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Whenever I play Dark Souls 3 or Bloodborne or Elden Ring, I always feel like I'm traversing a land that I don't belong to. As if I just walked here from a land far away and now I'm on some sort of adventure.

But SOMEHOW Dark Souls 1 is different. Mind you, this is not because of nostalgia, I played this game after I completed Bloodborne, Dark souls 3 and Dark Souls 2. But somehow someway Dark Souls 1 undeniably feels like home. This is such a strange feeling, but whenever I come back to DS1 I always feel serene peace and calmness. I just walk slowly and stare and my imagination runs wild. This game is so.. I really don't know how to describe it. I never really feel like I'm playing a game, I'm having a story. A quiet one, without a single word spoken. Every time I'm playing ds1 I'm going through a character arc.

But also!! I invade in Dark Souls 1, despite the fact that the pvp is very bad and even when I invade I still feel these vibes. You would think that fighting another player would be immersion-breaking, but it's somehow not.

Also I.. ugh y'all wouldn't understand but i do not care it's my blog.

Sometimes when I'm at the firelink shrine I just sit there and start reflecting a lot and I just start.. crying? Like ugly crying into my pillow? I just feel so weak and small and scared and pathetic, but also safe and comfortable enough to express myself. I don't allow myself that often even when I'm alone. Also I am definitely crying right now thinking about it.

You know that feeling when you're feeling kinda down, but also kinda okay and used to it, and then your friend asks you "Are you alright?" and you just collapse immediately? That's how I feel in Firelink shrine. I don't know why?

Does anyone out there get what I'm saying or am I just going crazy? Do you understand me? I don't know anything anymore man.

#shitpost #dark souls #dark souls 3 #invader talk? #huggingtentacles is going insane again #do you understand #from software #fromsoft

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AI art isn't even.. AI. It's not even an artificial intelligence, it's just an algorithm that combines other artworks. It doesn't even pretend to have a consciousness, vision, imagination. Artificial sure, but not an intelligence.

I think AI development is heading into the wrong direction. They're making algorithms that imitate humans. I want an intelligent, metal-and-wire based life form. I don't want a program that copies humans I want a new way of being alive. When I look at art that's made by the computer, I don't wanna see the result of a very elaborate Instagram filter on someone's artwork, I want to see the machine's perspective on our world. I don't care if it would be incomprehensible for a while.

I want a robot I can fall in love with, not an algorithm that recognises patterns. I don't want to be a pattern for the machine to recognise.

#huggingtentacles is going insane again #this may be cringe but I dgaf

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I hate coopers with all of my being so now I'm going to utilise my masochistic desires and make myself a perfect punching bag for Malenia my beloved. I will let her hit me for as long as possible and the host can do nothing about it aside from somehow managing to kick me out of their world mid-fight.

I will become Malenia's masochistic little slut and she will heal off my fragile little body to her heart's content and kill all of these idiots who dared to challange her in this horribly unfair way! I'm going to walk into someone's world and even out the odds, it's a 2v2 now baby! You are now fighting Malenia, blade of Miquella and her horny little slut she uses as a punching bag 💕💕

Oh I want her to hit me, I want her to hit me so bad, I want her to stab me and slap me and stomp on my neck, I want her to shove my face into that puddle in the middle of her arena, I just want her to absolutely destroy me in front of my coopers who entrusted their lives into my hands only for me to hand them over to Malenia my beloved just so I could get punished more 💕💕

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[huggingtentacles]

Alright!! So. Lucid dreaming. I've been introduced to the concept a few years ago. For those who don't know, lucid dreaming is when you become aware of the fact that you're dreaming, but you don't wake up. It's a pretty neat brain trick which allows you to control your dreams. It's pretty fun. This thing is less of a skill, and more of a habit to me. People do a bunch of different methods to start lucid dreaming (but some are just luckier than others with the way their brain works).

This is not an exact science, I'm just telling you how I do this. There are some conditions for this, some you can control, some you don't.

First and foremost, you need to be less stressed throughout the day. I know it's kinda outside of our control most of the time, but if you happen to he less anxious during a certain day, you can try lucid dreaming. The reason why you need to be less stressed is because of the brain lag that happens when you're falling asleep while being aware of it. Your brain kinda gives you a little shock and snaps you back. This happens because of stress.

Note that when I say stress, I mean not only fear or anxiety. I mean all kinds of stress, even if it's happy stress. If your life is particularly exciting, lucid dreaming is pretty difficult. You need a calm day. Being fed and hydrated also helps.

