#my vows have me in my feels

[ducktracy]

compilation of my villagers bullying me. this will be a growing collection. these are all from today alone.

#‘but Eliza didn’t you start a new Wild World town on an emulator’ Yes #i’ve had this town for 4 years which is the best i’ve ever done LOL but my cartridge is showing its age and freezing and i don’t #feel like getting yelled at Resetti. but i dislike the controls for the ROM especially since my keyboard is weird #so we’ll make do. somehow #Purrl in my GC town was dumb like Purrl in my WW town i’m pretty sure i did a reset trick and cheated her in LOL #DUMB LUCK #which is what i’m vowing to stop doing by starting all these towns #‘don’t cheat or constantly delete your town to get good villagers’ is like the most basic thing you can do but my AC #perfectionism and neuroticism runs very deeply #when i was a kid if i got a villager i hated i would delete the town without question and would refuse to look at the screen. i hated Cesar #and Boone for this reason and them moving into my town is the worst thing that ever could have happened to me and it happened many times #because i was a RESETTING FOOL!!! #i love you deeply Animal Crossing but you have made me foster some incredibly odd neuroses #ac

[vani-candy]

i love the burrito baby they posted on the subreddit

#my time at sandrock #mtas fang #mtas oc #mtas builder #oc x canon #burrito baby #or bean baby #or ball baby #hc: mitty and fang vow to themselves they'll be responsible parents only to spoil their daughter when she arrives #that baby is 100% going to grow up to be a daddys girl because im sentimental #me: fangs relationship with his own “dad” is very bad so what if i flip it around #my favorite is fang's child thinking hes the best dad EVER #and i feel like fang would absolutely spoil his kid(s) and give them the happy childhood he didnt get to have #doodle #silly doodle #vani candy art

[bacchuschucklefuck]

assorted thoughts 1/when sklonda mentioned getting drinks with sandra lynn now and then I straight up cheered I was so scared for her social life being so overworked 2/straight up have no judgement on the whole ratgrinder situation on account of being a whole grown man. Im not getting into beef with fictional teenagers let them sort that out among themselves 3/sprak levefre

#not art #my oldest daughter with a grown sibling ass going I hope sklonda makes time to chill #she should be at the club. for free. they should pay her to be at the club #honestly its kind of a thing with riz too but thats more like. ok the thing is riz just fr loves mysteries #so tbh its more like if u yknow. love drawing and u draw for fun #and now u also draw for job. like I feel like thats the thing thats going on with riz #dude who playtests as a job and then goes home and plays more games. but with mysteries #but with sklonda it really feels like. its something shes Good at bc shes diligent and careful and has a moral spine #rather than something she actively enjoys. like her job is solidly her Job #so she immediately hits that alarm trigger in my brain seeing moms going about like #!!!⚠️⚠️STOP⚠️⚠️!! DO YOU HAVE A HOBBY ARE YOU CULTIVATING YOUR SOCIAL LIFE #and with her it fucking Got me too bc she just! doesnt seem to have the time to build that for herself #and the fact that she (Like Riz) is Living While Goblin in elmville and the isolation that probably entailed #like the empty nesting down the line would hit her like a baseball bat it would be Brutal #so genuinely knowing that she is casually hanging out with sandra lynn (and probably other parents in the group as well) #thats a whole piece of anxiety off my mind watching this show lmao. moms! #anyways sprak lefevre my beloved. actually I retract my vow of neutrality sprak's party better really like him and treat him right #or else. #he is prrrrrobably an artificer but personally itd be so funny if he isnt. what if hes a bard

[meadowlarkx]

One of my favorite things about the worldbuilding in The Left Hand of Darkness is the "perverts" in Gethenian society—those who are permanently in one of the kemmer forms. The "normal" person on Gethen goes through a kemmer cycle with periods of somer, but that's not every Gethenian. People whose bodies don't work this way get treated with repulsion. Genly compares them to "homosexuals" in his society, and that comparison is really instructive. Gethenians may not have gender roles and identities the way we do, but they do have societal norms, including about bodies and sexuality. And those norms leave people out. They are imperfect and sometimes they are unfair. I think this is part of the point.

