#im so scattered rn

[dani-the-goblin]

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#me the past few days: #“why am I so anxious and scatter brained? why are my sh habits coming back? I'm doing fine. My pain isnt even that bad rn.” #i thought at first i was dehydrated because I've been drinking less water but i realized today #im fucking exhausted #a storm ripped the roof off the hospital where I work last week #so needless to say work's been fucking weird AND busy #I've been churning out art like never before since figuring out AMM #I'm trying to get my life together and feeling a real drive and motivation to do that #I've never been so burnt out on things that I love before #i also realized I'm still mourning my grandmother #that was still less than a month ago and fuck it I'm sad #i need to rest but just dont know how rn #maybe I'll figure out after work #i hope i do

[potatobugz]

i think the majority of the fanfiction ideas i have r always generally "character i like gets a redemption arc" or something similar. i like putting those guys in situations & i like giving them Friens:)

#rambles #i mean they always start out thay way i guess #EXCEPT FOR TWO #id actually love to ramble about the ideas i have but havent written yet/mifht not write #uohgh i feel a bit embarrassed posting this it makes me feel like im uncreative #just dont get writing ideas very often. ah wait i just remembered im human and i can write for fun #i didnt mean 4 that to come off as sarcastic t h #tbh #iiuhvjvvejv i like writing i made this post 2 say i had a writing idea for lmk specifically the spider demons #i really really want to write them interacting and such. ive put them in a situation alright! #sorry my thoughts are getting scattered and messy rn. i want 2 say i like writing and have so many ideas and thoughts all the time #if u would ever like to hear me talk a lot about things feel free 2 send me an ask or something i will love you forever #i just take forever answering them. but thats ok

[faenemy]

i have too many feelings so i have decided to make a google doc and possibly a powerpoint presentation for my therapist

anywho god help me and also anyone have good like.., family centered media recs??? anything with sibling dynamics makes me feral thnks

#fae rambles #my thoughts are soooo scattered rn #but see THATS WHY I NEED THE POWERPOINT!! #im so fucking smart

[sheepgirlmaidtummy]

Is Avery's CashApp handle right? Trying to send a little as a fellow trans person and it doesn't seem to work correctly

i cant remember if cashapp is case sensitive or not but here you are! i appreciate you hun

#ive gotten 4 hours of sleep and ive been thinking about this since it started so im abit scattered rn #ill edit the handle just in case its case sensitive

[twlvie]

i will never draw him consistently 👍 anyways thinking about space fashion and also dresses + men in dresses (due to the Agonies). he's younger here so he's not quite as um. corporate burnout greebled? but yeag . guy ever. more versions + detail under the cut

#i am eating. the him .. #duneposting #piter de vries #pete moment... omg ... #sorry im so tired rn #dune #my art #slug trail #ifnore the fact the lighting should be more green because nei scattering doesnt work the same with natural light #on a planet with permanantly green sky #it looks Nice. thatse all #prison makeup

[femmestuck]

even his hair gets bigger

#homestuck #karkat vantas #im spooned out and my thoughts are mad scattered rn but bigkat adds So Much #wanting to be big and strong and a Proper Troll his whole life then being deeply uncomfortable with it ?? #hes so nervous about hurting people he keeps them at arms length?? suddenly his anger is actually intimidating?? #having to come to terms w the fact that basically everything he thought he wanted was the result of alternias everything #and not really knowing what he wants now hes out of that and the game #i am cradling him in my arms #do you Know do you Understand

[nadineross]

it’s really skeeving me out that some bg3 fans are so intent on reducing astarion to some sex crazed animal when he damn near explicitly tells you that hes been coerced into using his sexuality as bait to lead people to their deaths. even if he’s hypersexual at the beginning of the game, he puts up boundaries around sex because he is learning to cope and heal. turning him into some sexyman is really missing the point and also a little frightening as someone who has lived thru SA.

im begging some of you to have media literacy for once

#🕸️.txt #sa mention // #sorry im really mad abt this an im not thinking straight so im a little scattered rn #augh idk how to tag this #bg3 wank #do ppl still use wank in negative tags

[multongsisig]

uhm sorry for the silly question but you said elias is your top3 and ohara 6 and i wanted to know the whole list ._.

Man, I meant to answer this as soon as I saw it but then it got away from me. I took this ask as an opportunity to yap, but even I was like oh this got too long so here's the list itself, and I'll leave the explanations if you're interested in that under the cut. This is ranked mainly by how much brainrot they give me.

Shuri

Richelieu

Elias

Jeremy

Nora

Ohara

Reihe Family (Alice, Hermann)

Ali

Theobald

Explanations:

1. Shuri I adore Shuri more than anyone else in the manhwa. Like do I even need to explain. She is such a strong multifaceted character, so full of love and kindness in spite of her heartbreakingly tragic history. I've seen people call her boring, but I really can't see it especially after the Jeremy trial in S1. This is a person who will sacrifice herself, completely forego her own happiness, for the sake of those she cares about. Yet this sacrificial tendency is also motivated by her fear of being abandoned, not simply from innate kindness. Characters like that I am always weak to and will always love.

