#hey chat im back

[notdailynoco]

day 40: bffs! best friends forever!

#noco #total drama #td noco #f slur tw #hey chat im back #DO NOT BRING UP THE FACT THAT I USED THE BFDI SMILE.

[todayisafridaynight]

journalists underestimate the magnitude of my addiction and how far i'll go for the bit

#snap chats #im lying i physically could not marathon this i got school LMAO BUT IMAGINE #my god speaking of school i signed up for a japanese history class. because of course i did #i also needed an extra class and i didnt know what else to put LMAO but i might swap it or somn #thinkin i should get back into theater..... i got like two months to decide anyway #i was thinking about how im gonna play IW during streams... if the lord will let me i might stream for 2~3 hours or so #im putting such a small time limit due to Aforementioned School but also idk if my computer can record any longer than that #when i tried saving the video to my flashdrive it only lasted about two some hours right ? maybe 3 if i remember right #i decided to record to my computer's hard drive instead of the usb since it has more space so maybe i can record longer #ill prob do a test run later today and record a nonsense video. i WILL delete it i just wanna see what the limit is #cause my plan is to just Record One -> Upload It -> Delete OG yk. Lazy Susan type of plan #didnt mean to type out my whole gameplan in the tags LOL BUT HEY I WANTED TO TALK BOUT IT AT SOME POINT #my final message is that ive Hopefully preordered the ichi statue. i say Hopefully cause i am once again doing it through jp rabbit #and i didnt get the confirmation it was successful yet so I Will Simply Wait. #point is it was a lot cheapter than i thought it was going to be <3 yay <3 #ok im running out of tags tl;dr im gonna marathon IW until my eyes bleed BYYYE

[volivolition]

reading Kim's Disco Inferno and i absolutely needed to read this fic earlier than im reading it right now. this is so fucking interesting.

#chemi chats #AIRHGHGHHHHH THE SKILLS THE SKILLS I WILL SPONTANEOUSLY COMBUST ABOUT THEM ARUGHGJHGKJFHF!!!!! #okay im normal. back to it #kissing voli on the forehead. my friend. this is how i imagine my life these days. voli sitting on my shoulder as i do things #echem's also there but he can't do shit except go ''hey you should get a treat today'' so he just keeps voli company. #EMPY HAS ARRIVED AND I LOVEEEE HER. CRIES AND CRIES AND CRIES AND #''Stop fucking around Esprit'' LMAO. LMAO. THANKS AUTH APPRECIATE IT. oh my fucking god this fic is so cool. this is so good. #SUGGESTION YOU SILLY FUCK GET OUT OF HEREEE!! oh thats FASCINATING!! 'I'm not... shit. I am.' THIS IS SO COOL. OH NO WAIT DON'T LEAVE VOLI? #oh of fucking COURSE ITS ECHEM. OF COURSEEE. oh hi halflit. little kiss on the head before you scamper off sweetheart #i miss voli i want voli back. voli come back please. oh there he is hi little guy!! oh echem. silly guy. i love you. this fic is so fun?!!! #oh hey!! composure. nods. ''Harry; Kim. We're Harry.'' YEAH! YAHHGKJGH!!! like i sure have my faves (empy; voli; echem) but #OUGH. MOTORICS AS A WHOLE. MY FAVORITES i love the team smiles :) oh they were all so sweet hahskj motorics have never done anything wrong #NO VOLI CAN'T COME WITH US?? WHAT'S THE POINT EVEN. STARTS CRYING. oh nvm hes with us in the glasses WE'RE ALL GOOD #this fic. is so cool. good morning lieutenant. OKAY!! DONE!! COMMENTING TIME!!! thanks for looking at my spontaneous liveblog lmao

[dhmis-autism]

SORRY. JUST REALIZED I ORIGINALLY SKETCHED THE STUFF FROM THAT LAST WIP POST IN. MARCH.

GODDDD...

