#i'm gonna add the credits dw i just can't rn <3

[mulberrytea]

Anonymous asked: what's it like being 23?

ryebreadgf answered: you still feel 18 just like you felt 15 when you were 18 and just like you felt 9 when you were 15 and just like you feel 6 always

gaycommunist: actually, growing up is feeling like i turned sixteen two days ago. i've been eighteen for years. fifteen year olds seem so young. wasn't i fifteen just a few weeks ago? all my friends and i are still twelve. i'm closer to thirty then to being a baby. i never got to be a kid. i never grew past eight. i can't talk to my mom. i want to sit in her lap forever. the week is going by so slow. an entire year has passed. i want to decide everything for myself. i need someone to tell me exactly what to do.

"Be softer with you. You are a breathing thing. A memory to someone. A home to a life.” — Nayyirah Waheed

So when you met the new you Were you scared? Were you cold Were you kind? Yeah when you met the new you Did someone die inside?

Looks like it's time to decide Are you here? Are you now? Is this it? All of those selves that you tried Wasn't one of 'em good enough?

And I was so young

When I behaved

Twenty five

Yet now I find

I've grown into

A tall child

“The trees you planted in childhood have grown too heavy. You cannot bring them along. Give yourselves to the air, to what you cannot hold.” — Rainer Maria Rilke, “Part One IV,” from Sonnets to Orpheus

“Above all else, it is about leaving a mark that I existed: I was here. I was hungry. I was defeated. I was happy. I was sad. I was in love. I was afraid. I was hopeful. I had an idea and I had a good purpose” — Felix Gonzalez-Torres

It is not the fear of moving on that scares me it is the fear of never going back. They never told us just how much it would cost to choose in life.

"In the end, everyone is aware of this: nobody keeps any of what he has, and life is only a borrowing of bones."

— Pablo Neruda

Remember: You will never Have these days Again.

“Everything is more beautiful because we are doomed. You will never be lovelier than you are now. We will never be here again.”

— Homer, The Iliad 

i don't pay attention to the world ending. it has ended for me many times and began again in the morning.

Everywhere you look there's beauty, and it's rimed with death. If you find injustice you'll find humans, and this means that if you listen, you'll find love. The substance of the world is light, is water: here, clear even when it's dying; even when the dying seems unbearable, it runs.

“I am awfully sentimental. Of books, belongings, people, places. It matters very little how positive or negative the experience was. If it shared some meaningful time in my life, I’ll have trouble letting go.” ― Beau Taplin, Buried Light

your lover gives you his copy of ovid. inside is a note that reads, change has always been tragically beautiful. your dreams and nightmares both are haunted with transformation

But a woman is a changeling

Always shifting shape

Just when you think you have it figured out

Something new begins to take

What strange claws are these

Scratching at my skin?

I never knew my killer would be coming from within

“People confuse past With present. They think you are Still who you used to be, When that person has Long since died Their death.”― David Jones, Love and Space Dust

just another birthday

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1. Madeline L'Engle 2. @/ryebreadgf 3. @/gaycommunist 4. Nayyirah Waheed 5. upside down and inside out by OK Go 6. The Pride By Alexi Kaye Campbell 7. @/chacoco 8. War of the Foxes by Richard Siken 9. Daphne du Maurier 10. @/ryebreadgf 11. First Love / Late Spring by Mitski 12. Sonnets to Orpheus, Part One, IV by Rainer Maria Rilke 13. The Heart Remembers: A Memoir of Personal Growth by J. Lei  14. When Things Fall Apart: Heart Advice for Difficult Times by Pema Chödrön 15. Rachel Wolchin 16. Adonis, from “Persons”, Selected Poems via (@/weltenwellen) 17. @/grendel-menz 18. Breasts and Eggs by Mieko Kawakami 19. Kevin Lucbert 20. David Jones 20. @/sharksandpoems 21. thoughts of a stray iii 22. The Haunting of Hill House by Shirley Jackson 23. Love Letters or Suicide Notes by Doc Luben 24. The Empty Book by Josefina Vicens 25. Felix Gonzalez-Torres 26. we're not really strangers 27. Pablo Neruda 28. unknown/attributed to multiple sources 29: Homer, The Iliad 30. Nayyirah Waheed 31. Forge by Jan Zwicky 32. Norwegian Wood by Haruki Murakami 33. @/hel7l7 34. Wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson 35. The Black Unicorn: Poems by Audre Lorde 36. Welcome to Night Vale by Joseph Fink & Jeffrey Cranor 37. Lesley Imgart 38. Hello World by tfb 39. @/hel7l7 40. Buried Light by Beau Taplin 41. @/hel7l7 42. Little Weirds by Jenny Slate 43. Eternal City by Kathleen Graber 44. Hans Vandekerckhove —The Road Never Ends 45. unknown/attributed to multiple sources 46. GOD GAVE THE DESERT TOO MANY TEETH (R. Wright) 47. Fallen Angel by Keaton St. James 48. Flowers on the Grave by The Maine 49. @/grendel-menz 50. Questions for Ada by Ijeoma Umebinyuo 51. @EmilyRCWilson (twitter) 52. Ribs by Lorde 53. Overwhelmed by Valeria Duca 54. The Beer by Kimya Dawson 55. King by Florence + The Machine 56. White Nights by Fyodor Dostoevsky 57. Dialogue Between an AI and a Poet @/demasc 58. @/hel7l7 59. @/azraqed 60. Anne of Green Gables by LM Montgomery 61. Love and Space Dust by David Jones 62. Octavio Paz, tr. by Eliot Weinberger, from “Sunstone”, The Poems of Octavio Paz (via @/weltenwellen) 63. Blue Iris: Poems and Essays by Mary Oliver 64. sketch 28/12/17. by @/holly-warbs 65. The Glass Essay by Anne Carson 66. Dear Boy by Emily Berry

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