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madfantasy · 5 years

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Dear Blogging

How was your week? It was the holidays here,I think. And for once, I made sure to make the most of it.

It is a very special Eid (Festival) for me, so I'd love to be talking about it mostly★

I woke up the other day dreaming of Sev in a way I didn't like, which is my #1 fear when it comes to character designing— dicing chunks of varied forms of love into some shape and listen to my precious creations talk, to use a more intimate term. (Which is more closer to describing how I feel about the process.) He was in a delicious form but wasn't himself, and that's the main goal of anything I draw; Trying to make them look themselves as possible. It didn't make me feel off as I thought I would and I do lots of sketches of him out of his character somehow and I don't care. I think this is nice. Actually, I'm enjoying myself atm drawing him in another possible that-doesn't-look-like-him-ugh-redraw episode, and I'm not being sarcastic about it, hehe. Specially with the new brush I made for myself, and I feel proud of it.

And talking more about episodes, I have made a garbage audio recording test on some speed paint I made few days ago to start somewhere. I wanted to record myself talking about the art process and all— to practice actual speech, I couldn't even settle on a tone of voice to begin with. Coming next in frustration, the video wouldn't upload and the browser keep crashing even tho it's 46 second vid. It's probably my network connections as ever, which makes me question my ability to upload videos. But we'll find something to work around that.

I think I like how I'm dealing with things lately. I'm in much more peace with things, I noticed even things that are urgent in my priorities aren't effecting my mood so drastically, I am in more control and I am thankful. So with that I was determined that I make this Eid special, with everything that I was blessed to happen to me.

I don't remember having a proper Eid beyond what snippets of my childhood memory brings me. I remember this outfit I loved crazily— black and had oranges painted on it, and Sissi had lemons on hers. (Maybe that's the roots of why I like saying the word orange so much and she lemons..). Before Eid in few days you get out charity if you can of what the country you are in be the source of main food -its rice here, then the day of eid you go to Eid prayer wearing new clothing, give money to youngsters, go to where there's lights everywhere, visit extended families— which I only remember questioning why are we there at all times. I remember kids with garlic-looking crackers, they throw it on the ground and they pop like mad, so there was alot of fireworks going on too.

Anyways, I cared for the candy and still. Because I mostly only got to have some in Eid. And that's pretty much was it throughout the years- Eid is candy. Didn't have anything else available. It's strange because I don't like sweets, only in chocolate— the darker the better tho.

I decorated the room the day before, and ya know, used the elder power in me to generate the feeling of Eid by all means. I didn't do much actually, everything just happened. I found what I need few days before without evern looking for it. Like this one song me and some of my siblings had loved in the days when we only had playstation as a source of music (we played the games' sound tracks). Just by pure luck we found it on YouTube, the nostalgia and how it's amazing hit us so hard we were all hysterical! It's old too, like- in the year 1998 or something. I put it as our party music. There are classics Arabic songs of Eid, but Arabic music -with some exceptions- never interested me in general. I know two- this one is like the Christmas tune for Eid, and just kids saying welcome Eid ~

I only know the 40 sec of it, have a listen:

https://youtu.be/c4QxNWG0qjI

More locally; this one is always everywhere, as a child it always made me giggle at how the singer moans the lyrics at the start.

It's saying may you be from whom wins the fortune of having happy Eid (or something similar) and may you have these times again in the coming years and so on.

There it is- first 40 sec again, heh:

https://youtu.be/n7a99KgEfPE

Veering from caltural taste a bit and back to mine; newer things happened in this Eid, I called it Eid Jadeed (it means new festival and it's rhymes with the traditional saying of Eid Sa'eed= happy festival)

For one— the important one, only a year ago I wished so hard I can have my baby sis take from the Eid car the was passing our streets with free nicknacks to make her day. Now her day is made because we got cheep nicknacks that she actually WANTED. And she kept saying 'Party time! Party time!' Which made me so happy I could just explode. Next second she spilled juice over her stuff and that moment was short lived, still she loved everything, hehe.

Other minor things happened like; as much as I hate taking pictures I did throughout the party and everything. I didn't feel like my picture was a demon staring back at me, and I actually liked how I looked in them so it was nice for a change.

What else? Oh yeah, ofc crackers, dried fruits, nuts, chocolates and this beautiful creature of a plant, Kaka— we enjoyed eating.

Oh and I was congratulated of Eid by ppl online I was surprised they remembered me, heh. And one person from the Snape fandom, too! (you know yourself 🙈)

It was just marvelous, I am a happy Mani ⭐

Wish you all the best my dears, sincerely as ever 💛⭐🎆

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