In subtle ways, this theme is woven throughout the book's descriptions of Gethenian cultures. To stick to sexuality, something similar can be said about the different norms surrounding incest on Gethen and the empathic treatment of Estraven's past relationship with Arek. There is no taboo about incest between siblings on Gethen, only on siblings vowing kemmering, but if a child is born of it, the parents have to separate (and it seems like Estraven is separated from Sorve because of this). The reason for including this element, in my reading, isn't to impose our own moral standards by "showing" that Estraven's relationship with Arek was "bad" (in fact, we learn fairly little about it, beyond that Estraven cared deeply for him.) Instead, I think it's partly to demonstrate the dissonance between Gethenian mores and our own, and unsettle both. Because, like Genly, we see Gethenian norms as strange, we can notice that they bring about particular situations and cause particular hurts. Even the custom of vowing kemmering monogamously for life, which sounds more familiar, is shown as double-edged. Estraven breaks a taboo by making his "false" vow to Ashe, but was trying to build a new life with Ashe really wrong?

These things are not 1:1 to any "real life" issue, but like everything else in this story, I think they're chosen because they are provocative. It's really meaningful to me that even in terms of gender and sexuality, Gethen isn't painted as a utopia, but as a real place. Le Guin shows us two sets of norms and asks us not just "are our norms arbitrary and/or constructed rather than essential truths?" but also "are norms always socially constructed? Should we question them sometimes? What harm is done to maintain them? Who is being left out?"

#the left hand of darkness #lhod #my posts #thank you alix jouissants for reading over this and aiding me to express more clearly <3 <3 <3 #and idk i am obsessed with ''estraven the traitor'' being a name from folk legend. with the way the character who comes across most moral #and most thoughtful betrays the norms of patriotism and of prejudice against ''perverts''. vows twice and had a child with his sibling #it says something powerful i think about what is really important and more important about a person ultimately. character of all time. #this is not to say the normless utopia could/should exist or that the portrayal of gethenian cultures is wholly negative btw--not at all #constructed =/= useless or without power/meaning or completely arbitrary either #just it is such a thoughtful book. and it's saying so much on so many levels #obviously i haven't even touched here shifgrethor or suicide or the budding nationalism... and i don't have my copy on me. #maybe some of this seems obvious but it feels worth highlighting #edit: there's more to say about the sibling thing and ursula's logic in why a society that places different associations on sex might be #mainly concerned with avoiding kids born of those unions--but i'm thinking here about what we see of estraven's experience

[buckttommy]

block one anon and 5+ messages disappear every single time. lol

#You guys are weird #I did actually screenshot one of their messages to answer later if I feel like it. #But I... seriously broke my vow last night. And I don't want to get caught up again in how ugly and impulsive this fandom makes me feel/act #because 1) that's not how I am in real life 2) we're all here to have a good time 3) that doesn't spark joy #So. Let me just organize my thoughts. Wake up a little. And see where to go from there

[tony-andonuts]

Hey by the way. If you can't respect and acknowledge mentally AND Physically disabled people, people of color, immigrants who don't know your country's language, queer people (ESP TRANS PEOPLE), fat people, people who aren't of your religion, and overall anyone not like you,

YOU HAVE NO FUCKING BUSINESS WORKING IN HEALTHCARE!!!!!!!!!!!

#the amount of conservatives i work with makes me wanna derogatorily thow up and then shred them with my vomit covered teeth #when you work in healthcare you vow to help your patients/residents NO MATTER WHAT. #it doesnt matter if you think theyre delusional because theyre trans or you think theyre delusional #becauase they have dimentia. you fucking help that person out while acknowledging them as a HUMAN BEING #WHO DESERVES LOVE AND COMPASSION #its a stressful field to be honest but its so important to give others a better quality of life when you can #its too late for me to learn chinese but im still trying to learn small #words and phrases bclike #isolation fucking sucks #and the us healthcare system already makes chronically disabled people feel like invisible trash bc 'ew we dont wanna see *those* freaks #in public. #and i couldnt imagine experiencing that ON TOP OF NOT EVEN BEING ABLE TO SPEAK TO ANYONE!! #anyways the healthcare field is perfect for autistics and both low and high empathy people. so long as you have a bit of patience #tony speaks

[roxyandelsewhere]

"I'm not a damn thing but this time that lasts between running from finding myself and finding myself while running." (x)

