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dizzybelief · 4 years

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alright imma spam about The Circle and i’m not sorry about it and imma talk about every player, as if anybody cares but here is my ranking on them too and i know i’m hella late to this too but like better late than ever anyways here’s my least to favorite:

13. adam/alex: I could not stand him at all. Catfish and IRL. The way he entered the game was awful, dont know how he made it as far as he did. Don’t know why they wouldve chosen him over miranda. I don’t know, but he was so uncomfortable. I genuinely don’t care if he was married, he just seemed like the guy to get upset if you didn’t send him a nude. I don’t know. He was weird.

12. ed and tammy: I couldn’t stand this mother and son duo AT ALL, too. I thought tammy was gonna be the one who was going to be cat fishing as ed but when they worked together the whole thing was completely off. I don’t give a FUCK if he was a helicopter engineer, you know DAMN WELL he was a shitty ass person. The fact that they REALLY thought they were gonna win over rebecca is beyond me. Message: ‘NEXT’ send.

11. bill: I honestly didn’t care for him lmfao. He was just there, but the fact that he lost over alex, that made me mad lmao. Anyways, yawn.

10. miranda: I also didn’t really care for miranda either, definitely preferred her than most but she was a lil annoying for a bit lmao. She’s pretty and what not but personality wise, it was eh. Good for Joey, tho. Shooby is better.

9. antonio: Couldn’t care less. We get it, you are professional basketball player. That isn’t a personality trait, say something else.

8. alana: She was also another white girl, but it was funny because she acted EXACTLY how you would think a white girl would act. The minute she found out Chris was gay she was literally the “YASS GIRL! SLAY QUEEN!!” for sure was the “I do it for the gays and that’s it.” type of person, which I didn’t mind. But honestly super stereotypical lmfao. it would’ve been interesting to see where she could’ve landed in the game. The “Skinny Queens” chat was the cherry on top with her, everyone else just took it the wrong way. Sammie for sure didn’t have to act the way she did with that chat name lmfao.

7. sean: Loved her! super sweet! Definitely should’ve came in without cat fishing, but it is what it is! It was understandable. For sure should’ve made it further than ed and tammy, but WHATEVER, we don’t discuss that. I appreciated the representation with the whole plus-size thing as well. Again, she’s super sweet and came in with good intentions. I feel like a 7 is a good rank for her. I would’ve loved to have seen a Sean and Seaburn duo. <3

6. mercedez/karyn: I LOVED HER BOND WITH CHRIS!! AND CALLING HERSELF MOMMA WITH SHOOBY AND CHRIS WAS ALSO SUPER CUTE. I wish she would’ve stayed longer. Anyways, for sure would love to see her play again as karyn!!

5. sammie: I love sammie, but the only thing I didn’t really like was that she was quick to point fingers. She had all rights to do so though, but when she immediately didn’t like alana bc of a group chat name (which of course, alana didn’t have bad intentions with it) was a lil petty. But other than that, she played a really good game. I loved the bi representation (along with miranda) too!

4. shubham/shooby: I didn’t like him at first with the whole “social media is the bubonic plague” vibe at first. BUUUUUT, he was honestly one of the most adorable players in the game and I could 100% agree on everyone loving him for who he was. I felt SO bad with the whole rebecca/seaburn situation but I’m so happy he took it super well considering how he didn’t take it too well with Sean. Social media can fuck you up a lot, which is true on shooby’s end, but I hope he actually tries it out and see it’s good side of it as well. He was honestly a hit or miss. He would get on my nerves too cause sometimes he’d be on high horse about the whole “social media being awful” thing. Other than that, his and Joey’s bromance is also the cutest thing in the world. Don’t hate him, and he does seem super sweet and protective no matter what. At the end of the day, he was playing a game and he played it really good, hence on him getting top influencer 4 times in a row lmfao.

3. joey: I DIDN’T LIKE HIM AT FIRST (but literally everyone and their mom would say the same thing) BUT HE GREW ON ME AND IS THE CUTEST PERSON TO EXIST. He was honestly good at what he did. Super proud of him! Deserves the world. Such a cute momma’s boy. Has my heart.

