#im in my feels today :( BLAH

[themyscirah]

Star Wars (2020) #6... top 10 comics that make me want to eat rocks

#ITS SO GOOD #“I THINK IM BEGINNING TO UNDERSTAND IT TOO” LIKE BROOOOOOOOO 😭😱💖😭😱💖!!!!!!!!!! #the fact that i left my trade with it at home is unforgivable #luckily im going home this weekend but like its not enough... i need to eat it #im suuuuuper behind on that run too #like 25 issues or smth #need to catch up but GOD the fight scene in that issue... unreal #been in an unusually sw mood today actually #!!!!!!! i just remembered i have star wars club later actually so that may be it #theyre doing trivia too which is my BITCH #fucking love trivia. full on bragging here but i went to nationals with my team 2yrs ago like we slay #and im def feeling it today #my bff here wont be there though bc shes at home (like home home) sick but still. i will destroy. and also likely be the only woman there. #YOOO AND TRIVIA BRO WILL PROBS BE THERE #one of the club members also did competitive trivia in hs so were bros #i think hes on the other team though 😬 but whatevs #gosh im getting distracted yay sw comics! #blah #star wars

[patchworkgargoyle]

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#suicidal ideation mention just fyi but like... in a good way. youll see. #but the more body mods i get #and the more masc i present #Especially when im wearing my binder #the better i feel about myself #and i noticed today that i havent been having as many of my 'i want to die' thoughts #i still get them but... i dont think its daily anymore and thats. telling. #and good. #wild shit huh? #and i do think the body mods have something to do with it #i just Feel Cool #and more Me with them #hand in hand with the gender junk #now i just gotta get up the courage to tell people the name i like and get on the hrt shit #anyway diary entry over #blah #delete later

[justablah56]

me when glark

#just blahs #they are currently rotating at record speeds in my brain #i feel like im going to explode #why did glark decide today specifically to just eat any other thought i might have had today #theyre There now #im marinating in all the essays i wish i could write if only i could shake my brain over a post till all the thoughts just fell out onto it #currently screaming wailing throwing up about them #glark #grant x lark #lark x grant #why can't they have a normal ship name huh

[sleevebuscemii]

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#i hate how wishy washy my social life is in this city like. #like everything has to be Planned and is a Thing and it’s like. i don’t want to go to a fancy group dinner #or get invited to a birthday party #i just want someone who will go to target with me #or come over and keep me company while i do laundry and then get tacos after like. #something that Actually feels intimate…idk #but now its like. i either go to this fancy dinner with a big group (who are mostly couples) and at least have something to do today #or. i spend my saturday alone. #like even the friends i have 1 on 1 its like. plans have to be made in advance if we wanna go get coffee or something #like nothing is just. spontaneous and casual its alk a Thing #but also like fuck. i just spent whole week at work alone i don’t wanna be alone in my weekend too like fuuuuuck this #and its like. i can’t help but feel like its my fault but i know its been hard because i work remote so im so fucking isolated #sometimes i think i should just move home but i know thatll just make me feel like i failed #at like. moving to a big city and making it work #but also i know its not just me like lonely city by olivia laing blah blah blah but goddddddd #i am a social creature!!!! i want to be around people!!!!! but in a meaningful and fulfilling way!!!!!!! #anyway thats my therapy session for today see u next time #m

[taumoeba]

like not to get fake deep but there is just something about reconnecting with characters you loved as a kid when youre an adult knowing how youve changed since the first time you read it and how they will always be a part of the journey that got you to where you are today

#blah blah blah #last thing ill post today about this i just think its finally hitting me that im done with collegr and about to experience #the biggest change of my life thus far and even though its mildly terrifying i can look back on everything else ive managed to do and not #feel like its the end of the world

[skunkg1rll]

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#since the financial aid for my dentist visit came in today nd everything went smoothly #im gonna call at 7am tmrw nd hopefully get another emergency appt tmrw to fix my other tooth #i dislike going to the dentist but i need to just do it so i dont have to worry #since it isnt hurting constantly now nd only here nd there i dont feel as rushed to go #but i HAVE to tmrw bc if i wait it'll get even worse nd hurt even more #so imma force myself #i mean even last week when the other tooth hurt sm it was still painless to go #i make it into smth much bigger than it is #just need to relax as much as i can nd just force myself to go thru it #also im so thankful that i actually get financial aid for this bc otherwise i'd just die of tooth pain lol #i mean one visit is $80 but then u also add the treatment #nd depending on whats wrong u can walk away having to pay a crazy amount like $200 nd even more #it could cost $1000 and then u stand there like ummmmmm now what?!?! #so yeah blah blah anyway #im happy that it was so easy bc now im not scared to do it again. which i need to do bc i need my other tooth that still hurts a bit fixed

[livingstructure]