SPN moments but abstract [17/?] - The ouroboros of Carver era Dean, aka "what if Dean's present had been presented as connected to his past"

inprnt.| society6 | ko-fi

#SURPRISE BITCH! BET YOU THOUGHT YOU'D SEEN THE LAST OF ME (i feel like it's not the first time i say this) #spn #spnart #spn art #spnabstract #mine.caro #i keep having art hiatus i'm sorry. but i refuse to make art feel like a chore so sometimes my brain says NO and i say Okay :( #anyways i'm back babeyy #ok so. what do we have here this time #this post has so many links posting it feels like a whole thing. i'm gonna add this one to the stores now uwu #this was motivated by my frustration with carver era dean having all these things happen to him that feel like punchlines to his whole life #but they're not presented that way. he becomes a demon after All That in previous seasons and the connection isn't made #hence the FMI line. i did josémáriobranconatural again but i had to #i wrote a list of bullet points when i was trying to figure this one out and it says: #'Hunting monsters while running away from becoming one and becoming a monster by how he hunts them in purgatory and with the mark of cain' #'Running from becoming a demon until daddy's little girl breaks in thirty and is pulled from the rack by an angel #and then is killed by an angel and becomes a demon' #'Black eyes and branded arms pointing death at the family he's become a monster out of the vow to protect' #and lastly you can't have a visual essay on performanceboy without touching on that part so this is supposed to look #like we're seeing it all through a window. suburban house window even #i thought it'd be more visually interesting if the lines of the window weren't there but you can also see it as the window not being there #and there you have it folks. finally a new one!! #pros: i'm drawing again. cons: i'm still in the spn pit

[shi0n]

had a bit of a crush last year but now going back to my 7 year long one-sided love. not that it was ever gone but i shant waver like this again.

#i made a vow to myself 5 years ago that i would never love anyone else #even if my feelings were to change in the future #wavering a little every now and then cant be helped but i do intend to honor this vow #yes im a totally normal person dont even worry about it.... #hmm actually i dont think having a crush even counts as me wavering in my conviction #since the feeling is completely different compared to love #a crush is just something fun and fleeting. #even when i have one. i still truly only care about my beloved person (in the romantic sense. i do care about my friends as well w)

[birdricks]

this shit makes me want to die

#sorry. rewatched this ep the other night its been on my mind #low effort post Watever. at some point im gona make a comp of allll tthis kinda shit bc i feel insane. probably after s7 #BC HE COULD STILL APPEAR. #bbrruuhhh ricks face turning from excitement to confusion to disappointment as he realises what the eggvite is. fuck my life #like god damnnnn he was so happy to hear from him. fuck it #IT DOESNT COME UP ON THE SUBS but teh way rick like groans in pain when bp says his vows. just fuciking kill me please. please #this whole ep is soooo good and has aged SO well #not just in terms of birdrick but also like... just everything. the characterisation is soooo good for everyone in this ep ESPECIALLY JERRY #mannnn. wicked good ep espcially now #also Hi can we talk abt rick seemingly carrying around a photo of the flesh curtains together. like did he cring that specifically to #the wedding or does he just have it on him at all times. hello #its so dark

[goldensunset]

i never know how to react when someone presumably my age range or younger gets like dunked on for asking what a certain slightly older piece of technology is. cus like it’s really rude to bully someone who’s genuinely curious like that and just wants to talk to a real person. but then at the same time i feel like if you’ve at least heard of the thing before you should probably be able to figure out that it’s a certified Relic Of Older Times Thing. and in turn you should know that if you completely shamelessly roll up into an older person’s inbox asking what a floppy disk is you will become the spark of another ‘i have been alive too long help me the horrors of aging are setting in’ type of post. good on you you’re not to blame for that person’s existential crisis but for me personally i would rather die than personally put myself on display as the certified idiot young person of the day to be at least indirectly mocked

#is the rsd showing #peach rambles #kinda surprises me that some people haven’t at least heard of rotary phones #i remember trying to play with it lol. never properly used it myself #i couldn’t actually tell you about floppy disks. but i’m aware they were a thing. i have an Idea you know. #it’s like just memory storage more or less right #i’m not fixing to stroll up to an older person and to ask them. i would get laughed at and be humiliated #burning cds either refers to copying them or making them altogether #i have used vcrs! i remember those! and stuff like old school ipods #i was too young to have a flip phone or some other simpler cell phone equivalent but i remember ppl around me having them #this is my vow someday someone will ask me what a dvd is and i will be kind to them. #i will answer their question instead of turning to my peers and being like aaaahahaha isn’t it crazy being old??? dang wow 🤣 #right in front of their face #i want to create a better world in which people don’t have to feel afraid like i do

[the-trans-dragon]

Y'know it was REALLY goddamn evil and nefarious that the oil fields gave my mom (a single mom working 3 jobs to raise 2 kids) a single $5,000 check in exchange for her signing a nondisclosure to never complain about them.