2. chris: okay okay okay okay. chris has my whole heart, too. I feel like I could feel genuine love from him with everyone in the game and that was beautiful. His faith in God was also so amazing, considering that he’s gay AND MEXICAN, that was a boundary broken for the whole “how can you be gay and also believe in god” thing. Especially in the hispanic community since it’s so taboo to be gay and also love god. I just loved that and I completely felt such a strong connection with him. I wish I could give him a hug. <3 UGH CHRIS I LOVE YOU <333

1. rebecca/seaburn: ONE HUNDRED PERCENT, HANDS DOWN, MY FAVORITE PLAYER TO DATE! HE IS SO FUNNY AND PLAYED SUCH A GOOD FUCKIN GAME AND NO ONE HIS GIVING HIM THAT CREDIT!!!!! SEABURN DESERVES THE WORLD. I WOULDVE LOVEDDDD TO BE HIS FRIEND IN THE GAME AND IRL LMFAOO. SEABURN WAS SO BAD AT BEING A CATFISH THAT IT WAS GOOD LMAO. SEABURN, YOU DAMN LEGEND. AHHHHHHHHHHH. love u bitch.

There you guys go. I said what I said. Goodnight!

#personal #rating #the circle #rating the circle #the circle netflix #i love this show #i would love to play this shit lmfaooo #the circle spoilers

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bisluthq · 2 years

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YOU KNOW? Like in what world does KARLIE come off well there?

Yeah they probably wanted to make Taylor look like a petty person who gets offended by no reason. But basically missed out on the fact that everyone has boundaries.

I mean not throwing parties at your friend’s house when your friend isn’t there is like literally common human decency. Like idk what possesses a person to do that lmfao. I used to have keys to my ex bestie’s house and not once did it occur to me to like host a party there while she was out like it just didn’t even cross my mind. The main reason I had keys was she lived in like the center of town and I used to sleep over after hectic nights out rather than like Ubering back home or whatever like it was more chill. I also used to like sometimes just pop round to see her or whatever. I did sleep over when she was out of town or at her boyfriend’s but I never like brought people round there? 💀💀

And Karlie lived like… not that far from Tay lol so she didn’t even have a good reason to be like showing up if Tay was out of town.

#nat talks k@ylor

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quellines-stories · 6 years

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In your corrupted au, do Wayne and Jerome start working together while Wayne has alienated all his friends or not?

!! Ty for giving me a reason to ramble about corrupted!valeyne au anon asdfgkh

Okay so like, essentially, I like to generally imagine Jerome and Wayne’s friendship as one that starts after Wayne lose Thomas and Martha and before Jerome killed Lila. So, it would be a time in which they’re both kind of in the middle of being REALLY vulnerable since Wayne’s just lost everything and Jerome’s close to fully snapping.

To me the primary thing which would be key to this would be an event which would contribute to Wayne’s corruption and set him apart from the Wayne we all know and love. This event would be in which Wayne isn’t taken in by Alfred.

I feel like a good reason something like this would occur would be due to Wayne’s company wanting to get rid of Wayne, so they dig up petty dirt on Alfred and claim he’s not a suitable guardian, thus having Wayne put into foster care while an investigation on Alfred is implemented– and we all know Gotham takes forever properly getting paperwork for this kind of shit done in a timely manner. Wayne would end up running away like a lot of kids do, because the social work system in Gotham is bullshit. The company would have expected as much, and be convinced Wayne’s out of the picture since he’s just a kid with not a dime to his name and not a guardian to make sure he’s being treated correctly legally, and they doubt a ‘spoiled brat’ will survive on the streets alone anyways.

Long story short, Wayne stumbles upon a circus, tries to steal food, meets Jerome, and convinces Jerome he can be useful around the circus if the older one will just give him a place to take shelter from the relentless rain. They make an agreement that Wayne will have a couch to rest on in exchange for helping Jerome out with his circus acts whenever Jerome needs him, because Lila is unreliable when it comes to whether or not she’ll be too drunk to do the scheduled act with Jerome.

To summarize, they become friends because Wayne’s lost everything and it feels nice to be taken in by Jerome, and Jerome isn’t at all used to someone determinedly sticking by his side like Wayne (and standing up for Jerome even at times Jerome feels like they should have dropped it, yet is thankful for Wayne’s efforts nonetheless despite the black eyes they gain upon Wayne telling other circus performers to leave Jerome alone.)

That’s when their friendship begins.

Eventually shit goes down. Jerome doesn’t snap because Lila nags at him one too many times, but instead ends up killing her because she gets drunk and starts getting harsh with Wayne. Initially Wayne freaks out, but Wayne realizes Jerome is all Wayne has in the world at this point and vice versa, so he can’t let Jerome get caught like this. This Wayne helps Jerome get rid of the body instead of Cicero.

