#ive been getting more into horror lately

[bambi-lesbian-posts]

We've decided that we aren't moving so I've started unpacking all of my stuff again.

I just finished unpacking all of my books, so I'm gonna post about how I organized them and just list them all because I want to share the books I own and talk about them with people ^^

Anyways, shelf one:

Organization Left to right: Fairytales, classic stories, poetry, academic literature, singular stories I personally adored & often go back to reread.

Book list, from left to right:

The Complete Hans Christian Anderson FairyTales (published by Gramercy Books)

Great Illustrated Classics: Grimm's Fairy Tales (published by Baronet Books)

Blessed Are The Meek by Zofia Kossak (published by Roy Publishers... this copy is from 1944 I'm very proud of it)

Frankenstein by Mary Shelley (Dover Thrift Edition)

The Awakening by Chopin (Dover Thrift Edition)

Hamlet by William Shakespeare (Dover Thrift Edition)

The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald (published by Scribner)

The Collected Poems of Sylvia Plath

Hitch Your Wagon To A Star and other quotations from Ralph Waldo Emerson

Earth to Spirit: In Search of Natural Architecture by David Pearson

Ocean of Adventure by Eric I. Soyland (I knew this man personally.. incredible photographer and very very kind old man)

The illustrated A Brief History of Time: The Universe in a Nutshell by Stephen Hawking

Mojave Desert Wildflowers Field Guide by Pam Mackay

Classic Latin Course in English by William Cleaver Wilkinson (this copy is from 1893, also incredibly proud of it)

Language of Flowers by Kate Greenaway (pocket edition)

Webster's New World Thesaurus

Wonder by R.J. Palacio

Good Omens by Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett

DUNE by Frank Herbert

The Ultimate Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy by Douglas Adams

In The Forests of The Night by Amelia Atwater-Rhodes

The Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman

The Hate You Give by Angie Thomas

Wings of Fire: The Dragonet of Prophecy by Tui T. Sutherland (read this in middleschool and became OBSESSED)

An Encyclopedia of Tolkien: The History and Mythology That Inspired Tolkien's World by David Day (self explanatory I think)

The Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman

Fablehaven by Brandon Mull (a very old and very worn copy from elementary school that I love very much. Only kept the first volume tho)

Spirit Animals [book one] Wild Born by Brandon Mull (I remember getting this because I loved Fablehaven so much so I wanted to read his other works.)

Shelf two:

The whole shelf is it's own section in the organization. Fantasy/Romance stories that I've read. Predominantly YA because I bought most of these in highschool or thought the covers were interesting

Throne of Glass by Sarah J. Maas

Crown of Midnight by Sarah J. Maas

Heir of Fire by Sarah J. Maas

Queen of Shadows by Sarah J. Maas

Empire of Storms by Sarah J. Maas

Tower of Dawn by Sarah J. Maas (end of TOG series... Tower of Dawn is the only book I remember very well and the only book I absolutely, without question, adore about this series)

A Court of Thorns and Roses by Sarah J. Maas

A Court of Mist and Fury by Sarah J. Maas

A Court of Wings and Ruin by Sarah J. Maas

A Court of Frost and Starlight by Sarah J. Maas (this series is connected to TOG and I began reading it because of that. Though I think it has interesting characters, many parts are disappointing:/)

House of Salt and Sorrows by Erin A. Craig (haven't read yet, thought cover was interesting)

The Mermaid The Witch and The Sea by Tokuda Hall (haven't read, but was recommended to me by a friend)

Iron Widow by Xiran Jay Zhao (haven't read but saw the author and became interested)

LORE by Alexandra Bracken (found on accident while looking for Greek mythology books.. cover was interesting. Havent read)

Saving Tara by L.S. Carr (saw the author and became interested, participated in the kickstarter. I enjoyed it)

Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell (got this as a gift from a friend who loves Rowell. I don't like her very much tbh)

We Hunt the Flame by Hafsah Faizal (haven't read but cover looked interesting.)

