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to fall in deeper - Julien Baker x lacy!reader

jj chats: this has been one of the longest things ive written on this account and i am very proud of it!!! i hope this lives up to any expectations!!! also i recommend reading the first part before reading this it is linked here!

word count: almost 2000!!!

warnings: RPF, use of y/n, reader is a musician/famous, julien is kinda mean, someone passes out (not the reader, the boys or muna), reader calls julien 'jay'.

inspired by the request: i lovvved your love Julien fic based on lacy SO much!!! you’re crazy talented <3 would you consider writing more parts of it? 🎀🩷 like maybe how julien falls more and more in love and maybe an eventual angry love confession from julien, and their first date/kiss?

feedback is encouraged and i'd love to get some just please be kind!!!

When MUNA went on tour, they asked their dear friends to perform as openers. It was on billboards and spread across social media: “Boygenius and (Y/N): openers for The Greatest Band in the World”. All parties were ebullient, another few months of music, laughter, and fun. Everyone except Julien Baker, Julien wasn’t pleased when she found out you were the other opener. She despised the feeling she got in her gut when your name was mentioned, she couldn’t decide what it meant. She was torn between it being contempt or admiration. She didn’t like not knowing, she didn’t like the fact she couldn’t figure you out, let alone figure out her own feelings for you. 

So far the tour had been faring well. There were huge crowds showing up every night, all screaming out the lyrics to their favorite MUNA hits. Everything was going well, until August 6th, a Friday night. It was exceptionally hot and it was starting to take a toll on the musicians. However  they were all pushing through, they had loud fans backstage that gave them some relief from the heat and could basically get away with no shirt on stage. So far, the night was going well, besides the heat. Lucy and Julien sat in front of a large fan, while Phoebe and you stood in front of another one. MUNA was performing on stage, while you all waited until the last song, “Silk Chiffon” . It was always a nice surprise to the fans when you four came bobbing up on stage singing along, dancing with one another. 

Phoebe sighed, turning towards you “Want to go back with me to get some water?”

Your eyes darted to the right, where your water bottle stood proud and tall, still about half full. “No Pheobs I’m okay! I’ll walk with you though!” 

“Oh no dude you’re good,” The platinum blond turned to Lucy and proposed the same question.

“Yeah my water ran out like 5 minutes ago,” Lucy hopped up from her seat, moving towards an already upright Phoebe who was wiping her forehead with the back of her hand, sweat droplets rolling off. “Be right back guys!” 

Before they turned the corner you checked the time and yelled to the singers “I think there's only two more songs till Silk Chiffon so hurry!” Lucy and Phoebe nodded to you and continued their walk to wherever they were storing the water bottles. Out of the corner of your eye you spotted Julien rolling her eyes.

You turned your body to hers, you ignored her obvious irritation towards you and smiling you asked, “You good Julien? I got some water if you need it!”

“Yeah I’m fine. Thanks.” The tattooed woman replied, curtly. 

“Ohhhkay,” you said, confused by her tone. You thought for a minute going back over the day to see if you did anything that would warrant that reaction. You couldn’t find anything, but you did remember how Julien really hadn’t ever been that cordial to you, not since that night outside the restaurant where she found you crying. In a moment of panic you asked the woman sitting 5 feet from you, “Did I do something?”

Julien turned towards you, obviously dumbstruck by your question. She hesitated before responding, you could practically see the wheels turning behind her eyes, “No, you didn’t do anything.”

Quickly you replied, desperate to figure out where you went wrong. “You act weird around me.”

You could see a flash of panic move over Julien;s face before it was replaced with a look of annoyance. “How do I act weird around you?” Julien asked as if it was the most absurd sentence you could have chosen to have said. 

“You don’t talk to me ever, you avoid me, you don’t reply to my texts in the groupchat. Yesterday on stage you avoided me every chance you got. I get that we aren’t really close but do you have to pretend like I’m not even there? Like I don’t even matter?” Your voice started to strain towards the end of your dialogue, you could feel your eyes start to water.

“I-I don’t-” 

Julien was cut off by a very energetic Phoebe who came skipping backstage.  “We’re on stage in like a minute guys! Grab your mics!” 