This is essentially where they go from friends to partners in crime lmfao. So like, this is where their partnership begins.

Gordon questions Jerome and Wayne defends him but at this point Wayne’s kind of ended up resenting Gordon because Gordon has not only failed to catch the alleyway killer, but also because Gordon failed to convince the court to let Wayne stay with Alfred, thus Wayne blaming Jim for him having everything taken away, and now Jim’s trying to take Jerome away, too.

Wayne and Jerome end up encountering a lot of events together– like Theo’s attempt to kill Jerome and Wayne getting an injured Jerome out, and Jerome turning the lights in Gotham out as he and his copycats along with Wayne lure Jimbo to the carnival, and of course Jerome and Wayne breaking out of Arkham to find find Jerome’s brother after getting revenge on his uncle.

Wayne’s a calm and collected criminal that believes real justice involves vengeance, because Alfred wasn’t there to tell Wayne that vengeance wasn’t the way to go– instead Jerome was the one there encouraging Wayne to do whatever he found most fun, because Jerome wants Wayne to have fun, of course– and Wayne found killing Matches Malone a lot more satisfying than letting him go.

So that’s how Wayne’s different when it comes to how he’d be corrupted. Jerome, on the other hand, wouldn’t be much different– except for the fact he has a weak spot now, in which Wayne evens him out by nudging Jerome when Jerome’s close to going too far, or giving Jerome a look when Jerome’s overdoing it. Wayne let’s Jerome have his fun, of course, but Wayne makes sure Jerome doesn’t go to a place Wayne can’t follow.

So, while Jerome still does awful things, he lets up on some things when he notices Wayne doesn’t approve.

This would lead to Jerome making allies MUCH easier, because while Wayne isn’t exactly the friendliest person around, he balances Jerome out. Overall, when a grinning Jerome intimidated someone, Wayne’s there to calmly assure that someone of the benefits that would come with them listening to whatever he and Jerome were saying.

Thus leading to Jerome and Wayne quickly getting Oswald, Jonathan, and so forth on their side, and eventually almost every major Gotham Rogue (other than Jervis Tetch, who Wayne and Jerome would end up betraying once his purpose was done with since Wayne wouldn’t want to be associated with Jervis after what he did to his sister, and Jerome wouldn’t object to in the least since he’d be absolutely giddy about whatever Jervis’ reaction would be upon realizing he was a pawn.)

Eventually, when Wayne and Jerome get older (21 & 24 with Wayne’s faceclaim as N0el Fi$her or ¢hristian B@le) Oswald would realize the pair was an efficient team, and end up hiring them as his personal hitmen. This would also be around the time in which Jerome and Wayne start becoming interested in one another as potentially more than just partners in crime ;)

The majority of Gotham Rogues would be working together for the most part, so Wayne wouldn’t actually be isolated from them. Like Jerome would definitely be possessive of course asdfgkh but he’d know better than to try to put isolating boundaries on Wayne, because he’d encourage Wayne to have fun with their friends… however, Jerome would generally make sure the ‘friends’ he suggested they made together would be ‘friends’ which were already criminals or seemingly close to becoming ones.

Tbh Wayne would be a primary component in keeping the rogues together because he’s aware of how to deescalate quarrels, and he’s essentially ready to do anything for them since he considers them the only things he has left in the world, and they would consider him family as well with how dedicated he would be. This is also why they deal with Jerome’s bullshit considering they’re aware of how important Jerome is to Wayne asdfgkh

I’m sorry this is so long I just really love rambling about this stuff and getting asks about it asdfgkh

#valeyne #corrupted!valeyne #jerome x bruce #anon

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restlesswondergirl · 6 years

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Reality Check on Reality TV: Jax and Brittany from Vanderpump Rules

Reality TV Relationships from a Mental Health Counselor’s Perspective

One show that I'm a fan of watching is Vanderpump Rules. While the show is entertaining, when looking at the relationships on this show, it shocks me how much abuse, cheating and disrespect is put up with by the cast. In this blog post, I will explain from my perspective as a mental health counselor what I am observing within these relationships. I am not their real therapist. I do not know these people in real life and I am basing my opinions off of what I solely see on the show. From these snapshots shown on the show of their relationships, whether they are true or not (although they are supposed to be “reality” - LMFAO to that), there is a lot of toxicity and unhealthy patterns being displayed that I believe is important to point out to others in helping them identify the signs of an unhealthy relationship in the making.

