Could you write about Nicky joining in one of Andrew and Aaron’s therapy sessions, either as a buffer on some issue or to talk about the cousins relationships? (you can call out Bee or give them a different therapist if you want :))
I rewrote this one many times and this the version i settled on i hope its okay
Andrew fidgeted in the chair wondering if he made the right choice . the idea of Aaron being in his space , the one space where he could be alone , the one space where he had no expectations put on him made him uneasy . things inside his head werent made for aarons ears . Aaron’s pain as well, his anger infringing on his space he wasnt sure he wanted that he knew aaron didnt want that either.
it was surprising to Andrew that his brother did in fact show up . it was surprising to Aaron as well . hed made up his mind that he wasn't going to do through it but in the end the price was too much , he couldn't bare the thought of leaving Kate . so he was there sitting as far away from that woman as he possibly could . aaron could see through Andrews tight lipped grins by now. his . He doesnt want me here.
“ I dont wanna be here either you know “ he announced" you dont like this either, do you? “ said Aaron fiercely.
“ what I like and what you like has nothing to do with it.” Andrew answered coldly.
“ so what I want doesnt matter , does it? “ andrew hissed
“ what is it that you from me Aaron” he sounded somehow both pained and bored. “ I dont want anything from you, not anymore.” “ Andrew blinks at him slow and heavy “what do you want then? “
“I dont want any of this “ he waves his hand “ I want it to stop. I didnt ask for it .”
“ you did!” andrew snarled through gritted teeth “ I only did what you wanted me to do”
“ you knew thats not what I wanted not what i asked for. I just wanted a brother why couldnt you just be my brother? “.
“ I am your brother “ andrew said darkly.
“ i just want to be normal, have a normal life “ said Aaron in a strained voice “ what is so wrong with that?”
“Normal ? “ Andrew sneered “ What do you know about being normal?”
“A damn lot more than you do” Aaron snapped“ I dont think so . Look at you , you’re a wreck. “Aarons eyes fill with emotions none of them positive . He opened his mouth Andrew doesnt let him speak . he holds up a hand “ I know , I know . its all my fault , isn’t it? you can blame all your problems on me if you want but isn’t just me, is it now ? its you as well. you’re beyond fucked up too and everybody knows it - youre only ever “ normal” to them when they you measure against me, dont you know that? you cant even win a competition of who’s the worst out of the two of us - you cant even beat me at that. So go on ,tell me , how does that make you feel Aaron? Apparently, I wouldn’t know. “ Andrew leaned back in the chair nonchalantly. goading his brother had never been a particularly difficult task. Aaron gulped and curled his fists. He thinks of replying but decided against stands up and storms from the room slamming the door fiercely on his way out . Andrew takes a loud slurp of his of hot chocolate and remarks bitingly cheerful “ well, thats that then “ but then he ducks his head ,cradles the drink close and whispers secretly into it softly , sadly “ I knew he wouldnt stay”
Aaron called matt and when he answered said only three words “ pick me up”
“ Didnt go well then “ matt asked aaron didnt reply. matt was used to getting the slient treatment from him by now . Aaron stayed silent into they were almost back and then he said “ Hes right , isnt he ? im not normal. "
matt thinks before he answers “ there is no normal . not for us . thats why we’re foxes “ aaron takes this in but says nothing more .
“ you shouldn’tve interfered “ nicky said “ this is something they have to work through on their own"
“ - but they werent going to - were they ?” neil tells him
“ so youre on my side right ?“ aaron asked
“ I dont take sides . “ nicky said “especially not with you two. “
“so you think this is a good idea
“ this isnt going to be fixed in a an hour . we all know that . maybe you should give it a chance . ill go with you if you like . i wont say anything , not with you dont want me to .
“ what about andrew ? he doesnt want me to be there .
“ he knows you . “ nicky tells him “ he knows how to push your buttons
“I love ‘drew really . he admits “ he just makes it difficult to sometimes . He makes my life difficult .
“ you do the same to him. “ said neil unsympathetically
“well i didnt kill our mother . “ aaron retorts “ not that he wouldve cared if i had.”
its only one hour. Aaron tells himself as steps inside the room again .” Look what the cat dragged in . “ andrew teased “ didnt think youd be back”
“I didnt think so either “
andrew raised an eyebrow as nicky followed him in “are you okay with me being here? “ nicky asked waiting until Andrew agreed before sitting down if you want me to leave anytime I will , you just say okay? Andrew acknowledges this with the smallest nod “ I wont get in the way okay ? this isnt for me its for you two.”
“I want to say something “ aaron said quietly
“ tell her not me “ andrew said with a shrug
“ No , this is for you . “ Aaron said determined “ listen to me andrew for once”
Andrew gave him his attention “ill give you ten seconds” he said playfully
“ I know youre not sorry . I know I can never make you sorry.”
“ correct.“
“ I know because im not either . If i could do it again I would. “
andrew eyes cloud slightly . “ I would burn the world for you .” he growled
“ I know you would , but thats the problem see? “ andrew tilts his head . he does not see . “ I dont want you to burn the world.” Aaron explains “ i want you to let me live in it. “
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