#god i wish i had some rn

[rouge-the-bat]

bc im curious. reblog with food u absolutely LOVE the texture of. some i love are dip n dots and snow cream

#if u dont know what snow cream is im so sorry for you </3 #jrksjf but fr its just like. homemade ice cream made with snow. thats really it. but i just really love the texture of it #god i wish i had some rn #also dip n dots may just be ice cream but balled up but idc. the tiny dots make it extra nice and no i cant explain why #basically. ice cream but make it a little different 👍 good texture fndbnfbd #ik theres other foods i really love the texture of too but i cant think atm...

[crescentfool]

p3 reload box art + the art book cover!

#persona 3 #minato arisato #makoto yuki #lizzy speaks #YALL HAVE YOU EVER SEEN A BOY WITH SO MUCH SWAG YOU STARTED CRYING BC GOD. HE IS SO PRETTY #ME RN ME. IM NOT COHERENT. i feel very. very happy seeing the trailers.. #ohhh i love seeing bits and pieces of the animated cutscenes.. both the 2d and 3d ones... #i GOTTA preorder this. february 2nd will be a great day for persona fans i think #i wish i had actual intelligent thoughts :c i saw minato and my brain evaporated into thin air #maybe tmrw after i get some sleep i will have proper thoughts though... #and maybe. i will stream because text is not enough for me to talk about how much i love this game

[corfisers]

i really need to finish this one day

#one of my fave ideas but i keep getting stuck or starting over. third time's the charm hopefully #anyways. posting it as an excuse to rant because i'm losing my mind over this rn for no reason #incoherent but i just need to Talk or my brain won't shut up #you ever think about how fucked up it is that aoi feels guilty over what happened. i do. i think about her a lot #he can't even look at me. we aren't even blood related but he still had to go to jail because of me. i still love him #in reality none of it is her fault. it shouldn't be about doumeki in the first place. baby girl you were 15 when it happened. #you can say that yashiro is cruel in his dismissiveness (on the surface) of doumeki's trauma but you can see where he's coming from #you got a glimpse of what your sister was going through? of what i went through? and now you're sooo guilty over it? and who does it help? #doumeki's so focused on his own feelings that he ignored aoi when they were living together. “saves” her by pure chance #proceeds to focus on his guilt and ignore her again. if yashiro didn't get involved she'd be sitting in the rain for god knows how long #yet she still loves and to some degree idolizes him #yashiro and aoi both saying that doumeki isn't the type of person to be a yakuza too. doumeki's good doumeki's better than that #and then ch 24 happens. where yashiro says that he's going to throw up and doumeki's response is “i probably won't stop even if you do” #“guess i am like my father after all” and yashiro still goes “you're not. you're pure and im the problem” #(touches doumeki's face. rare gentle gesture. he's gentle afterwards too before leaving. man.) #he's not cruel enough to repeat what he said in the earlier conversation and he doesn't actually believe it anyway #but i wish yashiro was cruel there. it shouldn't have been about doumeki and his feelings. again. #something about yashiro throwing a knife at another person and it flying back at him huh #for all the talk about how doumeki supposedly romanticizes yashiro it really is the other way around. always has been #which is a whole other conversation but yeah. everything about aoi and yashiro in relation to doumeki makes me so fucking sad #but this is also what i mean when i say that aoi doesn't haunt the narrative per se but still has this weird presence? #she's in the parallels. she's in the brief but important mentions. she's in the “your sister was lucky she had you”. #wips tag

[sasperine]

crime and punishment is absolutely perfect but every day i wish we could've gotten an actual confession scene between raskolnikov and razumikhin

#like i'm sure deep down razumikhin knew that raskolnikov was guilty #and there was the one scene where they're staring at each other that dark hallway and it's implied that there is some sort of understanding #but GOD. he's so in denial the whole book and i just want to see how he reacted when he finally had to face the truth #i also wish raskolnikov called razumikhin dmitri. like at least once #he always calls him rodya or rodka or brother and it's like ugh ik you're pushing people away rn but please just reciprocate rodion

[lupismaris]

I have four (only four) photos of the party (a handful of guests around the fire taken well after dark) not counting post party bathroom selfies that might be salvageable and a bunch of photos of my parents' Christmas tree (taken because we aren't doing a tree this year and I got emotional when leaving)

Not a single photo of food, not a single photo of wine, not a single photo of me with anyone, not a single photo of the guests together or who came, not a single photo taken for social or for myself to prove the day even happened

Just a fleeting moment burnt out like a joyful ember filled with food, music, and people spending time together