We Free the Stars by Hafsah Faizal (2nd in their series)

Creation Abomination by Alan W. Thompson (I met this guy!! This is more of a science fiction than anything else. I love this so much. The art is beautiful. Waiting on the third book.)

Abomination Desolation by Alan W. Thompson

Third & final shelf:

Organization: predominantly manga and comics, and a few books that didn't fit in previous shelves due to genre differences.

List:

Princess Jellyfish Vol.1 by Akiko Higashimura

Princess Jellyfish Vol.2 by Akiko Higashimura

Princess Jellyfish Vol.3 by Akiko Higashimura(I adore this series so much, there's at least 9 volumes but I couldn't buy them all. Will probably buy more in the future)

How Do We Relationship? Vol.1 by Tamifull (gay!!! And adorable!!)

How Do We Relationship? Vol.2 by Tamifull

How Do We Relationship? Vol.3 by Tamifull

Adachi and Shimamura Vol.1 by Hitoma Iruma(more of a novel than a manga, but it is illustrated in a manga style for each chapter head. Cute lesbians)

Adachi and Shimamura Vol.2 by Hitoma Iruma

Adachi and Shimamura Vol.3 by Hitoma Iruma

Adachi and Shimamura Vol.4 by Hitoma Iruma

Whisper Me a Love Song Vol.1 by Eku Takeshima (SO CUTE also I couldn't find volume 2 so I've only read the first volume so far)

Whisper Me a Love Song Vol.3 by Eku Takeshima

The Girl from the Other Side Vol.1 by Nagabe

The Girl from the Other Side Vol.2 by Nagabe

The Girl from the Other Side Vol.3 by Nagabe(This is so sad bro?????? But the art and characters are so lovely)

Chibi Vampire Vol.5 by Yuna Kagesaki

Chibi Vampire Vol.7 by Yuna Kagesaki (I adored this as a kid... only bought my two favorite volumes from a library excess sale)

Fruits Basket Vol.9 by Natsuki Takaya (bought from the same library excess sale as Chibi Vampire. Only got volume 9 because it has a special chapter on Hana.. and I adored her as a kid. Still adore her actually)

Vampire Knight Vol.1 by Matsuri Hino (a horrible relic. Truly evil. My sister got it for me as a gift in some form of a cruel joke)

Rave Master Vol.4 by Hiro Mashima (a childhood favorite.. bought at the same library excess sale)

Unofficial Hatsune Mix by Kei (saw it and thought it was cute. Almost completely colored as well. Everybody loves Miku)

Motor Crush Vol.1 by Babs Tar, Brenden Fletcher, and Cameron Stewart (YAY MOTORCRUSH everybody loves motorcrush)

Motor Crush Vol.2 by Babs Tar, Brenden Fletcher, and Cameron Stewart

Year of The Villain #4: The Batman Who Laughs by DC Comics (self explanatory I think)

Star Trek: The Q Conflict issue 1 (unopened, also self explanatory)

Star Trek: series(???) issue (41) By Weinstein, Whigham and Starr (unopened, also self explanatory)

The Littles Give A Party by John Peterson (grew up loving The Littles)

Sarah, Plain and Tall by Patricia MacLachlan (another childhood favorite)

Eight Keys by Suzanne LaFleur (a gift, haven't read)

The Borrowers by Mary Norton (illustrated by Beth and Joe Krush) (I love the Borrowers. I still go back to reread this. It just didn't fit on the first shelf:/)

Dark Water by Koji Suzuki (collection of short horror stories. I love it so far.)

& many unpictured stories such as The King In Yellow, one or two more nature field guides, kanji books, a Japanese/English dictionary, etc. That I bring with me to classes)

That's all for my books. Thanks for reading if you did and maybe give me recommendations? Idk I'm always looking for more to read

#my bookshelf #ive been getting more into horror lately #ive read HP Lovecraft but dont own physical copies of his work #anyways #how fun #im glad i put up a read morw

[spacebugarts]

I think the reason analogue horror works so well is that it replicates the vibe of things that scared us as kids, like for me it has the same feel as the uncanny valley from early cgi and animatronics/prosthetics that made the original two Ghostbusters so scary to me, or that subtle sense of unease that made people so afraid of the antagonists in Courage the Cowardly Dog. Its just a perfect callback to the things that kept me up late staring at the closet door and I love it!