2. Richelieu If you follow me I doubt this is surprising, he's so fun to me. He's a terrifying villain who's actually a real threat and challenge to the main characters. I like how his motivations are well established, so all his actions just make sense you. Religious villains aren't uncommon in rofan, but in my experience it's typically the [Good Church was secretly Evil mwahaha] trope you know? So I find him, a character with time given to actually expand on his POV, very refreshing, very alluring. Though, what initially drew me in was his being a narrative foil to Shuri, the parallels in the connection he perceives them to have with the "2nd life", the visual contrast constantly at play in their encounters to an almost genre bending degree… I go bonkers for shit like that between protagonists and antagonists. It's because of him that I picked up asm again in S2 and truly fell in love with the story. I'll keep it at that lest this gets too long.

3. Elias Elias… Elias my beloved problem child. He's kind of framed as being the more emotionally perceptive sibling, so the fact that most of his conflicts are internal ones bleeding out into bad decisions just makes me so 😩😩😩 His feelings of alienation and separation issues within his own family endears me to him, I'm very fond of black sheep characters He also hides all this with his friendly and comic relief demeanor which makes me love him more… the multiple arcs we had with Elias as a main figure solidified him to this position.

4. Jeremy Honestly the gap between him and Nora is so so small, but Jeremy makes me just a little bit more insane because of the tragic aspect of his character in his quiet love for Shuri that, thanks to their unfortunate circumstances, could never be, despite those very circumstances being what allowed him to grow such love for her. Aside from that, it's the usual obvious things people love about him, his protectiveness, sarcasm, kindness beneath the rbf, etc etc. It's always great to see him interact with other characters, especially Shuri or Nora.

5. Nora I don't have much to say that hasn't been said by others, he's a beloved and popular character for a reason. I grew to like him a lot more in S2, we got to see more sides of him and see how he's grown since S1, especially in his scenes with Jeremy and Shuri. Also, he's an artist so I feel a sense of kinship… the whole sketchbook thing and shuri painting was so real. His conflict with his family is also tragically compelling. That last chapters that had him in S2 hit me in the guttt.

6. Ohara Mentioned most of what I like about her in the last ask. Ohara's got problems and she's very dear to me for it!!

7. Reihe Family (Alice, Hermann) I really liked the glimpses we've had of them in the manhwa. I became fond of Hermann, the Neuschwanstein's uncle aka Elias look-alike, upon rereads because of the parallels with him and Elias, they're both the black sheep of their families 🥺 one day I'll finish that Alice & Hermann comic...

8. Ali My initial impression was just that he was a sweet boy, but then it showed he's quite the sharp cookie like his sister and I went ooooh! He navigated those political situations in S2 so cleverly. He's def going to be even more of a force to be reckoned with when he's older.

9. Theobald He's 9th on this list of favorite characters but I can't say I like him more than everyone not mentioned above. I enjoy his relationships is all. Like, anything with Richelieu is just great. There's also Shuri, Nora, Jeremy, Letran/Family of course- it's crazy how messy all his relationships are 😭

And thennn it's everyone else. Even if the character isn't on the list doesn't mean I don't like them or don't like reading about them. Personally, I find that every character in the story has something you can chew on!

#asks #asm my beloved #u asked for the list and i gave you this block of text im so sorry this is how im exposed as a chatterbox #to expand on richelieu making me pick up asm again for s2 #i had an OI/rofan phase during quarantine and asm was one of the many i read but when i did it was midway through the jeremy trial #updates were slow and i was yet to be very invested so i forgot about it quickly #but it asm blew up during the epilogue for obv reasons and i read it again and was blown away #s2 came and i saw people gushing over it but i was like hmm i kinda like just ending the story at s1 it was enough for me #there was no future plot points from the very scattered & probably fake novel spoilers i read at the time that interested me #then i saw THAT panel of richelieu and shuri in ch 68 and it was So Over for me like wtaf is this asm??? what is going on over there #anyway its my most reread manhwa rn #and the only manhwa i actively follow loll its for sure one of the greats

[botanicallyinclinednerd]

There is something so delightful about watching a show massively out of order, knowing something to be true due to seeing it in later episodes, and then going back to early episodes and seeing how that came to be in the first place

#im having a good time #im watching 911 rn and i watched s1 and most of 2 when it was airing so its been a bit and ive seen a scattering of the rest #much more recently. but i went to the beginning of s2 to get eddie introduction and the earthquake and its so fun seeing the origins #the origin of eddie and buck being besties the origin of maddie as a dispatcher meeting josh #bobby and michael being friends from the start! i love michael basically making it his mission to make bobby comfortable #its just so delightful #liv talks