#I GUESS MY WRIST FUCKING UP PUT ME FURTHER BACK THAN I THOUGHT #but also like. i was JUST talking about it in chat. i have a comic about the Three Of Them that i wrote in a frenzy in FEBUARY. #by the time i rewrote the dialogue and figured out the ending it was SEVEN FUCKING PAGES. SOLID. #OF JUST SCRIPT. #I STILL HAVENT EVEN FINISHED SKETCHING IT. YOU GUYS ARE NOT SEEING THAT SHIT UNTIL 2024 #sometimes an idea of them will grasp me and i will just write the script out in the middle of the night #I realistically. dont even know if you guys are gonna like my scripted stuff. #the first scripted thing i wrote was a yellow&duck comic that im STILL SKETCHING BACKGROUNDS ON #i could be really bad at writing for them. i could totally not get them at all. #but hey! #we'll see when we see I guess #BUT YEAH UH. SORRY FOR LITERALLY ALL I POST BEING WIPS NOWADAYS I AM JUST WORKING ON LIKE 5 DIFFERENT DRAWINGS AT ONCE #STILL TRYING TO GET MY SPRING STUFF DONE. AND ITS ALMOST FALL. SO :] #I JUST CARE SO MUCH ABT THOSE PUPPETS DAWG I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS FOR THEM #I HAVE!!! EVEN MORE DRAWINGS THAT I JUST HAVENT SHARED!!! bc i either made them for something real specific in the discord #or bc theyre phone doodles and i dont think theyre that great. or bc i made them just for a friend and thats like. theirs now kjdhkjdfhs #a lotta times once i finish drawing smth for a friend ill just never post it bft. so its just like. for that one thing and nothing else #ANYWAYS HAPPY 3 AM IM FORCING MYSELF TO GO TO BED #AND I STILL HAVE THE ANIMATIONS #AND THE FANART FOR LIKE 5 FICS I WANNA DO #OHHH GOD CMONNN BRO IM NEVER FINISHING ANYTHING #my postings

[itstimeforstarwars]

Hate inventory. Day three is hell day. Going to collapse after work and not move until Sunday.

#chit chat #boss texted me to ask if i was coming in tomorrow and im like no i am not scheduled and absolutely not #work stuff #have to go back from lunch in like 5 minutes #idk if i have the strength to do it #it would be so so funny to quit from this store #they would just send me back to my own store but also could you imagine #hey sour after 3 days at ur old store i have realized that i hate this entire forsaken company #adios forever #lmaooo #he would understand but the rest of my department would lose their shit lol

[risingsunresistance]

if we're mutuals and i unfollow suddenly and you happen to take notice of it, please do not take it personally i still love my friends n whatnot i am just. getting very tired and need to cut down the mcyt content on my dash

and if i unfollow and refollow a couple times that is just me testing the waters jdhfj idk what i wanna do man i just have to do something for my mental health

#im gonna try my best to not up and leave bc *i* still enjoy posting #but it's been 6 months and some posts still make me sick to my stomach sometimes! #i've tried everything. blocking hundreds of ppl on main so i couldnt see their tags. asking ppl to not mention stuff around me. ignoring it #nothing has worked so far and i am not getting better #so i think i just need to be less involved #it's much easier to make my own posts bc i get to decide when i feel well enough to bring him up #and i get to talk about whatever i want! wanna mention some cool stream moments. skyblock stuff. random fun facts. etc #but then on my dash it's like. oh you were feeling bad? too bad there he is. another reminder 👍 #and i could blacklist stuff but then tumblr is like ''HEY THERE'S A POST HERE YOU CANT SEE AND HERE IS THE EXACT REASON WHY'' #like... that doesnt help. if i see ''blacklisted tags: technoblade. tw death'' then that. doesnt make me feel any better #chat #anyways i have doodles i wanna make that are very vaguely related ot mcu but mostly based on a fandom headcanon(?) #i think we need to go back to the wings. when ppl gave him wings. and i like when ppl made the cape/coat his wings #i have. More Ideas for that.