#analogue horror #horror #media analysis #idk how to tag this #particularly im thinking of Freaky Fred and the Scoleri Brothers #although I was personally more afraid of the pink slime coming out of my shower #there was something about the way they looked and moved that just felt wrong yknow? #the monsters in Scooby Doo 2 have the same vibe #courage the cowardly dog #ghostbusters #so anyways ive been getting into anogue horror lately lol

[jennilah]

the more franchises i get into the stronger my chances get of randomly working on them one day and that makes me happier than youd imagine

im like an ascended nerd

no this isnt a hint at anything im just thinking about the various new things i got into in 2023 alone & was like "DUDE BUT WHAT IF ONE DAY THO"

#and like i do hear about it when things are being made. i could for example hop studios to just work on godzilla forever but i wont #i prefer to play it by ear bc i get more fun experiences that way even tho sometimes i do ask to work on certain things #like... well.. godzilla. both times. #anyway thats besides the point im just sayin im pretty good at animating things dying so... horror genre..... hmu..... #i guess they do actually #like ive been requested based on my ability to kill things #anyway this isnt only about horror stuff i mean i got into a whoile bunch of things by my lovely friends lately and its been real fun #like the fast & furioses and mission impossibles and john wicks and our studios straight up worked on those so like its not impossible #anyway i feel like i should start tagging posts i write while high or something bc uhhh #jennilargh

[hella1975]

by pure evil accident taob zuko's current mental state is the exact same as the one ive been stuck in for the past few weeks and that's a bit funny to me. like i started writing this chapter months ago and knew what i was doing with it even longer ago and suddenly ive manifested it into reality. we are both facing the horrors rn

#when the angry character finally learns to acknowledge their rage not as its own problem but as a coping mechanism to the problem #& faces at once the relief of finding the source of all this anger & the horror of realising that the anger itself was never the final boss #and it leaves them in a depressive state where they actually MISS the anger because at least that was active and - in a sense - dignified #whereas this just feels stilted and mopey and like each day is passing and you're losing time doing nothing #but you cant shake it anyway and wow im no longer talking about zuko!!!! we stay embarassing ourselves over taob!!!! #like i realised just now while staring off into space stirring my tea that the reason this particular depressive episode has hit me so hard #(aside the fact it's been a pretty extreme one and my paranoia has rlly flared up to the point ive felt honest to god CRAZY lately haha) #is because it's so DIFFERENT to how i usually respond to feeling like this #like normally my temper gets very quick and i completely isolate and i get mean and sharp #and i convince myself that everyone is out to get me and/or hates me and therefore i must manipulate everyone in my life #and ofc NONE OF THOSE THINGS ARE A GOOD RESPONSE. I AM NOT PROUD OF THEM #THEY ARE ALSO NOT NEARLY AS BAD AS HOW I USED TO BE HENCE I KNOW I AM GETTING BETTER #SLOWLY PAINFULLY WITH MY NAILS DIGGING IN THE DIRT BUT I AM GETTING BETTER ALL THE SAME #but STILL despite how awful those things are they're also very external. like i hurt the people around me in order to protect myself #and there's a dignity to that. there's more control there even if ultimately it's a lack of control causing it #like i have some fucked opinions from my upbringing and ik that like im quite a selfish person and it's bc i was raised to truly believe #that hurting others is always optimal over letting myself be seen as weak. like if my options are to hurt someone even someone i love #or let myself be vulnerable then sometimes i STILL will pick the former (it used to be all the time though <3 progress is progress) #and anger has always been sold to me as a very dignified STRONG emotion and it's how you're SUPPOSED to respond to badness #otherwise you're weak and a baby and pathetic etc etc #and just bc you know something is wrong doesnt mean you didnt internalise the fuck out of it anyway #like i will always see anger as the 'dignified' emotion and unlearning it regardless of that has been one of the hardest things ive done #('wow hella your own journey with mental illness is the literal exact same as taob zuko's-' i will hospitalise the both of us) #whereas currently ive just been sad and pathetic and oversharing to anyone who will listen and desperate for someone to look at me #and be like 'you're not okay' and to fix it FOR ME. like im not ANGRY im SAD and im not used to that response #AND GUESS WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENS THIS CHAPTER BY PURE FUCKING COINCIDENCE?? LITERALLY WHAT #like it's been happening for a few chapters that we're finally moving from anger to sadness on my unofficial healing chart #ever since zuko's outburst with hakoda when zi se had that tantrum #but this is the first time we see Sad Coping Mechanism as a response to a problem instead of Angry Coping Mechanism #taob updates