[skaianettechsupport]

what do i do if my “fic research” ultimately consists of needing to reread homestuck over again in its entirety

#for like the 800th time are you serious #lol i just have SO many characters i have to write and i feel like im doing a Bad Job i need to see how they interact again #but like skipping around isn’t so helpful? and they’re scattered across the ENTIRE comic #in such a way that makes me think i should just reread it? #the main players are john dave dirk and jake but like im p sure everyone will make an appearance #especially anyone who’s anyone to anyone #which is everyone #so :) #gotta check out ALL those dynamics so i don’t get everyone too terribly ooc #which is what i think im probably doing rn #skaianetposting #skaianettechsupport #homestuck #homestuck fanfic

[haunted-xander]

I have an on-and-off relationship with Honkai Impact, apparently

#i think the game is fun and the story is SUPER interesting to me #but something about the ui and all the events and just So Much going on all the time at once is so overwhelming to me #i can only manage to play for bursts at a time #its the same thing that puts me off most gacha games #like theres always So Much going on at all times like do they think itll kill them to scatter them throughout? #i get that having a lot to do is probably good for player retention of older players who are caught up and stuff #but idk its just a Lot #anyway im updating hi3 rn even tho im way to tired to reasonably be able to play well #honkai impact 3rd #hi3 #xander rambles

[piplupod]

i know its good to have lots of options bc monopolies suck shit but also .... there are so many "tumblr alternatives" that are being tossed around and I have no idea how to like... choose one. i dont rly feel like making a new account on 5+ separate platforms so I'm kind of 🧍‍♂️ standing here unmoving and frozen bc which do i choose and how do i even go about choosing one

#i could perhaps be convinced to choose two . maybe. #but fsdkl i just... i do not want to move platforms if this one truly does turn into a sinking ship #i will continue to learn coding and make a neocities or two properly but that'll mainly be for DL and one other niche interest #i won't be making a general neocities i think fsjdkl that seems too scattered for me to be able to set up #and its nowhere near the same as here so im just aaaaaaaaa #i keep hoping i'll just see a pattern of ''okay most of my mutuals are going to this one platform'' but im not active enough to notice that #so im just stuck in the mud rn with choosing one to investigate and perhaps set up shop at 😭 #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[lemongogo]

i havent had a srs trigun moment in 10000 yrs i feel like im withering away

#ive paused my reread indefinitely (literally <20 chs in) #bc i cant muster the strength to go thru that again rn😭😭 #which is CRAZYY to me bc its like .. idk how 2 explain jt #trgn is definitely sad / versed in heavy themes but i dont feel like its overtly like .. upsetting yk #wherein its a pretty fast paced story and theres quite a bit of comedy & optimism scattered throughout #but its like .. ill think about a mildly sad moment for longer than the two seconds it appeared for #and then im like floating face down in a river #sinking into the mud and clay yk #HAIAHAH #anyways all that 2 say its been on my periphery but i want to be so immersed in it rn #i want to be rolling arnd in trigun meta and scs #googling how 2 emotionally disconnect frm a story w emotion-driven mc and story #i need 2 quit my job tbh. lets all join hands and quit our jobs and stop having responsibilities so we can have hobbies again❤️

[angeltism]

girls when they're in love

#➳ the fool speaks #''i was stupid to believe i was all you need - I'm an idiot .'' #''these dumb feelings scatter on the count of 1 . . 2 . . 3 . . . shooting star - I'm going to curse her !:' #*'' #''hey - give me back the time i used loving you . you liar . i still love you though'' #ugh IM NORMAL IM FINE IM NOT EVEN UPSET RN IT'S JSUR . I FEEL SO PARA.SITE BY DECO . RN . ????

[vitalphenomena]

the way i consider 56 drafts being "down"

#OOC. #im really happy im so active in this hobby rn <3 yall have been so great and fun in a really insane period of my life #sorry if im scattered or spotty - ive got stuff im dealing with internally and want to continue to treat this as something #lighthearted and low stress!

[dandyshucks-moving]

organizing my photos folders so that all the Guz pictures are in one folder together and I can proper assess just how much brainrot I am experiencing SNDJSLSL

#i am ignoring Chase's posts rn and I'll go look at them later today fjdkdl #me when i prefer to be in denial abt the disorder but the disorder doesnt like to be ignored HFJFKDL #i thought he wasnt going to post here AUGHH its okay im not upset abt it im just uncomfortable w the disorder being Perceived ig fjdkl #im trying to be like... less scattered here. i want to have somewhere where i can be one cohesive presence instead of a chaotic mishmash #so this is disrupting that but... sigh I'll figure it out. sorry for the weird posting though fjdkl #it will not happen often if at all though djdkls that was a strange night last night #dandyshucks