You quickly got up, blinking back your tears as you approached a table, grabbing a mic. You settled your breathing as Lucy came up to you. “You okay?” She asked, voice laced with worry.

“Mhm! I’m fine! I think the heat is just getting to me!” You replied, your voice steady. You’re honestly surprised at how fast you pulled yourself together.

MUNA was on stage finishing up their second to last song for the night when Katie yelled into her microphone, “Thank you all for such a gorgeous night! We have one last song! Can you all welcome our guests to the stage please?” The crowd begins to go crazy. 

One by one the 4 of you run out on stage as the band starts playing “Silk Chiffon”. Your eyes scan over the crowd, everyone is having an amazing time, they all look tired, but in a euphoric concert driven tiredness. Until you spot one girl near the front of the barricade. She looks as if she's about to pass out, and the people around her don’t seem to notice. You brush it off, but decide to keep an eye on her just in case something happens.

As the band starts to play the music fills your body, heating your veins with electricity. You move the mic to your mouth as you sing background for Katie. This was always one of your favorite parts of the show, the harmony between all of your voices, the feeling of being alive and showing it through music. Phoebe rushes up to you and grabs your wrist, twirling you around and smiling wide at you. She leans in and gives you a kiss on your cheek before your bodies find natural sync, dancing together. Everything always gets too chaotic when the 7 of you are all on stage. AS your eyes move from  Phoebes to the rest of the talent on stage you spot Julien glaring at you, your cheeks redden and you can’t distinguish whether it's from the heat or the shorter woman's dangerous stare.

Suddenly you remember that girl in the audience and when you look back to her place, you see her almost going limp, merely held up by the sweating bodies around her. Immediately your mind moves fast, remembering your highschool first aid lessons on heat stroke. Your brain quickly runs down her obvious symptoms and realizes it could be severe dehydration or worse, heat stroke. You quickly let go of Phoebe's arm and run backstage to grab a water bottle and someone to help you. 

Phoebe is confused, her eyes follow you backstage until she sees you grab a bottle of water. Too caught up in the moment she thinks you need a drink. She assumes nothing is wrong and then goes over to Jo to dance with her. The others don't realize your absence, too caught up in the song. Except Julien.

Julien was keeping a close eye on you when you were on stage, she saw every time you glanced at that specific spot in the barricade. Though she didn’t follow you, not until you suddenly appeared on the lawn in front of the stage with a medical professional and a security guard. 

You run to the dehydrated woman and then help her get to a cooler spot, and give her small sips of water to hydrate her. You couldn’t care less about the concert at that point, too concentrated on making sure this person was alright. 

Julien’s stomach started to churn, once again you were proving to her that you were perfect. There wasn’t anything Julien could flaw you on at this point. You stopped singing in the middle of a concert to go and take care of someone in need. How could she avoid her true feelings now? 

The song came to a close, and the bands lined up, wrapping their arms around each other's waists and bowing. Naomi, Jo and Katie blew kisses to the crowd and then they all walked offstage, a concert well performed. 

As Phoebe looked backstage she didn’t see you. She turned to the group and asked, “Did anyone see where (Y/N) went?” 

It came as a surprise to everyone when Julien answered, “They went to help someone in the audience, I saw them with medical.” 

Everyone nodded, Jo hoped the person was okay. Katie and Naomi went to ask someone about what had happened. It wasn’t soon after that you showed up.

Walking back to where you had just appeared from, Naomi and Katie both asked you “What happened?”

You told them that “Some girl in the barricade got really dehydrated and passed out, but she’s alright now!” 

A sigh of relief was heard from all 6 people, relieved that everyone was okay. Small chit chat was made until Jo spoke up “Okay I don’t know about you guys but it is hot as hell out here and I am going somewhere with air conditioning!”

“Finally someone said it!”

“Thank god I was starting to think I’d melt,”

Naomi, Katie, Lucy, and Phoebe dispersed after Jo, all talking about some record they’d listened to recently or where to get takeout from.

Julien stayed behind, and just as you were about to follow after the others she caught your arm. You turned towards her, “What’s up Jay?” The nickname leaves your lips in a second before you could think to not say it. 