[autism-corner]

guy is noticing his depression coming back, but will not do anything about it.

#idk ive been diagnosed with dysthymia which was sold to me as mild but longlasting depression etc. #as i was in the process of leaving my psychiatrist she told me it was at that moment in recession =w=b #but one main thing im seeing now is that im skipping school again. (+ the horrors but we dont talk about those) #skipping school isnt BAD and all. and i do genuinely think its for the better but. that might just be the depression voice talking =3= #anyway i know itll get better again. hopefully soon. #augh also one thing i noticed is. the sleepy. getting back. #its been a while since ive had afternoon naps but now..... they sure are happening. #and these suck a bit more bc often i get home at 4pm which is in my mind too late to have a comfy nap. #yesterday and also a couple days ago i napped from like 8pm-9pm. which isnt really helping my sleep :) #but its not like i could STAY AWAKE or something. i HAD to sleep. #:/ #anyway its not like i can actually do something big about it... #maybe i should take a walk more. hm. #but my knees.... and the tired.... and things i actually have to do..... #sillyposting #yaknow. #=w=b

[blorbolaundry]

WALTEN FILES 4 5 6 WALTEN FILES 4 5 6 WALTEN FILES 4 5 AN D 6!!!

AND VOL 5 TMC SOON?? YEAAAAAHH!!

#LETS GOOOO!!! #I KNOW IM LIKE A FEW DAYS LATE BUT LETS GOOO!! #i thought we were just getting 4 in january WERE GETTING THR E E (3) EPISODES IN FEBRUARY?? #ON TOP OF the vol 5 teaser for mandela catalogue??? #analog horror fans are eating fuckin GOOD #ive never been more excited on my gooooddd #the walten files #tmc #the mandela catalogue #laundry's basket

[lellu]

augh. this week is going to Suck

#total lack of enthusiasm for our classes this week it seems. feeling extra weird abt my parents also #on top of that is the general everything #and also ive been thinking lately i dont look quite like a person #like everyone else i look at them and go oh hey! a person! we like those. and then i look in the mirror and its like. is this thing alive- #is anybody home. and im paranoid everyone else notices too i zoned out in acting + performance class today and mickey d was like oh- #looks like im losing sasha. guess id better be more entertaining #like fuck! of course im not going to make friends if im reanimated roadkill #sitting through class is always hard but its a lot harder when youre praying for a horror movie villain to come at you swinging w a chainsa #just so i can get enough of the fight part of the fight or flight out of my system to function #vent

[princekirijo]

Man I've been so sleepy

#im so sorry if ive seemed down lately lol im just so sleepy 😭 #also dealing with the horrors but thats the usual at this point #i think its a combination of me not sleeping that great? and also this medicine ive been taking #to help with congestion in my nose #love a weather change + coming down from covid #its kinda annoying though cause i wanna interact more on here :[ #my askbox been kinda quiet lately (so so sorry to that one anon) #your question has been sitting in my box for a while 😭 its a great question but im just kinda nervous about it #but yeah september man. not fun #its also annoying because i am finding its affecting my drawing #AND i havent been able to ramble about blorbos :[ even though i have thoughts especially my lad #anyway idk why im making this post lmao im just bored and talking into the void and updating yall. ig. #and yeah apologizing if ive been like negative lately. yeah #love yall ill try get some sleep might help fight the drowsiness

