#note to self hmhmm

[koreofitall]

His Plight

I've finally been back on a writing kick as of late and am very grateful (it also helps when I have a current fixation hehe) This may or may not be a self-insert with a certain dragon sovereign, but I left it pretty anonymous so as to grant space for interpretation, both for myself and whoever may read.

Lately, I've also felt drawn to a format of writing that is pretty long vertically, so I'll include the piece under the cut. Enjoy 🖤

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We’re sitting in his office

Working to ourselves

I’m on the couch reviewing my documents

He’s behind his desk

Reviewing trials for the following days

And sniffling up a storm

Handkerchief in hand

Eyebrows scrunched ever so slightly

And on the verge

I’m stealing glances every now and then

Unable to take my eyes off of him

He’s so beautiful

And currently at the mercy of the inevitable

He pardons himself

Quickly inhales right at the tail end

And releases

One

Then another

And another

Soft as ever always, but with a subdued intensity

Ah, I see

My love, you don’t feel very good, do you?

A sigh

A sniffle or three

Right into his handkerchief

I look over

And watch his eyebrows relax

Excuse me.

Spoken with a low, stuffed grovel

I chuckle

Bless you.

He looks over, flushed

But chuckles, too

Thank you, love.

My love. Hmhmm.

I want to dote on him

The ever so studious Iudex

At the mercy of his human-like body

What an endearingly mighty specimen

I’m overrun with heavy emotion

The most carnal need

But the most caring delivery

I stand from my seat

Walk over to him

Reach out

And start with a featherlight stroke to his hair

Then caress the tip of his ear between my fingers

He leans into the touch and faces me

Oh my

I swear to everything

This man is the treasure of treasures

I have never seen one such as him

His mesmerizing eyes

The color of lilac flames

And booming with an intensity only he can bring

His lashes

The color of amsonia

That accentuate his gaze like no other 

He challenges the beauty of Aphrodite

And wins

My love.

I grasp his face in my hands

Caress his cheeks and the back of his neck

He grabs my wrists and leans his head into my right hand

And I hold him

Really noticing his current state

The smallest crease in his brow

The slightest of red tinges to the bridge of his nose

And the dampness of his eyes

My love

I lean down to kiss his cheek

Then his forehead

And he melts

Closes his eyes

Gives a sigh

And sits there in the oasis of my touch

Bliss in the mix of his current discomfort

Oh, my poor love

I keep my lips on his forehead

And take note

He’s warmer than he usually is

He sniffles

And I move away to take another look at him

Oh, I feel like crying

My angel

Dearest.

Is there anything I can do for you?

He shakes his head, his eyes narrowing

A sight I’m all too familiar with at this point

I release one hand and give him some space

Moving right beside him, my left hand still on the back of his neck

My right on his shoulder

Stroking my thumb against the base of his head to grant him some comfort

As he bends to the mercy of his current plight

He readies his handkerchief

Gives two soft inhales

And releases

One

Then another

And another

And another

Goodness.

I steady him

And let a beat go by

Hmm, that was one too many, love.

I tease, hearing him chuckle

Bless you. My dearest.

I give him space to recover, but he pulls me into an embrace instead

Wrapping his arms around my waist

He sniffles

And I hug his head close to my chest

Thank you, sweetness, I’m sorry for worrying you.

The grovel of his voice vibrates right at my heart

And we stay as we are for just a bit

Until he looks up at me with an expression I can only describe as beholden

This man, my days

If I were anything but flesh I’d melt into a puddle then and there

Come. Sit with me and rest. Properly.

#korewrites #this is a bit nerve wracking to post 😅 #debated on whether or not I would for a couple of days now #always our worst critics #anywho! #thank you for reading 🖤 #sneeze kink #sneeze scenario #(g/enshin incognito hehe) #also hate how spaced out tumblr makes this but oh well

[zu-is-here]

I have some ideas wandering my mind so time to share XD

Idea n°1 - Nightmare (fanon version so just corrupted noot and not evil guy killing noot) and Dream. Regular twins fight but without star sanses (Dream fights with temporary allies instead, just whoever is free and willing to help). And just for some reason, one day Dream lose memories of Nightmare. He just completly forget him. He never had a twin. It was his only memory lost however. And Nightmare is left trying desesperatly to get his brother back after pushing him away so many times before but nothing works... And Dream suddenly seem more powerfull as he's no longer trying to go easy on Nightmare.