[truthundressing]

2024 is starting out so good for me im scared 😳

#had such a poignant meet-cute with a guy today and u know when in the moment smthn feels like its gonna be important later on ?? #it actually wasnt really that cute and more awkward bc he was walking in the middle of the road as i was driving from behind him (in a very #quiet residential area i shd add) and then he moved i put my hand up to thank him and we had a little awkward smile n then when i parked a #bit further up the street he was still walking and he saw me and was like hey ! sry for that back there had my music blaring n i was noo im #sorry i didnt want to toot my horn and piss u off but i just ended up looking like i was awkwardly tailing u lmao #n then we got chatting and like.... man hes so sweet <3 #like he just moved to our street and idk he's just so lovely n we might go to the dnd night my local board game cafe host together bc i #mentioned wanting to go but not wanting to go alone #ouuuugghhhhh if i end 2024 in l*ve maybe the hellhole of a yr 23 was will have been worth it... #i keep thinking he looks like a male arlo parks but hes also so soft spoken like her and oughhhhhhgg im excited this cld be something fr !!

[angryborzois]

i can rest at last

#im so insanely tired #angryborzois rambles #im very close to hitting the 24 hour mark since i last slept #but hey we made it #woke up at 5 am on friday #currently a 4 am on saturday back in cali #(well im rounding up but shh) #(its 3:46 technically) #so yeah #first time doing an all nighter technically #watch me be calculatibg this all wrong lol #i too tired #im #anyways now that im here i can finally play phantom parade #no more vpn needed #anywho #goodnight chat #(ive always wanted to say that)

[calamitys-child]

Love my friends so much I love how important a friend group is to the wellbeing of one another love how willing we all are to go to bat for one another love having people and people knowing they have me

#was having a pint and a catch-up with two of my pals they went for a smoke while i watched the table then i went when they were back #drunk guy in the smoking area was harmless but making me uncomfortable #message the chat like 'hey can i get company here a sec' before it even showed on my phone as read my friend bolted out to stand with me #had a chat about how to best stick up for each other and what folks boundaries are #its good. its good. im not perfect but im trying very hard and i will remember things for next time

[verymuchablog42]

i want to wrap my youngest brother in a forever cocoon of dance parties and hugs and reading the books he likes where he and I can live forever and ever because this child doesn't deserve a single bad thing to ever happen in his life

#for context: #he's little‚ in kindergarten‚ and was recently diagnosed with adhd (although we had already pretty much known) so while his dr is trying to #find the right meds for him he's struggling with the adjustment period and focusing in general #and this beautiful sunshine boy calls me on video chat and asks if i can help him finish his dnd character sheet we started last week #because he's very excited about the dnd campaign and wants to get his sheet finished like my other siblings (both several yrs older) #and so we're working through the sheet and we're talking and im explaining the math and i keep having to try and redirect his attention #because he's sitting in our kitchen and there's a lot happening around him and he's distracted (which i totally get and think is so valid!) #and so i told him #hey‚ if you can't focus right now and we need to circle back to this‚ i can wait. im free tonight and tomorrow night‚ #call me when you're ready to finish and are feeling able to focus again #and he said okay and then in the saddest voice ever he apologized for not being able to pay attention and I just #my heart BROKE for him #because he's so smart! and kind!! and it's okay that he cannot focus on dnd right now‚ he's doing his best!!! #and i told him as much‚ promised i wasn't mad or frustrated or anything and told him i loved him and hoped he had a good night #but i just feel so bad that he internalized him not being able to pay attention as his fault #i just want to protect him forever and ever #idk if anyone has any tips on little kids w adhd‚ plz lmk‚ i want to be a resource and source of support for him 🫶