It only just hit me now that the word period in reference to menstruation is just as vague and avoidant (ignoring the fact that its too unanimous nowadays to not explicitly mean that) as 'time of the month' lol. Im going to start saying that I'm on my period when going through any kind of phase at all. Like sorry I can't call right now I'm on my period (in class)

#thisnis the most stupid post ive ever made in my entire life im just feeling whimsical today #blah blah blah

[kangbi]

ok i need to vent.

my partner is someone who i would describe as very self-assured. he never seems to be bothered by things, especially social situations, because he quite literally understands that its all foolishness and doesnt matter in the long term so why waste effort and energy into caring about it. thats how theyve always operated and in general is not very sensitive (esp compared to me who is very hypersensitive and overly empathetic.) so it really stands out to me when certain people/situations do seem to bother him or occupy his time/energy because hes usually very flippant abt people that are rude, troublesome, toxic, etc. so why does my partner care so much abt this one girl? shes very mean, she sidelined with my bullies when they were really rude to me, shes very toxic and judgmental and has said some really shitty things to me in the past. my partner told me themselves they dont like her also. but they seem to care a lot abt how she perceives him and im confused/bothered by how much he seems to care abt her opinion. he says he doesnt, but his actions says otherwise. i wonder if hes trying to hide how much he does care becus he knows i dont like her? but like why does he care abt what she thinks in the first place. gaaah. its so complicated and it seems so minuscule but ik my partner and i can tell when he does care abt certain things and im confused as to why he seems to care a bit much abt this one person who we both agree is a terrible person. why???

#sorry. lots of my mind. sobs. #this is just a word vomit rant but yeah. #i dont even have time to unpack it becus a lot of things r happening today and im busy #but also idk how id even begin to approach this w my partner without sounding like a controlling jealous person #hes also made a weird joke abt her in the past that i had to say i wasn't comfortable with #and he didnt seem to understand how i couldve viewed it as uncomfortable #whatever whatever whayever #this is so STUPID i dont want to feel 'threatened' in my relationship but blab blah blah #p

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#me: y am i so powerful when i chronically undersleep? is not sleeping thr key to success? #me a few days later: y do i feel like physically sick? what did i do to deserve this? #im so tried. well probably im just really bored. absolutely im just really bored. bc i felt like that physical #like mentally sick feeling. then i gave a talk to a freshman class and that was fun and i felt better bc they asked a lot of questions #and now i feel horrible again. i should sleep bc i have to go sampling tomorrow which will b exhausting #but allas my brain wont let me. blah. i just cant focus. everythings too boring #at least i got thr clothes for my hallowe3n costume today. which is to say flowy black pants. black gloves. and sleeveless back turtle neck #such a powerful outfit. the anbu outfit is truely unmatched #god. if i could see without my glasses i could wear that outfit and go to school at night to transfer algae like an absolute freak #that would b a very alarming thing to see in thr lab in thr middle of the night. some weirdo in all balck and a anbu mask #i could b tenz0 from thr soil Microbiology lab. rather than kks from accounting class lmao #but i csnt see 6 inches from my face without my glasses so no dice. probably for the best #unrelated

[themyscirah]

I apologize sincerely for the person I am about to become here

#!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ABEIAIDJADJWIDJEJDURFHSJEIFHSH #im two pages in and have seen like 5 simon (judt simon!) panels and am already feeling it getting bad like GUYS!!!!!! GUYS!!!!!!!!! #oh my ogddddddddddddd #anyways we are officially on the green lanterns section of the simonjess full readthrough #it has taken me like 2 months and around a hundred new 52 comics to get here #so needless to say im kind of abt to lose it #“but wait swishy havent you already read this book” yeah. in early 2021 as one of my first comics ever. now im coming in with encyclopedic #characterization knowledge and like 600+ more comic issues under my belt #the last 100 or so (i had a few detours + distractions) leading up to this #anyways this is your warning. a code red (green?) is being activated in swishytown usa like take cover if you want to survive #currently dealing with the emotional realization that they have their own comic (despite already knowing that) like guys..... they get to be #the main characters..... 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #ive just read WAY too many cameos today bc i wanted to wrap up the new52 for good (with maybe like 4 or 5 missed cameos bc i couldnt take it #anymore) #so yeah. im here. we are rereading. #blah #swishy liveblogs

[daddy-socrates]

GOD I'd rather clean the bathrooms than write this fucking thing

#blah blah blah #thesisposting #i need something but i dont know what #im feeling deeply mentally ill but i HAVE to turn this in tomorrow night #it is so beautiful out today and i dont get enough fresh air or sunlight at work #i mean it is too cold for me to want to go outside ayway but i dread looking at my computer in the kitchen #i need something! but i dont know what! #i misplaced a check i need to deposit and i need to get a new checkbook for myself and i need to put away laundry and put clean sheets on #and i need to vacuum my rug and clear surfaces in my room and learn how to recycle or upcycle EVERYTHING in the world right now immediately #i want to do crafts!!!!!!!! but im missing some tools and also my motivation #inserts picture of standing in the middle of your room like this [frazzled looking person in fight or flight but acrually freeze stance] #you know the one #hhh. okay gonna put on socks and go to my mommy's house bc thats the Only place i seem able to write #i also need a new water bottle and stuff. i need to hydrate and feed myself better djfjskdjfkddk #being a person is hard!! #brain soup on main sorry but also not sorry this is My blog i do what i want

