#i actually got emotional making this lol

[sysig]

Gift (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Handplates #Gaster #Papyrus #Second go around! Maybe he can talk about it with the one who actually got the scarf! #Or not haha - better to just let some things lie #Though ♪ Of course Papyrus would recognize Gaster's efforts ♥ His emotional intelligence hhhh <3 #He knows everything there was Gaster's initially and so reading between the lines of Gaster telling him he can have it #It's a gift! Properly! That deserves praise!! Good job you did something nice! #I also deeply love when Gaster is first pulled back out how one of his first little smiles is at Papyrus being silly #Gaster is also very prideful! It's cute to see his son being self-aggrandizing in that kid way! Seeing him enjoy it is so nice ;; #Also I know that Papyrus is still shorter than Gaster I just really like the idea of him being almost his dad's height ;; #He's so grown up now! He's grown into such a beautiful adult <3 #It does make sense that he's still shorter considering the whole ''torn in half'' thing ahh #Maybe Gaster is leaning down just let me have this lol #I also ended up doing a lot of digital reconstruction on this one! #Especially panels 2 through 4 - I actually pulled out my tablet to draw in the bits that got cut off by the surrounding doodles #I wasn't as careful with my spacing with these oops :P But I think they turned out pretty style-matched :) #Cute lads happy <3

[daz4i]

how many times do we gotta go over it man. thought crime isn't real. it's okay to feel whatever you're feeling. don't let anyone make you feel guilty for having some reflex reaction to stimuli in a way that is out of your control. the question isn't what you think or how you feel, but what you do. do you act upon those thoughts? do you harm others bc of your feelings? that's where you draw the line. keep it in your brain. vent it out in some personal way like a journal or a password locked blog. it's okay i promise

#saw a post abt sex repulsion that i mostly agreed with #until op said being disgusted by like. other people having sex is wrong #and like. i agree that if this is your knee jerk reaction you might need to look into it #but sometimes. it really is just disgust of the idea. like it's none of my business but i still find it unpleasant to see or think about #and as someone who feels guilty constantly abt everything. this is actually smth i don't feel guilty over #bc it's just an emotion and like i can't really help it. but also. I'm not hurting anyone by cringing on the inside #i don't think guilting people for feeling a negative emotion is gonna make them unlearn it i think you're just gonna make them feel awful - #- over a very normal human experience (aka. emotions). all this would lead to is ppl hating themselves for smth they can't help #it's not that deep i just got very mad at that phrasing lol esp bc it was aimed at teenagers #a group that is way more vulnerable to this sort of shit in part due to already experiencing emotions more intensely #tldr: don't do that shit man. encourage positive behavior not thought policing

[b4kuch1n]

tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"

#bakuspeech #number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u #he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up #(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out) #we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment #and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here #but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something #but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku #but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this #this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and #that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing #but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it #its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with #and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually #I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay #but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol #not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real #and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself #and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god #that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao #but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them #have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway

[majimasleftasscheek]

if I made a discord server for my shit and so peeps can hang out and talk about old men kissing, would you guys like that

👉👈ㅤ

#would you still love me if I was a dead pixel on your screen right in the middle and you always mistake me for dust or a bug #peeps are asking me to make one again so I'm actually getting off my ass and doing it lol #also I wanna make more maji emotes #not that anything's stopping me but maybe I should put them somewhere else other than my furry server lmao #my discord peeps be like brahk is off their shits again #I just realized I don't have any kiryu emotes!!! not ones that aren't pics of my shitty meme blanket anyway dkllkdskld #I wish there were more sticker slots cuz I got some pretty good ones #OKAY I'm done I prommy

[petorahs]

personal opinion i dont think akechi's a tsundere i feel like he's just inexperienced in receiving genuine deep intimate affection from someone he values. his first response was to turn away and run you'd be kinda hard pressed to see him flustered in any capacity actually. bro would literally rather die than be seen vulnerable 😭