I like to think that makes it a successful party

#this. this is a special kind of high. #like i don't think i could cut it as say a line cook y'know but a clam bake? pig/lamb roast? Crawfish boil? oh. oooh im king. #ok maybe not king but i feel untouchable rn. there was only one moment yesterday where I saw ppl on their phones n shit #yes i wish groups had merged a bit more and if I'd scheduled my time a bit better i could have done that #but for a first time ever hosting anything and having 25-30 people total ilthe fact that everyone said and seemed to enjoy themselves #and was engaged in conversations with people and connecting with each other and hanging out without having to put on facades #and demolished the food. absolutely demolished it. i had enough for a second round but by the time it was worth putting out #people were telling me to stop cooking tho i did pull out some for late arrivals #god i want to do this all the time holy shit. just. oh my god i need to figure out to do this regularly. my parents wont be up for it. #but maybe something. ill figure it out.

[fenharel]

*threatens todd with a bat* there is a good game hidden beneath all this jank todd i can see it. why did you insist on adding all these empty planets everywhere todd? why?! why the forced focus on exploration when we already always wanted to explore your games without you forcing us?!

#saskia plays starfield #i had a lot of fun last night tbh #i started the uc questline and i was pleasantly surprised how the quests where written tbh #i had a lot of personal conversations with my companions which i loved! her background and some perk she has coming up during dialogue #i did the mantis quest which was awesome #just! yesterday was great #but today. god so many instances where i was just dissociating through them loading screens again #counting damn sheep until my protag finally managed to walk 8787m through an empty planet to reach some quest area..... #it feels like im doing work sometimes which is not good #just. there is so much where im like ''god i cant wait until there is a mod for that'' dunno man. rather would have bugs rn than that #the beginning is so slow and then it becomes good. just to be constantly disrupted by its flaws #and dont get me started how unfortunate it is that new atlantis is the central hub and first impression the player gets of the game #the blandest city i have encountered yet #there are just. a couple things where i just dont understand what toddy and co. where thinking #actually i do understand but i wish it was different. oh well #sorry about the rant if anyone is reading this lmaooooo #i just hope tomorrow will be a good starfield day again. i paid enough money for this damn game #just imagine how this game could be if it where all on one map like bethy games usually are. i cannot imagine i would rant about it

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

extended scene of kaneki carrying hides body through the entirety of the ccg army im feeling so normal about this !!!!!!!!!!!

#i knew hide died at some point but like GOD i wish they wouldve gotten to spend more time together :( #reaction time #GODDDDDD. fuck me up. i dont care about anyone else this is all that matters to me rn. #i want kaneki to go batshit insane about this. but its like. nobdy is rlly to blame for this. #hide was just like . a side effect of the overarching issues. but i still think he deserves to go crazy aaa go stupid aaa #thats his best friend !!!!! that was the only family he had left !!!!!!!! #like yes the ppl at anteiku took him in and made him happy but theyre basically all gone now too and the building is on fire and !!!!! #god damn . #sorry for my tg liveblogging i didnt expect it to make me this emo

[eldesperadont]

I hate that im genuinely crying over this eventho yea thats what tragic endings do, they make you sad, thats what wrestling is sometimes. I’m gonna miss that hot topic kiwi bitch so much if that’s really it, thank you Jay, i hate you (i dont)

#im not sure if id have reacted the same if i simply heard about his loss #instead of reading such a good summary of his ending #god i hate crying cause trauma and shit but also this is all so good #its awful but its great and im a mess rn #i hate tho that im feeling stupid for having wished for a redemption for him #since two years now #cause this character had so many low points #and as someone that could relate to this bastard to some extent #i hoped evertime that maybe finally that was the last time and he finally learns #and gets to be happy after all #god i hate that internet brainrot makes me feel dumb for wanting good things for a sad evil character #i hate myself for feeling sm #<- i know thats dumb but its hard to get over it #anyways ✌️🥲 #percht.txt #wrestling thoughts tm #jay white

[rattusn0rvegicus]

Bruh I hate it when you find a really good book but the author is like, insufferable

#This neurodivergent-friendly DBT workbook I have is awesome and super accessible #But oh my god the author like... Gets mad at people on social media for using the label 'disorder' and 'neurodivergent' simultaneously #among other shit... The Discourse (tm) #like do you ever respect someone for doing good work and putting helpful shit out into the world -- #But you would NEVER EVER want to be their friend or interact with them on social media?? #Yeah 😭 That's how I feel rn #ALL THAT BEING SAID I've had this DBT workbook for ages and never gave it a proper look #And it's wonderful!!! #Not perfect! I wish there was some kind of neurodivergent friendly interpersonal skills in there #Bc the assertion that we don't... Also need those? When everyone else in the world needs them? Smells a little ableist and weird to me #But! Whatever! I want to go through it bc it seems super helpful and reframes things in a great way