Of course we fucking took the money. Even with her working 1 full-time job and 2 part-time jobs, she barely made over $1,000 a month. Of course she took the money. We though about moving but we still couldn't afford it. She was so frugal with it, though. It did give us a sliver of financial security for years.

But goddamn. $5,000 is table scraps to them, and they bought her silence with it because she couldn't refuse the chance to slightly lessen the weight of poverty on her family.

#sorenhoots #i remember i was like 11 or something. she didnt know if she should sign it. and its not like we had or knew any lawyers. she had ME read it #over and even i was like “this is a nondisclosure and it means you cant ever talk about anything they do even if they do something terrible” #i recall being very proud of myself for knowing what a NDA was. lord knows where my middle-school self learned that from. she did eventually #have a lawyer of some sort look over it and they said the same thing but.... $5000 #it wasnt an option for her. that was more money than wed ever had or saved. she had two kids who would need cars bc we lived so far in the #country. she knew i wanted to go to college. i dont think i ever saw her buy herself clothes before then either. it was money for emergencys #and necessities and birthday presents and road trips and... i often wondered about the person who offered us that. i wondered where they #lived and wondered how much their clothes costed and wondered if their kids got to have art or piano lessons. i wondered if their home was #over 80 degrees in the summer and under 60 in the winter and if they lived in a house that wasnt filled with dangerous spiders (we had nice #spiders too but we did also have Very Dangerous Spiders) and id picture him in his office in a button up and slacks and it would break my #heart that my mom couldnt have all of that. we just had a $5000 check and a vow to not complain. #she still feels earthquakes from it. less nowdays but still. and sometimee it still smells like a jar of hot petroleum jelly. and the attic #smell is worse than ever and the tap water smells like sulfur and wet mold #goddamn what the fuck? jesus christ. she should move.

[marietheran]

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#Went to Confession (again) #am still at my most miserable and confused #look I am aware I cannot ask of the priest to tell me <<oh that was only a venial sin you needn't mind>> #but it's also just really freaking hard when you just cannot tell a venial sin from a mortal one #and I know - I know - if you looked at it my attitude towards life is pretty dumb #to write a scathing report: i view life as a path of least resistance. I'm governed either by whims or by fear #which means I have no middle perspective. It's either what's easier now or being afraid of hell #I hardly pay any attention to matters like health or whatever. if I wasn't afraid of sin I wouldn't care about how things impact my mind #If I wasn't afraid of sin I'd have read Game of Thrones or whatever. and of course I would feel unimaginably dirty afterwards. but at least #I'd have read something interesting right? /s #oh and also I'm literally Emma Bovary minus the adultery but that's a different issue #mostly. some of it is probably more connected than obvious at first glance #I'm miserable and it's not even the sort of misery you can make poetry about. #only scathing character portraits. if i was a character from a novel you would hate me #(i would find the novel boring. mundane. there's nothing romantic in this) #(i wouldn't *prefer* to deal with wars - death of everyone you've known - unbreakable badly worded vows or whatever. #but it makes for better stories) #but again you would hate me in mine #// #therese rambles #therese is in an emotional hole #possibly more than emotional but that's the tag

[lemongogo]

#HELPP ok i have thoughts.my thinking cap back on #LOVEE the ending as far as the actual direction goes yk.like people seeing (literally) the pain&plight of plants #and vowing to protect and look after them w utmost care #loved that knives technically survived the fall and the aftermath esp in recruiting someone to care for vash #BUTTT i dont know how i feel ab his death ;___; the symbolism w the apple tree and him using the last of his energy is sweet #and i dont think i would dislike it necessarily if we just had more time #to marinate in his story.i think... the ending does not give u a lot of time to reach the full conclusion #i think that theres a whole side to his story i WISHH nightow explored and i wish we had seen knives turmoil and vashs acceptance of his #experiences more than the select few scenes we got beforehand. its soo rushed T_T DONT GET ME WRONG im still more or less satisfied that #we didnt get an ending like.. oh everyones dead and miserable and vash killed knives and ppl never learn to coexist right #like it could actually be so thematically worse BUTT im just like. THATS ITTT??? THATS ALL..sitting here twiddling my thumbs #waiting for a complete resolution thatll never come to be.and it sucks bc i wish i could look towards stampede to get that neat wrap up #but stampede completely altered knives' story and fell into the nasty horrid pittrap of aligning him with reprehensible values #so no conclusion of theres will ever touch on max!knives' conclusion and i think that is the thing im looking 4 the most #no conclusion of theirs* sry LAWL #also read some posts (by trigum LUVV ur analyses btw i need to rb some now that i finished) that the max ending #doesnt give vash an ACTUAL ending. we reach the climax in his confrontation with legato and then his commitment to save knives #but anything beyond that just doesnt exist. MY GODD imagining a reality where we got like 5 more chapters at LEAST to #give it a hearty ending #anyways. the reporter bit is so cute im bummed they went straight to that in stamp :sob: best like... cute ending fr #trigun spoilers #trigun maximum #trigun #vash