Idea n°2 - Noot get corrupted and replaced by someone else as in canon. But the "evil guy" isn't that evil just desperate. They had been stuck for so long and when they finally saw an opportunity to be free, they took it without thinking much. It's only later, much later once they're quietly settled with their gang that they thinks back to what they did to Noot. They killed a child. A pretty innocent one . And it's hard to accept and forgive themself. Dream's hope that his brother is still inside crush him everytime a lil' more but how could they just go to Dream and say: "Hello there, I killed your brother a long while ago to steal his body. Can we stop fighting pretty please?"

-bulle

These— Both of them are really good!! (*ﾟ∀ﾟ*) Oh I can taste the angst potential... ♪ Thank you so much for sharing them, Blue! *^*

#note to self hmhmm #*twists the stylus* #idea #ask

[kiribakuhappiness]

How do you think Bakugou and Midoriya’s relationship (friendship?) would have been like if they hadn’t had their falling out? (I’ve seen a couple of fics explore this). And, on a separate note, now do you think things would have turned out if Bakugou and Kirishima had met when they were little?

Hmhmm, here's the thing about all of this. (A heads up; I tried so hard not to ramble but woah what a shocker, I fucking rambled because I am incapable of possessing the slightest shred of self control. Anyway...)

Sometimes I feel like the relationship that Bakugou and Midoriya share (in canon) is so fuddled and hard to decipher that everyone in the fandom has kinda adopted and morphed their own thoughts and interpretations on how they're meant to be portrayed. The reason that I'm prefacing this answer with this statement is because I don't want to offend anyone's personal attachment with the story or the characters, and that I'm very aware that talking about the relationship between Bakugou and Midoriya within the fandom can get... kinda tricky to navigate. These are all just my own thoughts, and if you disagree with me, I hope that won't dissuade you from at least seeing my point of view and understanding why I think about them the way that I do.

So. Bakugou and Midoriya. There's a lot to unpack there, and I think I'll start this off strong by admitting my first controversial (??) opinion but -

Bakugou and Midoriya never had a falling out.

They are literally just like that.

In the flashback scenes that we see within the story (I'm talking both manga and anime, mixed and mashed together, completely from memory so take it with a grain of salt but), yes, Bakugou and Midoriya used to hang out together when they were young. They've skipped rocks, and caught bugs, and played ball. But I don't think they were ever "best friends" or, quite frankly, even really "friends" to begin with at all.

Growing up, I lived in a pretty populated area just like Midoriya's neighborhood. Lots of apartment buildings, lots of nearby parks and harbors to explore, lots of other kids around. Since Bakugou and Midoriya have always gone to the same school (even when they were little babies) I can only infer that they live somewhat close to each other (despite the drastic differences in their housing situations, which happens. Well-to-do cul-de-sacs are generally only a few streets over from some of the more cramped apartment districts.)

As a kid, I would play with all of the other neighborhood kids and nearby school children nearly every single day. We'd walk into town together, play at the parks, ride the same tram systems, go to corner shops and get snacks, etc. But I wasn't really close with most of those kids, and I would hardly call any of them my friends.

We were acquittances by association - buddies by proximity - they lived there, and I lived there, and we saw each other a lot whether we wanted to or not, so we hung out. (Sidebar; that shit is so toxic ahaha - the WORST friendships I ever had were with those damn kids).

The reason that I think Bakugou and Midoriya have never been "the best of childhood friends who grew up having sleepovers together and then they had a falling out that ended their friendship and made their relationship strained like it is today" is because Bakugou has never acted like a friend to Midoriya. Bullying him and another kid in the park where I'm assuming they all played together because it's the NEIGHBORHOOD park, picking on Midoriya when he couldn't skip rocks at the harbor when they were all there with Bakugou's friends, Midoriya lagging behind in the corner shop, Bakugou being smug and even HAPPY at school when Midoriya was obviously so distraught after finding out that he was quirkless.

They were around each other by happenstance. They lived in the same district, went to the same schools, and that was about it. Midoriya wanted a friend, and Bakugou wanted someone to boss around, so they hung out sometimes. But Bakugou has never been nice to Midoriya, not even when they were kids, so I'm always a little confused about the "falling out" that people reference because, from what I've seen and how I've interpreted the text, there wasn't even a falling out that happened in the first place.

