#i'm feeling very ✌🏻😗✌🏻 but like with tears in my eyes

[girlbossdean]

yeah

#she's just like me for real #am not having a good time right now in case that wasn't obvious from this dramatic vague post indicating a slight breakdown #i'm feeling very ✌🏻😗✌🏻 but like with tears in my eyes #ANYWAY everything is so much and so hard right now and things keep happening they do and they do and they do #i did get a referral to a therapist today tho so my chances of getting an appointment are low but not nonexistent #sorry for being dramatic on tumblr dot com as if it's my fault i'm literally a scorpio #i'll calm down once the urge to sleep wins against the fucking pain of having a body that's just as dramatic as my personality #until then this is my diary #i have an actual diary btw but that doesn't hit the same as oversharing on the internet #personal #girlblogging

[borathae]

YOO BOI DID THAT CHAPTER GET ME IN MY FEELS-

I felt every FUCKING EMOTION I could and I'm here to bark about it.

I AM NOT IN A STATE TO CHOSE A FAVOURITE PART FROM THE (love making) ROLEPLAY SO Y'ALL READ THAT AGAIN.

First of all, personally, I NEVER EXPECTED MYSELF TO BE A DOM TO JUNGKOOK, EVEN THOUGH I'M A DOM BY DEFAULT (lmao is that right? idk, I just know y'all would get me anyways) BUT WHAT IN THE NAME OF MONA LISA'S EYEBROW DID THIS OC AND JUNGKOOK DO TO ME-

I CAN'T GET MYSELF TO EVEN THINK OF SUBBING FOR HIM ANYMORE WHEN I CAN JUST MAKE HIM BEG WHILE I PEG HIM🧍🏻‍♀️😔😫😏 BUT IF WE GET A DOM AAOL JUNGKOOK THEN WHAT-

Me to my now 'I'M NEVER SUBBING FOR HIM' mindset:

THE WHOLE STORY IS TOO HOT FOR ME TO SAY ANYTHING EXCEPT I'D LIKE TO REQUEST AN AFTER 8 SESSION OF JUNGKOOK AND OC IN HIS OFFICE🧍🏻‍♀️🚶‍♀️🏃‍♀️💨

Coming to the actual REASON I wanted to bark, THE AFTER MATH of it.

WHY IS LUCKY DOING THAT TO HERSELF AND TO BUNNY?"?*?#)@#;"... AND ALL OF US!!!

But I don't blame her cause Jungkook's romantic self is impossible to not fall for.

Also, Jungkook went from being alone and not wanting to wake up the next day to wanting a life with her.

We love to see it, though we know it's not going to be that easy, atleast he's trying to find a reason to wake up the next day.

It's obvious for them to fall but a safe landing is what seems to be very impractical to Lucky,.....actually, she doesn't even want to imagine one, as she knows she'd to be drawn too much into it to figure out things.

NEXT COMES A PART THAT MADE ME SO PROUD?"!$?$)#! Like damn, I DIDNT EVEN WRITE THAT-

A very very important issue: NO IS A NO NOT MATTER WHAT GENDER IT IS OR IF THEY WERE CONSENSUAL BEFORE AND AREN'T ATM. SICK HOMOSAPIENS DONT TAKE A HINT, I GET IT, bitch ATLEAST GET SHIT THATS TOLD TO YOU TO YOUR BRAIN AND USE THAT ORGAN.

Also Ryujin, I get it that your boss is too hot to handle and has given you consent before, but HE said NO and you play the GUILT TRIPPING CARD?

Then comes THE FIRST (?) JUNGKOOK AND OC MEET! OMFG freaking finally! But I'm glad it wasn't rushed. I, for the first time ever, got trapped lmao. I BELIEVED IT WAS LUCKY THEN NOT AND THEN THAT SHE WAS HER AND THEN NOT AND-

SIBI CONVINCED ME ENOUGH TO MAKE MY BRAINCELLS SHUT.

WHY DID YOU EVEN STOP BESTIE😭

SHE GAVE HERSELF AWAY WITH A FEW PARTICULAR things and I'M HAPPY JUNGKOOK ISNT DUMB.

ALSO "IT'S ME. BUNNY." DID THINGS TO ME I DARE NOT DISCUSS COZ-

Then comes the part where JUNGKOOK'S AND MY HEART SHATTERED TO PIECES ONLY LUCKY (SIBI) COULD FIND AND FIX. MY EYES WERE TEARING UP.

Also, I genuinely want people to not hate Happy here, even though she was harsh with her words, she did the right thing. Imagine being her, having a guy at your sex club trying to be someone your frnd doesn't want. He'd potentially seem like those obsessive ones that should be got ridden off for OCs security and privacy.

(Don't come @ me, y'all I'm just giving a potential scenario. I know he isn't. )

Then came the tsunami of heart wreck for me and Jungkook that had my eyes peeing for way too long.

Every freaking line had its impact right in my heart and YALL NEED TO READ THAT AGAIN TOO.😗🥲✌🏻

Also, I'm not done.

First of all I am loving the fact that you are yelling for the majority of this becAUSE YES OMFG YELL YOUR EMOTIONS AT ME 🤧🤧 second of all afjdsjjf the MEMES JSJJS you know that I am a sucker for a good meme and those memes are just 10/10 😂💜

Also:

Also, Jungkook went from being alone and not wanting to wake up the next day to wanting a life with her.

please catch me crying in the club with my alcohol free mimosa in my hand because this shit breaks me, fuck I love him 😭😭 (i'm acting as if I didn't write this character but lisTEN I LOVE HIM ALRIGHT)

Also I am all for loving Happy, she was just a good friend and we all need a real one like her in our life 😔😔😔

Now I am off to answer part two of you barking at me and I am loving it and you 🥺😭💜

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