#the only standout flusteredkechi moment that we had in the game was that one (1) time at the cultural festival. #takoyaki moment #i think thats thte only time we see him humbled so to speak #the only time he was socially awkward in some way #otherwise hes nearly in control and calm with his emotions all the time #even when he's in a trigger happy murderous state (3rd sem metaverse) he still makes sense and keeps his wits about him #he's always been tactical #when during darts he scold u for telling him to be calm cause he's 'always calm' its true! he really is #i think thats why i think he gets genuinely embarrassed after the engine room breakdown lol help he did Not mean to do that #anyway point is #akechi is goated #at many points in the story it was eerie how in control of his emotions he was #he got so far in life due to being flawlessly pragmatic 😨 burying his true emotions and all. no one could ever do it like him #as opposed to joker wearing his heart on his sleeve kinda. #calm as he is joker makes it a point to be himself regardless if hes cringefail nerd in the eyes of society like none of that was faked. #his joker persona is just him being a theatre kid. #akechi the type to correct someone like #'im actually a psychopath not a sociopath ^.^ theres a difference' #what a mesmerizing character #goro akechi #aishi.docx #aishi.txt #literally just my take on him though i think hes so complex i learn more quirks to his character day by day

[lenievi]

funny thing about early season 1 is that you can sometimes read more emotions on Spock’s face than on McCoy’s lol

#if you think disco or snw got spock wrong or that he's too emotional you just haven't watched the cage/early s1 lately imho #snw spock should actually smile more lbr #anyway i'm kinda thinking about doing a mckirk rewrite of this episode in my fic #i need a transporter malfunction and while kirk getting stuck in it is fine this allows for more opportunities and possibilities #and i've always wanted to write a scene between mccoy and the other kirk because they definitely talked while he was in sickbay #and if i do it in a fic i consider au i won't feel the pressure to make it consistent with the show lol #tos nonsense

[bl33ditout]

not sure who needs to hear this but anger is not inherently a "problematic" emotion and it shouldn't always be categorized as a "toxic trait" for narcissism or abusers

#doesn't mean you should be angry ALL the time because that's not good either #like ofc please take the proper steps to help manage any excessive anger issues in a healthy manner but besides that #but if something made you upset for a logical reason then there is nothing wrong about expressing those feelings in a civil manner #that's literally how you work out conflict to get issues sorted out #as long as you're not taking your anger out on people or constantly using it as an excuse for making dick moves on people #yes it can be uncomfortable or frightening to see someone mad - but it's likely something that can be simmered down or managed appropriatel #context: nothing serious except somebody irl said that i'm 'nice except for when you're mad' #so i'm nice except for when i express a human emotion... interesting #it just got me thinking how so often in society people villainize 'anger' as an emotion so much and it just doesn't solve a lot imo #i think it would be more effective if you took that energy into actually talking it out with whoever's mad (if possible) #like most of the time it is merely a misunderstanding or miscommunication #nine times outta ten there is a solution to the issue where a happy medium can be achieved #not me saying this when i'm still getting over my fear of confrontation lol #but yeah hopefully i'm making sense #personal #tw vent

[shitswiftiessay]

listening to the 1989 re-recordings has made me realise… how good the original versions were.

#anti taylor swift #<< since she ruined 1989 #lol jk #but man i do hate a lot of these re records especially wonderland that one pissed me off #no emotion whatsoever it’s like an AI bot singing it #and i’m not mad about her voice changing i was actually looking forward to hearing these songs with more mature vocals- like with WD #but the production… god the production 👎 #wildest dreams tv was SO GOOD so i had high hopes for 1989 tv and then we got this :( #if she wants us to only listen to taylor’s version #then she should make the re recordings as good or better #anti 1989 tv

[walker-lister]

I just have to remind myself sometimes that no matter what anyone else says, the way a piece of media makes me feel and the positive impact it has had on my queer identity is valid, and that tearing myself apart thinking I have to defend it or questioning my own place within queer communities is not at all important when compared to the almost tangible sense of 'rightness' that piece of media helped me to feel about myself.

#just something i've been pondering the last few days #kind of like no matter how much people debate or i suppose theoretically deconstruct media featuring queer stories #the most important thing is how it makes a queer person feel #and I do think it is of course a good thing to ensure queer stories are executed with respect and authenticity #but there's this grey area in fandom spaces in which people may have found rep from a 'unreliable' source i suppose #or something which is queerbaiting- sherlock springs to mind for example yet if people have been able to explore and nurture their own #queerness through that media does that therefore mean their experience is invalid? i don't think so #and my worry is the more we focus on theory the less we focus on emotion and therefore the actual queer experience itself #and sure theory can inform the queer experience and ensure the media is a 'healthy' site of queer identity formation and identity aid #but at the same time scorning or being rude to those who have found certain media an aid is not the right approach to be taking #especially as queer experiences are so wide ranging that one person's idea of 'good' representation is someone's else's of 'bad' #and that unless a piece of media is clearly offensive in its portrayal of queer experience there has to be some benefit of doubt #I think we're still in a period of progression in media espc tv where queer creators are coming to the fore of their own stories #and we've got to 'live and let live' a little about where people are finding sights of queer validation and joy #and perhaps this a naive and simplistic way of thinking but i think queer people can either recognise when something isn't the best rep #but was helpful for them anyway and therefore in a way confer 'ownership' of the media to themselves in how they engage #or there is variety in queer experiences represented in media so that perhaps not everyone finds a 'site' of rep but that does not #therefore invalidate it or make it 'bad' representation #this is just my opinion and it'd be hypocritical for me to not now mention this is only formed from my own queer experience lol #so i'm not trying to tell anyone how to feel or anything just something i'm pondering