[laikuh]

hmm. still feel a little sting of shame when im blocked by a blog i’ve never interacted with. which is silly bc i fully believe in people curating their space. and maybe it’s bc right now im feeling particularly touchy about myself and my online presence, but realizing i’m blocked by someone i’ve never reblogged from, is making me a wee bit sad.

#i think this is why i want to remake #but then like #does that solve anything when i basically want to make the same content??? #blah im just in my feelings today #shut up vin

[applejongho]

I need advice: I do not know what to do with my hair

#so fun fact about me is that I used to have a fear of haircuts (genuinely) like I would shake in the chair and these past few years ive been #trying to get over it #it has been ok! my hair was like halfway down my back before any haircuts were done and I would cut it little by little testing my fear #and it was going really well. I felt confident #but I wanted to try something different and go shorter than I ever have gone before: above my shoulders #and when that happened it ruined me! I cried for days and I feel like I lost my beauty bc I had connected a lot of my beauty to my hair #my family saying that my hair is so beautiful and dont ever cut it blah blah blah #which was now rly affecting me bc ow now my hair is above my shoulders and it's alley fault and I feel so ugly #all my fault** #it has grown out a bit and I got layers despite a lot of anxiety bc I have curly hair and #I like the layers and I like the short hair #but sometimes society's expectations and my family's gender norms smack my ass and im back at square one of 'I want long hair to feel pretty #bc with long hair I feel like I adhere to society better even if it doesnt make me happy(I feel like short hair is more Me) #and with short hair I feel more me but then I feel out of place and ugly #and ik this is all just identity issues but what should I do for this next haircut? my hair is just past my shoulders. do I just get a trim #or do I get it cut a little more so it's just above my shoulders? #which would make me happy bc That's Me but also not happy bc Society #sorry y'all had to learn about me today but I would appreciate any kind of perspective #apple lady words

[erenbun]

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#random rambling but even tho i feel lonely and unneeded like most of the time i still have moment that make me love humans #like im not poetic and i suck at saying shit like how some people on tumblr do #where they make literal poetry about the little things humans do and what makes them beautiful and etc etc #but i subconsciously stole a phrase from one dear friend of mine and started using it often #and because i use it so often now i heard my teammate use it like twice today #and now my friend and this teammate who dont even know of each others existence use the same phrase #and something about that makes me smile #human connections blah blah blah #erenbun speaks

[freesomebodybyluna]

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#i feel so fucking shitty im so fucking exhausted i have no will to live tbh #im stuck in my sisters room all day trying to find internships or just feeling depressed bc im stuck in a room that doesnt even get light #and i feel a little less stressed bc her roommate + kid left earlier today so i can walk out into the kitchen more freely #but i havent even been eating much for the sake of not being seen by her roommate bc she wasnt entirely happy about me being here the other #day when she saw my sis for first time since coming back from a trip #and was quick to yell at my sis over stuff that my sister clearly communicated w her #and idk i feel like ive stressed out my sister more bc she needs to find a place regardless of whether she wants to keep me somewhere #more comfortable while i figure out my living situation bc shes been having trouble w her roommate as is #bc even though theyre friends shes been weirdly possessive over my sis for a while now apparently & will go off on my sis about her never #being home regardless of the fact that shes an adult w a bf & a life....and their friend in common has to step in as well occasionally to #defend my sis #and blah blah i feel so uncomfortable everyday i dont even leave my room or feel comfortable being in their backyard #when theyre not home bc idk i just dont feel comfortable w this situation #and im having no luck w finding an internship with less than a month until fall semester starts #and i hate having to rely on my sister sm when she has her own problems to worry about #and im not eating properly to avoid seeing her roommate #and im having trouble finding a driving school thats even holding classes rn #if i could id be willing to pay for ubers to be able to learn once & for all #nothings working out i feel like shit #dl #and unrelated but her roommate leaves her puppy in her crate for HOURS when shes not home & i feel so shitty hearing her cry all day #bc shes not getting the exercise she needs & her crate isnt even all that big #and the other day when she was out she called to ask me to take her puppy out so she could relieve herself #and i took her out for as long as i could so she could run around & play & i felt like a total dick when i had to put her back in her crate #and i can't even comfort her bc shes in the roommates room & i dont wanna get caught in there in case she comes home suddenly......