Julien looked at you strangely and let go of your arm, not really realizing she had grabbed it in the first place. Another round of butterflies flew through her body as you looked at her questioningly.. “That was super cool what you did for that girl. Leaving mid song I mean.” 

You sighed, you were starting to get frustrated with her antics. Did she loathe you? Were you two friends? It seemed every other minute her feelings towards you changed. It was confusing the hell out of you. “Thanks.” You clipped, starting to walk away.

“That’s it?” Julien asked from behind you.

As you turned back around you noticed she stood as if trying to make her 5 foot frame seem taller, not that it was working. “What?”

“‘Thanks.’ That’s all you're gonna say? Normally you're much more chatty,” Julien laughed.

“I don’t know what you want from me Julien.” 

Julien pauses, looking at you with questions written all over her face.

“When I talk to you, you get snippy and you’re mean. When I don’t talk to you, you want me to talk more. I don’t get what your deal is with me?” You whisper-yelled, afraid someone from the crew would see your argument.

“I-” Julien stuttered, not being able to come up with anything to say.

Finally done with the back and forth banter that has been hurting your feelings ever since you met Julien you declared, “If you don’t want to be my friend just say it.”

Julien looked at you, eyes wide. You watched her as the gears turned in her head, trying to come up with what to say. You gave her a chance to explain herself, you set a mental timer of 30 seconds, if she didn’t say anything then you would go away. 

Those 30 seconds flew by without a peep from Julien, your eyes teared up as you spoke, “Fine, I’ll see you later I guess.” Turning around you went to your tour bus, wondering what you did to get Julien to dislike you so.

The only thing going through Julien’s mind was how she screwed up, bad.

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[elliet1ou]

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the confession- Julien Baker x lacy!reader

jj chats: y'all it is finally here. i would like to personally thank who ever first requested the jb x lacy!reader storyline!!! it has been so much fun to write these past few weeks. i think they'll be one more part after this, but maybe more if requested.

i love this couple so much so if you want certain scenarios with them please dm me or lmk!!!

part 1: linked

part 2: linked

part 3: linked

word count: around 2200 words i believe

warnings: RPF, use of y/n, pet names (princess), lots of cursing!!, argument,

feedback is encouraged and i'd love to get some just please be kind!!!

You stormed into your tour bus, smashing the door behind you. You thanked God that no one was on your bus because you knew as soon as the door closed that you wouldn’t be able to stop yourself from crying. You were so confused and frustrated. 

Why did Julien hate you so much? 

Why did she never want to talk to you? 

Why couldn’t you just get along?

The truth was that ever since the first time you met Julien Baker, you were enthralled by her. Her presence commanded respect, her songs were soul-crushing in the best way possible, and it didn’t help that she was gorgeous. You wanted to be her friend(or more than her friend) so bad you must have done something wrong, something to irk her when you first met. Because why else would she continue to hate you so?

Julien was addicting, as much as you knew she didn’t like you, as much as she made it alarmingly clear, you kept going back to her, trying to win her over, trying to make her laugh. As you paced around your trailer your heart started to ache, and a feeling of unease overcame your senses. You tried to put a name to this feeling, yet all you could think of was how you felt like an out-of-tune guitar sounded. 

You rushed over to your sink, turned on the faucet, and collected a palm full of freezing water, then threw it all over your face. The cold rush felt like little daggers impaling your skin a dozen times over, but it was just what you needed. Something to direct you back to your senses, something that, momentarily: made you forget about the woman you were beguiled with. It also helped grant you a moment of respite from the scorching heat of the day.

You stood in front of the sink for a few minutes, trying to collect yourself before leaving the trailer to meet up with the others for your annual after-concert dinner. That was until you heard a series of rapid knocks at your door. Your head quickly turned in its direction, eyes widening. You took in a deep breath before grabbing a towel and wiping off your face in one clean swoop. You approached the door, hand resting on the knob before pulling it toward you.

If someone had asked who was standing there facing you, you wouldn’t have been able to tell them. Even though your mind chanted her name over and over again, as if you were being hypnotized by her indubitable beauty, you were not able to speak her name.

