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cynicalmusings · 1 year

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i don't even go here but your brainrot post gave me some ideas

ambiguous, implied romantic, relationship, gender neutral, adepti reader. warning for: major character death, severe ptsd/depression, vivid descriptions of ptsd attacks, self harm, mentions of reincarnation, that erosion thing adepti do, inexcusably long, not proofread.

he remembers, he always does. xiao has always had a good memory. and to someone like him, with a past like his, this is a curse.

they mock him- mirages of the past, the whispering screams of the tortured and the damned, the wavering, spectral, haunting voices of his friends, even you, a voice so soft, so sweet, so undeserving of the rot that he brings, that it makes him sick. even his own voice, hoarse and broken, both pleading and condemning, the hanged man and the executioner. they claw up from deep in his gut, tearing through his lungs, withering his very bone; twisting words and memories into something awful, rotting every happy moment, corroding his very psyche as they taunt, whisper, mock- every small detail, every little thing, and endless cycle of starving and gorging on the urges.

they plant noxious seeds into the space between ligament and muscle, so that later, they may sprout, and tear through his flesh as they wrap slowly around his throat. in these moments, he wishes they would suffocate him just a little more, and maybe then his misery would end, but it never does. perhaps, death is too good for a sinner like him. perhaps, he is meant to carry this punishment for the rest of eternity.

no one has hurt xiao more than himself, no one knows how best to torment him, than him. and it is evident in every sleepless night, every unwelcome recollection, every time his head feels as if it’s splitting with the sheer weight of the amount of ghosts living there, every time he carves his nails into his own skin, because perhaps if the physical pain can surpass the mental… but no, it never does.

in these quiet moments, you liked to sing to him. and it helped more than he would like to admit. (even so, in small hours of the night, in vulnerable moments, xiao confesses to you, in almost silent whispers, how much you mean to him.) the urge to push you away was strong, but in moments like these, xiao is weaker than he likes to think. especially when its you. when your voice slices through the haze of delirious pain, soothes his wounds, lets him fall apart in your hands and have those same hands lovingly, meticulously, put him back together. you pretend you cannot see the way his lip trembles, the way his eyebrows cinch together and the way his breath shudders, and his lashes flutter. as the gentle moonlight gives away the shine of tears in his eyes, you tell him he’s beautiful, even in moments like these, and it breaks him in the most painfully soft way.

xiao remembers, when you both were young. all those years ago, when you dug your way into his heart, and you have never left since. when you would lie in the tall grasses of the hills of a budding liyue, side by side, just like you do now, holding one another. even as the ink stained blood soaks into his clothes, into the mud. even as your heartbeat flutters into silence, as you grow cold, stiff. even immortals cannot live forever. every living thing must suffer the same fate. xiao knows this more than anyone. but it does not make it any less painful. time and time again, he has had to watch everyone he has cared about leave where he cannot follow. and when the last person that means anything to him walks through that door, xiao can do nothing more but wait to join you.

in a moment like this, he can think of nothing else, but to sing. so that, perhaps, he might be able to return the favor. his voice is hoarse, pleading, wavering as he chokes down the sobs.

please forgive him, please. xiao knows you would, and that only makes him cry harder. even if it was his fault, his karma, his spear in your side, you would forgive him.

xiao has loved you for hundreds of years. he will love you for a hundred years more. and he loves you now, as much as he can, even as you erode away in his arms. even when he himself can feel his own heartbeat ebbing away. even when the sharp pain dissolves into a dull ache, and when someone, who he cannot recognize through the haze comes to drag him away from your body.

xiao will love you across every lifetime. if you would do him the honor of letting him fall for you all over again. in a place where, maybe, you could live that dream of a peaceful life… with him.

10 out of fucking 10 what the actual fuck you legend

this was so beautifully written and the angst hits in just the right spots… well done; seriously. that was really good. thank you for sending this.