Let’s take a deeper look at Jax and Brittany’s relationship. Their relationship turmoil was one of the main storylines throughout this current season. Jax has a bad reputation when it comes to relationships, however it seemed as if this time he may have really figured it out given that Brittany has not left his side for 2 or so years. This season however displayed the chaos in their love life and how Jax was up to his old ways again. This week's latest episode was titled "lost cause" in reference to their relationship. Jax was shown breaking up with Brittany because of how much he has screwed things up and how "she deserves better" than him. While they were broken up in this episode, it is clear on instagram that they are indeed still together (which truly makes me feel sick!).

Jax has a LONG history of lying and cheating on his girlfriends, and also lying in almost all relationships he has been in with his friends, bosses, coworkers, etc. Jax slept with his best friend’s girlfriend (Kristen), lied to his best friend (Tom Sandavol) about it, and then had a difficult time understanding that his behavior was deceiving and hurtful to others.

Now let’s look at his lack of remorse, his defense mechanisms and his manipulative charm. These have been consistent factors in all his screw ups. His lack of connection to and lack of understanding of his wrongdoings, his constant defenses when called out (example - deflecting blame onto others almost immediately after accused of something), and his charm in winning people over and saying what he can to gain forgiveness even when nothing has yet to be resolved.

And then there’s Brittany, who is a typical example of someone who is manipulated or abused, and in denial to see the truth. She’s a good girl, with a good heart, who easily forgives and loves others. She cares deeply for others and has a strong set of values from her upbringing. She wants to be in a relationship, be in a lasting committed relationship, and raise a family of her own. Having her personality and strong family values would all normally be great, however acting at any cost just to check off the boxes of what she wants for a relationship on paper may be great, but in reality it is where things can go very wrong. Long lasting commitment, doing all you can for the one you love, and forgiveness seem to be the strong values that keeps her in this relationship no matter the cost. Brittany seems to want to hold onto these first before recognizing the realities of who’s really in front of her.

People who are manipulative try to find the “good ones” - the ones with strong morals and a strong sense of conscious - they know how to get to them by bringing out guilt or shame in their victims as tools for control.

Those with narcissistic personality traits are defined by always needing to be “right”. they deflect to things that they can point out as weaknesses in others so that they can get their way and still be right since they prove that the others are the ones who have really faulted them.

Jax points out whatever he can in Brittany that’s “wrong” to him, or that has wronged him, petty little picky things, and he does this when he is put under fire for his wrongdoings.

“she sleeps in too long”

“she has gained more weight since the start of our relationship”

“Brittany has lost her ‘spark’ and motivation to do anything, I worry for her”

“Brittany, how dare you play that recording in front of everyone! they don’t need to be involved in our relationship”

Jax uses these as excuses, and brings out vulnerabilities of shame and guilt in Brittany, when in reality Jax is the one making the mistakes that needs to be dealt with. Jax avoids any responsibility for his wrongdoings. He twists the narrative around from him to others very easily.

When that doesn’t work, he finds another outlet by telling people what they want to hear so that they can stay on his side. Once he figures out that they want him to apologize or state that he’s the one with the problem, he tries this route by stating things like “I have issues with myself, I guess I just hate myself”, turning from blame on others to blaming himself in a puppy dog kind of way, using his charm and sad story as a way to gain the sympathy and forgiveness from others who are able to feel bad for him. They then feel guilty NOT to connect with his sad story. Does he really believe this? well I’ll tell you my opinion - DEFINITELY NOT! He is saying all this as a way to manipulate others. Reeling them in to feel bad for him because he knows that they would want to forgive someone struggling with the story he is giving them. He locks into their strong values of forgiveness. And they lock into the parts where he admits it is him as the problem, not them, and that his self-esteem issues cause him to do the bad things he does so that they can feel better about what has happened. It is easier to believe that someone does these horrible hurtful things towards their partner out of low self-esteem instead of believing that they are selfish, manipulative and not capable of true love and empathy of others.

Jax will “apologize”, and say what you want to hear, but then you will see him very shortly after make a contradictory or backstabbing comment about you when he was just so recently crying with apologies admitting that he was wrong and horribly out of line from what a friend and partner should do. Basically Jax will say what he can in the moment to get what he needs, but then later discredit these statements by contradicting the comments in some way or talking badly about the people that he was apologizing to.