“(Y/N), we need to talk.” She spoke. It was then you noticed her button-up had been unbuttoned a little more since the last time you saw her. Her cheeks were redder, her knuckles white as they were made into tight fists. Even her hair was a little messier. None of this made it easier for you to speak, yet you managed to get 2 words out.

“Please leave,” the words came sprawling out your mouth before you even had a chance to think, and your arms reacted before your brain could tell them to stay still. You slammed the door in her face. Standing there still, you leaned your head against the door, trying to regain your composure.

On the other side, you heard Julien groan before calling out “Just open the door, we need to talk!”

On instinct you opened the door again, Julien’s face was red, flushed with anger. Before you even had a chance to think she stepped into your trailer, closing the door behind her. She started to pace around, not looking at you.

“What the hell Julien?” You asked, crossing your arms in front of your chest.

Julien turned around to face you, her eyes piercing into yours. “What do you mean ‘what the hell?’” 

“You stormed into my tour bus? I have every right to be pissed!”

Julien scoffed, then mumbled something you could barely hear.

“What was that?” You asked, voice laced with angst.

“I said, you are such a hypocrite!” Julien was fuming, “You call me out for acting weird around you when you act weird around me too!” 

You were taken aback by her sentence, you shot out a quick “What the hell are you talking about?”

Julien took a step towards you, “Do you think I don’t notice how all the damn time you are just a bundle of sunshine,” she threw her hands in the air, “How perfect you try to act around me?” 

“Julien-”

“No! Let me finish! You offer me help, you never say a bad thing about anyone around me, you’re so fucking nice it's driving me insane!”

“Have you ever thought that maybe I am a naturally nice fucking person? That I’m not acting a part around you?”

Julien scoffed, “Nobody is that perfect (Y/N).”

“I never said I was!” You countered back.

Julien moved her fingers towards her temple, massaging the skin on the bridge of her nose. “Ugh God don’t lie!”

“Why are you making me out to be the bad guy here?” You asked head tilted to the side.

“I am not, you're digging yourself your own little perfect ditch,” Julien smirked, proud of herself for her comment.

Groaning you said, “God why won’t you stop it with that?”

Again with a smirk: “What, something bothering the perfect little princess?”

“Julien maybe if you opened your goddamn eyes you’d see you fucked up your logic is right now.” You took a step away, hand flying to grab the countertop.

“My logic is perfectly fine, princess,”

“Stop calling me that!” You yelled.

Julien huffed out, “Stop being so perfect!”

“I am not perfect!” You snarled.

Julien was frustrated, “You are infuriating, you know that?”

The laugh that left your lips was one of confusion and anger, its message clear.  “Why are you so mad? You seemed fine ignoring me a couple of hours ago!”

“Why am I mad? Why am I mad?” Julien breathed out, if this were a cartoon you would have seen smoke pouring out her ears.

You looked at her disgruntled, “Yes Julien! Why are you mad? I have been nothing but kind to you, and yet you hate me!”

“I don’t hate you.” Julien snapped

A scoff left your lips and then “Then what is it?”

“I love you!” All of a sudden the world went quiet. Julien's face whitened, your grasp on the counter wavered and you felt your stomach sink. 

“What?” You asked for the comparison from your voice but 10 seconds ago varied so much to the volume it was at now. 

Julien looked at you, her eyes wide. She opened her mouth to speak but nothing came out. 

You could feel the anger you held dissipate when you took in Julien’s deflated form. You started to reach out to her, “Julien-” She cut you off by walking towards your trailer door, ready to leave. Instead of letting her walk away, you ran after her, grabbing her wrist and pulling her away from the door. 

Julien looked into your eyes, her own filling with tears. You had no clue what was going through her mind at that moment but you could tell she was extremely upset. “(Y/N) I didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable,” 

Quickly your hand moved into her hand, squeezing lightly. “Shhh, you didn’t. I swear, it’s just-” You stopped talking, feeling anxious when you looked into Julien’s eyes, her gaze was potent. 

Julien tilted her head confused at your sudden stop “Just?”

You looked at her, and swallowed the lump in your throat. In a hushed tone, you asked “Why did you say that?”