#sent: seajellyx #r answers #xiao x reader #it deserves to be on the main x reader tag what can i say

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victoria1676 · 2 years

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GENSHIN MASTERLIST:

I was able to make a masterlist but will probably change and edit stuff here XD So mostly my stories here will be only Genshin and Genshin aus along with crossovers with Genshin. Plus there is also Self aware Genshin Imapact a.k.a SAGAU here in my Masterlist UWU

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Genshin love stories:

(not yet)

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MODERN GENSHIN AU:

(not yet)

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BRAINROTS:

Sagau Silent hill (Child reader)

Child reader appearing in the chasm.

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Brainrots about the soft au (feat: @reblogs-of-sagau-content)

Chasm child reader brainrot (feat: @vault-of-reblogs )

SAGAU:

A Child’s Innocence (not made yet)

Soft Au with child reader who appeared in the chasm.

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Summary: In which when Lumine and Paimon traveled into the Chasm they were told some things that had been happening in the Chasm such as monsters seen scaring Treasurer hoarders away with their supplies being taken and a strange small figure running around the Chasm. When both companions met up with Dainsleif again, all three did not expect to see what was in the chasm. Right in front of them was a child who was hugging a sleepy blue creature and the child smiled at them before saying:

"Hello! Why are you disturbing my home?"

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Prologue:

Chapter 1

Tbc...

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Little Sparrow (Platonic! Self Aware Genshin Impact x SBI! Teenager! Fem! Reader)

Soft au but reader is from the DSMP/SBI and they are a teenager.

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Summary: With Diluc's grapes disappearing and then reappearing the next day as it became a regular occurrence that the Ragnvindr had to catch the thief by himself.

When he made a trap to catch the culprit he did not expect to be slapped by a pair of fluffy red feathers that have the same color that resembled his hair.

And was that a distress chirping noise he heard?

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Preview:

Prologue:

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Tbc...

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SAGAU FLOWERFELL READER:

Secret Garden

Imposter Au

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Summary: No matter how many times I die I still couldn't erase the pain. Yet whenever I touch these flowers…I knew that my death will come.

So, please…

Let me spend time with you a little longer until I die?

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Prologue:

Chapter 1

TBC...

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SAGAU CROSSOVER DSMP!/SBI! READER:

LEAVE ME ALONE AND LET ME BUILD MY S**T! (Self Aware Genshin Impact X Reader)

An Imposter AU mixed with Villain Au with reader being a minecraft person who is from the Dream smp and one of the members of SBI.

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Summary: The Last thing you remembered was finally putting Dream to jail and then everything went black only to wake up in a world you don’t recognize. trying to find a way home you found yourself in a mob chase that you find irritating and once they are satisfied threatening and killing you who then respawn the in execution made them realize who they almost killed and just as they were about to fall from their knees and beg for forgiveness.

You destroyed their homes in revenge.

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(Preview)

Prologue part 1

Prologue part 2

Interlude (Preview)

Interlude

Prologue part 3

Prologue part 4

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Tbc…

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A Whole World (Self Aware Genshin Impact X DSMP/SBI reader) (Not Yet)

Soft Au that is based of my main story but reader here is more onto the SBI style and there are mentions of the Dream Smp.

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Summary: This is the soft au of my main story however this is more of an SBI reader since this won't have much of the Dream SMP except there are mentions of it. So, Aether found a strange massive tunnel that led to another cave filled with different monsters he did not recognize, and with one wrong move, he accidentally summoned the Warden only for him to be saved by a Winged Woman who took him to a place that was unknown to him.

Info: Slow burn, comedy, fluff, Violence.

When he was about to thank the woman he was shocked when he realized who saved him.

"I'm sorry Creator?" You raised an eyebrow, "I think you mistake me for another OP god"

"CREATOR!" Aether flinched when he felt a crow land on his head, "PLEASE STEP ON ME!"

"Oh for the love of Mojang…"

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Prologue

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Tbc…

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ONESHOTS OF DSMP/SBI READER:

Reader failing her MLG

Reader flirting with Rubedo

Wilbur’s Lament

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