Bakugou was a bully. Midoriya was a lonely boy who wanted to have friends, and Bakugou’s confidence reminded him of All Might. Bakugou liked having someone around who he could ridicule in front of HIS friends, someone who was weak and small because that made him feel big and powerful, someone who was too nice to fight back, or too naïve to know that they were being made fun of or taken advantage of.

Bakugou has friends, they’re just not Midoriya. There are three boys (maybe four) who are shown consistently throughout the flashbacks hanging out with Bakugou all while growing up. He walks around school with them, they go into town together, they play at the arcade, they’re always huddled closer to each other with Midoriya standing a few paces away. 

I think a lot of the "childhood friends" stuff that circles around in the fandom comes from the idea that "Bakugou was a good kid, at one point, before his ego got inflated by his quirk" but the truth is that he just wasn't.

And I'm not saying that to start controversy or slander Bakugou or whatever else but it’s an observation that I’ve made about his character while reading because I've been there before. I've been that shitty ass kid. That kid with their proud nose held high because adults showered them with praise for being more advanced in their developmental stages and put them on a pedestal above all their other classmates. That kid who sneered at everyone else and didn't want to connect with any of them because what could these absolute Nobodies possibly have to offer that he couldn't have already gotten for himself since he is oh-so Great and Amazing.

I think the “falling out” in question is... what, Bakugou telling Midoriya to pitch himself off the roof, right? (Correct me if I’m wrong, or if there’s another moment that you were thinking of), but in my opinion, I don’t think that’s a falling out. That is literally just Bakugou saying what he thinks.

Midoriya was quirkless at that point - weak, sniveling, a nobody who wouldn’t amount to anything because the only way to ever amount to anything in Bakugou’s mind is by becoming the number one hero - so Bakugou probably truly believed that Midoriya ending his own life and hoping to come back with a better quirk in his next one was some kind of mercy being bestowed upon him.

Some “friendly advice” from the big bad wolf to the pathetic little sheep.

In a section of Midoriya’s notebook in the manga somewhere, he literally talks about wanting to hurt Bakugou (and that was before the whole “throw yourself off the roof” comment even happened if I remember right). He talked about how low the other boy makes him feel, how fed up he is with his holier-than-thou attitude, and how much he wishes that he had the strength to stand up to him and finally rock his shit.

I just don’t understand where everyone keeps seeing “childhood friends who had a falling out and now their relationship is strained” because their relationship has ALWAYS been like that.

It was only after they got called into the headmaster’s office at Aldera and were told that they had both gotten accepted into Yuuei - only after Midoriya had a quirk and started doing things for HIMSELF and taking matters into his own hands - that Bakugou’s perception of the defenseless little rodent that he had grown so used to towering over started to change, which led to his entire worldview being challenged and his own insecurities within himself to run rampant because how could he LOSE in a training exercise on the very first day of hero school to DEKU when HE was supposed to be THE BEST?

So, to make an entirely too long post shorter, I don’t think anything about their relationship would have changed when they were young because I don’t think that their relationship changed at all until they both got accepted into Yuuei High. To me, that was the true turning point in their relationship - THAT was when their usual status quo shifted and started to morph into something new.

I hope that makes sense. I really don’t mind the whole childhood friends thing that are found in bkdk fics (and even some krbk fics), or the idea that they were really close at one point but then Bakugou got his quirk and everything changed from there. I really don’t mind bkdk as a ship or anything like that, I just don’t see it for my own personal enjoyment.

As for how I think Bakugou and Kirishima’s relationship would be different if they had met when they were younger, hmm, I don’t know. I feel like it would make their dynamic a little rockier, if anything.

Kirishima already wasn’t a big fan of Bakugou when they first met. Kirishima was all like, “tch, get a load of this psychopath” - (pretty sure that’s a direct quote ;D) - and it was only after fighting alongside him and getting to know him better that Kirishima was able to determine that Bakugou wasn’t all that bad of a guy, and the only reason that Kirishima was able to make this distinction, in my opinion, is because he saw Bakugou when Bakugou was at his most vulnerable and self-conscious in his life (following the whole blow to his ego when Midoriya got into Yuuei and all of his spiraling self-doubt that transpired after it).