Julien looked between your eyes and then pulled you to a couch, sitting you both down. She sighed before saying “Because it’s the truth.” Her features held a fear, fear that you would reject her.

“You love… me?” Your question came out in a whisper. You were desperate for the answer.

Julien laughed a bit as if your question was funny. “Yes, I do.”

“Why?” You asked, straightening your back. Your brain worked overtime, trying to come up with a reason as to why she would say this to you, you couldn’t believe these words were anything but a fabrication meant to cause you more heartbreak.

Julien scoffed at your question, “Why? Are you kidding me?”

You shook your head.

Julien looked at you, confused “Because you’re you! You’re kind and you’re funny, and you just like saved a random girl's life tonight because you could!-”

“I didn’t save her life she was just a little dehydra-”

Julien moved her index finger out to your face, resting it on your lips. Immediately you shut up. She continued “You are infuriating, and I can’t stop thinking about you. I know I’ve been shitty recently, but I- I don’t have a good excuse. The best I could come up with was that I was scared of falling for you. I mean- God- look at you! You’re perfect! And I’m me!-”

“-Julien-” you started to speak but were cut off again by the tattooed woman in front of you. 

“-And I thought there was no way someone like you could ever love someone like me. So I tried to push my feelings down and I ended up hurting you in the process and I am so sorry. So I completely understand if you hate me and want me to leave. I just- I guess I just wanted to tell you that I- that I- that I love you.” Julien stuttered, her nerves getting the better of her. “I should probably just leave now, again I am so sor-”

“Julien if you say sorry one more time!” Cutting her off she looked at you with shock, terrified of your response. She had just laid her heart out to you on a platter. Now it was your decision to keep it safe and treat it like a prize, or throw it away like a piece of junk. “Julien, if you would just stop talking for one minute, please. I need to say something.” 

Julien nodded at you, you had almost forgotten her hand was in yours, the feeling felt so right, so familiar. “Do you not think you infuriate me as well? Why do you think I keep coming back to you? I want you. I feel like I need you to breathe.” You let every thought in your head out and watched as Julien’s face morphed from scared to confused. “It pains me to hear you say you feel like I could never love you. Please stop saying that, it-it hurts.” You paused again, waiting for an indication of what was going through Julien’s head. She looked at you, eyes wide like a deer caught in the middle of the road. Again, you found your voice and added “Because I do. I do love you. Possibly even more than you love me.”

Julien’s eyes finally had a look of relief on them, her shoulders slumped a bit as she lowered her head, a tear falling down her cheek. She took a deep breath before looking up at you, a smile growing on her face as she said, “I don’t think that is possible.”

Cocking your head you stared at her blankly, uttering a “What?” 

Julien’s demeanor changed from crying to cocky as she said“There's no way you could love me more than I love you.” Julien said with a smirk.

You could feel your heart swell, you felt like you were high on adrenaline, just beyond confused yet excited at how the night had led to this. You and Julien, sitting together, hands interlocked and faces just inches from each other. “Really? Because I can prove it.” You smirked back, your body felt electric like you could do anything.

“I’d like to see that.” Julien giggled, squeezing your hand.

“I bet you would, Jay.” you smiled

You heard a sharp inhale from Julien after you spoke her nickname, and in an instant Julien's demeanor changed, and like magnets her lips connected with yours. Your hands moved to grasp Julien’s cheek and upper arm, feeling her warm skin beneath your fingers. You could feel her soft lips intertwined with yours, brushing past each other. And when you pulled away you rested your foreheads together, catching your breath. 

“Thank you,” you heard Julien whisper, her breath fanning against your lips.

Bewildered, you pull away from Julien, looking at her confusedly, “Huh? What for?” 

“For proving that you are perfect,” Julien’s face wrinkles up as she smiles wide. She’s glowing and you think to yourself, if anyone is perfect…it's Julien.

“Awww Jay, stop!” you playfully frown at her, however, your face turns as red as a strawberry at Julien’s blatant compliment.

Julien shakes her head at you before muttering out 5 infuriating words “Never in a million years,” She pauses and then smirks again, “Princess.” You scoff and roll your eyes at her as she pulls you into her again. Hands running up and down your arms.