[snobgoblin]

ah...yeah. had a feeling I'd fuck something up today, lost a friend just now

#(: im. im. im #its fine its whatever #its just. at least i was prepared #it went #friend 1: hey friend 2 youve been on stardew for 5 hours #me: dudes getting married #friend 2: I'm fuckin depressed and have nothing to with my time so ywah im playing a fucking game leave me the hell alone #<- direct quote. ok #he left the chat after that i think hes pissed #we were just kidding i just. yeah idfk man i didnt know #idk we're both stubborn and afraid of confrontation so i doubt either one of us are gonna come back #mannnn #this fuckin sucks im tired of this shit #tired of being upset all the time

[todayisafridaynight]

they could not have chosen ANY MORE different games to make this point

#snap chats #IM CRYING THO 1.) KIRBY AND KIRYU IN THE SAME PICTURE YIPPEEEEE #2.) I JUST SNORTED BEING REMINDED OF THE TIME I SPECIFICALLY REFERENCE KIRBY BEING ANGRIER #IN RESPONSE TO THAT ONE ASK MASU SENT ABOUT SAWASHIRO #AND HOW HE WAS PORTRAYED MORE AGGRESSIVELY IN THE STATES LIKE JAER JERLKAJ #also omg y3... hi lovr... #idc i love the Unreasoanbly Edgy USification of box art it appeals to the shadow the hedgehog lover in me #oh yeah. also. i got here in the first place cause my desperate ass WAS looking up how much itd cost to buy physical discs #and i stumbled on the jp box art of y7 and its so fuckin funny but like i also get it but also lol #CAUSE YK ON THE ART YOUVE GOT NANBA/ARAKAWA/SAWASHIRO LIKE. SPECIFICALLY FRAMED YEAH #on one hand i get it from the approach of 'oh hey you guys know these actors right check it' #and then theres also the approach of 'these three characters will cause SOME form of major conflict for ichi' #BUT ITS JSUT SO FUNNY LIKE nanba so tf are you doing there. come back here. #like at least for most of the game arakawa's suspicious but nanba chills with us for like. ok only like four chapters BUT STILL #the cover also makes me laugh cause of arakawa cause like. Perpetual Peepaw Syndrome IM SORRY HE JUST LOOKS CUTE #like pops you are not fooling anyone.. you cannot intimidate me im sorry.... ily... #funny as hell... #ok im gonna try drawing now fr bye #i hope my bitchass friend gets back to me soon i wanna play y3 on stream so bad... #i could try from my laptop but its SOOO slow. like its consistent but its like playing in slow motion #so id prefer to see if i could play it on my ps4 and then use my capture card to stream it to computer yk.. #ok im rambling again BYE

[britneyshakespeare]

it is weird being an aromantic asexual who is incidentally attractive. like. i just came back from a concert with my friends who have known me for years and know that about me. some of the very few real-life friends who know that about me actually and i only told them relatively recently. regardless. the only reason i had bothered to bring it up w them is that they had seen me in SO many situations that telling them “i’m asexual” was if anything just clarification. just confirmation, like, don’t worry. it’s not an inability to attach to others or whatever. if you can’t tell. like they’d seen me be pursued by quite a few people in our time as friends and at some point it seems like a curious thing if i only ever seem to feel negatively about anyone who’s attracted to me, ever, no matter who it is. and they were understanding and i knew they’d be. yeah.

we were talking on the way back about bucket list concerts we’d still like to see. we saw stromae which was a really big one of mine (my fucking boy btw, i had an amazing time). i mentioned that i don’t have very many, as i’m rarely the person to be like “yeah, let’s go to a concert” unless i have people i know i wanna go with. like i’ve been meaning to see the jonas brothers w my sister and sisters-in-law ever since they came back because it’d be a fun thing for us since we always listen to them together. 

but i would genuinely love to see super junior someday, like just for myself, wherever whenever if i was just able to get transportation (i don’t drive). i’ve loved suju for years but i got really back into them in 2020 in the pandemic as a sort of nostalgia comfort thing (but also the music they’ve put out in recent years is like, literally the best in their discography, they just keep getting better w age). and i had to go on this tangent to explain it, right?

