#it isn't just sexism. it's also racism. and ableism. and honestly classism.

[inkskinned]

you have to go to work so you can pay for your doctor, who is not taking your insurance right now, and if you say i can't afford the doctor's you are told - get a better job. it is very sad that you are unwell, yes, but maybe you should have thought about that before not having a better job.

(where is the better job? who is giving out these better jobs? you are sick, you are hurting - how the hell are you supposed to be well enough for this better job?)

but you go to the doctor because you had the nerve to be hurt or sick or whatever else. and they tell you that it is because you have anxiety. you try your best. you are a self-advocate. you've done the reading (which sometimes pisses them off worse, honestly). you say it is actually adding to my anxiety, it is effecting my quality of life. so they say that you are fat. they say that all young people have this happen to them, isn't it a medical marvel! they say that you should eat more vegetables. they say that you probably just need to lose a little more weight, and that you are faking it for attention.

(what attention could this doctor possibly give? what validation? that's their fucking job, isn't it?)

there is always a hypochondriac, right. someone always tells you about a hypochondriac. or someone who is unnecessarily aggressive during the worst days of their life. or someone looking "for a quick fix". or some idiot who wasn't educated about how to properly care for themselves who just abandons their treatment. and again, the hypochondriac, the overly-cautious hysteric. these people don't deserve to be treated like humans (right), and since you might be one of these people, you also don't get treated like a human. because those people can really fuck with the system, you now have to pay for it. and besides. you're actually probably faking it.

(more often than not, you find a 2:1 ratio of these stories. for every "hypochondriac", there are 2 people who knew something was wrong, and yet nobody could fucking find it. the story often ends with pointless suffering. the story often ends with and now it's too late, and it's going to kill me.)

you are actually just making excuses. someone else got that procedure or that diagnosis and he's fine, you should be fine too. someone else said they watched a documentary about other inspirational people with your exact same condition, maybe you should be inspirational, too. you're just too morbid. your pain and your experience is probably just not statistically concerning. it is all self-reported anyway, and you're just being a baby.

(once, while sitting down in the middle of making coffee, you had the sudden, horrible thought - i could kill myself to make the pain stop. you had to call your best friend after that. had to pet your dog. had to cry about it in the shower. you won't, but that moment - god, fuck. the pain just goes on and on.)

you know someone who went in for routine surgery and said i still feel everything. they told her to just relax. it took her kicking and screaming before they figured out she wasn't lying - the anesthetic drip hadn't been working. you know someone who went in for severe migraines who was told drink water and lose weight. you know someone who was actively bleeding out and throwing up in the ER and was told you're just having a bad period.

in the ER there are always these little posters saying things like "don't wait! get checked today!" and you think about how often you do wait. how often the days spool out. you once waited a full week before seeing the doctor for what you thought was a sprained wrist. it had actually been broken - they had to rebreak it to set it.

but you go into the doctor. the problem you're having is immediate. the person behind the counter frowns and says we're not taking your insurance. you will be paying for this out-of-pocket.

they send you home with tylenol and a little health packet about weight loss or anxiety or attention deficit. on the front it has your birthday and diagnosis. you think about crying, and the words swim. it might as well say go fuck yourself. it might as well say you're a fucking idiot. it might as well say light your money on fire and lie down in it. and the entire fucking time - the problem persists.

it's okay. it's okay, it's just another thing, you think. it's just another thing i have to learn to live with.

#spilled ink #warm up #can you tell what i'm mad about today specifically #i will say that there are a LOT of things that go into this. like a lot. this is ungendered and unspecific for a reason #it isn't just sexism. it's also racism. and ableism. and honestly classism. #and before a healthcare professional reads this as a personal attack: i understand ur burnt out #we are ALSO burnt out. your situation is also dire. this is not an attack on you. #this is a commentary on the incredible amounts of bigotry that lie at the heart of capitalism #where people have to pay money out of pocket to be told to fuck off. #your job is important. so is our humanity. and if you cannot accept that people are fucking mad as hell #at the industry - you are probably not listening . #anyway at some point im gonna write a piece about sexism specifically in medical shit #but i don't want terfs clowning in it bc they can't understand nuance #> it is true that ppl w/a uterus are more likely to experience medical malpractice & dismissal globally #> it is also true that trans people experience an equally fucked up and bad time in the medical field #> great news! the medical industrial complex is an equal opportunity life ruiner :) #(if you find it necessary to go into a debate about biology while discussing medical malpractice #i want to warn you that you're misunderstanding the issue. because guess what. #cis MEN might experience this. particularly black men. particularly disabled men. #so YES having a uterus can lead to more trouble for you. but this happens a LOT. #instead of fighting those ALSO experiencing your pain.... try working WITH them. #which btw. is like. actual feminism.)