As you ease into her touch you can only think of how this

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when she realizes shes in love - Julien Baker x lacy!reader

jj chats: i originally planned for the confession to be here too, but i wanted to switch it up so here is part 3!!!! also i recommend reading the first part before reading this it is linked here! the second part is linked here!

word count: around 1300 i think

warnings: RPF, use of y/n, reader is a musician/famous, julien is a little oblivious!!!, phoebe and lucy make more of an apperance, use of the word bitch in reference to how julien's been acting towards reader

inspired by the request: i lovvved your love Julien fic based on lacy SO much!!! you’re crazy talented <3 would you consider writing more parts of it? 🎀🩷 like maybe how julien falls more and more in love and maybe an eventual angry love confession from julien, and their first date/kiss?

feedback is encouraged and i'd love to get some just please be kind!!!

Julien watched as you strutted towards the rest of your friends. Her eyes were glazed over, a complete phase of confusion was throwing her off. She thought you walking away from her would be a relief, but it set off the opposite reaction. Julien felt like a deflated balloon, and she didn’t understand why. She thought that she hated you, so why was she so saddened by your dismissal? Her stomach started to churn as her palms got sweaty. She needed to get out of the heat. She started walking towards Phoebe, Lucy, and hers' tour bus. All she needed was a cold glass of water and she’d feel better, right?

As Julien rushed to her bus she spotted yours just a little in the distance. You got your one bus as you were a solo artist, she’d seen glimpses of the inside and was always in awe of your ability to keep it clean. Her's was a mess. Opening the door and walking up onto the bus she spotted Lucy and Phoebe sitting on the small couch, Phoebe held an ice pack to her head as Lucy was fanning herself with a magazine.

“Hey, Julien!” Lucy grinned.

“What took you so long out there dude?” Phoebe laughed, lifting the ice pack to get a better look at her bandmate.

Julien stuttered for a moment, trying to come up with a logical excuse “Just finishing something up," she lied straight through her teeth. Lucy and Phoebe shared a look as Julien turned to the cooler to grab a bottle of water.

“(Y/N) just came stomping over to their trailer just a minute ago.” Lucy sighed.

“Yeah they slammed the door so hard we could feel it all the way over here,” Phoebe noted. Both of them waited for Julien's response, eyebrows raised.

Julien paused at the mention of your name, but mostly at your reaction. She was scared she made you upset. Which was weird because she thought she didn’t care about how you felt.

“That got anything to do with you coming here later than normal?” Lucy asked, head turning to the side.

Julien shook her head, replying with a quick “Nope!” She opened the water bottle and took a swig from it, hopping the quick movement of her head would hide the ever-so-slight blush was was quickly creeping up on her face.

Bluntly, Phoebe asked, “Why don’t you like them?”

Julien’s cheeks reddened, “What?”

“(Y/N), why don’t you like them?” Phebe asked again, raising her eyebrows in the ‘I know you're hiding something’ way.

Julien’s eyebrows shot up as she stuttered out “I do like them! No- wait, not like that, like friends. We’re friends.”

Lucy and Phoebe shared a look before Lucy spoke up. “Julien, you know we love you, but you’ve been kinda a bitch to them since we left for the tour.”

Phoebe dropped the ice pack, “Yeah you're off and on with them, kinda like a little kid with a crush.” The comment wasn’t supposed to mean anything, but as Lucy and Phoebe watched Julien's reaction, the flush of her cheeks, and the fidgeting of her hands, they knew it hit something.

“Wait, Julien-”

“I don’t have a crush on them.” Julien stammered, drinking more from her water bottle.

The bus went silent for a moment before Lucy spoke up, “Be honest with us Julien, how do you feel about them?”

Julien stood in thought for a moment, contemplating what to say. It was an impossible question. The first words that came to her mind were a plethora of adjectives: annoying, beautiful, electrifying, smart, passionate, ethereal, kind. But what came out of Julien's mouth was something much more poetic and something that surprised Julien, even as she spoke.

“(Y/N)'s good, they care about people in a way I’ll never understand. They see good in other people, appreciate the small things, help someone in need, and hold doors open for other people. They care more about my opinion of them than anything, even though they needn’t. For a while I thought I hated them, I think that I mistook the butterflies in my stomach for spiders and mistook the cause of my sweaty palms. I still don’t know how I feel about them, but I- I don't know. Honestly."

