDER' #(ive seen someone like that before online. lmao) #like i GENUINELY cant see anyone past the age of 15 or 16 liking this. #it feels so geared towards teens but at the same time the content is NOT for kids #and it makes me kinda fucking uncomfortable. #also the fact that this show is just floating around on youtube where random ass kids can come across it #doesnt... sit right with me???? #i dont wanna sound like a Prude or anything. with the 'THINK OF THE CHILDREN!!' mindset #but i dont think this show is meant to be on youtube. it should be on netflix or some other streaming platform. imo. #anyways . i dont wanna dunk on people and take the moral high ground #by pretending im better than someone if they like the show #i like cringe things too #its just these factors abt it that makes me Uncomfortable as hell #im sure i cant judge the entire show based on one ep but from that one ep i saw i just didnt like it #for the record i didnt care for the other show either. whatsit #the hotel one. #i feel like these shows could be better if they were executed in less of an. 'immature' ??? way #bc the humor does feel immature. Edgy Teen immature. #idk theres smth about it that annoys me and its the way an edgy teen annoys me by hyping themself up or smth #theyre not bad or anything theyre just Annoying. yknow? cause theyre like overly dramatic and shit. and they think people will give a shit #about their edginess. when in actuality most adults think theyre just being annoying #IM SOUNDING SO MEAN TO THOSE KIDS RN #IM SO SORRY IF UR AN EDGY TEEN BUT LIKE. I GENUINELY DONT CARE THAT U FUCKING DONT CARE FOR GORE OR WHATEVER #OOO you want a cookie for that????? you want a cookie for looking at gore websites???? ok. whatever. #skypeaks

[arthur-r]

same content warnings for not speaking well im not feeling well and i can’t speak well and im stressed out so in vent content warning but for same as im just continuing talking

and iodnt know anything abkut how people are supposed to work but i think when you’re and somebody is sitting on a bed together you’re supposed to be not talking about the freaking Peter mark roget talking about the thesaurus is not right and for being distracting. and nobody wants to be he wasn’t gonna be when i wasn’t feeling well but i feel bad for having ruined of where im as if i isn’t even don’t like him likenim not but im just not good for i do like him and i think he likes me and i just don’t want to be make everything weird make complicated im not good at being just being normal and somebody that anybody is able to like. i just want to be normal and be ATTRACTIVE but i am busy being sick and weird unloveable. i want for hanging out to be a good thing not where i feel sorry or where somebody had to be had been helping everything and i think i swear he likes me i swear and we were close together and i don’t think im just pretending but i think im gonna ruin it cause im not feeling well didnt being considerate i can’t when i can’t i get stuck distracted can’t think about anything im nkt feeling well but i just make everything turns into about me and it isn’t fair and I just want to be just have normal do anything right feel right have a conversation where i did it right and it didn’t turn around didn’t make all of it opposite where i just i don’t know how to do it im too much autistic and too much sick i can’t do it

came back from the end again im out of tags again im not going to keep doing this im sorry i just im not feeling well and im so frustrated from it’s not being sicks fault i don’t want to be sick because i don’t feel good being i don’t want to be ill because it hurts me. but it’s not sick’s fault for nobody can see me past it, it’s not somebody can still be important valuable im not trying to say i just i don’t want to live inside of nobody can see me anymore i want anybody to know for looking at me and seeing a real person

#im just im not i want to somebody think for who i am i dont want to be hiding but i want for who i am being different not so much hard #nobody can understand for too much complicated. j do t want to anybody doesn’t care all the way of all of it don’t want to know them but i #for me it’s harder to find somebody who does it’s harder for somebody cares about all of me cause all of me is too it’s not the right way #im just a cute little kid or a poor tragic im not a normal person im not i can’t just be an adult #i just want to be an adult make sense have people like me like a grownup not like im some little broken #i want to feel like i have autonomy!!!!! i want to show i do i want to show im a real person #and i can be more than just im not just #i feel like i take it away i take a way the special moment cause of being me #like i can only be a little kid or a martyr i can’t be special or beautiful i just have to be broken and oh poor baby #i just want to be a real person i just want to be a real person !!!!!! #and i just want to say sorry speak to somebody say hey i promise im a fucking i promise im a person i swear #and i feel so stupid saying any of it im right here sounding like for as if i don’t know anything like nothing is #i cant even grow up for complaining of growing up. i feel like i cant be a real person don’t count nobody is gonna think of me for #i dont know i need to call somebody but nobody my roommate is here i can’t #and i can’t i don’t want for somebody has to be has to help me has to save me for in order to love me #i dont want to be so broken anybody who wants to love me has to save me. it isn’t fair i don’t want to be sick iedint want to need help #i cant have help from somebody who doesn’t love me but i ruin the love if i made somebody help me it ruins it so i can’t have i have to pick #i cant have them both at the same time i have to pick and my body is picking for me im ruining everything i have because i can’t even walk #i cant even walk home i need help to walk me home how do you look at me and think im pretty when you’re helping me stay off the ground #i dont want to be fragile pretty either so pretty special needs saving i don’t want that #i want to be me i can’t be the perfect broken dainty it’s not like that. i just want to be me #i want somebody to care about me not be have to help me i just want to be me not a special i don’t want somebody to have to accommodate me #and it’s not i don’t think anybody should change their self i don’t think with other people i don’t think it’s i just i don’t believe #i don’t think somebody is going to look past it somebody who can walk easy talk easy verythjng is so easy and i just #if somebody doesn’t have it they don’t know they can’t look at me past anything else it’s k #im just the different parts i can’t be a person from i just it gets broken it’s not on purpose but i just i can’t i get broken into the same #i get turned into the same person i can’t be me and be sick everyone sees me and sees that im just sick and i wish that i hadn’t told #i wish that i didn’t say anything i just and i just i want to be normal i don’t want to be seen that way #and it’s okay to be sick it’s normal it doesn’t feel good but it doesn’t make me broken it doesn’t make me not be special valuable be myself #but nobody can see me anymore it takes away the rest of me because nobody cares to look i just want people to look

