once again not tacking it onto the previous posts but like. I wanna talk abt this
As a disclaimer I have not actually seen apotheosis in full (yet) so feel free to ignore me, I have consumed as much canon content as is possible for me at the moment as well as good ol’ second hand tellings and analysis of the story.
THAT SAID.
Peter and Exandroth is not even the traditional ship to me, it’s not even like eldritchstrings where they’re just soooo toxic for each other. It’s like.. Peter and Exandroth hate each other but they are each other but they’re nothing without the other but they’re something with each other but they HATE each other but they’re best friends but they hate being the same person but at least they’re both finally Somebody but who are they anyway can’t they be a what but they HATE each otherrrrr . Erm
What I mean to say is it’s not even a cut and dry “there is romantic love here” kind of ship. It’s like.. they need need each other so much, or they manage to develop this fucked up friendship. They’ll always hate each other but on that same coin they’ll always have each other. Until of course, they don’t. The weirdest and most uncomfortable grieving period you’ve ever conceived of simply radiating off of Peter. Maybe Peter’s just a good person, maybe he just misses the company and it doesn’t matter who it was- but he’s not alone anymore. So why does he miss the company? In a weird, fucked up sort of way? Why does this absence mean anything? Why is it.. almost tragic. He tells himself he’s just a good person, that he’d mourn the death of anyone. Right? Were they friends? When he’d ask he’d always get told no, of course sometimes Exandroth would ask and Peter would be the one saying no. No, they weren’t friends. He wants to ask again, maybe the answer would change, he knows it wouldn’t. It doesn’t matter. Theres nobody there to ask anymore. Maybe Peter has a habit of talking to nothing these days….
What I mean to say is- and let’s just call it fallenangel for now unless I come up with something else (I was thinking something to do with particular rocks but idk yet I’m not good at this)- fallenangel is less a romantic ship and more.. two outcasts who’s relationship with one another is so imperative to their own individual identities that they feel as tho, at times, they are one identity. One thing. One person? One.. couple? In love? No, in hate. In desperation.
(Also. @eldritchstringsyuri and @apple-the-bluebird bc I’m talkin abt things you said so it feels wrong 2 not let u kno lolz- sry if this bothers u !)
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hi!!
121. “My friends get annoyed by how much I talk about you sometimes” but there's a twist 👀
A TWIST!!! hmmmmmm
I'm taking this to kid! HL fic so obvs they're not romantically involved.
This got longer than i meant for it to and it's behind a cut bc it's a little creepy 😬
As soon as he'd finished the fish finger sandwich his nan had made him for tea, Louis dashed out into the back garden, eager to get back to playing beneath the tree near the shed. Or at least that was what his nan thought.
Louis didn't see it as playing; it was actually very serious work. Sweeping the dirt off the largest piece of glass, he knelt down and peered at the ground beneath it, searching for signs of life. He pulled a spoon from his pocket, prying the glass up with the handle and setting it aside, careful not to cut himself.
"How's it look?"
Louis turned to find Harry standing over his shoulder and staring down into the hole with him. His yellow t-shirt looked far too thin for chill in the air, and Louis could practically hear his own mum's voice reminding him to wear a jumper that morning.
"Aren't you cold, Hazza?" He shrugged off his jacket, holding it out to Harry. "I've got more sleeves than you. Borrow mine."
Harry just shrugged. "Doesn't bother me," he said taking the jacket, "but thanks, Louis." The sleeves fell over his hands and he shoved them up before joining Louis on the ground. "Is there any growing?"
Louis put his face right next to the first of the holes the two of them had dug, examining the dirt for signs of life. There were bugs, of course, but other than a few dried up roots from the weeds they'd pulled, there was no plant life to speak of. Louis poked his finger into the soil, burrowing as deep as he could before shaking his head.
"Can't you get another seed?" Louis asked, taking his finger from the dirt and rubbing it on Harry's cheek. Harry laughed, slapping his hand over the spot it left behind.
"I can try," Harry said, looking up at the sky for a moment. "They did say there's not much time left, though."
Louis had never met Harry's parents, whoever they were, but he thought they didn't sound half as nice as his own mummy. For one thing, Harry never called them anything but "Them," never mummy or dada or anything like that, and they were very clear that Harry was only allowed to play with Louis if they worked on growing things in Louis' nan's back garden.
"They said dig deeper," Harry said after a moment. He shook his head as though a fly had buzzed his ear, and then pushed his hands into the dirt, face twisting with disgust, until Louis handed him a spoon that had been left outside so the two of them could dig together.
They dug in silence for a while until Louis needed a rest, sitting back on his legs and spooning out the loose dirt idly as Harry kept digging. "You know, if the lads could come and dig, we could make the most holes. And they'd be deep, deep."
Harry shook his head. "It's just us," he said with a shrug. He paused his digging to look back at Louis, his eyes greener than the grass that didn't grow back by the shed anymore since they'd started planting all of his fat red seeds in the holes they dug every day.
Louis looked back down into the hole, staring at an earthworm as it wriggled out from the loose dirt. "My friends get annoyed by how much I talk about you sometimes," he said, scooping up the worm with a pile of dirt and tossing it aside. "If they met you, they wouldn't."
Harry stopped digging abruptly, taking Louis' hand in his own. His palm was warm and dry in spite of digging in the cool dirt; Louis shivered. "No more talking about me." He shook his head, his eyes wide and frightened. "Don't talk about me, Louis."
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