Lucy and Phoebe exchanged yet another look, Phoebe throwing a smirk in Lucy’s direction as Julien looked off into space. Julien stood still, still deep in thought as she made a heart-racing realization: this whole time she’s been in love with you. She just didn’t know it, well, maybe she had an inkling at first.

When you had first met you had a warm smile on your face and you had pulled Julien into a hug. You had a look in your eye as if you were wise beyond your years but didn’t brag about it. As you had your arms wrapped around the tattooed woman, she was overwhelmed with the aura that surrounded you. It felt safe, clear, and as if she belonged there. But when Julien absorbed that, she took it in and was scared. Scared that she might fall for you. So instead she pushed it down.

Pretending that smile was worthless, your wisdom meant nothing, and that the hug was suffocating.

But then you kept proving her wrong. She saw you cry, it made her remember and caused her to accept that you weren’t an emotionless robot but a human. She watched as you made your friends laugh with jokes and how you’d remember small details, it made her realize you cared. She saw when you did good things for the sake of doing something good you could have turned a blind eye and walked the opposite way. She watched as you did the right thing and realized you were not the monster she made you out to be. These realizations took turns melting her heart, cracking at the ice.

Tonight they had made it through. Love flooded through Julien’s body and her heartbeat chanted your name only.

It was a sick conclusion to a story you played the innocent. You were corrupted by the dark cloud Julien forced over your head. Julien started to feel sick. She’d been cruel to you for far too long, and tonight was your breaking point. Her flesh felt like it was boiling with rage, she was furious with herself for not realizing sooner.

Suddenly she remembered she wasn’t the only one in the room, “Julien? You okay dude?” Phoebe spoke up.

Julien nodded, “Yeah just realized something, thas’ all.” Julien muttered, southern accent peaking through a bit.

“That you’re in love with (Y/N)?”

Julien’s head shot up, and she stuttered out a quick “What?” Had it been the obvious?

Lucy patted Phoebe's leg, taking over the conversation “It’s been obvious for weeks, this whole ‘I hate you so much! But when you do something nice with or for someone else I’m like your biggest fan!’ It’s kind of exhausting to watch, especially since it hasn’t clicked for either of you yet.”

Julien looked confused, “What do you mean ‘it hasn’t clicked for either of us yet’?”

“You're both in love with each other!” Phoebe chimed in, smiling happily.

Julien’s look of pure dumbfoundedness prompted Lucy to explain a little more. “First off, you both stare at each other when you think no one is looking. (Y/N) always asks me about you, they bring over your favorite foods. I mean one time I told them about a band you liked and I saw them listening to all of their records for like a week straight.”

“And you are blushing like a madman right now,” Phoebe chimed in, “not so slick now, huh Baker?” She sent a wink in Julien's direction.

Julien’s mind started to race, thinking back to all of your interactions over the past few months, how you acted towards her, how she acted towards you. And suddenly, it was all clicking into place.

“I’m in love with (Y/N),” It was like a weight lifted off her chest at the admittance of those words. The whole world slowed and she started to picture a future where you weren’t just someone who was ‘just there’ but someone who was in every snapshot.

But just like that the butterflies turned into a mothball.

“I’m in love with (Y/N).” the realization of that hit hard like a car had crashed into Julien’s chest at a million miles per hour. She had been cruel, so harsh. She’d ignored you and was snippy with you. How could she have gotten too mixed up with her feelings to confuse love with red-hot annoyance?

But Julien only had one question on her mind: How could you ever forgive her?

#julien baker x reader #boygenius x reader #julien baker fanfic #julien baker fluff #julien baker au #julien baker one shot #julien baker x singer!reader #julien baker angst #julien baker x lacy!reader #jj writes #muna x reader

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guys the julien and lacy reader angst confession comes out tmr i am so excited for you all to read it

#julien baker x reader #julien baker fanfic #julien baker x lacy!reader #jj chats

[outofmydepthatapublicbeach]

omg for the past couple days i have been working on the julien x lacy!reader confession!!! ive have a very busy couple days but i swear (pinkie promise) it will be out before friday!!