People like Jax just learn the equations they have to follow in order to get by in life. They don’t understand, nor care about the actual feelings and meanings behind anything. As another example, with a recent interaction with Lisa Vanderpump, Lisa was furious with and hurt by Jax showing up late to a bartending gig for her party that he committed to help her with. He decided to go get a hair cut, and take his time with getting ready which led to him arriving at the party over an hour late. He left others to fill in for him and bartend for the party when it was really his job. Lisa tells him “it is not ok, you are so selfish”. Jax says sorry a few times and thinks its ok when she assures him it’s not. He says “I said I’m sorry” and looks shocked that the sorry just wasn’t good enough for everyone to carry on as if it never happened. Jax then goes to make a comment about how the party is just a bunch of rich people anyways and that there are more important things in life. Again, Jax here tries to turn it around on someone else, Lisa, for being the selfish privileged one in getting upset with him in this situation, instead of him owning up to what he did and actually understanding it was wrong of him to be that late to his job. This behavior shows that he believes just a “sorry” will fix it, and that he can’t do no wrong. In this example, he displays grandiose, selfish mentality that It’s his world and everyone else just lives in it, so it is obviously horrendous and shocking in his mind when someone were to dare blame him for anything at all! Jax doesn’t see for even a minute how his behavior here was irresponsible and inconsiderate to others working the party, nor does he seem to care as he twists the story around on the party being “stupid” and “pointless”.

During this last episode, his effort to break up with brittany was not about her being happy in my opinion. It was about him getting credit and sympathy and attention from others. Jax was made out to be the bad guy in his relationship with Brittany all season. Their group of friends were turning on him and he couldn't handle it. He knew that if he broke up with brittany for reasons to “help her” and "allow her to be happy", he would be looked at as a good guy again. However, then once again it was clear that he wasn't looking out for her in reality because he made sure to sleep with her one last time right before the break up, then begged for her back when he realized she was moving on fine without him and others were not taking much sympathy to him as he had hoped. If Jax really loved her maybe he would actually realize she was happier and better off without him and let her free.

If you love someone, let them free!

Sadly... Brittany is in denial. During this season she has been:

Looking for whatever positives she can in order to make the negatives disapear

Looking for what she wants to see in Jax and the relationship

Hearing the words, but not really seeing the truth behind it

The reality is (from my opinion) that nothing can be trusted of what Jax says or does right now!

His true motivations and feelings are more complex than what he shows to others.

Although forgiveness is a value of Brittany’s - one can forgive without sacrificing their own needs. A person can forgive from afar while still making boundaries and decisions to be in relationships that better serve them.

values need to be balanced out - It is important to not just follow the rules, and not just act on emotional impulse either - instead finding the “wise mind”; making decisions from the middle, more balanced mindset.

it can be confusing to figure these things out when you have a strong love and care for someone, and for what once was in the relationship. The reality is that love doesn’t mean the relationship is healthy. You can love someone and also be in a toxic relationship at the same time. Love and relationship dynamics can change over time as well. It is hard to face these truths sometimes - No one wants to go through loss and rejection - no one wants to accept things that may lead to experiencing tough emotions that will hurt, be uncomfortable, and will take time to heal from. Although, it may be better to make these tough choices and experience the hurt and discomfort in the long-run.

It is also difficult to go against messaging that may have been ingrained since childhood - such as - it’s best to make relationships work out, divorce is bad, if you love someone you make it work, forgiveness is important, etc. This therefore may mean “failure” if you disobey these messages. No one wants to feel that way if that’s what certain choices may lead to.

So of course it’s easy just to believe in what you want, and see what you want to see. It sometimes takes a lot of work in feeling bad and down and uncomfortable to make the right choices, and do the critical thinking in relationships that may ulimately be best for you in the long run.