Another thing is that your sleep schedule has to be relatively consistent. The amount of sleep and when you're going to sleep doesn't matter, what matters is that you're doing it roughly at the same time every day.

I wanna repeat that it's what I figured out myself, and other people on the internet can give you better guides. I am not sure if it's efficient, correct or even healthy. Do this at your own discretion.

Alright, now the method. What you wanna do is wake up during a certain stage of your sleep, for me it comes roughly 1.5-2 hours before waking up. You set an early alarm and go to sleep.

When the alarm goes off, you will be in this half-sleeping state. The one where your bed feels like the best place in the world and you wanna fall back to sleep again. What you wanna do is, in this state, you get out of bed and do something. Go to the bathroom, drink some water, but nothing too difficult or exciting, you don't wanna wake up completely. You need to maintain this half-sleeping state, but also wake up your mind a little bit so you don't just fall back to normal sleep again.

After that (don't spend more than 1-2 minutes doing what you're doing, also being warm helps) you go back to bed. Now you're conscious, but not fully awake. Now you close your eyes and relax your body. Your face it probably tense, your eyebrows, your tongue, your jaw. Then your shoulders. Relax everything, but stay aware. You will feel like your body goes back to sleep without your brain. I want to add that your body can try to snap you awake during this stage, even if you're meeting the conditions. You may feel a little shock or feel like you're falling for a second. It's fine for a first time, you can just try again. Just don't move or tense up your muscles. If you snap awake, take a deep breath and proceed. You're not really *doing* anything, you're just waiting for your body to fall asleep with your consciousness intact. This feeling is specific and unmissable, and when it starts, you start imagining things. Don't imagine nothing too crazy, just some kind of environment.

If it's outside, imagine the grass/pavement you're touching, the sounds you're hearing. If it's a room, try to imagine what being in this room feels like. This place is kinda your hub area, if you imagine the same place every time, it forms a habit. I'll explain what works for me, it's kind of embarrassing but whatever.

I imagine an empty room, with a bed and me on it. I imagine the blanket, the pillow, but what really grounds me in the dream is imagining someone else in the bed with me. Please hear me out it's not weird stfu. I imagine hugging a person. It doesn't have to be anyone specific, I usually don't even give them a face, I just imagine the sensations related to hugging someone. Their warmth, the texture and feel of their skin, their heartbeat, the smell. I do it because it works and not for any other reason!!!

After that I'm already lucid dreaming. The place feels really fuckin real and really weird at the same time. I get out of my dream bed and walk around a little. It's important to not let the lucidity slip, but also not to startle yourself into waking up. Let your movements be fluid and calm. Btw since you're in a dream, the gravity works as much as you need it to be. Float around a little bit if you want. Get comfortable is what I'm saying.

After you feel completely submerged into the dream, you can get out of your "hub" area and do whatever. Your dreams are up to you now. You have a couple hours like this, but honestly the concept of time doesn't really work there, your brain doesn't register it.

There are a couple "hub" areas and things people focus on to ground themselves into their dream. Some people imagine a tunnel, some imagine themselves underwater (you don't need air in a dream) some imagine a room they're familiar with, fictional or otherwise.

So yeah that's it that's my experience with lucid dreaming. I'm probably doing it wrong but it works.

#lucid dreaming #huggingtentacles lore #huggingtentacles is going insane again #i am totally not spending all of my time in the dream touching women what are you talking about #shit this is kinda embarrassing ejjaksudthe #idc press post

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It happened again, that fucking dream happened again WHY DOES IT KEEP HAPPENING. I'm going insane, this is not supposed to happen like this? Why do I keep seeing the same fucking dream? It's fucking haunting to fall asleep thinking about cute girls and love only to find myself in that fucking field again.

This time the dream was a bit different.. There was fog everywhere and I remember thinking "maybe I can hide in the fog" so I started walking. And then I turn around and that person with a sword is still right there a few dozen meters away, no matter how fast I run or walk they are always there closing the gap. I just sat down and cried with my face buried behind my elbows untill it was over.

Why does this keep happening to me..

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If I were a Fromsoft NPC all I would do is be hot and talk with a nice voice. I would say "Listen, be really fuckin attentive now. If you complete this quest for me, I am going to Kill Shit. I am going to bring this world into Ruin and make everyone Suffer. And then I will stab you in the neck with this blade you're gonna bring me and throw you into a ditch. Do I need to repeat myself? Your ending is going to have really fucking sad music."