[beeapocalypse]

oh my god

oh my GOD ?

AUGHHH

#thank you nocommentary on youtube for having videos of every single frame of funger LOL #this is making me feel ill. SAMARIE :( #her obsession with marina a result of feeling as if they are closer than they Actually are bc shes been constantly reading her mind and-- #--fixating on her as the single bright point in her short life how hard she tries to be kind when shes no actual idea what kindness even is #the video also had all party members reacting to the flesh pillar marinas dad got turned into trying to comfort her. o'saa initially-- #--coming across solely as self aggrandizing while rlly he is trying to tell her that her father was a weak man who put the gods before-- #--all else- feeding into marinas own front of disgust and anger at the man as she tries to push back the softer emotions- is SO much #all interest in other new playable contestants has died i need to see samarie party talk NOW #marinas tendency to draw in other ppl who feel as if their lives are over b4 theyve even rlly gotten a chance to start (levi + samarie). hm

[padfootastic]

sorry, I have a lot of thoughts lmao. I think that I find it really frustrating that deep down, despite assurances to the contrary, people DO think that Family must come before everything else and if you don't secretly Love Your Family above all else, then you must be defective or broken or hiding it. And I see it so much with this fandom. Like do I think Sirius loved Regulus? Yeah. Do I think he was closer to James and the people he chose to be his family rather than the people he was blood related to and there's nothing wrong with that, particularly when they were all massive bigots in canon? Also yeah. People act like Sirius Has to Love Regulus Because He is His Brother (and he can't be closer to James because blood!! they're blood related!!! you can choose to not be close to your parents but not your bruddah!!!! found families mean just as much as blood families except wait no they don't because if I had a strained relationship with my sister I would be sad. :( idk it's just weird and not enough people in here critically examine whether or not this insistence is harmful.

ok anon im taking executive decision to publish this bc i actually think it’s such a good take.

acting like found family isn’t just as, if not more valid than blood relations is WILD, esp on the ~neurospicy queer website lmao.

i love the ‘person drops everything for their family member, regardless of any differences they had’ trope but i’m also a sucker for ‘character a makes a clean break and their family has to suffer watching them from the sidelines’ ykno? guilt tripping and yearning from a distance hit so well. but anyway. that’s irrelevant. point is: as we know them in canon? j&s were super ride or die. even w/o a hint of romance, they were ALWAYS centred around each other. james was literally bullying someone for sirius. he was the ONLY ONE HED STOP SHOWING OFF FOR. in the middle of a damn war, with his wife and child beside him, sirius was the one thought to make him feel better. like cmon man. j&s r the fkn blueprint i swear.

#sirius black #james potter #sorry i got a bit emotional there in the end lol #i think it’s actually a big part of their dynamic #that they’d be TERRIBLE partners #like isn’t it a running joke in the pf side anyway? #that their partners would hate them bc they’ll never be number one? #and i do think that’s something v specific w them you’ve to deal w if you’re being IC #and u can write it as a flaw or make it crack-y or a neutral thing #but it exists #the solution to that however ISNT removing it entirely lol #or. remove it if u want but acting like it doesn’t exist in the first place? ehhhh #eh. not rly cool. #but yeah. that’s been a rant. #thanks anon i actually rly like this lol #pen’s asks

[lobotomyladylives]

literally wanna dieeeee I realized belatedly that not only was down bad written for me due to being an alien abduction metaphor song but it perfectly describes my situation w/my ex who dumped me 3 days into our second vacation in his country