#julien baker x reader #boygenius #julien baker fanfic #julien baker fluff #julien baker x lacy!reader #jj chats

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next julien x lacy!reader comes out tmr!! not the confession tho!! thats coming later this week (hopefully) tmr will be julien realizing something big!!! love yall!!! 🩷🩷🩷🩷

#julien baker x reader #julien baker x lacy!reader

[outofmydepthatapublicbeach]

I looove lacy! reader sm 🫶🫶🫶

i am so glad you all like the lacy!reader fics!! i am going to work on adding to their story this weekend!!

#julien baker x reader #julien baker x lacy!reader

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lacy!reader pt 2 it’s sooo good! can’t wait for chapters !!!

i am so glad you all are liking it!! i had so much fun writing it!! more parts are on the way!! 🩷

#julien baker x reader #julien baker fluff #jj chats #julien baker x lacy!reader

[outofmydepthatapublicbeach]

i just want julien and lacy!reader to be happy and together (and julien talking about her feelings ofc)

yess that is coming!!!! but first a little angsty stuff which is out tmr!!! im so excited for y'all to read it!!! <333

#julien baker x reader #jj chats #julien baker angst #julien baker x lacy!reader

[outofmydepthatapublicbeach]

i lovvved your love Julien fic based on lacy SO much!!! you’re crazy talented <3

would you consider writing more parts of it? 🎀🩷 like maybe how julien falls more and more in love and maybe an eventual angry love confession from julien, and their first date/kiss?

i am beyond excited to write these!!!! the first one should be coming out sometime soon which will be julien falling more in love with reader and a little angst!!!!

#julien baker x reader #julien baker fanfic #boygenius x reader #julien baker fluff #jj chats #julien baker x lacy!reader

[outofmydepthatapublicbeach]

i adored julien x lacy!reader i hope we can see more of this couple ☹️

yess omg!!! i am working on developing their story more!! im so excited!! and thank you for all the love y'all it means the world to me!!!

#jj chats #julien baker x lacy!reader

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jj's masterlist

all of my posts are categorized here!! hopefully, i will continuously update it!!!

*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧

julien baker colored mood boards (completed)

red

orange

yellow

green

blue

purple

pink

b&w

*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧

phoebe bridgers colored mood boards (completed)

red

orange

yellow

green

blue

purple

pink

b&w

*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧

lucy dacus colored moodboards (in progress)

red

orange

yellow

green

blue

purple

pink

b&w

*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧

the boys mood boards (completed)

the boys

julien & phoebe

lucy & phoebe

lucy & julien

*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧

fluff abcs

julien baker

phoebe bridgers

naomi mcpherson

*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧

headcannons

random julien baker 1

request: julien has a crush on singer!reader at the grammys

request: julien x controversially young!gf

request: jo x oblivious!reader

request: naomi x bassist!reader

julien x tall!reader

request: secret admirer julien x reader

request: naomi x popstar! reader

request: julien x short!reader

request: clubbing with naomi

*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧

fics

on the balcony- Julien Baker x fem!reader

comfort from the rain- Julien Baker x fem!reader

the field- Julien Baker x fem!reader

stargazing- Julien Baker x fem!reader

request: once more to see you by mitski- Julien Baker x fem!reader

request: casual?- Julien Baker x fem!reader

request: morning cuddles- Julien Baker x masc!reader

*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧

blurbs

reader coming out to munagenius

phoebe comforts reader after a call from readers dad

reader has an ex in munagenius from years ago-> then dates another member a few years later

more phoebe comfort

katie comfort with comphet reader w/ boyfriend

phoebe comfort reader in the bunks

munagenius comforting reader who comes out

short: julien comforts reader in the bunk

*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧

series

Julien Baker x lacy!reader- part 1 part 2 part 3 part 4 part5??(maybe???)

#julien baker x reader #julien baker fanfic #julien baker fluff #boygenius x reader #masterlist #muna x reader #phoebe bridgers fanfic #phoebe bridgers x reader #jo maskin x reader #naomi mcpherson x reader