[gingerbreadmonsters]

ginger, cracking an eyelid and thinking about opening requests for a little bit? its more likely than you think 👀👀

#redacted asmr #i never say it in as many words but my askbox is almost always open 🥳🥳 #to be honest i am rubbish at actually filling reqs so its probably not a good idea #im so fucking picky about what to write and the kinds of things that appeal to me #plus like....... most reqs that come in tend to be for things that im either not great at and/or dont particularly vibe with yk #its nobodys fault that writing david feels like pulling teeth its just the way it is you get me #hence why in my pinned it makes it clear that i take Suggestions rather than Requests #thing is i could do reqs or we could do like another ask game or smth #yeah another issue w me and reqs is that my little goblin brain just CANNOT stay on track and it fucks me up Every Time 😭😭 #the prompt will be like 'uhhhh elliott sunshine beach day fluff uwu' and i will get 100 words in and #think 'wait what if they were actually dead/imprisoned/doomed the whole time that would be so fun' and then thats all i can write #i mean i started what was SUPPOSED to be DAMN crew cute halloween fluffy stuff and all of a sudden they're all dead so #not a great track record on my part #i cant stand a close plan there has to be room for improvisation #which is awkward when someone has asked for smth specific 🫣🫣 #ginger rambles #oh also anon is off bc i am not putting up with any more ridiculous horseplay in my inbox no sir #fuck around in my askbox and..... actually don't find out bc surprise! i deleted it already sorry who are you again

[precalamity]

deeply cringefail hill I am preparing to die on today: cute thing by carseat headrest is incredibly romantic

#it’s just like #I got so fucking romantic I apologize #i accidentally spoke his first name aloud #I would sleep naked next to you naked #I am loved!! I am loved!! #like okay maybe love is real actually. will toledo. #music thoughts #and of course it’s not nearly as wildly romantic as bodys #like it feels crazy to even call it romantic when it comes immediately post bodys #but that’s how the song begins!! the acknowledgement of that extreme romanticism and a FUCKING APOLOGY FOR IT #it’s so. bodys gets out all these big huge world shattering feelings of love and then it takes a step back in cute thing to mull on the #realism and the minute and the come visit Kansas for a week of debauchery and I’m sorry for loving you so vocally #but like he cant !! it’s still there!! he is repeating I am loved I am loved I am loved and that’s. shdkusosue #and then I don’t listen to rest of the album it’s not real for me

[ri-a-rose]

So my little sister got engaged which I'm happy about and definitely not a tiny bit jealous

#she and her boyfriend have been dating for a couple of years so its exciting that he proposed #and like this is so selfish and petty but im jealous bc like im the oldest and it just idk #i feel like shes exceeding which is fine thats great im gglad for her that she has more ambition than me #but i just idk my cousin just got married and now my sister and i just feel lonely #she and b are gonna be high school sweethearts and ive literally never had a man look at me with interest #its petty af but both my sisters are prettier than me and have aspirations and goals and i just go to work and complain about shit #and the weddings not til may and my parents are already starting planning or whatever and #im a lump like im not going anywhere in life like have the dumbest goals #buy a house near my parents place so i visit them more often bc i cant take care of myself like a normal human person #im disabled but not really bc i can do things but only the bare minimum so my quality of life is not great unless my mom helps me with #cleaning and food bc im just really dumb and feel like a burden i mean m is in college with a good job and now engaged and j has plans and #a scholarship and will be working lots #meanwhile i complain about having to work 8 hours a day bc i used to work 4 hours and thats much nicer to my body like i didnt realise how #fucking lazy i am til i have to work more than 4 hours not really disabled just lazy and i complain to them about having to work i dont #know why they put up with my dumb ass i mean fuck its not hard to figure out why guys arent interested in me #i mean i want a person someone to like spend life with i yearn to love and be loved #theyre so cute doing lame cute couple things it makes my heart hurt #im done im done venting sorry #tbd #vent