[wollfling]

4 am and I can't sleep bc my joints are in so much pain 😒

#im so tired too o<-< #miss the days i could draw in bed easily at night. i share my bed now.. but would be worth trying djdndjdb #my puppy sleeps in the bed now too i really like it! #except in the morning if shes up she will dig us out of the blankets.. its cute but ridiculous dhdndh #also omg... this evening i forgot to give her dinner (so much going on w me 😞) and didnt realize until a few hours late #but like. it made me also realize that she doesnt really ask for food. i dont think she knows she can ask...? #i was like omg are you hungy ? and she was like omg yay ☺️ #idk why this is a thing w me rn. like she doesnt know she can ask for dinner. babey..... ;_; ... #anyways i think i just came here to complain as usual #nothing new with me other than new art. reading more. think thats abt it.. #my partner and i have been reading together before bed. he reads out loud to me #i like it a lot. were really into horror right now and looking for more ! #he does voices and the whole bit and i love getting to freak out together mid chapter and stuff. #its different than while watching a tv show or movie idk. #and currently on my own im reading ag/e//ls bef/ore man. maybe 80 pages in or smthn its nice so far #what ive been REALLY wanting to read is medieval horror. surprisingly hard to find. #i asked someone who works at the bookstore and she was so like. baffled by it o<-< she was trying so hard but couldnt think of or #find anything but genuinely trying so hard i felt bad... and i tried to say it was okay but she was dedicated atp 😭 #and then at the checkout she came by again like. medieval horror..... thats a tough one. and i just profusely apologized again djsbsusbshsn #so if anyone had some medieval horror they enjoy 🧍‍♂️ id love a recommendation

[moomoorare]

I actually drafted the first 3 chapters of my Scales of fate au on a03 last night, so ... Well te heeh...

I'm gonna review and add art I think but like I have soooo many things planned and already so much art ready for it it's just been kept to myself because I second guess myself too much... IM DOING THIS TO HAVE FUNNNNN

#its like 8 k words for those 3 chapters and its literally only the premise #like . the characters havent even met #theres like 20 k after that ready #then anotehr . 50 k? #probably more. i havent written in a while #yuri be upon ya #to be a refresher its my empires x hermitcraft au that's nothing to do with the crossover #its just the premise of empires with also the hermitcraft folks #a lot of yuri and yaoi probably #while its ortty existentialist terror vibes i wanna add some horror #and creepy stuff #cus its like. ohh #so much philosophy #and im trying to get better at writing. which is really not a thing i fo cus i draw #but i will draw for this #ive been reading a lot lately for my vocabulary #and writing down pretty words i like #i hope its good cus damn eng is not my First language lmao #i dont even write in Italian.. anymore #i used to on wattpad like 10 years ago lmao i was oretty famous too 😭😭😭 #ANYWAYS... SOON #rare rambling

[driftwooddestiel]

shoutout to stephen king for helping me to rebecome a reading person

#i stayd up til like 1am reading cujo last night #havent finished it yet but im enjoying it greatly #i read most of carrie in one sitting #last couple of years ive been unable to really get into most books and read for long periods of time bc ive read pretty much every book #suiting to me thwt the (school) library has BUT lately ive opened myself up to reading more genres and especially horror now that ive becom #wuite the horror fan and what do you know! different new and interesting books are fun to read #and im being able to regain my love of reading beyond just rereading books i love! which im very happy about

[puppetlooselystrung]