#but yknow thats what i get for dating a fucking man last year when i absolutely knew better. i was in a low place & the idea of being #whisked away from europe was an escape for me . we got along really well but the second i showed any emotional weakness he couldnt handle i #oh but he sent a bunch of messages begging me to come back when i was on the plane fleeing to my sisters london flat! lol!!! #i didnt tell you guys about any of this on my old blog when it was happening bc i just knew itd invite a flood of #''why were you even dating a man'' messages. yeah im aware. it was stupid & yet another result of my inability to purge myself of the #desire to be in a relationship my homophobic father wouldnt hate me for. and i didnt think any woman would want me . im over it now #fuck my abusive father fuck men in general im so over the internalized homophobia. ive always preferred women why should i have to #supress that to make my fuckface hypocrite father happy. i only rly care bc i love my half brother & want to be in his life which means #i have to appease dad. but at what goddamn cost #why did i say from europe in that earlier tag. i meant TO europe...im from the us #anyways. what a shit show situation that was. i have never felt so betrayed by anyone except for my dad himself #oh i didnt even mention the worst part yet. when i texted from london asking if our friendship was over too (god. so cringe) he then went #into this spiel about how actually what he said earlier when he was asking me to come back #(that it had been a stupid impulse & biggest mistake of his life) was a lie & it had been a long time coming #IF IT WAS A LONG TIME COMING WHY THE FUCK DID YOU LET ME FLY ACROSS THR ATLANTIC FUCKING OCEAN 3 DAYS AGO FOR YOU #and said hed tell me the reasons but ''didnt want to hurt me'' #i have so much hatred in my heart for this man to this day when i really think about the mind games he was playing. unreal. #and he KNEW i already had massive trust issues

[quirinah]

ive gone completely insane

#quirinahdraws #IVE BEEN DOING DRAWING WARMUP DOODLES FOR FUN AND. UM. UH. 😅 #nobody look at me for a little while. #I OVERTHOUGHT THESE CLASSPECTS. I PUT THOUGHT INTO THIS JOKE. #there r some that I’m not super confident about… tbh i think kema also reads well as a time player or isaku as doom or even a light bard #but the implications of him as a page of light r fun to think about #not pictured but kazuma is a mage of void #this shows artstyle is deceptively hard to dupe.. #the page fit is also incredibly embarrassing to draw KSHFHDIEJBWBDQSB #sounin being opposing aspects…maybe opposing classes? but not really? was not intentional but very fun to imagine #i took saburous super literally and interpreted heart in the sense of like identity moreso than emotion so he steals identity LOL #raizous is mildly influenced by his intuition mini series where he learns to make decisions on the spot and needs to unlock his potential? #i didn’t do all the six year lunar sways but it’s chouji isaku senzou derse kema koheita prospit… monji im actually not sure. #people who are good at these…wow NSHFSJEIABEKQANWA #sounin both read derse I think? #koheita is witch of space. chouji is sylph of mind #i posted the first pic and immediately got 5 pqrts JENFNEJWDNWK #anyways I’m going 2 go dig a hole and sit in it… #zenpouji isaku #nakazaike chouji #nanamatsu koheita #tachibana senzou #shioe monjirou #kanzaki samon #tsugiya sannosuke #tomatsu sakubei #kukuchi heisuke #fuwa raizou #hachiya saburou #sounin

[katyspersonal]

I know we don't talk and there's stuff we may not agree with. But I am truly sorry you've dealt with a lot of drama over fictional crap. And I'm sorry if my posts in the past ever contributed to that. Hope you have a better day.

Hey... That's all fine, don't worry! After all, it takes a lot of time and Insight to realise that Gehrman is a very gentle and respectful man and Godrick is an absolute gigachad kdkdkshdffhhgfds /lh /lh

But yeah, on a serious note. It was quite frustrating to find out the real motivation under all that... mess was something so pathetic, but at the same time this is what happens when people make engagement with media and fandoms a moral, political act. Not necessarily a problem, after all, I was the one who concluded that the way a fan judges fictional characters and other fans will very well reveal how cruel they are to real people who do something bad, or how much they will forgive based on personal sympathies. And my mad ravings about caring about female characters! I think the problem comes when a fan is so insecure that they have nothing else besides this defence of ideals through fandomry. If your only way to assert yourself is to be a good guy punishing the bad guys, and that mad raving loredigger discovers there is NO bad guy, what is left of you?

This is why it is crucial to have passion for nurturing rather than for undermining! I think if you speak like this, you've found this truth too? This is true that I don't know you very much (mutual-in-law thing), but to be honest.. you didn't poison my fandom experience at all? I tend to never be aware about discourse until someone basically calls me for help fhdhgsdgdfs Can't scout the fandom tag regularly!