[devilofthepit]

nyx screamo era!!!?!? what bands👀

OMGGG thank u for asking hehehe <333 it started bc @destroyingangela and i wanna play music together and he sent me songs he plays on bass so i could learn them on guitar and there was a bunch of selfish machines era pierce the veil which got me back into them and other stuff i listened to in my emo phase like fall out boy lol BUT then i started listening to stuff from that era that i wasn’t that into during my emo phase like the used, thursday, hawthorne heights, circa survive, saosin, and chiodos :3 idk if any of that counts as screamo or if it’s more post hardcore but i looooove it!! if u have any more recs send them my way <333 music just doesn’t sound this way anymore….

most of it was stolen from this playlist by an insta mutual:

#sorry that was a long answer i feel the need to give context #it made me realize i was so right for being into emo/screamo as a kid #and it’s not that i don’t like emo anymore it’s that 2020s emo(s) is. so bad #but that’s not unique to emo tho it seems like all much punk and metal is commercialized #it’s either new bands capitalizing on nostalgia or bands that used to be big making deeply mid stuff (new pierce the veil and korn etc) #there are some good goth bands these days but it’s all just emulating older stuff… #i’ve vowed to change this when i make music #but if u know if any good current bands in those genres i’d love them im sick of only going to shows for mid local hardcore bands or arena #shows for bands that have been around awhile #lesbomination #thank u for asking :))) #love when my mutuals talk to me wowee #the inherent intimacy of using my name….i am known…..:)

[todayisafridaynight]

stream tomorrow. ~3pm est. this fuckin site. if i dont get hit by a car by then.

#snap chats #ill make another reminder post an hour before the stream tomorrow dont worry #yes this is related yes this is also so i can be angry FUCK #imagine being an american and waking up and reading the news and wanting to light everything on fire #anyways. before i bring politics into my funny sideblog. #ive been shirking /drafting/ a comic all week cause i keep getting distracted And Brother I Feel Another Impulsive Idea Enter The Dome #ok im lying its another idea ive had cooking in the back ever since i made my initial tattoo post but it's a short silly comic #so i think i can get the one day Relatively quickly #BUUUUT the main monster i wanna do.... idk what ive been shirking it it SHOULDNT be terribly long #it SHOULD be pretty simple and just me being Smart and Funny right and yet... brain broken. #i dont know if i want to make it especially long or keep it short and sweet... #SOOOO this all relates back to Stream Tomorrow because i wanna have it at least DRAFTED in my head by then #not another accountability stream... uh oh... #i vow to be less annoying this time around i looked in the mirror and reviewed myself and said 'bitch shut up you fidgety bastard' #so HOPEFULLY i'll be less erratic #in any case. off to do that mini comic. i guess it's more of a warm up in my book #bye bye ill see yall in five. hours. #cause apparently thats how long it takes me to COLOR SHIT god forbid sketching and lining and kms #ok bye fr stay sexy

[mrs-kelly]

Heehee finally home! I got myself a fun little cupcake, and a beer, and a can of iced tea, and I’m ready to celebrate our two month anniversary 🥰❤️

#I grabbed what I thought we would have together to celebrate :3 #I wanna make today special you know!! #plus since things have evolved a lot between us we’re gonna renew our vows :3 #we got married so fast before I even really knew what we were gonna be like together! #I just knew in my heart I wanted him to be my husband so I did it! #but now I feel like we get each other even more and we love each other even more and I just… #I just wanna marry him again 🥰 that’s all ❤️ ahdjfl #I’ve been talking about it for a month and I’m doing it now ❤️ #that’s why I’m celebrating so much about it! ❤️ #plus he’s just so precious and special to me!! so I wanna make a big deal out of our milestones ❤️ #waaa I’m just! so excited 🥰❤️ #ren speaks #food ment tw #renlie #alcohol ment tw