And the fromsoft players are gonna complete my questline anyway and gonna get their Die In A Ditch Like A Bitch ending and will go "What??? How did this happen??? VaatiVidya pls explain this terribly cryptic ending!!!"

#elden ring #shitpost #huggingtentacles is going insane again

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Honestly if I could graft shit onto myself I would be fucking evil too. I probably would try to make myself pretty and organic unlike Godrick, but I would be just as ruthless with my methods of "spare parts" acquisition. Maybe I would start a cult, but more probably I would find individual people who I don't like and yank their parts.

On second thought, I probably shouldn't post this.

Maybe I would find myself some actual giant tentacles, but there's a problem that the things that have those tentacles live deep inside the ocean and I just don't want to go there.

On the third thought, I don't care. What are they gonna do, unfollow me back into my imagination?

#elden ring #shitpost #godrick the grafted #huggingtentacles is going insane again #huggingtentacles lore

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Okay sorry for going through a masochist arc on main I just. Need to get these thoughts out of my head.

Okay imagine this. Coding a program so I get shocked with a shock collar every time someone reblogs a particular post. All of my mutuals can now torment me.

Honestly even I think this is kinda scary-

#huggingtentacles is going insane again #huggingtentacles being a masochist

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I am GRINNING at my neat super-organised inventory full of fully upgraded weapons in just the right places for quick swaps! Holy Marika this is so sexy just LOOK AT IT!

IT'S SO NEAT AOAOAOAOA 💞💕💖💕♥️💓♥️💝💘💗

I LOVE BEING A SWEATY TRYHARD BECAUSE THIS. THIS BRINGS ME SO MUCH JOY!!!

#elden ring #shitpost #huggingtentacles is going insane again

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FUCK I WANT TO COMMIT SEPPUKU WITH A SPOON I AM SO FUCKING STUPID AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#huggingtentacles is being mad at herself for being stupid #huggingtentacles is going insane again

[huggingtentacles]

A while ago I found a video essay. I don't remember what it was about. I don't remember the author. I thought it was Jacob Geller but it wasn't.

And in that essay this guy talked about this game that I can't remember the name of. I can't even remember the genre. But I remember that there was a cute female voice that told you what to do and called you puppy. It was kinda violent too.

And i CAN'T FUCKING REMEMBER WHAT THAT GAME IS OR THAT FUCKIN VIDEO ESSAY.

I've been thinking about this for months. I'm gonna LOSE MY McFUCKING MARBLES!

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What if I lied for fun. Like what if I just made an account and started spreading harmless lies like "Hidetaka Miyazaki is actually very into geology he talked about in an interview" how much disruption could I cause. Like writing shit like this takes 10 seconds I could make 300+ lies an hour.

#shitpost #huggingtentacles is going insane again

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I don't want to invade what If i enter the hosts world just to give them a kiss? What then. Am I a bad person. When I approach you with a Zweihander I actually just want to kiss you. Stop running away you're pissing me off. Oh well it's death time now.

#elden ring #shitpost #elden ring pvp #invader talk #elden ring invasions #huggingtentacles is going insane again

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The host and their phantom decided to just camp at the site of grace and not progress through the level. I couldn't do anything, because the phantom was overlevelled and I barely did any damage to them, while they did a lot.

And let me tell you, my dear followers. You *can* outplay me in a fight. But you CAN'T outplay me in a waiting game. I can literally zone out or watch video essays, basically I am able to literally skip large chunks of time while paying enough attention to not get jumped. I will be there!!! I'll be there until my PS4 breaks down, I'll be there untill Russians throw a nuke at my house, I'll be there until the sun fucking explodes!!! And if YOU try to do the same, if YOU try to not pay as much attention to the game, I will BLAST YOU with a canon.

YOU CAN'T OUTWAIT ME!!! PLAY THE FUCKING GAME OR GIVE UP!!!

#elden ring #shitpost #elden ring pvp #invader talk #elden ring invasions #huggingtentacles is going insane again

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my 47000 imaginary followers are actually trapped in my imagination and every time i gain a follower it just means they broke out

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Caves in elden ring are nothing like caves irl. Caves in videogames are nice little corridors with weirdly shaped walls. Caves irl are uncanny valley of an environment. At first glance they're inviting, they seem to be designed by something, and at the same time they're alien and unnerving.

I wish there was a game that accurately portrays the experience of exploring a cave. Because fuck that Shit I'm not doing that irl.

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