But not only it actually was a quite long ago I saw a "negative" post from you, but also I've seen through the posts that my friends liked or reblogged from you that you've actually became very eager person to defend people's passion and interests! I think the post that particularly got stuck with me was when you resented seeing someone's light die after some Redditor asshole "well aktualy"'d a thing they were excited about creating (not exact wording but maybe you remember too)? Like... you are fine, man. At that point I realised that you were a good fan and in the end valued people's creativity and passion over personal preferences. That you never wanted to be THAT guy, even if your interpretation could not be further from someone else's. Coming to terms with what actually matters in fandomry is very mature and I am happy to see this attitude!

I am still glad that you messaged me about this though; I did not expect this, but thank you! I think I will continue getting involved in fictional discourse because my autistic senses cannot ignore factually incorrect takes with a clear insidious motive, and.. eh, sooner or later, I'll piss off the wrong guy again. Don't feel bad for me when it inevitably happens :p I've accepted the shortcomings when I decided to be the debate guy. Simply laughing at some gremlin starting a discourse with the girls in DMs and not stressing over it is only funny until I realise that newer fans could get misinformed right off the bat.

#ask replies #fandomry rambles #sorry this is probably a bit too long and emotional #this topic just makes me remember a lot of stuff.. it is not you! like I mean it my impression has been positive for a while now #I could already sense that you've changed your stance on things before this message and I respect this a lot! #I am just thinking about..... stuff #how there was an actually strongly furious gehrman hater who finally matured and became chill after two years of terrorizing fandom #and I even wrote them a DM saying how much I respected the change.. only to lose them forever a couple of weeks later because of timing LOL #or story of the guy that got driven away from the fandom with fake accusations and slander because he criticised maria when her toxic fans- #-back then were not pretending to 'recognise her flaws too' #or people talking to me how they stopped feeling safe posting in fandom over that crap #like... you did not really hurt me. I knew you had strong opinions but I've noticed more and more based posts on the fandomry topic #there are just many things that make whole fandom situation sad. I am happy to be the part of what helped BB fandom a bit #but I've heard some shit going on in ER fandom and like... yeah I am bound to get into trouble again because I can't sit back and meme #just don't feel bad for me when I end up with another arch enemy because of my autism about lore fhshdffsd

[cerealmonster15]

dropping everything to look up zodiac compatibilities. for fictional characters. for fanfiction purposes.

#goood lord. i really am tired. i remembered caters aquarius but i had to look up trey #I KNOW TREYS SCORPIO. HE AND THE TWEELS SHARE W/ME I KNOW THAT ONE OUGHHHH ok anyway #since cater's best class is listed as astrology and he says it's fun to look at horoscopes or w/e i feel like i NEED to incorporate that #into the treycay im writing #i. dont know what im gonna do w/it but jfklsdjlfje #but omg: #'Scorpios tend to be more focused on emotional connections and intimacy' + #'Aquarius values their personal space and independence' hello thats so Them... #[scrolling down] 'scorpios can become possessive and jealous' that is NOT so them 😑 #however i can still use that lol #i want to have a scene of cater and trey lookin at their horoscopes or something #actually doesnt trey or maybe cater specifically have a line somewhere #about cater sometimes doing the fortune telling for trey for fun or practice?? am i making that up???? #i swear 2 god i thought trey had a line about it somewhere #but i have NO idea what context he'd be bringing it up 🤔 #or maybe cater said it idk #i know cater does bring up horoscopes in his own broomquet story w/floyd #HMMMM well i got distracted from this cosplay anyway bye #god why is it already 4:30pm i hate everything im so tired LOL

[kirnet]

How does one go abt rewriting a fic that’s already posted and in progress on ao3? Like are yall just editing the chapters right there or taking it down and reloading it or what?

#finally logged into every email account on my phone and got a norif for grave and weep. it’s at 500 kudos now after like a year of #inactivity. someone wished if it’s happy second birthday. I’m a lil emotional #I don’t want to overhaul it at all I just want to actually change the sentences + add some scenes to chapters #bc the old writing is… well I am certainly better now lol! #I would like to get to it this year. on top of the everything else. it’ll feel good to finish it #I just wanna clean up some chaps #but then is it like rude to do that without having a backup of the og somewhere? #honestly at some point in the future I might take it down bc I want to make a comic based heavily on my oc storyline in it #but that’s future comic Mina’s problem lol not mine #ramblings