Kirishima, as we all know, has had more than his fair share of insecurities in the past. I think that’s why he’s so able to easily recognize Bakugou’s insecurities, even when the rest of their classmates might not know what the heck he’s talking about. And I think that it’s because of these insecurities that Kirishima decided that, hey, we’re all dealing with our own troubles - a guy like that could use a good friend (not a lackey, or a henchmen, or someone who will cackle at all of his rude jabs and taunting insults, but a true friend who will tell him when he’s being a bit much and who can help steer him in the right direction without inadvertently trying to change who he is as a person).

But if Kirishima met Bakugou when they were younger, there would be none of those insecurities around to bridge that connection between them. Bakugou was a bully, and we saw how chivalrous Kirishima was even in junior high (he wanted so badly to always stand up for what he believed was right), so I’m afraid to say it, but I actually think that if they met at any point before Yuuei, that Kirishima would have hated Bakugou the same way that he resents Monoma.

Oof. These answers weren’t the fun kind, and for that I apologize :,D I’m sure you were expecting some kind of fluff... just know that I do have really positive feelings about Bakugou and Midoriya in other aspects of their relationship, and that I do enjoy the fics of junior high Bakugou and Kirishima meeting and all of that.

These were just my unfiltered thoughts on these particular topics! x

#I'm afraid to even tag this post #I'm not going to tag any specific names or anything ahaha #I don't want the wrong people to see it and get upset #just know that these are all my own views #headcanons if you will #this probably also explains to some people why I haven't answered certain prompts or asks #in regards to the gremlin and the broccoli #but I hope this all made sense #thanks anon for the ask! #bnha #asks

[horrible-monstrosity]

So how the fuck does the toe thing work? Macademia here is of course astoundingly far from the first series to pull out some nonsensical "evolutionary levels" thing in explaining its plot driver, but the particular way it's implemented just make it so, so much worse. So the toe joint missing is a sign of, effectively, the "next evolutionary level", as the body "streamlines" itself, and also it goes hand-in-hand with having a quirk (though we don't know if that's a 100% thing or just a very strong correlation). But with two such "evolved" parents, both having quirks and presumably supertoes, it's still possible for the kid to have the old toes (and no quirk). So Midoriya has... devolved? What? Really, if they had skipped the evolutionary-streamlining thing and just had it be an arbitrary indicator, it would have worked fine, but this is... complete nonsense.

hero ep 4 would be nice if dek did something actually smart when he was behind the others at the start instead of just running blindly behind them. even just splitting off in a different direction so he wouldn't be competing against absolutely everyone for targets or sumtin. "nothing is nobler... than SELF-SACRIFICE!" showing Deku not only with multiple decimated limbs fucking flailing in the wind like windsocks but with the fucking skin on his knuckles removed, exposing shredded raw red flesh... this is disturbing to me. How old is this kid again? Like, 13? So fucking noble Seriously, this entire plot is just somehow... brainless. Deku and AM never, at all, tried out the powers, even though not doing so puts Deku at a massive disadvantage by not knowing what he can do (leaving him paralyzed by nervousness since he's still in the mindset of being powerless... he'd likely still be a bag of nerves but it would be at least mitigated somewhat) and also not knowing what the results would be. But at the same time, for not knowing that one jump and one punch would destroy his fuckijg bones, he sure takes it damn well when it hits him. Hell he gets to be the most analytical and observant he's been so far (that is, at all) aside from what's implied by the notebooks, realizing he can save himself by breaking the other arm. He should try breaking a limb before every battle from now on, it seems to make him smarter. Also how much contrivance did this scenario take? Not only does no one else go for the big bot- even if it's zero points you'd expect some of them to want to show off- no one notices floatgril under the debris. Either that or none of them except Deku would save a bystander, which seems... please, no. And then, however stupid it was for Deky to have never used his powers until now, the only reason him not breaking multiple fucking limbs doing this isn't immediately deeply horrifying is that the kissy lady is there to magucally heal him. (Now it's just deeply horrifying if you actually stop to think about it.) Man, imagine how long this series would've been if there hadn't been a magically contrived way to get out of that actual consequences, lol. Or imagine if he'd had a reasonably realistic reaction to it. This shit's fucked. And then his mom... does she know he went to the UA admissions test? Does she know what happened there? If she knows he went shouldn't she have been expecting he'd have to do hero things and should have had the crap beaten out of him trying? What did he even tell her happened? What would even be on the written exam for this sort of a school, anyway? Would Deku's previous hero observation stuff have helped him at all? You'd think it would... No, really, a hero school should teach them about and require them to know things about how profession heroes do their thing, and what scenarios they could run into, and shit. But instead it's some vague unspecified nothing and he barely passes. ok