[butwhatifidothis]

#o captain my captain #TELL IT LIKE IT IS GURL FUCK THAT BITCH #reading Chapter 62 rn and it's in Annette's POV and Woobiegard just KEEPS. CALLING HER ANNIE. AND IT'S SO FUCKIN' CREEPY #AND I'M SO HAPPY THAT ANNETTE CALLED HER ASS OUT ON THAT #AND ABOUT HER ''GREATER GOOD'' SHIT AND HOW SHE PRETENDS TO CARE #I know that this isn't gonna last but oh my GOD is this the funnest I've ever had reading this fic #ONLY wish Annette had some more gumption in her voice #''No bitch you're not my friend and you ain't had to do none of this shit. Now stop calling me Annie and fuck off''

[autoneurotic]

jesus lord in the span of less than twelve hours, two people have died within 100 ft of my house ?!

#there was a shooting early this AM #and then god. i passed a homeless man sleeping in a garage at 6am #then again at noon and realized her hadn’t moved. moved closer didn’t see him breathing #called the cops. go inside. look out window. coroner and crime scene tape #i’ve never seen a dead body before this is really. freaking me out #poor guy god. by himself in some alley garage :/ #a spoke a neighbor and he said to not bother because they guy doesn’t want help?! #and i was like cool! well! i think he’s dead so #how ummm. callous and indifferent can you be #like hmm. not my problem #HES A HUMAN. WHAT THE HELL #ok sorry i’m done #just really doing my head in #i wish everyone in the whole world was safe and had the access and ability to live how they want safely and freely #hugging the whole world rn i love you all so so much be safe always

[adhdheather]

okay. having one of those nights where im just staring @ my ceiling thinking abt how maybe i should go back on my adhd meds if i can get it together enough to sort that out

#im at a constant big risk of failing my classes bc i just. cant keep up w my workloads or get things done a lot of the time #im just. so bad at remembering to go to adhd doctors appointments and have had to pay missed appointment fees So Many Times #+ i have no clue how canadian healthcare systems work and i desperately need to set up my stuff up here and get a checkup #like i have some breathing problems thatve been impossible to ignore since 2020 that i rlly should get checked out #and i rlly should get my joints looked at. theres a lot of pain there that i know shouldnt be and its starting to hit a point i cant ignore #but rn i mainly just rlly wish i had adhd meds that werent 5 years expired god fucking help me #p

[star-trek-dumb-comics]

First two eps of Strange News worlds were pretty good I must say but characters having zippers on the front of their uniforms kept throwing me out of it

#Gene rolling in his grave rn #alos minor continuity details that irks me more than they should like captain quarters being so huge or the spock/tpring thing #kepts having to reming myself that its find its fine its not important lol #I wish they would show more women with the stupid ass TOS haircuts they all had like what are you afraid of #also why pike quipping like he's in a god damn marvel movie #ANYWAy enough complaining for today lmao idk why i'm so nitpicky on details I need to get some bitches #ranting in the tags again #star trek #snw

[oars]

panicking bad i hate being an adult i hate people proving time again i cannot trust them i would literally do everything myself if i could i feel stupid

#im the only functioning breathing person around here #some things are my fault rn but god i wish people didnt make it so hard to start and i wouldve had this all sooner #whatever whatever whatevr

[dumbassacademia]

About to lose my fucking mind I need to rip something to pieces and then cry because I feel guilty about ripping something to pieces

#like the good ol days #not academia #no but seriously I’m understimulated and dying #I think my fingers are mainly just itchy from wanting to write but I don’t have anything to write rn #god I wish I had some embroidery with me or something #my hands need something if the rest of me has to act human

[septimus-heap]

Having a bad day :(

#sep talks #would elaborate but I'm too tired. That is part of it ngl. I'm so tired all the time #no energy for anything that isn't school. Barely enough energy for school #actually that's a lie. Not enough energy for school. I can't do homework bc I'm too tired #barely awake enough most of the time to remember to eat #I'm ill rn so that's not helping #I want to lie down and sleep for 1 million years and never ever have to get up. But unfortunately I Do have to get up #my throat hurts my head hurts I'm so so tired my feet hurt bc my shoes don't fit right my joints hurt bc of god knows what #I'm having a genuine crisis almost to the level of whatever the fuck I had going on in 2020/2021 #I have no plans for the future I have no plans for the present I'm too tired to even consider it #I need to deal with some school stuff but I really really really do not want to have to #I knew school made me tired and depressed but this is i think worse than its ever been before #and idk how to fix it. I need the qualifications #I can't quit. I don't know if I can carry on. Hell on earth. Idk why I'm so tired I wish I could fix it #but I'm too tired to call the doctors