#relationships healthyrelationships vanderpumprules realitytv realitycouples jaxandbrittany mentalhealth love lovehurts

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randomthoughts-and-rants · 7 years

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this is gonna (maybe?) be long so be prepared :) it’s not like super serious stuff but its just things thats on my mind (aka things that don’t anger me like a motherfucker LOL)

1. i was most certainly triggered like fuck when it actually happened but now i’m not because that was literally at 6ish and now it’s almost 12... i walked into the room and it was STUFFY. LITERALLY CANNOT BREATHE. i was so triggered and YES I KNOW ITS PROBABLY PETTY AS FUCK but literally UGH. i opened the window and i was so pissed at my roommate because she was such a fucking idiot. she had a fan on but it didn’t do anything. the door was locked and the window was closed - the only thing that fan was doing was circulation the stuffiness. i also found her textbook on my desk with my scissors on top of it. every weekend, i clean my side of the room as if i’m leaving - super neat and just tidy. so when i saw the scissors not in the usual spot, i knew she used it. tbh i really don’t know why but i have this thing where it’s just “don’t touch my things without asking me”. i have no problem with my friends back home using my things but it most likely is because i’ve known them for many years and whatnot. ngl, i’m a controlling person. things that i can control, i control. of course i cannot control a person but when it comes to my belongings, i have every right to tell my roommate to not touch my things and control that aspect of her because she wants to use/touch my items. i haven’t told her or “confronted” her because it literally isn’t such a HUGE DEAL. its just one of those things where its like eh :/ also i really don’t know if its just me but i definitely do have boundary issues. my roommate and i have “walk in” closet (it’s literally just this one little space where you can “walk in” and one side is hers, the other is mine) and i find it really annoying when her shoes and whatnot are on my side. some people thing i’m overreacting but honestly, i don’t think i am. my side has space because i don’t have a lot of clothes and i set it up so i have this standing space where i can also get changed as well. my roommate, however, has A LOT of clothing (like seriously, its A LOT) and also decided to add her drawers inside the “closet”... not really a smart choice because she literally can only stand horizontally because that’s the only space she has LOL but its like... bruh you did this to yourself, you can use my area when i’m not but when i come back, i don’t want to see all your shoes and clothes on my side. it’s pretty annoying because i feel like there is no mutual respect. i respect her space but not putting my things on her side. what’s hers is hers and what’s mine is mine. i just don’t think she’s holding up to that bargain and it’s frustrating. i really don’t know if this is all happening because i’m just overthinking or if its because i don’t have siblings so i never had to share a room but for a while, i slept in my parents room because my now-room was used by my uncle until midway into high school. idk i just feel meh about this situation. i get really upset and triggered but now its just like ugh too tired to exert anymore energy into this :( the more tired i get about this, the more “sad” i become :(

2. this weekend, i had pretty much a blast?? well ok not THAT hyped up but definitely i enjoyed it because two of my friends (R and T) visited me and we just chilled for a bit AND I BINGED WATCHED PRINCE OF STRIDE!!!! this anime has been out for a while but i never watched it because i thought i wouldn’t like the animation style and whatnot but after i watched one episode, i was SWOOOOOONED!! this anime is a sports anime which is basically a combination of sprinting and parkour. there are five sprinters and basically sprinter one starts running. there are obstacles on the way so that’s where the parkour comes in. when sprinter one gets closer, the relationer tells sprinter two to be prepared and start sprinter so both sprinter one and two can meet at the takeover zone where sprinter one slaps sprinter two’s hand to continue the race and so forth. as someone who HATES running because i suck ass, this anime literally made me want to me them. this anime literally made me want to start sprinting and doing what they did because they make it so FUNNNN!!! obviously i know i will have to work my way up to be fast as them but it was like WHATTT THATS SO COOL! actually considering to start running/sprinting but probably won’t until i go to germany LMFAO

3. something i realized is that i want to lose weight and be in better shape, etc., but do i really want to?? LIKE YES I DO cause i want to look nice and whatever but a part of me is so under the norm of this “skinny/slim” society and yes it might sound like excuses (which i low key feel like they are unconsciously) but idk. health wise, yes i need to lose weight and eat healthy. i also do want to be skinnier but i literally make no effort so yes i probably shouldn’t be complaining and whatnot. i really think the reason why i make no effort to lose weight (such as going to the gym and whatnot) is because i am too lazy. like honestly, i am positive that if i put my mind to it, there will be results. i am lazy and i like to take advantage of my insecurities. for example, one of the reasons why i don’t like to work out is because most of the people who are in the gym are in better shape and fit than me. also, they know what they’re doing and if they’re running, for example, they might be doing better than me. i don’t want others to see me in my worst and also embarrass myself with my fat and sweat. i take advantage of this and use it to my benefit :/ bad habit but ya :( i really need to get my shit together lol (and yes this is a dryass “LOL”).

#randomthoughts

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