in the first months of the pandemic, there was something weird happening to people psychologically. some kind of end-of-the-world loneliness. i mentioned that i had like 5 or 6 different people in my DMs at the time interested in me. not all of them men. and the friend who was driving said “you know, diana, if this were literally anyone else talking, i would think that this is some enormous humblebrag—”

and i like. didn’t even think about it that way. i was just trying to make my point that i had a serious thought in 2020 of like, when the world opened back up, just doing one (1) seriously manipulative thing in my life and convince one of those men who was thirsting for me to buy me tickets to super junior and go with me. it was hypothetical. this hasn’t happened and all but certainly will not. i would not feel good taking advantage of someone’s feelings like that. 

but i had to go on a tangent even before that because i was like. oh my goodness. i didn’t even realize that was a humblebrag. i’m sorry. i’m just telling a story.

#the politics of being a pretty young woman #tales from diana #i also wouldn't have felt comfortable telling anyone that anecdote about myself if they had known less about me than my friends i was with #so i guess i wouldn't be in danger of humblebragging. but sometimes i think i do? by mistake. #like when i talk about my social life in the past i always mention no one openly liked me in high school. not one person. #it very much affected how i saw myself. bc bullshit. young girls. male approval. y'know. #but in retrospect now i'm better able to tell when a boy had some kind of crush on me so i might mention it like 'he thought i was cute' #and one time a different friend i had. but one who i have also told im asexual (im trying to do that more) said to me #'you know for how unpopular you say you were in high school it seemed like a lot of ppl liked you' #i mean. yes? it's complicated. i was most certainly not popular i can tell you that. #i was more of a 'hey goob nice binder' 'hey goob wanna hang out at my house after school?' [narration: they all hated me...] kinda kid. #i probably kept myself from making friends wo realizing it but also lots of cliques i would've liked to be part of very much ignored me. #i was hot on the margins. a truly underrepresented social archetype... except that's literally every teen movie so maybe not. #i didn't have a big win in the final act that's the difference. #also before the concert we were talking about one of our other friends who is just. so fuckin funny. #like we were all talking about how much we love him. and they said they had been talking about who in the group chat we're in #has the most 'pull' and im like. pull? #like who could pick up the most ppl successfully. hypothetically. #both of them ranked me high :^) i was like. thank you. #they asked me to ponder on the topic myself and try to come back to it but i think im just confused by the concept of 'pull' itself #stromae has pull. that is all.

[mino2aur]

anyone else think gerard of greenleigh is a bit jermaed up

#d20 neverafter #chat. hey no. no. im not turning back into a frog this is how i always look. ''in denial'' ban that guy for ten seconds

[luffynoir]

i miss when you could restart conversations in mechat 😭 now it's spontaneous but i keep thinking about the "wrong" answer i put in the previous conversations why am i like this pls help.

#mechat #maybe im the only one to notice this #AAAAAAaaaaAAAaaa #like hey character sorry about that thing i said one minute ago i didnt mean it pls forget it im freaking out #ok going back to normal #me chat

[songship]

where do you find people to talk to online who don't suck, asking for a friend

#jasper.txt #<- guy who is in Too Damn Many discord servers #but they're all too big!!! #i had to leave a server that i was slowly dipping my toes into talking to because there were some very uncomfortable dynamics going on ther #that reminded me of the Trauma #but it was small and cozy and that's why i felt comfortable trying to talk there!! #and trying to filter places for basic criteria like “hey are you cool about trans people” is exhausting #because so many times itll be totally innocuous and then surprise! nazi meme posted in general #OR if its not that then it'll be queer friendly but it's all 'no bad vibes!!! no negativity ever!!!'' #incredibly stifling #hate it #its not like i dont have close friends but they like to hang in voicechats rather than talk over text much #and i want to fulfill that text based communication need... i wanna chat with people while im at work... #sighhh. shit sucks dog #actually coming back to this #i totally forgot i got invited to a server by an ex mutual a while back #and then had to leave when they started saying nasty shit about ace people on main #so add 'queer but they hit you with the exclusionism jumpscare' to that list