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#this is gonna sound pathetic but you ever say a random phrase and now you cant get it out of your head #first it was forever liked never loved #and now its some beasts were never meant for love #sorry im really showing my insecurities rn lol. tumblr of all places. dont have anywhere else entirely i guess #anyways. what am i? oooo just a dog. a mutt. a beast #and some beasts are never meant to be loved #and dont get me wrong its all i want but i cant have it im not allooowwwwedddddd im not #a beaming shining example of someone not to be or not to be born as if you want love #i havent even done anything. its just the bpd and depression telling me im a boring broken person. #too broken for a normal person to tolerate #too broken with bpd and depression and ocd and other disorders im not open about #so im just the insane old bitch of a wife no one takes seriously until its too late in a horror movie #but also not broken enough to be intriguing for someone to want to 'fix' i am not broken enough for someones fixation to fix. #not that i would want to be like that bc the last thing i want is to be a person someone needs to be obsessed over fixing lol #but idk ive been crying all day bc i cant stand being alone anymore #im just a silly dog meant for entertaining others and nothing more!! #i dont know if i was meant to be loved. im meant to be liked thats for sure. plenty people like me. but #love? love? love in the sense of being with someone? falling asleep with someone? being someones everything? #them adoring me as i adore them? #them meaning it? #and having it long term? and not me boring the fuck out of someone or being too clingy to the point they realize they dont want me anymore? #yeah no sorry. god said i cant have that and im an idiot for thinking otherwise. #i aay i cant date anymore but not because i dont really want to irs cause i know i cant have it. im not meant for it. not cut out for it #youd think id learn by now #im not trying to like. dismiss my love for my friends or my friends love for me. its just. different. #i love my friends. they love me. im forever grateful for that. but i crave romance. i crave being wanted. being yearned for #i crave falling asleep next to someone every night. i crave kisses. and cuddles. and tenderness. i crave being someones everything #i crave someone MEANING that. MEANING that im their everything. but some beasts are never meant to have that. not long term anyways. #and at the end of the day? im one of those beasts. #whats that one quote. she said she doesnt want love the same way a diet doesnt want desert. she wants it but she thinks she cant have it?

[sanchoyo]

ik i said i wanted to do at least 2-3 personal solo zines this year aside from the one i already put out but im having such a hard time deciding on a topic?? 'random art zine' or 'sketchbook zine' feel too random kadhfkj. and the only thing ive been MEGA into lately have been my own ocs but making a zine with them would feel weird..also very niche lmao

#also i really dont like the idea of putting my silly oc stuff behind paywalls if im being real ajsdkf theyre goobers free to the world #if i didnt need money i wouldnt even consider any of the zines being paid zines #id just make em all free forever bc i rly do just enjoy sharing stuff like that #but alas...the horrors (being poor + severely mentally ill so i need money sometimes for things) agh... #everytime i sell stuff or make some money with comms something happens like i need to buy pet stuff (food or litter or my dogs expensive #flea pills but they NEED those bc ticks and fleas here in the summer are actually SO bad he needs the vet grade tablets to handle them) #so basically my debt isnt necessary getting too much worse which is good! but its also not..improving bc i keep havin to buy necessities #im not buying anything crazy or nyhting just absolute must haves yk..and yet #oh well at least ppl buying the clothes means ill free up a lort of space if nothing else like even if theres no actual..profit HSDKF #theres two boxes worth of clothes haha...it makes me happy to think ppl will wear them tho since im not anymore #ive been very unhappy w my own clothes augh :( i want to be happy wearing things but idk. idk. nothing i have is sparking enough joy lately #ive bene living in pjs...going to public places in pjs... #very out of character for me but god lol my brain lately #i got some more books at the libraby today when i was picking my nephew up tho :) so that made me happy #theyre all art related !! so mostly pictures + artists talking abt their techniques #all landscape related bc i wanna do more complex painted bgs this year and dip my toes into traditional art a lot more. my sister is #actually a great painter so maybe ill ask her for pointers. but then again thats kinda embarrassing so maybe not #sanchoyorambles #BASICALLY YES MORE ZINES ARE MTH I WANT TO DO BUT IDEAS. NOT WORKING RN