[janiedean]

Leftist kds are going to vote far left because they think communism and anarchy are going to change the world (of course, look at the CCCP *rolls eyes*), so the far majority of people, including the ones in charge (because let's be serious, everybody in power is attracted by the right, find me ONE powerful leftist guy who isn't a politician) are going to vote right or far right. If it's just right, status quo, their whines won't change anything to the world order. If it's very far-right (cont)

Very tough years ahead with a lit of hurting for minorities, but yeah more reasons to be the oppressed victims, extreme feminists happy! (And they are sitting so high on their horses they won't even see they are partly responsible because of their constant antagonism of the EnemyTM), and then, people realizes they fucked up and vote right again (maybe a shy center left, but nothing much). Honestly I can't think of a scenario where the far left wins

k guys let’s calm down a moment and let’s break this down

leftist kids in the US cannot vote for the far left because there is no far left, like bernie passes for a socialist and he’s the most leftist they have rn and for me he’s like... center-left? sort of? maybe? for me he’s like... fulfilling the bare requirements to deserve me voting for them and the fact that in the US he’s seen as almost communist says all

no one here votes for the far left because they’re a bunch of idiots who think communism is still alive when in the west it has been dead since the berlin wall fell down and at least the kids are young, those people are not, and the problem isn’t kids voting far left, is kids not voting or protest voting which gives the far right influence and extra votes because then the right wingers think that OMG THE HORRIBLE LIBERALS WILL TAKE CONTROL OF THE WORLD BLAH BLAH BLAH and the reasonable left can’t understand it needs to try and take back its voter base rather than trying to gain votes on the right

as far as I’m concerned in the US no one is leftist, rich or not, because the democrats are like, center-right to me, but like dunno warren buffett wants to pay taxes *shrug* if you consider the democrats leftists then 90% of the establishment is leftist. the problem is that a) that’s not left, b) the US have absolutely no history of like... STRIKING AND MARCHING WITHOUT GIVING TWO FUCKS ABOUT WHERE CELEBRITIES VOTE for various reasons, but that’s like... staple left stuff. when the women0s marches happened I honestly was baffled at how people seemed to give a fuck about what celebrities were there and who wasn’t - here I barely even know who famous people vote for and it’s utterly irrelevant. like the entire US political system lacks stuff that has been fundamental in the shape of leftist movements in europe - strikes, unions, marching and so on - thanks to maccartism and the whole part where IF IT’S SOCIALIST OR COMMUNIST IT’S *BAD* attitude which.... as I said before, communism as a political system isn’t viable or doable anywhere, but a lot of marxist ideas which then went into socialism blah blah blah are perfectly viable and they’re not BAD (ie: UNIONS, MARCHES, STRIKING, PUBLIC SCHOOLS, PUBLIC HEALTHCARE PAID WITH TAXES AND SO ON) but if people don’t know the difference....

the problem with people sitting high on their horses is that a lot of this so-called tumblr-leftist activism (blergh) is inherently very classist, doesn’t take the money problem into account at all if not when it comes to discussing the wage gap which fine, fair point, but can y’all please consider not getting in debt for paying for your education or hospital care if you need it because that would solve a lot of issues, never mind the concept that being in debt is fine and you can spend more money than you actually have, and none of those activists that I see are willing to actually look at the root of the problems nor to offer solutions that are long-term, nor to understand that oppression and discrimination comes for everyone in different ways (racism, classism, sexism, ableism and so on are not exclusive and can be intersectional, and they can hit everyone, and classism esp. in the US is a major issue but do I see anyone actually caring? nah), which turns into not even asking yourself why would a poor uneducated white person living in a trailer vote for trump when trump goes against their interests and they don’t even know it and so on.

and none of those ppl would actually want communism irl anyway if they had a clue of how it can’t work as a political system, nor they could ever be ideologically bc the entire point of communism as an ideology was breaking down class barriers and make everyone equal, which... is lost on tumblr tbh

also because ppl on here seem to think north korea is actually communist in anything but name lmao in their dreams

the thing is: the far left has the same business winning as the far right especially these days - the far right is more likely to win because it appeals to the worst instincts in people and sadly there’s more to go around than we’d like, but the problem is that we’re stuck with right wingers that are living off reagan and thatcher who destroyed their own countries and we’re seeing it twenty years later, pseudo-leftists who are actually right wingers (ie: TONY BLAIR BLERGH) and with *sane* lefts that can’t possibly win if they don’t straighten their shit out, protest votes that eventually only are useful for the right to win and that this ridiculous pseudo-left tumblr activism just makes leftists look terrible or like spoiled idiots who can’t pass on their good points when they’re good because they go overboard (see: cultural appropriation, because if you’re talking about like actual sacred native american artifacts being stolen/used as fashion accessory it’s a problem, but if you conflate them with shit like IT’S APPROPRIATION IF YOU’RE WEARING KIMONOS no one is ever gonna take you seriously)

tldr: people need to understand that you can’t do activism with buzzwords and feeling offended and finding everything problematic. if you can’t do that, then don’t do activism and watch tv shows, it’s better for everyone, and people also need to understand that being leftist doesn’t mean labeling everything problematic and not looking for discourse or dialogue nor assuming that the problem is cishet white dudes in power, and they actually should realize that classism is a problem and that you have to fight for everyone’s equal rights, not just yourse

and then maybe people won’t vote right wing anymore. or NOT SO MUCH.

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