episode 5 i guess i lost track of what's what in my notes The teachers all go on about "hMhMm iT'S lIkE He cAn'T cOnTRoL hIS pOwErSS" but no one thinks to, like, I dunno, take him aside and give him some heroic special ed, maybe figure out what the fuck's wrong with him or something. It's not like it wouldn't be worth the effort- he's shown he has massive power he just can't control, and everyone there knows he has the perfect hero attitude. He's a fucking asset, but... naw, just sit by dumbly and let him keep breaking every bones. What would even be the cover story if that happened? Does the rest of the faculty know how AM's quirk works, or would they have to come up with some convenient lie (and how's AM dealing with being a teacher with the time limit on his powers, anyway)? It wouldn't even be hard to come up with some simple story, and it would probably make things easier if someone got suspicious- just like "he never realized he had a quirk because it takes such a high level of (whatever) to activate it, and that is also why he has so very little practice with it". Now you have a consistent, plausible story you can wave at people who get suspicious. Maybe be like, he first activated it 10 months ago or whenever, got injured, it's healed since then but he started training himself physically because that would help. Look, now it's literally the truth but with one thing swapped out, it'll be so easy to keep the story straight and at least part of it can be corroborated by anyone who saw him training during that time. I'm a fucking genius.

"you'll learn to master it" so when does he start learning how to not break bone- well, I already know the answer to that, in the second season at least he's still sacrificing his skeleton, now with new exciting moves like "breaking one finger bone per attack" and "break a broken bone a second time in the same fight, multiple times". What does improvement even look like here? What does training to control the power look like?

"you must be very perceptive" this isn't true, but it should be. Not in the way glasses guy thinks it is, that he slyly sought out the best way to pass the test by saving someone, but that he was writing notebooks full of hero analysis and shit.

i like how am's talking about how "oh don't cook your egg-powers too fast, that's the key to control!" but I aaaaalready know beku's just going to break his fingers instead, forever

"uh how's throwing a ball to infifinity possibible??" you literally just fucking saw how she just floated it out of the fucking atmosphere you dumb fucks

"someone like you should never be allowed to enroll in this school"... but wouldn't it be better for him to be somewhere he can learn to control his shit? "hurr ur not reddy" well where and when the fuck is he supposed to get ready? this is a school, we're not already on the battlefield you fuck. kid shoulda broken his middle finger instead and then flipped him off what did waiting til the last second even accomplish? his finger's still fucking borken. is it somehow less broken than it would be otherwise? If you're going to bother with something like that, why not have it have an actual impact, like this time it's only severe bruising? Like, have Midi make actual progress with controlling his powers? No? Okay... - had to fight through the pain- what, they didn't call the medic over a broken fucking finger? and after all that shit he didn't even use his powers again, not even on the last test. I thought the entire point was rationing your powers so you could use it more often in smaller bursts... and then he gets last place, so doing it meant nothing anyway. fucking good more contrivances, the teacher known for expelling first-years didn't expel anyone because deku is just that cursed. I can't even call it plot armor, because that implies the plot is going out of its way to make things better for the hero, not worse. healing takes energy, but last time when he broke three limbs it was fuckijg fine. ha ha don queston it

I know, heroics is sacrifice n shiet, but we're just watching a kid destroy himself over and over again to literally no gain. It's not like he's helping anyone by doing this, and there's no sign he's even improving himself with this either. This isn't herosim, it's just torture. Isn't a part of heroics supposed to be keeping yourself alive and healthy enough that you can actually do things? What would AM do if, because of his tendency to waste his now-limited hero power on pointless shit, once a serious battle came up he tried to stop it and got himself killed? Well, he'd die, but what would he think of the fact that he failed because he put his own health dead last? Does All Might have any loved ones who might be upset by his death? Did the author think any single aspect of this story through at all?

Also, if the point of learning to control his power is to stop breking bones every time he uses it... training and fighting normally while in this state is not only pointlessly painful but just plain pointless, because when he can control it he won't be strategizing around strategic skeleton use anymore- using it will be completely different. The entire fucking plot of this show is centered around this and there's no sane reason for it. Just... stop. This is so stupid...

#macademia